Hey yall. Sorry about the late updates. Told ya they'd be coming in slower now. Its my 4th year in college and its not easy so I'm sorry. And did you know you could get the flu twice before flu season even starts? And as I'm writing this I'm battling strep throat so… my immune system sucks butt.

So Jess and Brian's story has been rolling around in my brain. Its so unbelievable, almost as thrilling as Max and Fang's. DO YOU want me to further their story into this one? I'll still have Max and Fang and everyone else, it would just be longer since I have more to tell. Trust me you'd want to hear Jess and Brian's. I promise.

Also… I NEED YOUR HELP. I need some information. I need to know a description of Dr. Martinez and Ella, I need to know Ella's age. I'm too lazy to look in the book and since you guys are so freakin awesome I knew yall would know. So please tell me!

Umm… so that's about it. Thanks so much for hanging in there. Yall really are the best. Sorry again for a late post, but this is long and sooo good.

Hugs for all!

Disclaimer: I'll put another one in here…. Not my characters, JP's.

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Chapter 32

"They're on their way home now," Fang said hanging up the phone. I scooted over as he came to join me on the couch.

"Good. Where are they anyway?" I asked. I wanted the flock back here as soon as possible. Jess said that they left earlier that morning but she gave them her cell phone to keep in contact.

"The zoo." Fang answered smugly. "Apparently they're not enjoying themselves. Animals in cages thing, not a comforting thought." He laid his arm behind my head and I rested against his shoulder.

"That's understandable."

Jess had left soon after the ultrasound. Brian had called here and while I was happy to hear he was at least alive, the look on Jess's face made me think her thoughts were otherwise. When she was leaving I could see her eyes were turning red and she was fighting back sobs.

I sighed against Fang. He turned his head and started brushing his lips against my hair.

"What are you thinking about?" He whispered kissing my temple.

"Jess…. and Brian," I replied. Fang recoiled and his face showed his shock.

"Seriously?"

I nodded, "Do you know what happened between them? Ya know, since you were… more than friends with Jess." That last part came out a little venomous but oh well.

Fang sucked in a breath and went back to consuming my throat and neck with his mouth. "I don't want to talk about Jess or Brian right now," he hummed into my ear. I closed my eyes and a shiver pulsed through my body as his lips grazed my collar bone. His hand behind my back tangled itself in my hair and he used his free hand to gently cup my still bruised face.

"What I really want to do right now would probably be illegal in 48 states," he smirked as he captured my lips with his.

Whoa, his intimate level just shot right up. Not something Fang would regularly say, nope not at all. But am I complaining…. umm let me get back to you on that. I kissed him back with just as much enthusiasm. My own hands were tangled in his hair, yes even the broken one and I was fighting against the pain from the brace. I felt myself fall back on the couch, Fang following.

Dejavu slightly. The memory of the other night flashed through my head but it passed by quickly. Not now, not anymore. I'm over it, he's over it. We've moved passed it. We had to.

I held him to me and felt giddy as he pushed himself against my body. A moan escaped my mouth and I could swear I heard a growl come from Fang.

He tried to lift his body off of mine, "You're still hurt--," I cut him off pulling him back to me for more kissing.

His hands were all over me, everywhere there was Fang and I loved it. There was heat rolling off our bodies and suddenly everything was too hot. I squirmed under him and hitched my legs around his waist using my one good non broken calf to pull him to me. I pushed back the pain from my ribs; the pure presence of Fang's body overshadowed the throbbing immensely. A stream of curse words came from his mouth as he moved from my lips to my neck down my throat and back again. He grabbed my hands from behind his neck and placed them above my head on the arm rest of the couch. He laced our fingers together and pressed the palm of his hands into my non broken one at the same time he stuck his tongue in the hollow base of my throat. A jolt shot through me. Fang repeated but this time adding a slight rocking of his hips into mine as well. He did it again and again and again, all simultaneously. I couldn't take much more of this. I want him and struggled to free my hands but he held them firm. I kissed whatever I could reach, his neck, cheek, behind his ear. He continued his extreme foreplay. The sounds coming from me increased and I felt my eyes begin to roll back.

Fang withdrew quickly and pulled me into a sitting position and stood up from the couch.

"We're Baaack!" A shout came from the front of the house. I could hear the kids enter the hallway and I took a quick look at Fang who was sitting in the recliner now.

I was still dazed from what just happened and from the look of Fang's face so was he. I struggled to get my breathing under control before the flock came in.

"Hey!" Angel came bobbing in all smiles. She rushed over to me and stopped with her arms open. "Can I give you a hug," she asked sadly taking in my still injured form.

"You better," I smiled back, my voice quivering and grabbed her to me. If felt so good to hug her. Nudge came over apprehensively and with a sigh bent down to hug me as well.

"Are you okay?" Her eyes and voice let me know the double meaning.

"Yes," I said back now trying to stand up. Fang was by me within seconds and wrapped his arm around my waist to stabilize me.

"Where's my baby?" I grinned seeing her in Iggy's arms. She was all bundled up looking like a little Eskimo.

I went to take her and as I did I heard Ig, "Everything's good now…. all good?"

I sighed, I guess they didn't tell the others about the other baby. A part of me was happy that they could keep a secret but another part dreaded having to tell them.

"Yes," Fang shot me a look and I retorted, "Everything will be okay, eventually." I just need to find a doctor to take out this death chip, I muttered to myself.

"Well, now that's all established there is something we need to talk about," Gazzy smirked as I noticed he had a plastic bag in his hands.

"Oh yeah," Nudge replied as if being reminded. "There is an issue with Faith." She said conversationally.

"An issue, what issue," I panicked. I started trying to take off her jackets to see if she was injured. Doing this with my broken hand looked clumsily and Fang stepped in to hold her before I dropped our child.

"No, no. Nothing serious," Nudge said once she saw how panicked we were.

Both Fang and I stopped and turned to look at Nudge, Gazzy, and Ig all standing together. Angel was on the couch trying to cover a laugh with her hands.

"What then?" Fang asked exasperated.

"Well, it just that," Nudge shifted and looked to the two guys who weren't budging, "… it's hard to take care of her. Not really hard, I really like taking care of her really I do. So not all of it was hard but some of it was. Like changing her and stuff but not that hard since we took diapers with us and toys and stuff when we had to rush out of here like bat's out of hell, Oooo sorry for cursing, I didn't mean it really." She cupped her mouth really quick then continued, "But the one thing that was hard was that, I guess well, she didn't like to eat. I know you said no baby food, Fang, so we didn't give her any but she wouldn't take the formula either we brought with us…. Really Max, your daughter is a very picky eater," Iggy rolled his eyes and finally rested his hand over Nudge's mouth.

"Max," Ig clipped, "We can't feed Faith the normal baby formula. She kept throwing it up. So we came up with a solution if you want us to keep watching her."

"This!" Gazzy held out the shopping bag.

Fang and I stood there both of us still holding Faith looking confused and worried. I shot him a look saying, What in the hell are they talking about? He shrugged.

"What's in the bag?" I asked almost not wanting to know.

"It's not that embarrassing, well, maybe it is." Gazzy shrugged and smiled. He reached in and pulled out a box with a type of suction and pump on it.

Oh, dear God!

"That is so not what I think it is, is it?" I asked.

Fang's eyebrows were up and his eyes were closed, a sign of amusement for him.

"It's a natural thing for every mother to have, honestly I don't know why we forgot it when we went out to get all the other stuff," Nudge said.

I slowly took the breast pump from Gazzy leaving Faith in Fang's arms which were jerking from his lack of hiding laughter.

"Thank. You.," I said shortly. My teeth were clamped down and I was embarrassed. Well not so much from the breast pump but from the fact that my flock saw the need to get me one.

"No problem!" Gazzy smiled. He started rubbing his chest, "And trust me…. it works. I may leave bruises though."

"You didn't…." I started to ask but stopped when I saw his embarrassing smirk.

"Well, we had to see if it worked and I lost rock, paper, scissors to Ig, so…" He flushed and kept rubbing the right of his chest.

"It didn't do anything but make Gazzy squeal like a girl," Total jumped in and settled himself comfortably in his doggy corner. "The zoo sucked by the way… ha, get it sucked!"

Both Ig and Nudge started laughing so hard they were practically holding on to each other. Gazzy punched Iggy in the shoulder and went to sit with his sister. Who by the way had tears going down her cheeks from laughing.

I closed my eyes and counted to ten… okay, maybe twenty. Yes, it was funny, really funny. Gazzy was a moron but we had more important things to discuss.

Fang suggested we tell the flock that not only was I pregnant but that he was the father, tonight. I looked back up at him and saw that his fit of humor was over.

He cleared his throat, "Umm, guys, we have something serious we need to talk about."

They all quieted down quickly, too quickly. Almost like their calm nonchalant behavior before was an act, like they were waiting for bad news. Nudge took Iggy's hand and dragged him to the couch.

There, all four flock members assembled in a row with Fang and I standing in front.

"Oh no," Nudge whispered. "I knew it was bad."

Angel dropped her eyes to the ground and picked Total up who had wondered from his mat.

Fang grabbed my good hand rubbing my palm with his fingers. "Max, we just found out is pregnant. Again."

Iggy and Nudge didn't say anything, Nudge just shook her head in disgust. But Angel and Gazzy looked dumb struck. I watched as their mouths dropped and eyes widen.

"Damn," Gazzy whispered. "Sorry," he blinked catching his word.

Angel mashed her lips together, looking mad. "They did it?" she asked softly.

I nodded but smiled, "I'm around 3 months along and the baby is a boy."

Nudge smiled and claps her hands together. Gazzy huff a sigh and settled back on the couch.

"Nice," Iggy said.

"So you're going to keep it?" Angel asked still looking somewhat upset.

"Of course," I replied looking at her. She nodded slowly and a grin crept up her lips.

"Good."

"There's another thing, several other things but this is important," Fang said. He gazed down at Faith for a second and them up at me.

"I'm the father. Of both Faith and the new baby." His eye's never left mine as he told the flock.

"Wow," Nudge and Gazzy squeeked.

"I knew it!" Angel laughed.

"Man, that sucks!" Iggy announced.

That got both of us to look up at him shocked.

"Excuse me?" Fang growled

"Well, man. You two didn't get to do the deed, you know." He frowned. "I mean sure they're yours. Don't you feel a little cheated?"

Nudge took one pissed off look at him and smacked him up the head.

It was my turn to look shocked. My mouth dropped and I turned to look at Fang. His expression was expressionless, of course. Did he feel cheated? Is that why he's so touchy feely now? Did he want to sleep with me just so he could feel validated in having kids.

"Shut up, Iggy." Fang said smoothly.

"So was that why you were all, woohoo," Angel asked moving her hands around in front of her like a drunken person.

I turned away from Fang and shook my head. Man, I didn't want to tell them this yet. But I guess I needed to. No telling when this new bodily peace would last and I would go back into convulsions, paralyzing convulsions. They had to know. Damn.

I sat down on the coffee table and Fang went to perch himself on the edge of the couch balancing Faith on his knee. I looked at her and smiled.

"I'm sick guys." I said trying to sound cheerful. I heard groans and smirked, hadn't we already had our quota of bad news for the week.

"It's kinda bad, but not really." I glanced into each of their faces trying to reassure them, "You know that stupid chip in my arm. All we have to do is get it out and then the baby and I can have the medication that will make us all better. See simple!" I smiled but it definitely didn't change their worried faces.

"Why can't you take the medication now?" Iggy asked.

"If I did it will interfere with the chip and lead the bad guys to us… the compound people."

"Isn't taking the chip out dangerous?" Nudge asked her eyes crinkled in thought.

"No…" I lied.

"Yes it is," Fang whispered. "Not only for Max but for the baby as well." The flock turned their eyes back to me.

"Then why just leave the chip in and take the medicine? We can take anything that comes our way." Gazzy huffed sitting up straighter.

"No way," I shot back. "There is no way I am leading those monsters here. Not in a million years."

"What if you didn't take the medication? Would you die?" Angel asked weakly.

I swallowed hard and found my hand automatically resting on my stomach, " I would be in pain, yes, and I would loose the baby."

"But would you die?" She asked again.

"I don't know. The baby dying wouldn't help my health any." I squinted to her trying to figure her out.

"If you got rid of the baby… before it could hurt you, would you be okay?" She was plotting at something and I could see it.

"Perhaps, Angel," My voice heightened on the edge of anger. The rest of the flock was looking between Angel and I and their faces looked aghast. "But I'm not getting rid of this child so the answer is irrelevant."

"But Max, if you could live—."

"Enough Angel! I don't want to hear it," I shook my head and stood up trying to end the conversation.

"But Max, I don't want you to die!," Angel stood up too and started to sob uncontrollably. "I thought you died once and then you come back here alive. Your alive now! Don't you want to stay that way! Do you want to risk dying from what they did to you," She was crying so hard her words barley made sense.

I turned back to her and started to hold her for a hug, she lurched back away from me, "Angel…" I protested.

"No! You go and leave and then you come back and you're wanting to leave again?" She yelled.

"I'm not leaving!," I said back.

"You're going to risk your life again! Your going to leave us! I know it… you're thinking it!," She pointed to her curly blond head. "You think that as long as the baby's alright that it would be okay for you to die or become injured or really really sick! How can you be so selfish?" She screamed her last sentence choking on her tears.

I felt like I had been kicked in the stomach. I turned to look at Fang and he had his eye's closed, jaw tight. Gazzy and Nudge had tears coming down their faces, Iggy looked zoned out staring at nothing.

"Selfish… how can you call me selfish, Angel," I snapped back. "I endured four years of pain for the flock. FOUR! I would give up everything if it meant keeping you safe."

"We never asked you to, Max." She wailed. "We never wanted you to leave. Quit trying to save us! Stop trying to save the day…. Stop please!" She pleaded, "This baby was created by the scientist that would want to kill you, what makes you think that this is what they want to happen. That if you did escape they would want you to die from it!"

"Angel, honey, your being ridiculous," I grunted through my own wet eyes and clamped teeth.

"No I'm not. You are being selfish. We all think it! You're willing to die for the baby, willing to die for us. But we don't want you to die, Max. You want to, you want to die for it but we can't loose you again. We don't want you to die. Please, Max. Please. We don't want… I…don't… want," and she bent down on her legs crying into her hands. Her wings came out and circled around her protectively.

My heart broke then, seeing my first baby in so much pain. I shook my head not knowing what to say, how to comfort her. Her body shook so violently her wings vibrated. The rest of the flock didn't look much better.

Nudge was crying into Iggy's shirt, he was trying to sooth her, his own nose wrinkling in effort to hold back tears. Gazzy had turned, his face buried into the couch crying. I didn't look at Fang, if I saw reservation there I wouldn't know what to think.

I didn't know this. I had no idea how much it hurt her, how much it hurt them. I tasted my own tears and looked back to my small baby, my broken angel. I walked slowly to her on the ground and crouched down beside her.

"Angel," I whispered as I wrapped my arms around her. "Angel… look at me," I said more sternly.

She raised her head up still crying and wailed again, "Please—don't—leave me," She cried in my arms. I looked up and heaved a hurting breath. I cried with her, my own sorrow sounds mixing with hers.

Once I got my voice back I lifted her chin to my face, "Angel, I promise I won't leave you." I said with more conviction in my voice than I thought I ever had. She let out more whimpers and I sniffed shaking my head, "No, I swear I will not leave any of you again. Do you hear me? I'm. Not. Leaving. I'm not going to die," she cringed at this and more tears fell. I pulled her into a hug and rocked her back and forth, "Angel, my baby… I swear to all that I've ever know true, I won't go anywhere. I won't die, I won't leave any of you," I turned to look at the flock, "Understand? I'm not planning of sacrificing myself; I'm not going to die! I. Will. Not. Die!" I said convincing myself of this as well.

I shook her shoulders slightly to make sure she got it, "Angel… I wont leave you again, I promise." I whispered and kissed her forehead. She nodded but continued to cry as I continued to rock her.

I finally glanced at Fang, he was swaying back and forth with Faith. Apparently she fell asleep during all this. His eyes were red but no wet streaks on his face.

"We need to find a doctor, Max," he stated lightly rubbing Faith back.

I nodded in agreement. I knew just the person. Hopefully she remembered me, well, I know she'll remember me. I mean it's not everyday you see a mutant girl with wings. I just hoped she'd be willing to help me, after all these years.

"I know a doctor, Fang." I quietly replied. I laid my cheek down on top of Angel's head. "Is there a way for you to find a number in Arizona?"

Fang's eyebrows arched down and then he nodded understanding. "That vet?"

"Yeah, Dr. Martinez. I think maybe she can help." I said. "Can you find the number?"

"I'll get the number." Fang replied he looked down at the girl crying in my arms. "Angel, I'll get the number and she'll come and she'll take the chip out and Max will be okay." She looked up at Fang.

"Do you trust me, Angel? I've never lied to you before." His eyes held hers as she nodded.

Fang sighed, "Okay. So, now that we have a plan are you all hungry. Did you eat dinner yet?" He was going back into parent mode, trying to keep things good for them. Steady. I loved him for that.

"Yeah, Fang." Iggy said "We stopped on the way back. We ate a ton." His voice was dull almost dead, he was exhausted. Ig got up softly pushing Nudge off him. "I'm going to take a shower. Classes tomorrow." With that he made his way up the stairs.

"Oh, man. Classes." Nudge said choking on some tears. She wiped her face on her sleeve and stood up herself. "Umm, I just think I'm going to do some homework. Didn't get any of it done this weekend, you know, leaving and all…. I just think," she pointed up the stairs after Iggy, "I'm just going to go." She walked passed Angel and I and stooped down to hug me, "I'm happy you're okay. I'm so happy." She kissed my head and walked away.

I looked to Gazzy when Nudge left. "Hey buddy, you okay?" I asked. Fang ruffled the Gasman's hair and gripped his shoulder.

"I'm going to put Faith to bed, then I need your help with something. Go on into my office I'll be there in a minute," Fang told Gazzy who looked up at him from the cushion of the couch. Gazzy stood up with out even looking at me and dragged himself into the hall disappearing behind the office door.

Fang looked at me and lifted his eyebrows, "Okay with…?" he asked me glancing at Angel. I gave a quick nod. "We'll talk later," he said and went to put Faith to bed.

I sat silent with Angel in my arms for a while. Past the time for Gazzy to help Fang with whatever it was Fang made up to distract him, I saw the Gasman stumble up the stairs and Fang followed. Probably to check on the others.

He's a great dad. He's a really great dad. I could feel more tears coming to my eyes but not from the previous argument. No, these tears were for Fang. The overwhelming urge my heart had to leap out of my chest when I thought of him. I know it sidetracked me, I had to focus on Angel now and the other flock members. I had to keep them trusting me. Believing that I would indeed keep my word.

"Angel, baby, it's time for bed." She stirred in my arms. "I would pick you up, but I can't right now. Barley keep my self up at the moment." She heard me this time and slowly got to her feet but didn't let go me. I kept my arms wrapped around her as we both made our way up to her room.

I helped her get out of her clothes and into some pink and yellow pajamas. I laid with her on her bed until I knew she was asleep. I then had to work her hands loose from my shirt and with a kiss on her nose I slowly crept down the hall. I opened Gazzy's door and found him fast asleep and then went to Nudges room. Her bed was empty and just as panic started to rise I heard voices come from Iggy's slightly opened door.

I peeked through the crack and saw Nudge laying on Ig's bed facing Ig. Iggy was at his computer.

"She won't die, right?" Nudge whispered again.

"No. Fang won't let her. I won't let her." Iggy said and turned in his chair to his bed and caressed Nudges face. "Get some sleep, Nudge." She pulled one of his throw blankets up to her chin and curled up into a ball.

I went down the stairs in a daze. Nudge and Iggy? Maybe… I need to talk to Nudge soon. As I went into our room I saw Fang standing by the bay window. Boxers and black wife beater all that stood in the way of me and his flesh. I picked up my own shirt and boxers from the draw and dressed right there with Fang still looking out the window. I knew he knew I was in the room yet he didn't move an inch, even with my naked body less than 5 feet from him. After I was dressed I went up behind and wrapped my arms around him resting my head on the space between his wings. I heard him sigh.

"That kinda sucked," I muttered into his back. He snorted and turned around holding me to his chest.

"Yeah." He brushing his lips on my forehead. "Angel's had it worse. She's scared."

I rubbed my head into his chest inhaling him, loosing myself in him. I was tired I now realized. All the day's energy felt sucked out of me and all I wanted to do was sleep for years.

"I don't want to leave, Fang." I murmured into his chest. "I don't want to die. I don't want to fall." The words slipped out of my mouth before I could stop them.

I felt him stiffen, "I will not let you die. I won't let you go. I won't let you fall." He moved his arms from my back up my arms to my face and held it gently. "I will keep you safe, I promise that. And I will catch you every time you fall." He kissed my lips with his.

What started out as a soft, reassuring kiss became much more. I pushed myself closer to him trying to forget everything that happened today. I wrapped my arms around his neck and pulled myself up. His arms resting on my waist dropped to my butt and picked me up so I could wrap my legs around his waist. Our kissing deepened and I knew what I wanted. I knew what I needed. I moaned into his mouth as our tongues fought and our teeth grazed over each other.

I didn't know he was walking to the bed until I felt him lay me back and the cool, soft bed spread met my back. I scooted back on the bed dragging Fang with me until he rested his whole body on top of mine. I brought his face back to mine and continued to kiss him like crazy. My mind which usually would be spinning with thoughts was at ease, nothing was stopping me now. I reached down and my fingers grabbed the bottom of his shirt. I yanked up and caught Fang by surprise. He released my lips only long enough to get the shirt out of the way then he claimed them again.

My temperature rose as I softly touched his shoulders. My lips dragged from his and found their spot on Fang's collarbone. He raised himself up on his arms as not to crush me and my healing body. I traced his olive color skin with my fingers laying kisses where my hands had been. Fang was shaking as I explored his chest. The soft smooth muscles behind his arms, my lips traced those as well, the muscles on his abs which were so defined his physical beauty took my breath away. I traced the scar on his side which he got from that horrible day at the beach so many years ago. That day I almost kissed him again, that day I thought he was going to die, that day I believe my world was going to end. I looked into his eyes and saw him staring at me.

My hand drifted to where his heart laid and I closed my eyes feeling its rapid beating behind my hand. He's alive, he didn't die, and he's here. I picked my head up and kissed where my hand had been, I kissed his heart, I kissed my heart. I heard his quick intake of breath and felt his forehead on mine.

"Fang," I whispered on his lips, "Make love to me." The words flowed from my lips so easily, so carefully that I had no regrets in saying them.

He lifted his head to look at me, "What?" He asked barley audible. His eyes shifted around my face and I could feel his body's reaction to my words.

"Make love to me." I repeated. "Everything's been leading to this. Iggy was right, you were cheated out of this. I don't want to be cheated anymore." My breathing was staggering and my hands were back on his chest roaming the body I wanted so much.

A flicker passed over his eyes and he bent his head to kiss me again. This kiss was so passionate and heated. I griped his arms and yanked him down. He didn't budge but his kiss became harder. My head was spinning, I was becoming dizzy. I let myself go and floated around him. Hands were now tangled in his hair and every silky strand felt like heaven against my fingers. Even my broken hand felt no pain running through it.

He let out a struggling moan and came up for air. I lifted my lips to his but he pulled back at each attempt. We stared at each other and then he nestled his face in my neck.

"Max… oh Max." he whispered in my ear. "I have waited for those words for so long… But we can't."

I stopped running my hands through his hair, I stopped moving my face towards his, I stopped breathing.

"Why," was all that came from my mouth. He wanted this, didn't he? "I thought…" I sputtered out. "You don't want to now?" My voice was becoming more shrilled. I yanked his hair up hard enough to see his face.

He winced in pain, "I do Max. It just… you're still hurt. You have no idea how much I want you but…not with half your body broken."

I still looked at him confused. He untangled my hands from their death grip on his head. He was slowly caressing my face.

"And certainly not with you thinking I want to sleep with you because I feel cheated. No." He took my broken hand and kissed the brace and then my wrist. "And after your promise tonight, I don't have to be so worried."

I tilted my head at his word, "My promise? What did my promise have to do with this?" My voice trembled as the effects of his rejection hit me.

He kissed my quivering lips and shook his head in pain, "Before I was trying to be with you incase you did decide to run off, to save the day again. I know it was wrong of me, I was being a complete idiot but…. if you did leave, I wanted us to have this moment. That moment when we were together. I wanted to be with you before it was too late."

I slowly understood his words and fought back tears, "You thought I would leave too? You thought I would abandon you again?" I let a tear slip and felt Fang's mouth catch it.

"Yes," he said weakly. "But now you feel pain, you feel confused and hurt. You want to make love to me to drown it, to push it away. I love you Maximum Ride and I will wait. I will wait until you're ready."

"But I am ready," I cried. More tears slipped down my face and I knew what he said was true. He was touching me and he could sense my emotions. The strongest ones not focused on him anymore. My hormones were going crazy.

He let a small smile touch his lips and rubbed our noses together, "You think you are. But we both know you're not. Your first experience will not be like this, it will not be because you're scared and you want to be numb. I won't let it."

"I'm sorry," I choked. I felt mad, I've been rejected. Well, not totally rejected, just put on pause for a while. But still, this strong independent hybrid is not use to wanting something so bad and then not getting it. What am I saying, I'm so totally use to wanting something and not getting it…. this just adds to fates cruel joke of my life.

Fang rolled off me and gathered me into his arms. I heard him snicker and fought the urge to wallop him with my good hand. "Now you're angry," he remarked.

"Turn it off Fang," I muttered referring to his eerie power. I didn't try to fight his arms, I just laid there in them.

"Not until you understand," he spoke. "I want to make love to you, more than you'll ever know. But for you, for us, it needs to be special. It should be because of any reason other than how we feel for each other." He pulled me closer and pressed his lips to my ear, "We have been told that I could loose you and I almost did. Both of us are on edge and even though its causing me extreme physical pain I don't want to take advantage of that situation."

"I don't care, Fang. You can take all the advantage you want!" I said, my voice back to normal and my emotions really getting the better of me. "I was ready… I mean I was really ready. I wanted you, I still do if you want to..." I turned in his arms and tried to look at his face. "I'm ready." That came out as a whimper.

He bent down and kissed my lips, "If only that were true," he hummed. "Sleep Max, your body needs to heal," he rested his hand on my stomach, "Our child needs to heal."

I drifted off to sleep, still upset about what happened, or should I say what didn't happen. But it was so close, so very close.

Next time I want to be ready, I will be ready whether Fang wants me to be or not. Things were looking up. The flock knew, the baby was alright, we'll try to call Dr. Martinez tomorrow…. everything will be okay.

I relaxed into Fang my last memories were of him rubbing circles around my small stomach.