Chapter 28 - How Can I Move On?

Edward's POV:

How was I going to survive knowing that B… She was gone?

"Carlisle what's happened? Is Edward okay Carlisle please tell me"

Esme's voice was filled with worry, I wanted to just get up and give my mom a hug while telling her everything was alright. Not just me but everyone hated when something or someone had upset Esme.

I felt more arms twist around my own while I starred into the starless sky. I broke my heart just to think about her; I was planning on jumping back into the water and going back to search for her, even if it took forever.

I felt the earth beneath me, that was the point when I realised we were back on land while B…. She was still out there. Somewhere.

"Edward?…. Edward will you at least sit up so I can speak to you please?"

I stayed where I was not going to move for anyone, a small sigh came from my left side.

"Edward I know you can read my mind, you know what I want to talk to you about; I don't want to cause you anymore pain than your already suffering, please just hear me out your worrying Esme and even Carlisle to death will you just sit up please?"

I studied her words for a few seconds then did as she asked, I sat up to meet her crimson red eyes. blinked several times for no apparent reason, she brought her tiny little pixie arms around my and hugged me for a brief second.

She gave me a small smile; then looked behind her I followed her gaze. My family were obviously discussing something, I totally ignored all of there thoughts.

Esme was holding onto something or someone I wasn't sure but to be honest I couldn't be bothered to search through everyone's thoughts.

"Can we hunt then talk?"

"okay"

I whispered softly; while I nodded at Alice and gave her a weak but false smile, Suddenly everyone's eyes were on me. Esme handed over whatever she had hold of to Rose and came to my side at full speed, she hugged me tightly scared to let go.

"Edward…"

She didn't know what to say.

"Shall we go now Edward?"

I nodded and Alice started running off into the woods; jasper gave me a glance at bit worried, I just ran off after Alice. She didn't run far, she didn't even hunt first, she just sat on a rock with her legs tucked into her chest with her arms holding them there.

I sat opposite her; she looked up at me from her knees even though she couldn't cry I knew she wanted to,

"Edward… Bella wouldn't want you like this"

She gestured at me then took an unnecessary breath.

"If she's d… dead then she'll be up there looking down on us, she wouldn't want you like a zombie she'd want you to be happy, to move on with your life but to save a small piece of your heart for her. Please Edward not just for Bella but for Esme too"

Her voice was trembling slightly, that's when she started to sob; I got up and went over to her I pulled her up into a hug and she sobbed for at least 10 minuets onto my shoulder.

But her words that she spoke about Bella was the absolute truth; it tore my chest apart just to speak her name, but Alice was right she was an angle sent down from heaven they just had to take her back.

After Alice felt better we decided to run back to the family, the hole in my chest would never be able to fully repair it's self there would always be that space there the pain was the only reminder for me that she was real.

I knew this was where I was suppose to start new; but no I had to grieve first.

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Days Passed without no meaning at all,

Seconds seemed like hours

Minuets seemed like days

Hours seemed like forever.

I never moved once again I was lifeless, I had come up with a theory.

There was no more meaning to my life; there was no way on god's earth that she would of survived she was truly dead.

I wanted to be wrong; but this time nothing could hide the truth.

Bella's POV:

The fire suddenly started as soon as something pierced my skin, but instead of it burning me alive it felt like a soothing liquid I was just floating in. My angel kept on repeating sorry over and over again, but this wasn't his fault was it?

The liquid was actually soothing I wouldn't mind staying here forever but I missed Edward as soon as I mentioned his named I tried to bring is face into view but I just couldn't.

I started to panic, I tried pulling Alice's face into view but couldn't blackness surrounded everything, every memory every sound, just completely everything.

I felt a firm grip on me I could only hope that it was Edward, that he'd never let me go.

A few minuets passed, that firm grasp had let go, I couldn't move I couldn't scream, I couldn't breath. I started to feel like I was drowning in the soothing liquid around me, I tried moving but my arms were completely still.

I didn't like this one bit, I wanted Alice I needed Edward, there was no point of my existence if Edward wasn't there. I wanted to cry out to someone but my lips were sealed shut; I felt a small force pushing me slightly.

I knew I was alone from now on, a feeling in my gut was telling me that everyone was dead, Alice Ed…. who? what was going on? where was I? What was happening to me? my mind was asking so many questions I didn't have a single answer for even one of them.

I was completely freaking out; I just wanted to open my eyes. That's when it clicked… I was dead. if I couldn't breath or open my eyes I was clearly dead. I had forgotten how I died, but I knew there was no way back now.

I was lost forever.

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