I had only been in the hotel room for an hour before my cell rang. My phone flashed up carlos' name on the screen.

"Hey los" I answered, sounding Fed up.

"Sheri, Kendall had a seizure about ten minutes ago" he said sounding urgent.

"Is he okay?" I asked sitting forward on the couch I was on.

"Yeah I think so... he is refusing to take his insulin though, he is asking for you" he said.

"I'm not coming back tonight. I just need some space okay. I will be back in the morning los." I said trying to not care.

"Sheri he looks really ill, I don't know what I'm doing, shall I just stick him with one of his injections?" He asked stupidly.

"no Carlos! You don't just stick him!" I said shaking my head at the idiotic words coming from my friend.

"Look I don't know what I'm doing, Logan is out for the night. I'm on my own here Sheri. I'm not being funny but he is your problem, not mine." Carlos said.

I rolled my eyes. "Fucks sake.. Okay, I will be back soon." I replied then hung my phone up and chucked it in my bag.


The taxi back to the house took around 15 minutes. When I got upstairs all hell was breaking loose, Kendall was in the middle of another fit and Carlos was on the phone to the emergency services.

"Fuck! how long has he been like this?" I asked frantically.

"Just a couple of minutes but it's his third one since I called you." Carlos said as he put his hand to the phone receiver.

I sat down next to Kendall who was still on his bed. "Kendall can you hear me? It's Sheri... I'm here okay... I'm here" I soothed looking at him. His appearance was terrible.

He soon began to slow down. He took my hand once he had control of his body again.

"Keep calm okay... everything's fine" I reassured him.

"Carlos keeps... trying to make me have my... insulin" he breathed out heavily.

"Kendall you need to take it" I moaned.

"I don't though, it's.. too soon, I had... it just after you left. He keeps.. waving a fucking.. needle at me" Kendall said panicked.

I looked at Carlos. "Your a dip shit los! What did I tell you! You can't just give it to him willy fucking nilly." I scolded.

"Well I thought it would stop him freaking out!" He said.

"He doesn't have the seizures because of his diabetes, he has them because he panics and you waving a fucking needle at him threatening to give him an insulin overdose isn't fucking helping!" I shouted.

Carlos looked at me. "I'm sorry... I was scared... the ambulance is on its way" he added. Then walked out the room.

"You okay?" I asked Kendall.

Kendall nodded. "I don't need an ambulance" he said.

"Well they can check you over at least" I replied.

"Did you call my mom?" He asked laying down on his side, resting his head on his pillow.

"No.. did you want me to?" I said picking the sheet up that I was just a few hours ago wrapped up in. I placed it over Kendall and tucked him in.

"Not really... how did you know it was because of a panic attack?" He asked sleepily.

"Mackenzie told me" I whispered out.

"Kenz? My kenzie?" Kendall asked trying to sit up.

"Yeah... look Kendall, I have no clue why your like this. But I know I can't cope with it. I wish I could, I really do. It's too much for me to be adjusting to life without my dad, not having Logan around and dealing with you... you scare the life out of me Kendall. I don't know what you are capable of. Did you really hit her? Mackenzie?" I asked feeling that now was as good time as any to have a well needed heart to heart.

"When did you see her?" He asked ignoring my question.

"Today... this morning. she has been trying to find me to explain I need to be careful with you" I replied.

"She told you everything?" He said quietly.

I nodded. "Yeah... pretty much Kendall"

"She told you this morning and you still came back to me?" He said getting upset again. He really was a complete emotional wreck.

"I did yeah, I had it in my head I could talk you round. It didn't work huh" I said giving him a weak smile.

"Please don't leave me Sheri... I promise I will get help. I need you. Please don't break up with me" he begged just as the door knocked and a paramedic walked in.

I left Kendall alone while he talked his medical problems through with the paramedics. He refused to be taken in to hospital.

After they had left I knocked on his bedroom door.

"Can I come in" I asked softly through the door.

"Yeah course" came Kendalls reply.

"You should be tucked up in bed I think." I said looking at him sat on the end of it instead of being in it.

Kendall smiled then held his arms out for a hug.

I sat down beside him and wrapped my arms tightly around him. "Im so sorry Sheri" he whispered.

"Okay... it's okay, its done now" I replied.

"Please don't break up with me" he said in to my shoulder, his voice muffled.

"let's get you in to bed then we can talk yeah?" I soothed.

I tucked him in once more and sat next to him with my feet up on the bed. He took my hand and rested his head on my lap.

"I can't be your girlfriend Kendall... not yet. Im not saying never... I'm just saying we both need some breathing space. I was silly to get involved so quickly after Logan, im gonna admit that I'm not completely over him." I said gently.

"Do you think you will get back with him?" Kendall asked.

"No... we are just friends... well not even friends at the moment... it's not about Logan though kendy. It's us. The way we have been isn't normal is it?" I explained.

Kendall let out a sarcastic laugh. "You're kind to say 'us'. I think it's pretty obvious it's me that isn't normal. The paramedic suggested I get my ass to the doctor and get put on anti depressants...he said it will help with calming me down but I'm not sure how I feel about more medication." he replied.

"I think that it's something we can look in to, and talk about... I hate seeing you get so fired up. I know that's not you. All the jealousy... its just crazy" I said stroking back his hair.

"Will you stay with me tonight?" He asked.

"Kendy I don't know... I don't want to lead you on... Kendall I need to know... did you hit Mackenzie?" I asked again.

Kendall stayed silent.

"I take that as a yes" I whispered.

"I would never do that to you. I can't believe I did it to her. Do you hate me?" He replied.

"I don't hate you. I don't compare you to my father" I said honestly.

"Did kenzie ask how I was?... I haven't seen her for so long" he asked.

I recalled the chat I had with Mackenzie quickly in my mind. "I don't think she did Kendall. She looked well though. She is so pretty" I replied.

"She is nothing on you" Kendall said giving my hand a kiss.

"You look terrible you know, do you want a glass of water or something to eat. Have you eaten today?" I asked.

"Yeah I've eaten. I'm fine Sheri. Feel tired though." he admitted. His hand that was attached to mine didn't look like it was in a position to let go any time soon.

"I will be next door in my room if you need anything, okay? Get some sleep!" I replied. My feelings mixed on wether I should leave him alone. I pried my hand from his

I kissed him on his forehead. He looked like he could sleep for a week. Again I felt sorry for him.

As I closed Kendalls door behind me, I let out a deep sigh of relief. Whatever my heart felt on possibly losing another man I loved, the relief of not being scared out weighed it.

I went to bed, for the first time completely alone.


Kendall woke me up the following morning with breakfast on a tray.

"I just wanted to say thanks for yesterday... and try my hardest to prove I can change" he added.

"Kendall it's not going to go away over night... I appreciate what your doing but I don't think giving you false hope will do any good." I replied, rubbing my eyes as I looked at the tray of food that Kendall had prepared for me, he had even picked a flower from... I'm guessing next doors garden? As there wasn't one person in this household that had green fingers.

"Yeah I know Sheri. Number one priority is to fix myself then everything else will fall in to place. I've even made a doctor's appointment!" He said cheerfully.

"I'm pleased kendy. Are you going to go to the award party tonight?" I asked not sure if he was up for a night out. We had all been looking forward to it though. Our first A-list party. It wasn't long now before the big time rush pilot premiered. It was important to get out and be seen.

"Yeah im still going" he replied. "Are we still going together?" He asked his huge eyebrows raised with hope.

"Maybe going as a group would be better" I replied, really trying to steer him away from him thinking we could just fall back in to being a couple. "Is Logan going?" I asked looking at the time, Logan would of been up hours ago.

Kendall looked away from my face at the mention of Logan's name. "I'm not sure Sheri, Carlos said he stayed at some girls house last night" he replied. I could see the green eyed monster in him already appearing but my eyes popped out of my head at the mention of a girls house.

"Is cass in town?" I asked shyly, honestly not wanting to make him jealous but I needed to know if I was in danger of bumping in to her.

Kendall shook his head. "No, just some chic" Kendall replied.

My heart sank at the realization that my ex boyfriend of two years was not who I thought he was.

"This is a huge breakfast" I laughed trying to not cry at the thought of Logan and another girl.

Kendall smiled. "I can help to eat it if you like" he replied.

"Sounds like a fair deal" I said returning his smile.

Kendall spent the entire morning with me, he asked a lot of questions about my childhood, and what I hoped the future would bring. He was determined to try and win me over. Truth was I wanted him to.

Kendall however was cagey about telling me about his childhood and obvious things that mattered. He had spent his entire life trying to hide or cover up the fact that he wasn't as normal as a lot of people. He did confide in me that one of the reasons he got in to acting and enjoyed it so much was because he liked to get out of his own skin and be someone else.

I loved Kendall so much when he was normal, and caring. It was hard to imagine him being anything else. My mind cast back to the day at the theme park, wearing the stupid ponchos in the rain. It felt like a million years ago now, but in reality just a few weeks.


Logan didn't return home at all. It was left to Carlos once again to keep things on an even keel with Kendall and I. I'm pretty sure Kendall still thought it was a date even though we were to be arriving at the party in a three some.

I got dressed in to the out fit I had bought with Logan the day he returned to California.

My long brown hair I wore down and swept over one shoulder. It helped to cover up the collection of love bites I had. Make up wasn't doing the job well.

My red dress looked beautiful, the shoes Logan has bought me went brilliantly with it.

I felt like a star! I smiled at my reflection. My tan looked good against the red. The corset-like top of my dress shone and sparked its way around my bedroom.

I gave myself a satisfactory glance then left to go downstairs.

Carlos was suited and booted, looking the most handsome I had ever seen him.

"Woah! Check us out?!" He laughed.

"You look great los" I smiled.

"You too Sheri... those legs! Wow!" He said eyeing me up.

I smiled. It was nice to be dressed up.

Kendall was the last to join us. He looked breathtaking. He also wore a suit and tie. Looking so much older than the 17 year old boy I had got to know.

Kendall didn't say I looked nice, I could see he was having a battle in his brain. I had my cleavage out, and my legs out on display for the world to enjoy. The world at the moment consisted of just Carlos blatantly not being able to take his eyes from my legs, but I could see it was bothering Kendall to have another man eye me up.

"You look so handsome Kendall" I said with a smile.

"Is the taxi on its way" he asked staring daggers at Carlos who now wore the look on his face that he had just this second realised I was a girl... a hot girl.

"Yeah it shouldn't be long. I'm nervous. I wonder who we will meet" Carlos replied.

"It's a bit cold out, I will grab you a jacket Sheri" Kendall said.

"I'm fine Kendall... besides I don't have anything that would match this dress" I said, seeing he wasn't happy I had so much flesh on display.

"Maybe you should change?" Kendall replied.

"Taxi is here!" Carlos announced excitedly.

I ignored Kendall, picked my purse up from the dining table and guided Kendall out by the hand. I wasn't having him be in a mood all night. "Enjoy your self" I said squeezing his arm as we got in to the taxi.

Kendall replied with just a small smile.

If only I knew what was about to happen, I never would of got in to the fucking taxi.


On arriving at the venue, I was completely star struck. The red carpet was out. Flash photography was everywhere! The crowd was huge, filled with people wanting to catch a glimpse of their favorite celebrity.

"You okay?" I asked Kendall who looked terrified.

"Yeah... this insane! He said looking out of the window as the car slowed.

Carlos was lapping it up. He was a bona fide attention seeker. Once out of the car, I held the hands of both my male companions.

Carlos gave the odd wave to the crowd but no one had a clue who we were. On entering the venue, the expense of everything hit me. Although this was meant to be a charity awards celebration, someone had obviously spent thousands and thousands making this place look amazing.

Carlos kept whacking me with his arm every time he saw someone famous. "Oh my god Sheri look!" He kept saying.

At one point he was actually pointing at someone who was stood just a few feet away.

The awards part of the night lasted the best part of an hour. We had our own table with other members of our cast but Logan and James had yet to show. I was confident that James would show up, but Logan I had no clue on.

Soon enough tables were cleared and moved around, making way for possibly the biggest dance floor I had ever seen, and the party of a lifetime.

The lights dimmed, music played and the evening celebrations began.

I went off to talk with some of the girls from the show. All of us looking completely amazing. I had left a sour faced Kendall talking with someone but when I glanced over at him he was sat down alone, nursing a drink in his hand.

I rolled my eyes. Angry that he couldn't just be normal for one evening to let us enjoy ourselves for once.

I pulled the chair out next to him. "I hope that's not alcoholic!" I said poking my finger at the glass in front of him.

"So what if it is" he huffed.

"It's gonna make your blood sugar rise" I moaned.

Even in the dimly lit room with the beating sound of the music that now played I could see Kendall pull his 'I couldn't give a fuck' face at me.

"Kendall lets just have fun tonight huh.. enjoy ourselves" I said trying to get him in the party spirit.

"I don't like the way everyone is looking at you" Kendall replied.

I looked around. No one was looking at me. "Kendall it's all in your head... come on let's dance" I said trying to pull him up put he snapped his hand away from me.

Kendall stood up. He eyed me over like I was trash. "I'm gonna get another drink" he mumbled. Then walked off. He already looked half cut.

I sat there looking at everybody else having fun. I was so pissed off that Kendall was trying to ruin it and we weren't even an item anymore.

"How about that dance?" Came a soft whisper from behind me in my ear.

I turned my head to see James looking out of this world with his handsomeness. He flung his suit jacket over the back of a chair.

I smiled at him, pleased to see a happy face. "I would love to" I beamed.

James took my hand and led me over to the all very crowded dance floor.

He placed my arms around his neck. "Where have you been?" I asked.

"Logan and I went out to get the suits, his car broke down. We were waiting ages to get a tow" he explained. "How did it go with Kendall yesterday?" He asked. I could feel his hands on my waist pulling me in nearer.

"Oh god... it was awful, we broke up" I said pulling a funny face.

"Serious? Shit!" James replied over the loud music.

"He isn't taking it too well though" I replied. Not wanting to go in to detail of what happened yesterday.

"Is he here?" James asked.

I nodded in the direction of the bar. Kendall was knocking the drinks back.

I saw Logan also, he wasn't with Kendall but he was talking to Carlos. At least he hadn't brought a date.

As I looked back at James our brown eyes met each other. "It will be okay" he promised and pulled me in for a very convincing hug.

"You look beautiful Sheri" James said to me as my head tucked in just below his chin. My shoes helping to combat the height difference between us.

"Thank you... your looking pretty good your self" I replied.

"Maybe seeing as your at a loose end now... we could hang out a bit more. I miss you sher bear" he said.

I gave James a smile. "I miss you too. I think I would like that" I replied.

The sexual tension between James and could be cut with a knife.

"You want a soda?" James asked not liking the change of music on the dance floor.

"Sure" I replied. Once we had our drinks, James took me by my hand and guided me back to the seat he had found me in.

I tried not to look at Kendall but I could see he was fit to burst.

"I guess it hasn't sunk in yet that you two have broken up" James said looking in Kendalls direction also.

"He said he can change. He is fine for a bit but then he just goes off on one. He is going to blow a gasket at you in a second" I said turning back to James.

"We are only talking... just friends huh?" He said smiling.

"Yeah... Kendall knows you have feelings for me... I told him" I admitted.

James raised his eyebrows in surprise. "Erm... Sheri... the way I feel about you... is it just one sided?" He asked boldly.

I smiled at James. "Your a good friend James" I replied trying to avoid the subject.

"Friends!" He said with a grin, he nodded his head to say that was cool by him. "I couldn't sleep last night coz I was thinking of you." He added for good measure.

"What were you thinking about me for?" I asked.

James reached for my hand under the table we sat at. His tell tale thumb rubbing against my skin. "I can't get you out of my head. Your always on my mind." He smiled.

I giggled at him. His perfection becoming too much once again as his attempts to woo me stole my heart.

"I love it when you do that." he said in my ear.

"Do what?" I asked looking in to the hazel eyes I trusted. The flashing disco lights shining off his face, making his handsome face glow in a rainbow assortment of light.

"Smile!" He answered. "I think it's the most amazing thing I've ever seen."

His perfect response only making me smile more. I blushed. Hoping the disco lights camouflaged my face to look as Immaculate as his.

"You look a bit hot? You wanna get some fresh air?" He asked grinning wildly. I wouldn't put it passed him that this was all a set up to get me alone. I was putty in his hands and nodded.

James led me out in to a foyer area at the back of the venue. There was a door open that led us to the grounds outside. I made a mental note not to even glance at Kendall as I left the party behind.

There were a few people out here smoking. But James led me to a fairly secluded spot.

James looked at me in approval of his private place he had found us.

"I think it's you that makes me feel hot James." I giggled, glad of the night sky to hide my blushes.

James took both my hands in his as he stood in front of me.

"Do you like that feeling?" He whispered leaning his face in closer.

I nodded my head. "I do... it feels nice... you feel nice" I said giving his hands a squeeze.

"Sheri... if I did something that I thought was stupid and I'm pretty sure you would think was stupid, would you hold it against me for trying anyway?" He said softly. His face so close to mine now that I could feel his breath on my lips.

I looked from James's lips to his eyes knowing full well that being kissed by him was just moments away. Memories flashed in my mind of how good his tongue felt in my mouth.

"I wouldn't hold it against you. Sometimes we all do stupid things" I whispered back, not moving my eyes from his.

"So your suggesting that I do this stupid thing?" He asked flirtatiously.

"Maybe you don't have to.. maybe I should be the stupid one" I said then moved in just by the inch needed to kiss him.

It started off slow. Just our lips. As I removed my hand from his palm and placed it on the side of his face I felt his tongue cautiously enter, I was momentarily in heaven.

James being yanked away from me brought me straight back down to earth with a thud. I opened my eyes just in time to see Kendall punch him square in the face.

Shock glued me to the spot momentarily as I watched James fall to the ground. The sickening sound of flesh being hit played over in my memory.

"KENDALL WHAT THE FUCK ARE YOU DOING!?" I screamed at him trying to pull him away as he moved towards the visibly shocked James that was holding his nose as it poured blood out all over his shirt.

"IM GONNA FUCKING KILL HIM" kendall yelled back.

"NO! No your not!" I shouted. I grabbed at his suit jacket to try and stop him.

I saw Carlos run towards us, I don't think I had ever been so grateful to see him. He was a lot smaller than Kendall but he was stockier in build.

"KENDALL! C'MON MAN" he yelled trying to pull him away.

I looked at James. He was soaked in his own blood. "I'm so sorry" I said to him, the tears making their scheduled appearance.

"It's cool... it's cool" James said shakily as he stood up.

"It's not fucking cool! Logan is looking for kendall!" Carlos said as he tried to restrain Kendall as he battled to get to James again.

"YOU BASTARD!" Kendall cried out at James. "She is my fucking girl. Mine!" He sobbed out at him.

So much was being shouted and screamed with everyone trying to talk at once that it wasn't until Logan appeared that things actually began to look dangerous.

He marched over to me, his eyes looked almost sad. He gently took my hand in his and inspected my wrist. The perfect print of finger marks bruised me like a bracelet.

"I'm sorry Sheri, I had to tell him" Carlos said as Kendall fell to the floor in his struggles.

"Did Kendall do this to you?" Logan asked gently still looking at the bruise.

I nodded. A load of heart ache then exchanged between Logan and I as he saw every ounce of pain I held in my eyes. He was reminded of every bruise, every cut, every push, shove and fall, every broken bone, all the black eyes and split lips I had been subjected to over the years by my father.

None of which he was ever able to defend me or fight back in my honor. Now however as Logan looked from me to Kendall, I felt so scared as I saw years of built up hate in Logan's eyes that was now aimed towards my ex boyfriend for one small bruise.

It was James though that punched Kendall first on hearing that I had been hurt. Kendall wasnt taking it laying down though, he was pissed at James for kissing me.

Carlos this time struggled again but this time to get James away. Logan then lay in to kendall.

"Get the fuck off me" I heard James scream to Carlos as he pulled him back in to the party.

I was left alone with two ex boyfriends beating the shit from one another.

"Logan please" I sobbed as once again I tried to pull apart a fight. The buttons on Logan's shirt ripped open making him look even crazier than he already did.

Logan freed himself from me as his shirt came off completely. He grabbed Kendall by the collar dragging him up then kneed him in the stomach.

Kendall fell back to the floor coughing. A disgusting wheezing noise coming from him as he dug his fingers in to the grass trying to get his composure to get up.

"Logan please!" I begged, now crying so hard. The area only dimly lit by the occasional lantern light in the grounds but I could see both boys covered in mud.

Kendall laughed, blood all in his teeth from the punch he received from James.

"She deserved it" Kendall slurred. "Fucking whore" he said angrily at me. I cried even more.

Kendall stood up while Logan caught his breath. I thought it was all over but Kendall then planted a kick aimlessly at Logan, which caught him sharply in the thigh. Logan screamed out as his leg buckled beneath him

Logan was down which gave Kendall the prime opportunity to get stuck in with a few punches.

I saw Kendalls first punch on Logan hit his chin, the sound made a crack as Logan's teeth were smacked together.

I then attempted to pull Kendall off, there was a small gathering of people watching, but no one was helping me to separate them. Kendall got his second punch in. Logan's nose had blood explode out from it.

Kendall grabbed my arm, shoving me away, I landed with a thud on my backside. Logan got back on his feet with a struggle. His eyes streaming. Blood now all down his bare chest.

He shoved Kendall with both palms in his chest, Kendall tried to get Logan in some kind of head lock but Logan got Kendall with another punch in the face. Kendall doubled back.

Both boys then ended up on the floor throwing punches at each other. Logan succeded to get on top of Kendall, once again holding him by the collar of his now blood splattered shirt.

I watched in horror as Logan head butted Kendall, sending Kendalls head smacking in to the concrete ground with a hard blow.

"I swear to God if you ever hurt her again I'm going to fucking kill you!" Logan seethed at him. He moved his legs to stand up still holding Kendall by the collar and once again pulled him to his feet,just to punch him in the stomach and send him down to the floor again.

I don't know if Logan was crying or his eyes just watered from the pain, but his emotion on the subject of some one going out of their way to hurt me shined through as I watched him kick and kick Kendall over and over.

I covered my mouth with my hand as I saw the aggression he had to offer.

Kendall was no longer in a position to fight back. He just lay there.

"SCUM... YOUR FUCKING SCUM!" Logan screamed out at Kendall as he kept kicking his stomach.

"LOGAN! STOP IT!" I yelled.

"Why... " Logan said obvious tears running down his mud and blood covered face.

"Because he isn't my dad Logan! It's not him" I begged, Logan stopped the kicking and looked at me.

"I promised you I would never allow you to get hurt again. I promised myself Sheri!" he cried falling to his knees on the ground.

"It's over logues... come on" I said kneeling down next to him, I took him in my arms. I looked to Kendall on the floor who was wincing in pain.

"You okay?" I mouthed to him as my chin sat on Logan's shoulder.

Kendall wiggled his jaw to check for broken bones but nodded at me.

Security then made a late appearance and the three of us were escorted out the back of the building.

Logan took my hand as he headed towards home. "Stay the fuck away from me man!" He said to Kendall who was staggering behind us.

"We live in the same fucking house you moron!" Kendall replied as he pulled up his shirt and inspected his ribs.

"Why the fuck did you hurt her? What gives you the right to lay your hands on her" Logan kept arguing.

"I don't have to explain myself to you dip shit" Kendall mumbled back.

"Logan lets just get home, we can sort it out in the morning." I said clinging on to him as I slipped my high heel shoes off and carried on the walk home.

"You and I are moving out Sheri! I'm not leaving you alone in a house with a guy that raises his hand to girls... fucking pussy" Logan carried on his tirade.

"I didn't even fucking hit her Logan!" Kendall snapped back.

Logan grabbed my wrist and presented it in front of Kendall stopping the three of us from walking.

"Have you any idea the number of times I've found bruises exactly the same as that on her... huh? Too fucking many!... Jesus Kendall, what the fuck is wrong with you?" Logan argued.

"If you care that much about her Logan why the fuck were you screwing everything behind her back!" Kendall retorted as he now took the lead in the walk home.

I took Logan's hand again and pulled him forward to get moving. "Let's just get home to bed" I huffed, not wanting to hear any of this conversation.

"I don't know what the fuss is about anyway. She is shit in bed" Kendall said hurtfully which led to another scuffle between them of pushing and shoving.

"For fucks sake... stop it!" I shouted, getting between them.

I could feel Logan behind me, his chest pushing in to my back as he wanted to get to Kendall and tear his head off his shoulders.

I looked up at Kendall. I was in two minds of wether to just let Logan at him. Teach his disgraceful mouth a lesson, but I resolved to just slap Kendall hard around the face instead.

Again I grabbed Logan's hand and walked in the direction of home. This time tears rolling fast from hurtful words Kendall had spoken.

The majority of the journey left was walked in silence. Logan sometimes felt the need to ask if I was okay.

I think it should of been the other way round as Logan looked worse for wear. His nose looked broken. His eye beginning to swell. Kendall couldn't even stand up straight from the pain he was in. He also had a face that looked black and blue.

"I would shake your old man's hand Sheri." Kendall said out of the blue.

This of all things hurt me.

"Fucks sake! Shut that hole in your fucking face" Logan replied to him.

"No, why? I want to know what I've done that I deserve to be treated like this... go on Kendall... tell me?" I said getting dragged in to his warped mind.

"Apart from the fact your a complete whore?" Kendall retorted.

"So I kissed James, so fucking what! You and I aren't even together anymore Kendall!" I replied reaching for the door key in my purse as we walked up our garden path.

"It hasn't even occurred to you that your so disgusting that not even Logan wants you... no one wants you, not even your own mother!" He said drunkenly.

I swung the door open with a bang, Logan walked in first flicking on lights as he went in to the kitchen.

"How the hell have you got the right to comment on my life when your own is clearly fucked up Kendall!" I spat at him as I followed Logan in.

Kendall barged passed me in the door way of the kitchen. "My life may be awkward Sheri, but at least im not the one going from man to man because I have daddy issues." He replied.

"Oh fuck you Kendall. Your just jealous. You love me you know you love me! The only reason I've been going from man to man is because I haven't come across one yet that hasn't hurt me!" I snapped. "I'm 16 years old and I trusted each of you. The only person that's not screwed me over is James!" I ranted, Fed up of this ridiculous behavior.

"Only because you haven't managed to fuck him yet!" Kendall argued. He swayed from side to side. He was a disgusting drunk!

"That's where your wrong, while you went home to Kansas in one of your hissy fits, James was keeping me very entertained in my bed!" I revealed to them both, my hand on hip.

Both boys looked completely shocked as they looked at me, scared almost.

"Sheri... come here!" Logan said urgently.

"What? Why?" I asked puzzled looking at them both.

"Sheri. Come here now!" Kendall then said. All traces of our argument gone. His face serious.

"Sheri baby... come over here!" Logan said.

It was then I saw Kendall wasn't looking at me, he was looking behind me in to the hall. I was stood facing the kitchen still in the doorway. I froze not knowing what to expect that was near me.

"Is.. is it a spider?" I asked confused.

Kendall then raised his hands as if surrendering himself he walked towards me, gently took my hand and pulled me towards him and Logan in those kitchen.

Logan shoved me behind him like a lion protecting his cub. It was then I saw a masked man dressed in black wielding a knife in the doorway where I had just been standing... we had walked in to the middle of a burglary.


author note: thanks to every one who is reading! thanks to jenno2, oxybtrswag, gaby and musicrox14 for your reviews last chapter, will kendy ever get better? will Mackenzie make a return to help Kendalls issues, who knows! and yes it's a very different story. I'm definitely scraping the barrel with my plots now lol. but I'm loving a lovable bad guy, and I'm enjoying something being wrong with one of the boys as usually I give the medical probs to the girls. asthma, broken backs, drugs, rape, drinking, bulimia, and a good old fashioned earth quake to kill one off. so yeah... different is good haha. errrmmm... will hopefully update tomorrow, but the next chapter is going to be a long one again so will update by thurs 29th aug. thanks again for reading and reviews.