A/N: Thanks for all the awesome reviews for the last chapter. I will give my thank you's more fully at the end of the chapter.
On a personal note, I want to dedicate this chapter to the late, great Michael Jackson, who's death has devastated me this weekend. Michael's music was such an important part of my life, particularly as a teenager in the 80's, seeing me through good times and bad. His death is like my last link to that time has gone and it's still hard to believe.
Listening to his music this weekend I realised I could have been writing about one of his songs, "She's Out of My Life".
And I learned that love's not possession
And I learned that love won't wait
Now I know that love needs expression
But I learned too late
And she's out of my life
RIP Michael – I'll miss you.
Chapter 28
They woke up early, and ordered breakfast to be brought up to the suite. Jasper couldn't keep his hands off her, constantly touching her, caressing her cheek, kissing her sweetly. Alice's heart swelled with love at these gestures of affection.
It was if, after eight years, all those feelings he'd withheld had broken free of their shackles, and were clamouring to make themselves known. Jasper's beautiful blue eyes were full of joy and he couldn't stop smiling.
After breakfast they showered together, which lasted quite a while as they were overcome with love and lust, neither able to resist the lure of each other's slick body.
When they finally emerged, Jasper took the soft towel off Alice and dried her skin, kissing each spot as he worked. Alice's breathing was decidedly shaky as desire flooded through her again.
Jasper lifted his head and looked at her. "Let's go up to the mountains," he suggested. "It's a nice day and I want to go to our special place."
"On the bike?" asked Alice, loving the idea. Jasper nodded.
Readily agreeing, they quickly got dressed and packed up Alice's gear. He took it out to her car while Alice returned the key card, frowning as he realised they would have to drive back into town in separate cars. He didn't want to be separated from Alice for even a moment but it looked like they wouldn't have a choice.
Alice bounded out to the car and threw her arms around him, laughing. Jasper smiled and leaned down to kiss her. "I love you," he murmured against her lips.
"I love you more," replied Alice.
"Impossible," declared Jasper. He looked at her car as he spoke. "Unfortunately we'll have to follow each other home."
Home. Alice thrilled at the word. Yes, she was home. Home was Jasper and she never wanted to leave again.
Declaring there was nothing for it, they drove in their separate cars back to Jasper's apartment. As they entered, Alice felt tears spring to her eyes again. She was so happy to be back here, with her beloved Jasper that she grabbed him and pulled him down, kissing him fiercely. Jasper responded instantly, pulling her body tight against his, letting her feel his desire for her with a soft moan.
"I think I've changed my mind," he groaned against her lips as she ground her hips into his growing bulge. "I just want to take you to bed."
"No way, mister!" teased Alice. "You promised me a bike ride and you're going to deliver."
Giving a mock groan, Jasper pulled away from temptation. "Come on then, let's get changed and we'll head off."
Gripping him tightly around the waist, Alice watched the city pass by as they rode out towards the mountains. As they rode upwards, she could see the mountains with their snow capped tops getting closer. Though it was cooler than the last time they'd been here, Alice didn't notice.
They turned onto the track and it wasn't long before they emerged in their clearing. Turning off the engine, Jasper turned around to lift Alice off the bike and help her off with her helmet.
"Wow, it's even more beautiful than I remembered," breathed Alice, looking up at the majestic mountains, standing like sentinels over their special place. There was more snow on them than before, their reflections shimmering on the glass-like water of the lake.
"It could never compare to you," said Jasper, looking at Alice with utter devotion in his eyes.
They looked at each other in silence, their eyes speaking volumes. After what seemed like ages, Jasper grabbed the blanket from the storage compartment and took Alice's hand in his, leading her to a spot in the sun, where he spread it out for them. He sat down and pulled Alice to sit down between his legs. Alice rested back against his chest, his arms wrapped tightly around her.
They sat quietly for a while, neither wanting to speak. The tranquillity of the location was tailor made for contemplation. They were both giving thanks to the heavens for the fact that they were together again, madly in love and looking forward to their future. Every now and then, Jasper would plant a soft kiss on Alice's hair, her eyes closing in pleasure.
Jasper was the first to break into the tranquillity of the scene. "Alice?"
"Hmm?" she replied, too comfortable to move.
"Would you move in with me? Permanently, I mean."
Alice smiled. "Are you sure? You don't want your own space?"
Kissing her hair, Jasper shook his head. "No. I want to be with you. I don't want to spend another night away from you. I can't sleep without you next to me. Last night was the first night I've slept well since you left," he admitted.
Alice sighed. "Me too. And I don't want to sleep without you either. Of course I'll move in with you. I'll rent out my apartment."
"We can live in yours if you prefer," suggested Jasper, not wanting her to think she had to move into his apartment. "I don't care, either way, as long as I'm with you."
Alice shook her head. "Your apartment's bigger. As long as you don't mind if I add some feminine touches? It's a pretty masculine apartment, you know?" she smiled.
"Do whatever you want. I know you'll make it look wonderful,"
"Are you ready for the mess? I only had some of my things at your place before, are you ready for the onslaught?" said Alice, half jokingly.
Jasper laughed. "Oh, I'm sure it'll drive me crazy, but I'll cope."
Alice turned her head to kiss him. "When should I move in?" she asked.
"Straight away of course," he stated, before thinking about what he'd said. "Actually, we'll probably have to do it properly over the week, but we can go over tonight so you can grab some things you need tonight, ok?"
Alice nodded in agreement. "I'm looking forward to living with you. Properly, I mean," she admitted.
"Me too," said Jasper. "I missed you so much. Everywhere I looked, I remembered something about you."
"Oh Jazz," she sighed. "I know exactly what you mean. Everything reminded me of you. I was so miserable."
"Oh my love," whispered Jasper, his arms tightening around her. "I'm so sorry I put you through that. I loved you all along, I just couldn't admit it to myself. When you left, you took all the colour with you. My world was just grey and dull without you. I was miserable too."
"Do you still hate Maria?" asked Alice.
Jasper was silent for a moment before answering. "No. These last two weeks have taught me that I can't keep holding on to the past, in any way. All my anger and bitterness did was to make my life miserable and it nearly destroyed something wonderful. Maria's gone, and though she hurt me so badly, I'm still alive and I have to live my life. I've suffered enough and I've made you suffer enough too."
"I'm glad."
"I was working my way through my issues when James attacked you," said Jasper, tightening his arms around her, the fear he felt for her still vivid.
Alice shuddered at the thought. "God that was horrible. I'm so glad he's behind bars." She told him about his other crimes.
"Jesus, Alice! He could have done the same thing to you. Why didn't you tell me he was following you around?" demanded Jasper.
"Because I knew you would react badly," said Alice.
"Badly! Of course I would have reacted badly. He was following and scaring my girl. What did you expect I would do? Sit and wring my hands?" he asked.
"And what do you think would have happened if you'd attacked a student? He hadn't done anything wrong at that point, not legally anyway. How would you explain that without exposing our relationship? No, I thought he would eventually get bored and leave me alone. I didn't know he was a rapist, did I?" huffed Alice.
"Hmm. If anything like that ever happens again, you're going to tell me straight away, all right?" demanded Jasper. Alice nodded.
"Still, in a way, it was his attack that gave me the kick up the butt that I needed," mused Jasper.
"How so?"
"After you left, I was so miserable, as you know, but a part of me was telling myself that it was what I deserved, that I had been right all along. I argued with myself constantly that I needed to get you back somehow. I'd like to think that I would have come to my senses eventually. But it might have taken longer and by then you may have moved on."
Alice shook her head. "I doubt I would have moved on anytime soon, no matter what I said."
"But when he attacked you, it seemed to crystallise everything in my mind. I had visions of you hurt or worse, and it hit me hard that I might never see you again. That I was wasting my future by using the past to protect myself. I realised that I trust you, that you'd never shown me anything but love, that I could take the risk of loving you knowing that you'd never deliberately want to hurt me," said Jasper.
"Never, my love," confirmed Alice, twisting her body in his arms so she could look into his eyes.
Jasper smiled and gave her a lingering kiss. "I know. I want to spend my future with you."
"Why didn't you say anything before the wedding then?" asked Alice. "I wish you'd been with me."
"I'm sorry. Even though my epiphany came to me after James' attack, it still took me a while to work through the past. After eight years, it wasn't easy to break what had effectively become a habit. I struggled, but I always had your face in my mind to keep going when I wavered. I didn't come to the wedding because I didn't want to upset Bella and Edward on their wedding day. I didn't know if they would forgive me for hurting you. You're lucky your friends are so loyal"
"They're your friends too, Jasper. Yes they were upset because I was so hurt, but once they know why, they'll forgive you. Especially when they see how happy I am now," claimed Alice. "Is it all right to tell them?"
Jasper sighed. "Yes, it's ok. The more it's spoken of, the less power it'll have. And I want them to forgive me. I like them."
They were silent for a while before Jasper spoke again. "Alice? Will you tell me what your dream was about? The one you had when Rosalie was here? I know you deliberately kept the details from me then."
Alice remembered that horrible dream. "It was about us. I found you and our children and I was so happy. Then in an instant, your face changed and you took our children away, telling me that you'd never loved me." Her voice trailed off as she remembered how she felt.
"I'm sorry baby," said Jasper. "It symbolised your doubts then, didn't it?"
"Yeah. It was my fear that you would never love me."
"I do love you. It took me a while, but I love you more than anything in this world. I couldn't live without you now," said Jasper, kissing her reassuringly. "And one day, when we're ready, and if you'll agree, I want to marry you."
Alice's breath caught in her throat and her heart began racing. "Do you mean that?"
"Of course I do. But I want to ask you properly. I didn't know if you'd take me back yesterday," he pointed out, smiling.
"What would you have done if I didn't forgive you?" asked Alice curiously.
Jasper grimaced. "I was expecting it, to tell the truth," he admitted. "After bawling my eyes out like a baby, I would have set about winning you back somehow. If necessary, I would have begged, probably."
"Aw damn. Now I won't know what you would have done to convince me to give you another chance," pouted Alice.
Jasper chuckled. "Oh, I can still show you, my love," he said huskily, his hands beginning to rub gentle circles on her waist.
"Mmm, good. Sounds like fun," said Alice, her heart beat getting faster. Before she gave herself over to these feelings, she needed to know something. Putting her hand over his, she brought his wanderings to a halt.
"Jazz. Do you ever want children?" she asked, holding her breath.
Jasper looked into her green eyes, needing to allay her doubts. "Alice, I want you to be the mother of our children. I know they wouldn't have a better mother than you, that you would love our children with all the love your precious heart holds. I don't know when, but we will have children one day. I wouldn't want children with anyone else. I swear it's true," he promised.
Alice felt her eyes water. She had been so afraid that he wouldn't want a child after Maria's treachery. But his eyes held such sincerity that she just couldn't doubt him. With a small cry, she threw her arms around his neck and kissed him, pouring all the love she felt into it.
Jasper groaned and kissed her back just as urgently. Their lips moved sensually against each other, silky skin gliding on silky skin. Jasper sipped at her lips like a man sipping the finest wine, taking her bottom lip between his, running his tongue back and forth over the plump softness. He released it in order to seek entry into the sweetness of her mouth. Alice opened her mouth, delighting in suckling his tongue.
Meanwhile their hands were roaming over each other's bodies. Jasper found the zip on her jacket and pulled it down enough to be able to put his hands inside. He groaned against her mouth as he discovered that she hadn't put on a bra.
"God baby, I'm glad I didn't know you weren't wearing anything under your jacket," he murmured, his lips moving to suckle on her ear lobe.
"I was going to tell you but I didn't want to distract you while you were driving," sighed Alice, feeling her core start to throb at the twin pleasures of his lips nibbling on her throat and his fingers massaging her bare breasts.
"Mmm, I'm glad. We probably would have had an accident," he smiled, continuing his exploration down her throat.
Alice took off Jasper's jacket, Jasper leaving her skin with a groan of protest as she pulled off his t-shirt. He instantly went back to what he was doing, his hands rolling and pinching her nipples, her breathing becoming erratic.
His mouth encountered her jacket, so he pulled it totally off her, leaving her bare from the waist. He gazed at the perfection of her body, marvelling again at being given this second chance to love her. Alice shivered slightly as the cool air hit her overheated skin, so Jasper wrapped his arms around her pulling her against his heated skin.
Alice gasped as her nipples pressed against the smooth skin of his sculpted chest, his body instantly warming her. Their mouths met again and their tongues duelled as she began wriggling on his lap, Jasper moaning into her mouth as his erection strained against his leather trousers.
Pushing her back gently onto the blanket, Jasper leaned over her, gazing into her glowing eyes, taking in her kiss-swollen lips.
"God, I love you," he whispered and bent to her breasts. Taking one breast in his large hand, he massaged it gently, preparing it for his lips. He delicately licked the nipple before blowing softly on it, watching in pleasure as it peaked even harder. "Your breasts are perfection," he mumbled before taking it in his mouth, suckling on it gently, then harder as Alice's gasps got louder.
"Jazz! Oh god, that feels good," moaned Alice, reaching for his hair and tangling her fingers in his wild mane, pulling him even closer. "I love you too, Jazz."
Moving to the other breast, he lavished his attention on it, his other hand roaming down her stomach, caressing the skin there. Alice's hand reach for Jasper's chest, tracing the outline of his muscles, rolling his nipple with her finger. Unable to help herself, her hand reached for the bulge in his crotch, marvelling at how hard she could make him. Jasper pressed against her hand, seeking relief from the ache.
Pushing against his chest, Jasper offered no resistance as she sat up and pushed him back into the blanket, rolling over him to straddle his waist. Jasper groaned as her pert breasts bounced above him, his fingers reaching for her.
Evading his hands, Alice bent down and began kissing and licking her way down his body until she reached the waistband of his trousers. Smiling sensuously up at him, she unsnapped his button and pulled down the zip. She reached in and grabbed his erect member, squeezing tightly through the material of his boxers.
"Oh baby," gasped Jasper. His hips bucked as she ran her hand up and down his length. His hands moved down to push his trousers off impatiently, Alice helping with the task. As his cock sprung free, she licked her lips in anticipation of taking his length in her mouth. Pulling off the remainder of his clothing, she moved down between his legs, kissing and licking the skin on his hips and moving down to his thighs. He groaned loudly as she pushed his legs apart and nibbled on the sensitive skin of his inner thigh, moving over to the other one, not touching his throbbing cock for the moment.
"God baby, please," he begged. "Touch me."
Answering his plea, she grabbed him tightly, stroking up and down the length of him, squeezing as she went. With her other hand, she rubbed his tip, smearing the liquid there over the head of his cock. Jasper's hips were rolling, his breathing erratic as he watched her play with him.
"Do you want me to lick you? Suck you?" asked Alice huskily, already knowing the answer.
"Fuck yes! I love your mouth on me, baby," groaned Jasper, looking intently at her mouth, so close to his tip.
Smiling, Alice delicately licked his tip, twirling her tongue around the head, enjoying his musky taste. Jasper moaned, his hands fisting on the blanket beneath him. Alice began licking down the length of him, while her hand caressed his balls. She gave him another few squeezes and then covered him with her mouth, taking as much of him into her mouth as she could.
Jaspers hands wound themselves in her hair as she began bobbing up and down, sucking and squeezing at the same time, building a steady rhythm. Jasper's moaning was continuous now, his hips bucking up and down.
"Fuuuckk! Shit, I'm gonna come, baby!" warned Jasper, barely able to squeeze the words out.
Alice could feel the gush of liquid in her pussy as he spoke. She was incredibly turned on, having Jasper at her mercy beneath her. She could have tortured him for longer, get a bit of revenge, but enjoyed watching him lose control too much to make him wait.
With her teeth, she gently nibbled on him before sucking on him fiercely, rubbing the rest of his cock sensually.
"Aaahhh....I'm coming!" yelled Jasper, his voice echoing in the clearing. His cock stiffened even further before his semen gushed into her mouth. Alice swallowed it all and kept sucking him, until there was nothing left.
Jasper lay back on the blanket, his breathing coming in short gasps, his cock still twitching as Alice sat up and watched him in satisfaction. She felt the thrill run through her at making this huge, gorgeous man as helpless as a baby.
Taking a moment to recover his breath, Jasper pulled her down on top of him and kissed her fiercely.
"God, you make me feel good," he declared, a trifle breathlessly.
"Mmm, that's good," smiled Alice, delicately licking her lips. Jasper's eyes darkened at the action and he felt himself stir again.
Running his hands down her back, he pushed his hands into the waistband of her trousers. "You're way too overdressed, my love," he murmured into her throat.
"Well then, you'll have to remedy that, won't you?" she teased. With a small yelp, she found herself on her back, his lips at her navel. With impatient hands, he undid her trousers and pulled them off her, stopping to gaze at her soaked panties.
"I see you have a bit of a problem. Anything I can help with?" he asked in mock innocence.
"Maybe," she replied. "What are you proposing?"
"Mmm? How about this?" he asked huskily, his hand reaching out to rub her through her wet panties. As Alice's breathing got faster, his hand rubbed harder.
"Oh yes, that feels good," breathed Alice.
Flicking aside the elastic, he reached inside her pants to rub his finger along her slick pussy, rolling her nub over and over. Alice moaned and rolled her hips, trying to get more friction.
Watching her face the whole time, Jasper slowly dipped one finger into her, then another and began thrusting into her. He also began pinching her nipple with his other hand.
"Oh god!" moaned Alice as she came over his hand, the liquid covering his fingers, her breathing coming in short spurts.
Jasper smiled and withdrew his fingers, licking each one, loving the taste of her. He needed more. He pulled her pants right off her, leaving her naked below him. He sat her up and lay down himself.
"I want you above me, baby," he begged.
Finding no argument with that, Alice straddled his chest and moved up further until she was over his mouth. Jasper inhaled deeply of her scent, knowing he'd never get enough of it. Grabbing her hips in his hands, he lower her onto his mouth, loving the sound of her gasp of pleasure as his tongue swept over her sex.
With the tip of his tongue, he opened her up, licking her up and down before pressing the tip of his tongue into her. Alice moaned and bucked her hips. He thrust a few times then moved up to her clit. He circled her swollen nub over and over, flicking it on occasion. He could feel it getting harder as he stimulated it, Alice's moans and panting a good indicator of how much she was enjoying his ministrations.
When his teeth grazed her clit, Alice groaned loudly. "I'm gonna come any second now, Jazz!" as she bucked her hips frantically, trying to ease the ache.
At her words, Jasper lifted her up and moved her down to where his aching cock was waiting for her. Alice sat up on her knees and reached down to take his rigid cock in her hand. Looking into his desire-darkened eyes, she squeezed him a couple of times, enjoying his reaction then rubbed his tip over her drenched pussy, her juices trickling down on his shaft.
"I love you," she whispered as she lowered herself down on him, his cock stretching her, making her orgasm as she took him all the way in.
"I love you too. So much," groaned Jasper as his cock was encased in her tightness. He could feel her walls clamp down on him as she came and he had to bite his lip to keep from spilling himself into her so soon. She was so hot and tight, it felt like heaven.
Resting her hands on his chest, Alice began bucking up and down on him, his hands on her arse guiding her movements. She was so full of him and her overstimulated clit was still throbbing from her orgasm, and she could feel the tension build again.
"I love being inside you, baby," he muttered.
"Oh god, you feel so good inside me," she replied, hardly able to get a word out.
They rocked together, slowly at first but picking up speed as the tension wound, tighter and tighter. The only sounds in the clearing were their moans and grunts, as they ground against each other.
As Alice could feel herself nearing her peak, Jasper rolled her beneath him and lifted one of her legs onto his shoulder, the other wrapped around his waist. This angle brought him even deeper into her.
"Ready, baby?" he grunted. Alice could only nod.
Jasper began thrusting into her, getting faster as their orgasms neared. They could hear the crash of their bodies as he pounded into her. His cock was so deep inside her, she could feel it stroke her womb.
"Oohh.....uunngghh!" moaned Alice, her whole body moving as he pumped into her. "Harder. Fuck me harder!"
"Yes! Oh god, yes!" he grunted, his movements frantic now.
Faster, harder he thrust until, with a low keening sound, Alice's orgasm crashed over her. Her back arched and she pulled her leg down from his shoulder to wrap it tightly around his waist, pulling him in as deeply as was humanly possible, into her body. She flung her head back as sensation after sensation flowed through her body, almost making her lightheaded from the intensity.
Already close to breaking point, the feel of her clamping around his already straining cock was enough to send him into oblivion. He shouted out her name as her walls milked him of his semen, the pleasure seemingly never ending.
He continued pumping into her long after his orgasm subsided, needing to stay in her body for the moment. His brain was seemingly disconnected from his body, only the feel of her below him registering.
Neither spoke for a long while, both knowing that their joining had almost had a mystical quality about it.
As their bodies cooled, Jasper rolled over until Alice lay over him. He pulled the blanket over both their bodies, to keep the cool air off them. They weren't quite ready to leave their magic place yet.
Alice raised her head, lifting her lips for his kiss. A kiss he readily gave.
"I love you, Jasper," she declared.
Tightening his grip, he replied. "I love you too Alice. Forever."
Forever.
It had a nice ring to it.
THE END
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A/N: Well, I'm finding it hard to believe I actually finished it! There were times I was wavering but all your support and enjoyment of the story gave me the push to keep going.
I want to thank all of you who reviewed and those who put my story on their Alerts and Favourites.
I particularly want to thank the following readers who have followed and reviewed from the very beginning and those who I've shared great conversations with:
Emmy1512, Realynn8, XXSkittlesXX, Homegirl Aka Amanda, MarsUk and MrsKatyCullen.
I'm going to continue writing and I've got a growing list of ideas for future stories. I may even attempt to write more than one story at a time. I'll see how I go. I don't want to get my plots mixed up! I'm definitely doing the sequel to Second Chance. I just can't let go of Alice and Jasper yet. I also plan on doing a Bella and Edward story just for a change but fear not, I'll always come back to Alice and Jasper. So put me on your Author Alerts!
See you all soon! Love Cecilia xxx
