{Still Lexie's POV}
I wish my story could just end now. Just me, here, all alone on a holiday. Sure no one would buy it but at least it'd all be over. But then again, at the same time, I wish this story would never end.
I sighed, just make up your mind Lexie, do you wanna go on or not?
I don't know. I mean for one I wanted it to stop so I would get heartbroken like before and I wouldn't have to see everyone changes and die. I liked how this story was going so far and I didn't want anything in this perfect story to end. But then again, I want to see the change I could g through, I wanted to see some character development.
I wanted to see the future yet I was scared of it. Ha. Kana would make fun of me forever if I told her this. Speaking of Kana. I stood and walked to my suite=case that I didn't bother unpacking last night. I put my hand in and dug around blindly for what I was looking for.
Bingo!
I pulled my hand out to reveal my diary, yes I own a diary har har I'm laughing so hard tears are coming out. I know it's childish to have on but I like having a place where I can write down everything so I don't forget okay? Geez. How much do you want to bet that you tried to own one before but were too lazy to actually go on with it after the first cringy entry?
I opened the lock with the key that came with it, it was a small necklace I've had for a while alone with the photo of someone I loved before Dan, and before Kana.
I smiled to myself remembering him. His smile, his eyes, the way he looked at me like I was a goddess even when I wore sweats. I opened the diary with a smile and read all of what I wrote for the millionth time. I had all these logs memorized but I liked to read them anyways. It was fun.
I noticed that on top of every page in the beginning of this diary (yes I have much, much more) I had the letters B.K. on top and then at some point, they turned into A.K. I knew what those letters meant. Before Kana and After Kana.
I went to Before Kana, one entry before the first After Kana. It read:
Today was just the usual future me. Ash and Mel talking about our new roommate, two guys came in to put in the new girl's bed and I didn't know why but Ash seems a little on edge about her. She says she has met her but she won't reveal any more. Is she mean or something? I don't know. Take to you later future me.
I always ended my entries like that. 'Talk to you later future me'. I smiled remembering my last day of peace and quiet before tornado Kana came in. This next one is the A.K.
I can't believe this new roommate of ours! She's so rude! I mean Ash walked up to her after she got all her stuff unpacked and she f-ing snapped at Ash telling her to 'p!ss off' I mean who does she think she is the ruler of the whole f-ing world? She can't just snap at Ash like that! I know I'm being overdramatic but still, I'll give her a chance fine but just one!
I gave her more than just one chance. This is the point in my story where I stopped ending my entries with 'Talk to you later future me' no it was always 'I'll give her one more chance!'. I went on day by day writing everything about Kana. It had been so long till I finally warmed up to her.
Before I warmed up to her I commented on everything she did. Even her appearance. I always wrote of course 'I know I'm being rude but she's ten times ruder and doesn't even fix her bed head in the morning'.
I wrote a whole page about how she looked like before. Dark thick black bags under her eyes that made her look like she only sleeps 2 hours every night. Her scruffy disheveled hair that she never combed even though everyone would just stare at the rat's nest she had. Her skin was pale back then, very, very, very, VERY, pale. It was so pale it was like staring at a living sheet of white printer paper.
I also commented, when we had the same locker row, about the scars she had on her body. One day I was changing and asked around if anyone had an elastic for a ponytail and no one had one till I heard a gruff "Here," and I looked over just as surprised as everyone else to see Kana Kane(what we called her before we knew her last name) with her shirt off and hair finally combed holding out her pale hand to me.
In the palm of her hand, she held a black elastic.
I blinked, first of all, I was confused as to why she even had one in the first place till I remembered how long her hair was. It was close to her shoulders and she'd put it up in a small ponytail so it wouldn't get in her way when we trained.
She glared at me with her cold golden-brown eyes(mainly gold) that sent a shiver down my spine. "Well, do you want it or not? Or were you just asking so you could annoy people?" She snapped and I blinked out of my daze.
"Uh, um, yes...thank you, Kana." I took the elastic but not before noticing all the scars on her body. Clearly, she has never gone to a hospital before or she just chooses not to because she had a scary amount of cuts on her body. The skin on those said cuts was a shade greyer than the rest of her.
She had scars running along her arms, some on her sides, one terrifyingly large on that left an indent on her back and many, many more all over her torso and legs. What did she do before Gallagher? Jump off of cliffs for fun? Wrestle bears and other large, teeth-y, sharped clawed animals? Get into knife fights?
She caught me staring and I heard a low growl of anger rumbler though her.
"What?" She snapped bring everyone in our row's eyes to her. I shook my head looking away. "Nothing." She grumbled a few curse words (most of them I didn't even know existed) and threw her shirt on and walked off.
That day in P.E. we sparred against each other and Kana seemed to take it extra hard on me. I mean she was always rough and fought dirty using street fight tricks and such but today she was actually trying. Which terrified me. I grunted as I blocked another unnecessarily hard blow.
"Mind taking it down a notch?" I pleaded quietly then she snapped back. "What? Can't handle it sap?" Sap? Like what a tree makes? I looked at her in the eyes, something only those who crave death do and begged once more. "Please, I won't bother you again I swear." I kept that promise of course. She shook her head stubborn and nearly kicked the life out of me.
I got looks of pity from my fellow classmates and since the teacher was busy talking to another no one was there to save me.
"Please, please, what did I do wrong anyways?" What did I do wrong? I always stayed out of her way, I never asked her for anything, not her name, not for an elastic, nothing. I let her be the cold and distant girl she wanted to be. Why suddenly take her rage out on me?
"Nothing, I'm just teaching you some..." She prepared another kick, I don't think I could survive one more of those, she kicks like a horse. "Manners!" The kick was sent my way and I accepted my fate till I realized she was talking about her scars when she caught me staring at them.
Quickly I placed my hands in front of me quaking with fear. Her leg actually stopped an inch before my hands. I could feel the small wind she created doing such a strong kick so quickly. There was nothing but silence in the barn. Slowly she lowered her leg and glared at me marching closer so we were barely inches apart.
She grabbed me by the collar of my shirt and lifted me up so my eyes wouldn't meet with her shoulder but her cold-heartless gaze.
"If I ever, and let me repeat myself once, EVER catch you looking at me like I'm some roadside freak show I won't pause the fight. Am. I. Clear?" I nodded and she let go letting me fall to the ground on my butt.
I watched her as she walked back into the crowd of kids and they moved out of her way not even looking at her fearing that they'd be her next victim if they did.
She leaned against one of the pillars holding the barn up and chilled ignoring everyone and everything. I got up and walked over to Ash and Mel in a daze.
A few nights after that I saw a different side of Kana. Sure at this point, she actually studied and struggled in her classes. She'd stay up very late and woke up early to do a morning jog. I had to skip mine ever since the elastic incident just to stay out of her way even more. God knows what she might do to me if we were there near the woods alone.
She'd probably turn me into her personal punching bag! I missed my runs and it bugged me that she'd stay up very late because she'd leave the light on instead of using a desk lamp or going to the library. So I'd have to sleep with the light on and this bugged not only me but Ash and Mel too. We said nothing because Mel thought it was a good thing she was finally getting serious about her studies and Ash agreed so I was outvoted.
Soon she started thinking we just got used to it because she'd mumble to herself a lot about easy problems we shouldn't be hearing her complain about at 11 in the night.
