A/N: The biggest thank you ever to nene82743, PinkVeeBerry, Leila, lovesong101, anon, and AmandaPanda. :D You guys always make me smile.
Oh man, I really neglected updating and I am so so sorry. I feel crappy just thinking of how I could've separated myself from Jay and Jacob. I will be updating sooner and I know I said that last time but I mean it. Life got in the way the past couple months but all issues have been resolved.
I took down Whispered Secrets, I just wasn't getting a strong of a feeling about it as Shattered and really wanted to put all my energy into Jacob and Jaelyn.
I've been thinking of how I'm going to end Shattered and have definetly decided on doing a sequel. All I can say is Shattered will end in a truly "Jaelyn" way. ;)
I would like to thank everyone who's reading this, if anyone still is, and everyone who's stuck with Shattered. Thank you thank you thank you. :D
Disclaimer: I do not own the Twilight saga.
One thing I was always good at growing up was blocking things out so they didn't hurt. I couldn't figure out for the life of me why I couldn't do it now.
I blamed La Push. It was the only excuse I had.
By the time my shift ended and I had closed up the café, I was looking for things to do so I didn't have to go home and tell Jacob how I hadn't told him about the letter. Before I shut off all the lights Jacob walked in a small smile on his face.
"Hey sweetcheeks," He said smirking as he rested with his back leaning against the door.
I rolled my eyes and bit back my smile. "I'll just call you buttercup next time we're at Emily's with all the guys."
"Which will be tonight," Jacob said quickly averting his eyes from me.
"What? We weren't supposed to go were we? Jacob I just want to go home tonight," I moaned like a five year old.
"Quil told me about the other letter," He whispered his eyes finally reaching mine and for the split second I saw an emotion I didn't know flicker across them.
"I am going to castrate him," I growled flicking down the light switch so it was dark in the café.
"He didn't have a choice," Jacob said to his defense walking over to me and wrapping an arm around my waist.
"He did too! I wanted to be the one to tell you, not him."
Jacob stepped in front of me, his eyes serious and angry. I felt my stomach drop and looked down at the ground, not able to hold his gaze.
I should have told him before and not have been such an idiot about it.
"Jaelyn," I felt his finger slide under my chin and try lifting it up but I moved my head away. "I'm not angry at you."
"I don't believe you."
"Quil had to tell me, he's already here."
I snapped my head up to face him. "Already here?"
He nodded slowly and I shook my head. I felt his arms wrap around me and pull me tightly against his chest; his warmth surrounding me should have been comforting. Jacob was always the one to make me feel better but right now I just felt claustrophobic.
I pushed away from him and walked out of the café. I ignored him as I walked to my car and got in the passenger seat, something I never did, and waited for him to get in the driver's side.
"Jaelyn? Jay, I'm sorry. I-"
"I know Jacob," I whispered moving my arm when he reached for it. Jacob didn't start the car, just sat there looking at me. "Where is he?"
"In a motel right outside of Forks, he called Sam's house but Emily was the one who took the call."
"What did he say to her?"
"That he's coming down tomorrow morning," He whispered and this time when he reached for my hand I let it wrap around my, trying to move the warmth coming from his hand warm up my whole body.
"Lets go to Sam's," I huffed knowing that there was no point for me to take my frustration out on Jacob when all he ever did was try to help me.
"Are you sure?" He asked raising an eyebrow.
"No but if you just wanted to head back to my house and stay in bed for the next couple days with me I wouldn't mind at all," I said making a crazy kissy face at him.
He chuckled and leaned over and gave me a quick kiss on the cheek. "I wouldn't mind either."
The ride to the house was quiet and I felt the overwhelming to scream just to break it. Neither Jacob nor I knew what the right words were to say to make the other feel more comfortable.
"I'm sorry. I was being a pain in the ass at the café and I should have told you before about the first letter," I huffed out in one breath. Apologizing wasn't something I did that often, and in fact I think I've apologized more since I've been in La Push than I have my whole life. I guess it's easier to make mistakes when you're surrounded by people you actually care about.
"It's okay," Jacob said and I'm glad he didn't try to defend my actions like he normally does when I apologize. It was comforting in a weird way to be able to take the full responsibility that I was being selfish.
"Who else is going to be at the house?"
"Sam and Emily of course; Alyson, Quil, Billy, you and I," Jacob huffed. "Dad's going because he's an elder and Alyson asked if he could, he was there when Joshua left the first time and Quil asked if he could to be there for you."
"Awh, my little Quil." I said in a baby voice not evoking the most pleasant look from Jacob. I chuckled, "Oh hush Jacob. You know you're just being jealous. I love you."
"Promise?" He asked roughly.
I studied his profile, his eyes focused steadily on the road before I answered, "Of course." I leaned over and pecked a kiss on his cheek and saw him smile.
Before I knew it we were parked in front of Emily's. The yellow lights were shining through the windows of the little cottage but they didn't seem as warm or inviting as the usually do. I took in a deep breath and Jacob squeezed my hand. I looked at him and he nodded ever so slightly. Before I could think about what I was doing I stepped out of the car. Jake walked around to meet me and grabbed my hand as we silently walked up to the door.
He didn't even bother knocking, just swung open the door and walked in. I guess I wasn't paying attention because I didn't realize when he stopped walking and froze up and I walked right into him.
Graceful, I know,
Confused I looked up at him and followed the gaze of his eyes and I froze when I saw what they were focused on.
He was already here.
Joshua looked the same as he always did, just a lot older.
A lot older.
His black hair was now streaked with gray and the lines on his face had deepened. His skin didn't have the healthy tan glow like I once remembered, but was dull and gaunt with an almost yellow undertone to it and his clothes looked at least two sizes too big for him.
I felt my hands harden up to fists at my sides when he looked right into my eyes and smirked at me.
"Well, well. Isn't it my lovely daughter Jaelyn," He smirked cocking his head to the side staring at me. "You're all grown up now."
"Yeah, unlike you," I snarled.
He chuckled and shook his head. "Still got the mouth on you huh? You had it on you ever since I can remember. Let me tell you," he said his eyes suddenly going darker as they were trained on me, "It won't get you anywhere."
"Got me farther than you ever did," I quipped smiling. "So do tell me Joshua…"
"Dad." He interrupted.
"Joshua," I held firmly. "Why'd you decide to come pay us a visit? Run out of drugs? Need some money or just somewhere to hide up in for a couple days?"
"Jaelyn," Sam said and my eyes darted over to him. I had completely forgotten there were other people with us in the room. My eyes flickered around and saw everyone Jacob said would be there besides Alyson. I wonder where she was.
"This isn't the way to handle this," Billy said as Jacob's arm snaked around my waist pulling me against his body a little rougher than I'm sure he intended.
"Always had to be the wise one, didn't ya Billy? I would appreciate it if I could talk to my kids alone."
"Not going to happen," Jacob growled.
Joshua's eyes flickered over Jacob and his cocky smirk fell off of his face. "YOU imprinted on her?" He suddenly doubled over in laughter and I looked over to see Billy holding on to the sides of his wheelchair, his knuckles white. "Good luck with that one."
Jacob's arm left my body and before I could blink to see what was happening, Quil was in front of Jake, trying to push him back out the door.
Sam stood up but didn't do anything, I could see the pain on his face. I don't think he knew what to do.
"Stop!" I yelled at Quil and Jake pushing my way between them. Jacob was shaking but for some reason I knew he wasn't going to phase. I put my hands on his face and made him look at me. "It doesn't do anyone good to start a fight. Let me and Sam talk to him alone."
"What? No!" He and Quil said at the same time.
"Yes. Having everyone else in here is only going to raise the tension. You need to let us talk to him alone."
"Dad?" Jacob asked looking at him but Billy's eyes were trained on me. I stared back at him trying to plead to him silently. He nodded and glanced at Sam before his son.
"It's their right Jacob."
I saw Sam nod and then turn to Emily, whispering something in her ear so low I couldn't hear. Jacob grabbed my chin and turned me to him. "I'm going to be right outside."
I sighed and nodded all the words I wanted to say suddenly leaving my mind. I could feel the anger coming off of him as he looked up and glared at Joshua and his disagreement with leaving me and Sam alone with him.
I gave his arm what I hoped to be a reassuring squeeze. Emily walked over and grabbed his hand leading him out and Quil pushed Billy out smiling at me before he shut the door behind him but it wasn't his usual stupid Quil grin and I felt any strength I had inside me leave with Jacob.
I should have never suggested leaving us alone with me.
I was fucked.
Sam's POV
Red.
Red was all I was seeing.
As far as I was concerned, Joshua could've been a giant pig with fairy wings and I wouldn't know because all I was seeing was red.
Shoot me now.
I looked over at Jaelyn and realized we really were in this together, together but all alone.
I kept bouncing ideas around in my head. Idea one including phasing and tearing at Joshua so all of us could live peacefully again.
Idea two included having him in my life as my father, him and my mom getting back together and being a happy family again.
Idea one had a far better chance of actually happening.
I was fucked.
A/N: Joshua's here! Let me know what you think, the next chapter will be up by next Monday, but probably sooner because I'm too excited to leave it off there. -_-
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