Living with Jedi
The Painting
Sabine:
I looked at my helmet. Then I closed my eyes. I pictured Ahsoka's face marks and the different symbols that represents each member of my crew. I started to paint my maroon helmet on my wall. Once I finish it, I started painting Ahsoka's face markings on the area that covers the cheeks.
A orange star bird was soon centrally painted on the front top portion. Underneath it was the dark green symbol from Kanan's arm plat just above the visor. On each side was Hera's head tail markings. My black sparrow was on the far left. Ezra's yellow falcon symbol was on the far right. Under each eye was Chopper's dome. The symbol from Zeb's shoulder was on both sides of the bottom part. Ezra's scar was on the square part of the sight. Under the helmet I decided to paint Kanan's and Ezra's lightsaber hilts crossed with each other. Turned off of course. I had to paint Ezra's from memory but I snuck into Kanan's cabin to 'borrow ' his. I study it for a while making sure I got every detail precise.
"Looks nice Sabine but my saber had a cord between the two metal pieces at the bottom." Ezra says. I didn't even know he was in the room.
"Oh, hey Ezra. When did you come in?" I ask turning around.
"I saw you with Kanan's lightsaber. Wanted to see what you were up to with it." he smiled. "You know he's not going to be happy. I know how to use it and he still doesn't like me taking it without permission."
"I intended to return it before he even noticed."
"You wanted to fool a Jedi by stealing lightsaber? He's already sensed it was gone."
"How do you that?"
"Because there's two things he can sense there presence or lack of better than anything. That lightsaber and yours truly. He told me once that a Jedi's lightsaber is their life." He explains. "I wonder what that means for me. Am I dead or is my life in shambles?"
"That's a lot of pressure to put on a single weapon. Then again a Mando's life is their armor so totally understand. Can it at least be fixed?"
"Maybe but it still won't be the same."
"Then you haven't lost your life. You just had a life changing experience."
"Yeah, well how do I put the pieces back together again?"
"You don't, you repair what you can. Replace what you can or redesign it based on what's left."
"That's the best advice I've ever heard." Ezra says.
"I don't think even master Yoda could have given advice that good." Kanan says finally entering my cabin. "Now can I have my lightsaber back?"
"You mean can you please have your life back." I tease. Holding the lightsaber in both hands and twirling it around. "Actually I kinda like holding your life in my hands. It makes me feel… I don't know? Powerful!"
"Sabine, give it back. That's an order." Kanan says.
"Says the man who's life is in my hands." I should probably stop before he gets mad.
"This is a game." Kanan says.
"Or is it?" I say tossing the lightsaber to Zeb. "Zeb keep it away from the two Jedi." I yell.
"Zeb, if you listen to her your dead. Ezra help me get it." Kanan screams.
"Sorry boss I'm more scared of girl with explosives." Zeb says taking off.
"Yes master. I'll get from him." Ezra says.
The four of us chase each other around the Ghost. Zeb and I tossing the saber back and forth trying to keep it out of the hands of the Jedi. Both of us laughing our heads off.
Then Ezra used the force to pull it to him.
"What are the four of you…" Hera started to ask as Ezra stumbled in to her knocking her down. He catches the saber in the process. "Doing? Ok, better question. What are Sabine and Zeb doing with your lightsaber love and why was it in the air."
"Playing a game of keep away from the Jedi. When did my life get so out of control?" Kanan response.
"Here Kanan." Ezra says handing him back the lightsaber.
"Keep it kid. At least for now. Your still repairing yours and I'm still responsible for your training and life." He responds.
"So you're putting your life in his hands?" I ask. Zeb looks at me with a questioning look.
"Actually I'm putting all our lives in his hands. For the time being." The older Jedi says.
"That's a lot of responsibility for the kid." Zeb says.
"So is being the future of the Jedi. That makes the entire galaxy our responsibility." Kanan says.
"And how is a Jedi supposed to protect an entire galaxy with out his lightsaber?" Hera ask the two of us.
"With the force. However if you don't have the right tool it makes the job harder." Ezra responses.
"Correct. The lightsaber is a Jedi's life. With it as well as the force we can do things that seem impossible. Without either we are lost. There was a time when I put both aside but I always knew where they were. Somehow they slowly worked their way back into my life. Each one of you bring me closer to the Jedi I should have been all along. Ezra was the final piece." Kanan explains. Ezra looks down at the lightsaber. He turns it examining every detail of it. Kanan turns to him knowing what he's doing. Probably more out of habit to watch him. "Training you… I didn't think I could. I still don't know if I can. We've both failed. We made it out alive but both of us were severely scarred."
"I'm sorry I trusted that monster. I should've known better…" Ezra trailed off.
"Ezra, I'm glad you did. We would have never known what master Yoda sent us there for if you didn't. I should have been paying closer attention to his actions. You may have placed to much trust in maul but not all of it was misplaced." Kanan interrupts.
"It was still my mistakes. Years on the street and I make such a stupid mistake. I knew better than to trust anyone." Ezra says.
"Kid this isn't the first time a Jedi has trusted someone they shouldn't. Happens to be you made the same mistake as the Jedi council during the last major war. They put their trust in the Chancellor in the clones. Look what happened there. I think I'd prefer this outcome to that one."
"Ether way I'm glad you're both alive." Hera says.
"Kid you put your trust in us." Zeb says.
"We're family you can always trust us, as you should." I add.
Ezra just smiles. He puts his right hand under his chin palm up & fingertips out. He places the tips of his fingers of his other hand on his lips. The hand on his lips moves down until the back of the fingers touch the inside of his other hand.(ASL for thank you) I take my right hand and move it in a Circular motion between my chin and chest. (ASL for gladly)
* B&w version of Sabine's paintings is the cover photo for this series. I never finished it. Silverwolf, keep your eye on my story undercover. I was already planning on doing that in that story. For the rest of you please send me your request. I'd love some ideas for visions or training sessions. I'm also looking for an idea involving Chopper Zeb or Rex help Ezra cope. As always myfbwy
* Cass
