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Chapter 28: Falling to Pieces

Adam sighed as he looked out the window. Spring was here and he was sitting indoors. He loved not having to go to school but he hated having to spend three hours with a tutor three times a week. He and his tutor spent three hours cooped up in the study going over his work. He had been assigned certain things for certain subject. He had gotten little booklets for certain subjects as well. He had a algebra booklet and a science one. For English he was just reading novels and writing essays on them. For his health credit he had to track his pregnancy. He didn't mind. It was just writing about his day and the baby. It was easy.

Once his tutor left Adam packed his things up and put them on the table in the corner of the room. He then made his way out to living room. He sat down on the couch with a sigh. James was out running some errands and Kendall was at work. Adam was home alone. He sighed and turned the TV on. There was nothing on but talk shows really. He picked on and let his mind wander a bit.

Adam did miss school a bit. He missed the social interactions and all the sports activities. He had gone to Jake and Cooper's last two basketball games. They won sectionals and state. Jake and Cooper were now two time State champs now in Basketball since they had won state last year too. Now Jake was onto baseball and Cooper was in soccer. Kyle had even joined soccer to see if he was still good at it. Leora was they're cheerleader with Adam.

Adam still hung out with Damien, but things were awkward now that Jake had dumped him. He had been surprised when Damien told him that Jake had dumped him. Jake and Damien had seemed happy when he last saw them together. Adam tried not to bring up Damien when Jake was around and vice versa with Damien. It was hard though, he was so used to talking with them both about one another. It was a little hard to believe they had broken up.

Jake had been acting different too. Something seemed off about him, ever since he and Damien broke up. He had been acting weird. Jake had become a bit secretive and just took off without telling anyone where he was going. He would also lock himself in his room for hours on end. Adam wasn't the only one who noticed it either. Kyle and Leora had commented on it to him as well. Even Cooper thought something was up. Adam wasn't sure if Kendall and James noticed. They probably had, just didn't say anything.

Adam leaned back on the couch as the baby started kicking. He placed his hand on his stomach. "I know, I know, but papa doesn't want to walk right now," Adam said looking down at his stomach which had started to show more, he was almost six months along now. He smiled as he felt his hand get kicked. Cooper had finally felt the baby kick, a few days ago. He had been so excited and hardly left Adam's side after that. Adam hadn't minded that. He liked having Cooper near him. Ever since then everyone wanted to touch his stomach when the baby started kicking. Even Lilly and Layla when they came over. The kicking didn't stop and Adam sighed. He knew one way to get it to stop. It was a trick James had told him and Kendall. Walking. It calmed the baby down. James had said it was something about the gently movements and what not.

Adam stood up and walked around the living room a bit. Soon she was no longer kicking. He was relieved but he kept walking around a bit more before sitting down. He had a little time to sit before she would start kicking again. It was almost as if the baby knew he was being lazy.

Adam heard the front door open. He heaved himself up once more and walked to the door where James was coming in. He had a few grocery bags in one hand and his keys in the other. He looked up at Adam.

"How was your session?" James asked.

"Boring, like usual," Adam said. James frowned.

"You could always stop and do summer school," James said.

"No thanks," Adam said shaking his head. Adam was not going to do summer school he was gonna be too big by then. Besides, the thought of school during summer was not a good though. Summer were supposed to be fun. He walked back to the living room. James put the food he had bought away and joined Adam in the living room.

"So, how's my little granddaughter," James asked.

"She's fine, and she can kick all she wants I am not getting up again," Adam said looking down at his stomach as the kicking started up again. James laughed and shook his head.

"Here lay down, this is another trick I learned," James said. Adam laid down on the couch. James started to rub Adam's stomach and press lightly at his sides. The kicking died down. Adam looked up at James shocked.

"It's just movement that calms the baby, if you want I could teach Cooper to do this," James offered. Adam nodded his head quickly. Not only did the baby stop kicking, but it felt good too.

-Landslide-

Jake sighed as he paced back and forth in his bedroom. He was thinking over the last two weeks since he and Damien had broken up. He hadn't talked to Damien since. Damien seemed to be avoiding him at all costs. He didn't know why he was avoiding him, he wanted Damien back already.

Would Damien take him back though? That was the question. The answer was probably no. Jake had been a real ass towards Damien the last few weeks they had been together. To top it all off Jake had tried to force himself on Damien. In retrospect, that hadn't really been the smartest thing to do. Jake had just been eager to lose his v-card. He didn't want to go to college a virgin.

Someone knocked on his door. Jake sighed and walked over to his door. He unlocked it and open the door. Adam was standing there.

"Can I help you?" Jake asked.

"Yeah, supper's ready," Adam said.

"Not hungry." Jake moved to close his door only to have Adam stop him. Jake let out a growl of annoyance. "Adam I am not in the mood for this," he said.

"What is your problem lately?" Adam asked glaring at him.

"I don't know what you're talking about," Jake said.

"Don't play dumb, you've been acting different ever since you and Damien broke up," Adam said.

"There's your reason right there," Jake said rolling his eyes.

"No it's not, Day said you dumped him," Adam said crossing his arm over his stomach.

"Doesn't mean that I still can't be upset over it, now go away," Jake said glaring at his younger brother.

"You know, if you continue down whatever path your on Jake, you might just lose more than a boyfriend," Adam said shaking his head. He turned and walked away. Jake slammed his door shut in anger. He locked it once more. He walked over to his bed and fell onto it.

Jake couldn't keep this up much longer. Someone was bound to find out sooner or later. His family was already getting suspicious of him. He knew it was only a matter of time before one of them figured things out.

He sighed as his phone buzzed in his pocket. Jake pulled it out and looked at it. He had a text message from Marty. He bit his lip debating on whether or not he should read it. Marty was trouble. Jake knew that, but that didn't stop him from going to that party with him.

Jake had gone with Marty to that party. He didn't know what had come over him and made him do it, but he did. There had been a lot of people there. They had all been drinking or doing drunks of some sort. Jake had vaguely wondered how Marty had gotten mixed up with those people. They had all minded their own business really. Jake had had a few drinks that night. He eventually relaxed and had a good time. He had danced and even made out with someone. Jake wasn't sure who it was, but at the time it had been fun. Jake also wasn't sure that his drink had been spiked or not. It wasn't because he blacked out or anything, but he didn't get the feeling he had gotten last time he was drunk. It was a different kind of high. It wasn't altogether that bad.

Jake sighed and shook his head. That party was a one time thing. He had been upset over what happened with him and Damien. Jake had even told Marty that, but he couldn't take a hint. Marty was always letting him know when another party was happening. That was what the text had to be.

Jake tossed his phone onto his dresser and ignored it as it buzzed again. He wasn't going to another one of Marty's parties. As fun as it had been Jake didn't want to get caught. His dads would kill him. He also didn't want to lose his admission to UCLA. He had worked hard to get accepted. He wasn't going to blow it by starting drugs.

Jake looked over at his cell phone. He was curious as to what the message held. He bit his lip as he debated grabbing it and looking at the messages.

-Landslide-

Carlos was bouncing up and down as he ran into the hospital. He was eager to share his wonderful news with Logan. He had texted Logan and told him to take his lunch break and to meet him in the cafeteria.

Carlos navigated his way through the hospital until he reached the cafeteria on the second floor. He saw Logan sitting at a table with a sandwich and cup. Carlos smiled and moved over to the table and sat down.

"Carlos," Logan said looking up at him with a smile. Carlos had a big smile on his face too. "What?" he asked.

"You'll never guess what happened today," Carlos said.

"What?" Logan repeated.

"Well I was at an audition for a new TV show," Carlos said slowly. He saw a small smile tug at Logan's lips. "I was auditioning for the part of a single dad who was a former rockstar and is now a stay at home dad raising his kids," he explained.

"Ok that part is almost perfect for you," Logan said.

"I know and the director thinks so too, I got a call back," Carlos said excitedly.

"Oh my god that's great," Logan said jumping up and moving around the table to hug his husband.

"I know, and it's perfect too since the part involves talking about being on the road and I was one the road so often with you and the guys. I want this part so bad," Carlos said.

"You'll get it," Logan assured Carlos.

"I hope so, it really is perfect for me," Carlos sighed.

"Come on I'll buy you lunch," Logan said grabbing Carlos' arm. He pulled Carlos up to the line and bought him some food. They both sat down once more talking about the role.

Carlos wanted it so bad. It was perfect for him. He had lived that, well not the single part really. He had Logan, but he had done the rockstar thing and been a stay at home dad afterwards. He had even raised the girls for awhile before he got into doing stunts.

-Landslide-

Cooper was sitting in class with Damien. They usually had Adam her, but since he was getting tutored it was just them. They were sitting in the back of the room together. Cooper looked at their teacher who had her back to them. She was writing on the board.

"What happened with you and Jake?" Cooper asked finally. He had been curious about what happened and Jake wasn't talking to him. Jake wasn't really talking to anyone anymore. He just locked himself in his room after baseball practice. He hardly left his room. He only left it when he was going out usually to the mall.

"I don't know, I mean I know he came over to have sex and I was more than willing to but he was going about it like it was something he had to do rather than something he wanted to do," Damien said.

"Ok," Cooper said slowly. He wasn't sure where this was going.

"We got into a fight and he left. He told me things weren't working between us," Damien said.

"Wow," Cooper said. That didn't really sound like Jake, at least not the one he knew. Jake had changed a lot in the last two weeks.

"He said he'd go find someone who'd be willing to help him," Damien mumbled.

"What do you mean? Like have sex with him?" Cooper whispered. Damien nodded his head. Cooper was shocked. That didn't sound like Jake at all. From what Cooper knew of Jake's previous relationships, Jake refused to have sex because he wasn't ready and that's why they broke up with Jake.

"I'm just worried about him," Damien admitted.

"Why?" Cooper asked confused.

"I still care about him and I'm afraid that he'll do something stupid," Damien said looking down at his hands.

"Jake's not that dumb, he won't do anything stupid," Cooper said.

"There's a rumor going around he went to a party with Marty Taylor," Damien said.

Cooper let out a small gasp at that. That really didn't sound like Jake. Cooper knew that all the Knight kids had stopped going to Marty's parties after he discovered weed right before Christmas.

"That's just a rumor," Cooper said shaking his head. He didn't want to believe that Jake was that dumb.

"Adam doesn't think so," Damien said.

Cooper opened his mouth to reply but closed it. Damien was right. It made sense as to why Jake had been acting so weird. He was starting to shut his family out. He was easy to set off as well.

"God I hope it's just a rumor," Cooper murmured. Damien nodded his head. They both turned their attention to the lesson their teacher was giving.

-Landslide-

Leora sighed as she made her way to her study hall with Kyle and Miles. She didn't really feel in the mood to talk to them right now. She opted to take a seat in back of the room alone.

The bell rang for the class to officially start, but everyone continued to talk. It was just study hall. No one really did much studying anyways.

Leora sank into her desk. She was thinking about Adam and Cooper's baby. They were having a girl. She was excited about that. She was going to get a little niece. She was going to be able to dress her up in cute little dresses and tell Adam what to get her. She would make sure her niece was dressed cutely and perfectly.

Then there was her little sibling. She wasn't sure if she was getting another brother or a sister. She kind of wanted another brother. She wasn't sure what to think of another brother though. Boys were loud and messy and she already had three of them. Then again she would be moved out by the time he was old enough to pick up those bad habits. She could also help teach him not to be messy. That would be a good thing, break him of the habit early.

She did not want a sister. She was Kendall's princess and it was going to stay that way. She was his special little ladybug. She wasn't going to share her title of princess with anyone, even if she was getting older. She still wanted to be Kendall's princess.

So it was decided, she was hoping for another brother. She didn't want to share her spotlight with anyone. She was Kendall's princess and it was going to stay that way. She was his special little Ladybug.

"Le."

Leora looked up from her desk to see Kyle now sitting in front of her.

"Something wrong?" Leora asked.

"Can you tell Cooper that I'm not coming home after school," Kyle asked.

Leora nodded her head. Ever since Jake had started acting different he had stopped giving the twins rides to school. Cooper was more than willing to do it.

"So where are you going?" Leora asked.

"Miles and I are gonna go to Jay's physical therapy with her. She needs all the support she can get right now," Kyle said.

"Ok I'll let him know," Leora said nodding her head once more. She knew that Jayda was having a hard time with her therapy. She was still upbeat about everything else though.

Leora spent the rest of the hour thinking about her new sibling and doodling in her notebook. Eventually the bell rang and Leora left her class. She was walking down the hall when someone tapped her shoulder. Leora jumped and turned and saw Caleb grinning at her.

"Oh god you scared me," Leora said placing a hand over her heart. Caleb apologized as he laughed. "So what do you want," she asked.

"A date with my girlfriend, if she can forgive me for scaring her," Caleb said giving her a puppy dog pout.

"I forgive you," Leora said laughing.

"Great," Caleb said slinging his arm over Leora's shoulders. They started walking together. "So my pa got tickets to this concert for this new band called TBA," he said.

"A concert? I don't know if my dads will let me," Leora started.

"My dads will be there," Caleb said.

"I'll try, but you saw how they acted when they met you. I was scared you would break up with me," Leora said.

"I'll admit I was a bit intimidated, but my dad said not to let him get to me. He was taking out his hatred on him on me," Caleb said. Leora opened her mouth but Caleb held a finger up. "I told him that you were his only daughter and he loved you and wanted to make sure I wasn't going to hurt you," he said.

"Yeah, my dads like that. I think he stills see me as a little girl sometimes," Leora said.

"So the concert is in like two weeks," Caleb said.

"I'll ask, but I can't make any promises," Leora said.

"I know, I know, but give it your best shot," Caleb said. Leora nodded her head. Caleb let his arm drop from her shoulders. "I'll see you later," he sing songed. Leora laughed and said good bye to him.

-Landslide-

Adam was sitting in his bedroom with Cooper. He was leaning against him looking at the open door. The others were all down stairs getting ready for supper, while Jake was out.

"Angela?" Cooper asked. Adam shook his head.

"Nina?" Adam said. Cooper shook his head as well.

They had been doing this for several minutes already through out girls names such as; Heather, Lucy, Stella, Cora, Samantha, Sandy, Mandy, and several others. They were just spouting out the first name that they thought of. They were having a hard time deciding on a name for their daughter. They couldn't decide on a name together.

"We're never gonna agree on a name," Cooper sighed.

"We will, we just gotta find the perfect one," Adam said looking up at Cooper.

"What's the perfect name?" Cooper asked.

"I don't know, we'll know it when we hear it," Adam said.

The two fell into a comfortable silence. Cooper noticed that Adam was starting to fall asleep. Cooper knew he shouldn't let Adam sleep this close to dinner, but he didn't have it in him to wake him up just yet. Cooper pushed Adam up lightly with an explanation of having to use the bathroom. Adam just grumbled and laid down falling asleep once more.

Cooper left the room as Jake was coming up the stairs. He looked at Jake and noticed how tired Jake looked. He just seemed to drag his steps and his eyes seemed a bit bloodshot and he had bags under his eyes. Cooper looked Jake over and noticed that he looked about ready to drop at any second.

"Jake, you ok?" Cooper asked.

"Never better," Jake snapped.

"You've been acting very strange lately," Cooper said letting his concern for Jake show.

"I'm fine," Jake said sounding tired.

"We're all worried about you Jake," Cooper said. He took a few steps closer to Jake. "Especially Adam," he said.

"Look what I do doesn't involve you guys and it's nothing to worry about," Jake said. Cooper could sense Jake's annoyance.

"Just don't go doing anything stupid Jake, more people care about you than you think," Cooper said as he walked to the bathroom. He heard Jake walked into his bedroom and slam the door. Cooper shook his head. He didn't like this new Jake.

-Landslide-

Jake fell down onto his bed. He knew Kendall and James would be up to tell him supper would be ready soon. He wasn't thinking about that much though. He was thinking about what Cooper had said.

Was everyone really that worried about him?

Jake sat up and looked down at the floor. Were they worried? Why would they be worried? They didn't know what he was doing, did they? No they couldn't know. Jake was careful. They again maybe they were worried over Jake's sudden change in behavior. Jake knew they had all noticed. Jake was acting different though, because he didn't want them to know what he had been doing. He didn't want them to know he had been going to parties with Marty.

Jake had been going to the parties. He hadn't been getting high per se. He had been around others who were getting high, by either smoking or taking pills. Jake couldn't help it if he inhaled the smoke sometimes. He didn't purposely do it. It did relax him though. Marty had even showed him a trick to stop the red eye though. Nothing stopped the munchies afterwards though. Jake was good at hiding it though. He just hid in his bedroom, until everyone was off doing other things.

He wasn't even sure why he was even going to the parties. Then again maybe he did know. It was a place to escape for a bit. There he could be anyone he wanted. He could be a normal guy and not have the pressures of being himself. He didn't have to be the tough jock he was expected to be. He could just be himself and not have to worry about what his dads though of him or what anyone else thought for that matter.

There was a knock at the door. Jake didn't move to open it. The door opened anyways. Jake looked up and saw Kendall standing in the doorway.

"Can I help you," Jake asked looking at Kendall.

"Yeah supper is ready," Kendall said walking into the room a bit.

"Not sending the others up anymore? Coming to get me yourself," Jake asked.

"Well you are a part of this family and we eat supper together. We've been letting you slid for too long, Jake," Kendall said.

"Why don't you just ask me what you're really worried about?" Jake asked knowing where this conversation was heading. Kendall stared at Jake. "I'm not going bulimic or anorexic dad," he said. He hated that Kendall and James compared him to Adam. He was the older one here, they were supposed to compare Adam to him, not the other way around.

"That is not-" Kendall started.

"Oh please, I'm not dumb that's what you and Pops have been thinking," Jake said rolling his eyes. Kendall sighed and shook his head.

"Jake, what's wrong, you know you can talk to me," Kendall sighed.

"Nothings wrong, I'm just not hungry. I ate at the mall," Jake lied.

"Ok," Kendall said putting his hands up. He turned and left. He stopped at the door and looked over at his shoulder. "When you're ready to talk, I'll be ready to listen," he said. He left the room shutting the door behind him.

Jake sat there staring at the door. This was the one thing he couldn't talked to Kendall or James about. He wasn't really sure who he could talk to.

So there you go another chapter. I hope you all liked this. I've got plans for this. I hope to get the next chapter up next weekend. There will be some Jake drama coming up and then the babies will be born. I know for sure Baby Cadam is a girl, but I am actually on the fence about what baby KAmes will be. So tell me waht you think. Give it your best shot to convince me wheter or not you want Kames to have another boy or a girl. Anyways, review and let me know what you think.

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