CHAPTER 28- MAKING LOVE

She surveyed the daffodils silently for a while, avoiding Booth´s strong gaze on her purposefully. For a moment, all she wanted was to tell him to go to hell, her mind still swirling with the earlier events, and the anger she felt menacing to surface again. But then, her always rational side took place, and she forcefully remembered Angela´s and Cam´s advices , telling her to try and understand. They were right. She couldn´t turn every fight they were meant to have in a huge event. Plus, and she hated to even imagine to admit it, she hates to not be talking with Seeley Booth. She would never say it outloud, but the true is that she had missed him already. His charm smile, their partnership on the case, his phone calls asking her if she had ate and making small talk. And she feels scared to hell by realizing that. But still, she doesn´t want to run. So , temperance takes a long breath and raises her eyes, feeling immediately warmed by his brown ones, with an expression of pure sorry on them.

" Is that supposed to appease me?" She asks as she accept the flowers, their fingers touching on the process, and she feels goose bumps all over her skin.A clear sign of weakness, she thinks. She cannot resist that man. He smiles a bit, with caution, as she stand still in front of him.

" is it working?" Booth looks at he r eyes trying to decipher something, anything that gives away how she really feels. Despite he is often great in reading her, now he is finding surprisingly difficult. But then again, he had never been on this situation before, a bashful husband trying to make amends with his offended wife. He is sure that he saw a shadow of a smile pass by her eyes at his question, but it´s feeble, and soon enough she´s with her poker face once more.

" maybe. I still haven´ made my mind." She is honest. Her insides are screaming at her to just let it go and grab booth, kiss him fiercely and give in to her body´s needs, but hey, she has some dignity left. Plus, he deserves a hard time, in her opinion. She walks to her couch and seats, and Booth finds himself hesitating awkwardly in front of her, until slowly making his way to seat carefully by her side. Her eyes are two piercing pieces of ice, blue and cold, and he fights the urge to shudder.

" Look, Bones… I shouldn´t have said what I did. I´m really sorry." He blurts out before she can start anything, scream at him, punch him, or the worst in his opinion, just ignore him. He just needs to get this out of his system because honestly it´s eating him alive. H e really screwed this time. She looks at him without moving one muscle, her fingers playing with the flowers she´s holding, and all Booth wants is to pull her on a tight embrace. But he also knows that it would be a mistake to do so right now. He needs to follow her timing. She suddenly tenses up a little more, her jaw clenched and her grasp on the daffodils increasing.

" You should be sorry. It wasn´t fair at all, Booth. Everything you´ve said." She tries to keep her mind cool and free of emotion, like she does when she´s giving a lecture. Booth opens his mouth ready to retort, but she is fast and places her hand slightly over his mouth to keep him from talking. " No. let me finish. I need to say it." She watches as his face moves in surprise, but he closes his mouth and nod, as if telling her to go on. Brennan takes a deep breath, feeling her chest heavy with all the things that have been haunting her on that day. " You can´t just want to do everything for me, Booth. I know that´s a characteristic of you, to be naturally protective. And I appreciate the fact that you care about my welfare, I really do. But you have to understand that I like my independence, and more importantly, that I can take care of myself. I´ve been doing that long before you appeared in my life.I do know that I can´t change who you are either, and that you will always be that way. But you need to trust me. If I say that I have things under control, than I do and period. I cannot and should not try to change who you are, and you have to do the same for me. Husbands and wives have to accept each other the way they are. At least, that´s how I´ve always thought that a marriage was." She feels more confident as she speaks, and the fear of not knowing what to say starts to vanish. Booth´s face softens a little at her speech, and he nods apologetically , as it telling her he´s following.And now, getting to the hardest part, temperance. Choose your words carefully.

" But I must say that this was the thing that hardly bothered me on the firt place, Booth. I`ve know you for long enough to be already used with your strong alpha male tendencies. What I cannot accept is your attitude towards your lack of faith in my commitment with our marriage. It had completely offended me, because I think I`ve made myself very clear about it from the moment I said I was going to try. And you implying that I don´t care about it was utterly outrageous, not to say disappointing. You know me better than this, Booth. Did you honestly think that I´m inhuman enough to not give importance to an oath we both did? did you really think I would belittle the importance of a matrimony I´ve agreed to stay on?" That w as the true core of the matter, she thought. Was Booth thinking that it was all a big joke for her? That she would simply disregard his feelings about their marriage even though she´ve agreed to go along and give it a shot? Booth was faster than her this time, not giving her time to run away, his hands grabbing hers and pulling them closer. She didn´t try to fight against him, just gazing seriously at his eyes. The boyish smile was gone now.

" No. I don´t. I know you would never do such a thing. I was way out of line in there, and I see it now. I was just…hot blooded. I mean…it´s just it still scares the hell out of me sometimes, temperance. You and me. This marriage. It was all so sudden. Not that I´m complaining, because I´m not. Despite all the confusion, I think it´s great so far. And I trust you. It´s just… we´ve been together all these years as friends, and you always made yourself very clear about what you thought about marriage. Hell, You´ve always said that you would never do it! And then, out of nowhere, we´re married to each other. And I guess I just…lost it. I kept remembering the things you used to say about it, and just forgot that you´ve promised that you would give it a try. That you told me that you were in. I just…freaked out. I´m sorry.I guess I still don´t believe that you´re here with me for good. Because it´s too freaking good to be true." He braced himself with his last words, for he had practically admitted how hooked he really was. How amazingly happy he felt by just realizing he was now Temperance Brennan´s husband. Bones seemed awed by his words herself, her fingers entwining with his forcefully. Because she suddenly realized that it felt good for her too. And never in her life she thought she would feel that way. And while it was definitely frightening, it was also a marvelous feeling. To be so near from someone.

" I understand that, Booth. I really do. It´s weird for me too. But as I´ve said, You know me better than that. I never go back in my word. And more importantly, I never start something thinking about not being successful. So, if I´m in this marriage, if I said yes to it…I´m planning on doing everything right. I´m not even thinking on failing. I don´t want us to fail. You need to be sure of that every time you start to remember my ideas about matrimony. I´m not going to deny that it´s hard for me to let go of my beliefs, but I´m willing to try. Ok?" Her voice was soft yet firm, and she felt as if the true moment had came. It all depended on how Booth would take this speech. She didn´t even realized how fast her heart was beating until his face relaxed in a large smile and he leaned to kiss her forehead. She never thought that such a gesture could be so tender.

" Ok. And you have my complete permission to kick my ass if I start to act like a crazy jerk again." She laughed as she leaned herself to finally allow him to kiss her,really kiss her. His lips were hungry and possessive, and it only matched her own desire, all the words unsaid being released as their tongues made it´s dance. They were both completely breathless by the time it ended, and Booth felt like ripping her clothes right there and right now, nevermind the security guards inside the institute. She seemed to catch his feelings on the air, a sly smile all over her face as she stood and pulled him with her, leading them both quickly to the door.

" For what Ange had explained to me about a married couple´s fight, we still have one last task to accomplish. I´m looking forward to it, to be sincere." He let her guide him to the parking lot, feeling slightly dizzy with her proximity, as she took her car keys and dig his own inside his pocket.

" Great make up sex." She kissed him again, taunting him, driving him crazy. " let´s go home, Seeley."

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They laid still at each others arms, tired but amazingly happy, in a state where no words were necessary. To be true, they were also a little afraid of speaking and breaking the magic by admitting something that was crossing both of their minds. Because this time, it was different from every other.

They barely managed to get to the apartment door fully clothed, making out on the elevator as if tomorrow would never come. They didn´t even know how they managed to get inside the apartment or at the bed, so engrossed they were with each other bodies and sensations. In seconds, all the offending clothes were on a messy pile on the floor, and he was moving inside her, slowly, his mouth over hers as her hands grabbed his back pulling him closer if it was even possible. As if in accord, they kept their eyes opened as they slowly reached the apex, their pupils meeting as temperance wrapped her legs around his hips and whispered his name, her voice rougher than usual as he exploded in her with pleasure, their eyes never leaving each other. And that was when they both realized it. It struck both like a lightening, a strong perception as they moved slowly making way for more , their mouths wandering around their bodies, becoming only one marvelous being. They weren´t having sex. They were making love. Never in her life Temperance Brennan thought that this would happen to her. Never in his life Seeley Booth thought that making love could be so full of meaning and happiness.

And now, they laid there, the awareness of what had just happened haunting them as they tried not to break the spell and think about the consequences. Love. The feeling all human seek sometimes for an entire life, and they had just found it. They just didn´t know what to do with it or how to react.

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They seated silently at sweets´s office, hands on their laps and an absolutely bored look on their faces as the young therapist waited for any of them to say something. Sweets sighed audibly, knowing that one more time those two wouldn´t cooperate at all. He studied their body languages trying to find any weakeness, but no such look. Besides the obvious boredom, they seemed perfectly fine. There w asn´t even the sexual tension anymore, since now they could touch themselves as much as they wanted, he supposed.

" Ok, you guys. Seriously. Start talking." Booth rolled his eyes at Sweets statement, and turned to his Bones to whisper at her ears as if the young man wasn´t there.

" You know what? I think that Cullen is punishing us, after all. I mean, could this be more boring?" Temperance just huffed and nodded in agreement, her voice a little louder than Booth´s.

" I will have to agree on that. I could be working right now, there´s this new set of remains that just came from a digging at China, it´s supposed to be…" She never had the chance to finish her sentence, for Sweets interrupted their little reunion.

" You know what? Pretending that I´m not here is not going to work. Do I have to remind you that you are under evaluation? And that my opinion as a psychologist is very important to deputy director Cullen? So, if I were you, I would start talking." It was a low blow, but with those two, sometimes you just had to do it, he realized. It worked, for they both seated upright and finally gazed seriously at the therapist.

" Fine, Sweets. What you want to know?" Booth decided to nail the subject directly, so maybe the torture would end sooner. The kid just raised his hands and eyebrows, as if he was saying that it was very obvious.

" What about the main reason that you two are under evaluation? Meaning your wedding. How are things?" He looked at them suggestively, and the couple just gave him skeptical looks, answering in unison.

" Fine." Sweets made a silent prayer, asking any Gods that may exist for patience. He knew they were being purposefully obtuse. He would have to really poke.

" C´mon, you guys. It´s got to be something you wanna share. What about Parker´s coming this weekend. Meaning tomorrow. Are you nervous, dr. Brennan?" He tried to pull the subject, but only found surprise in the anthropologist´s eyes.

" Why should I be nervous at all? It´s just a weekend. Parker doesn´t make me nervous. I like him, he´s a good child. Which actually reminds me that w e should go to my apartment and see if everything is set for him. See? We could be doing useful things instead of being here." She gave him a smug smile, and Booth was fast to follow her.

" yeah, sweets. See? We´re trying to have a successful marriage and providing my son everything he needs. You can write that down, we´re fine. Let´s go, Bones." Booth took Temperance´s hands ready to get up, but Sweet´s voice was fast.

" Ok, you know what? I really didn´t want to have to bring this, but you´re making me. Seat down, agent Booth. This session is not over." He tried to sound stern, but it was kind of scary to do so when Booth was giving him a death look. " rumor has it that the two of you had a big fight a few days ago. Care to share why?" Sweets watched with some satisfaction while their mouths opened slightly with that revelation.

" How in heavens name could you know about that? It was private!" Brennan seemed truly outraged, and Sweets was sure that she could very well kill someone right now. Agent Booth´s jaw was clenched and a small vein was popping in his forehead.

" have you been spying on us, sweets? Because if so, I swear to God that I´ll shoot you right now." For a moment, Lance Sweets really felt sorry for sharing that piece of information. They were a dangerous couple, after all. One wasn´t supposed to mess with this kind of people. But really, all he was trying to do was his job. So , he managed to keep a calm face and his voice even.

" Not at all, agent Booth. I don´t need to spy on anyone. But I must remind you that these walls have ears." What he would really like to say was that the gossip line on the headquarters was big and efficient, but he preferred this professional phrase. Booth just grumbled something before speaking outloud.

" yeah, meaning these walls have people with no lives and ears glued into it." Booth spoke with greeted teeth, reaching for Temperance knee with one of his hands. She looked ready to jump of the couch to go hunting.

" It really doesn´t matter how I´ve managed to know about it, agent Booth. The point is, you had a fight And I´m very interested to know the cause of it." Booth had to breathe deeply in order to keep his mind cool.

" It´s personal, ok, sweets? It´s none of your business. We´re not talking about something private with you." His Bones raised her eyebrows cooly at the young man,an expression that Seeley Booth had learnt long ago not to go against.

" Booth is right. It belongs to us. It´s not a subject open to conversation. And I would like very much to know who was the one who told you about it." Never in her life she felt so violated like now. What was wrong with people? Sweets counted to ten in his mind, the same question about Booth and Brennan on his brain.

" Guys,this is therapy. You´re supposed to talk about your personal lives in here. Really, how hard can that be?" But he already knew the answer with those two. Almost impossible.

" I don´t feel comfortable discussing my personal life with you, dr. Sweets. No offense. I really hate psychology." Brennan stated one more time her opinion about his field of work, and Sweets started to wonder if he was going to need therapy himself after dealing with those two. They were exhausting. Booth opened his charm smile to his wife, clearly approving her answer.

" yeah. And it doesn´t matter anyway, sweets. We´ve made up long ago. It´s all solved. No harm done." His smile got bigger if it was even possible, and lance Sweets knew that it was a lost battle, at least for now. He would have to wait for the next fight. But he would not give up on the session.

" Fine. Let´s try a different approach. We´re doing a game with words. Each of you will tell a set of words and the other will answer the fisrt thing that comes in mind."

TBC…

Sorry for copying that from the show, but I really love words game…it´s revealing, really!

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