We're Not Like Them
by
XxTheLadyInRedxX
A.N. For those of you who were asking, yes, James and Lily are together at this point. In the flashbacks, they are not together.
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"Hi Sirius," a girl approached Sirius, running a hand through her hair as she tried to seduce him with her eyes.
He glanced at her before continuing in his angry stomp-walk to the Great Hall.
"Are you alright?"
He didn't know if it was the question itself or the idea that he felt like he'd explode at any given moment, but he froze in his spot and slowly turned to stare at the girl. Giving her a quick scan, Sirius gave her an evil smile before leaning a hand against the wall she stood next to.
"I'm sorry, I didn't quite catch your name," he said with a flash of white teeth.
"Victoria," the girl giggled as she stared at him.
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"Sirius should have been here by now," said James, sipping at his pumpkin juice.
"You don't suppose he got lost, did you?" Remus rolled his eyes as he buried his face in a book.
"Why must you always hold that against me!" James yelled, shaking his head. "What if something happened with Elizabeth?"
"Yeah, maybe she killed him," Remus mumbled sarcastically.
"Ha ha," said James, looking down at his pumpkin juice. "That would be ridiculous."
After a few moments of thinking, James eyes widened and he stood up.
"I should check up on them!" he said before running out of the Great Hall, leaving Remus to bang his head on the table.
Running down the halls, James almost missed a couple snogging in one of the corners of a small corridor. Just as he past it, James paused, slowly walked backwards, and turned his head to stare at them. Squinting his eyes, James gave out a gasp as he realized his best mate was snogging what appeared to be a very busty Hufflepuff.
"Sirius!" he lectured as he walked towards them.
Sirius groaned as he looked past the girl to see a very angry James glaring at him. Victoria, who wasn t bothered by an audience, continued to kiss Sirius s neck.
"James, I m a bit busy at the moment," said Sirius, motioning at the girl with his eyes.
"How could you! After you promised you were going to fix things with Elizabeth!" said James.
"I tried!" said Sirius. "But she s off jumping into the arms of her ex."
"Riley?" asked James, perplexed. "That s ridiculous."
"Look, James. It s better this way," said Sirius. "I can go back to shagging every girl at school and breaking their hearts one by one."
Victoria s head popped up as the words sunk in.
"What?" she asked, innocently.
"Everyone but you, of course," Sirius assured.
The girl smiled at him before continuing to kiss his neck. Sirius looked at James and shook his head at the very thought.
"But what about Elizabeth-"
"What about her?" said Sirius, coldly. "I don t care about Elizabeth anymore. I don t care if she s with Riley. I don t care if they want to start a bloody family together. And I sure as hell don t care how she feels about me - because I don t feel the same way."
"Sirius-"
"Sirius?"
Sirius, James and Victoria turned to see a very confused Elizabeth staring at them.
"Oh no," whispered James.
"What are you doing?" she asked, staring at Victoria.
"I m just snogging my new girlfriend," he said, pulling Victoria closer. "Shouldn t you be off with your boyfriend, Walker?"
Elizabeth stared at Sirius for a few moments before having the ability to pull away and run down the hall.
"Elizabeth-" James called, turning to face Sirius. "Well done, Pads."
Shaking his head, James ran after Elizabeth.
"Sirius?" Sirius turned to look at Victoria, who was smiling up at him.
"Shall we?" she said, biting her lip.
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Elizabeth grew angry at the tears burning up her eyes.
"I will not cry, I will not cry," she whispered to herself as she ran outside, taking in a deep breath of the night air. "I will not cry."
Closing her eyes, her mouth scrunched up as she felt the tears slowly make it down her face. Shaking with sobs, Elizabeth sat on one of the benches and watched the moon as she let the tears flow out.
"Elizabeth?"
"I m fine, James," she assured, not bothering to wipe away any tears. "It s just the pregnancy - it s got me so emotional."
"Elizabeth, I know how you feel-"
"James," she interrupted him, turning to look at him with reddened eyes. "Really, I m fine. This is what I wanted remember? I got just what I wanted."
She gave a watery smile and turned her head away so that James wouldn t see more tears forming.
"It doesn t seem that way," said James, sadly.
"Well it is," she said, shrugging and trying to hold in the sobs. "I m fine, really. I just want to be alone to get some air."
"Elizabeth-"
"Please?" she begged, staring at him with big blue eyes.
James nodded hesitantly before turning and walking back inside the castle.
Hearing the door close, Elizabeth continued to stare at the moon, a giant orb in the dark night sky. How she wished she could be up there with it. No worries. No responsibilities. No pain.
Feeling the tears stop, Elizabeth stood up from the bench and continued to walk further out onto the Grounds. She took slow breaths as she tried to hear the crunching sound the grass made as she stepped on it. She felt the way the gentle breeze caressed her face and stung her eyes that were still wet with tears. She watched as the trees swayed to the sound of the wind. She closed her eyes and took a long breath. It was only until she felt someone in her presence that she let out the breath and sighed.
"James, I told you I was-" turning around, Elizabeth caught her breath as she saw Sirius standing a few feet away. "Shouldn t you be snogging your new girlfriend?"
"You have no right to be mad at me right now," he said.
"We re having a baby together, Sirius," she said. "It would help if you didn t create another one before this one comes out."
"You are unbelievable," he said shaking his head. "You told me you didn t love me. You told me to move on, and I have!"
"I didn t mean with a tramp like Victoria!" she yelled.
"Oh, come on!" he yelled. "As if you would have been ok if it were some innocent prude."
"What s that supposed to mean," her eyes glowed with rage.
"It means you just want me to be alone and suffer. I cant have you but I cant have anyone else either," he said.
"That s not true," she said, shaking her head. "I don t care-"
"You do care, Lizzy!" he yelled. "Why is it so hard for you to admit that!"
"Because, it s not true!" she yelled back, the tears refilling her eyes. "I don t care about you, Sirius!"
"You know I know you better than that," he said, feeling offended.
Elizabeth turned to walk away, but he caught her wrist and turned her towards him. Holding onto both of her wrists, Sirius stared down at her with anger in his eyes.
"You ve been saying the same excuse for the past two weeks, Elizabeth. When are you going to realize that I don t buy it-"
"Don t you dare say that!" she said, angrily. "Don t you dare act like you know me better than anyone-"
"But I do! I know you better than you know yourself! And I sure as hell know when you re lying to me!" he yelled back.
"Lying to you? Oh, I m sorry. For a minute, I forgot that the world only revolved around Sirius Black!" she shouted.
"Do you hear yourself?" he yelled, offended. "But of course you do. This is typical Elizabeth. Always running away from her problems. Always lashing out at the people who care about her the most. You re really getting good at it, too, Lizzy. But I guess that s because of all the practice you had-"
"Shut up!" she yelled at him. "Just stop it!"
But he only tugged harder at her wrists.
"Stop what? The truth? The reality about how you do this every single time I try to come close to you!" he yelled.
"I don t want you close to me!" she yelled.
"Why?" he yelled.
"Because I don t want to hurt you!" she yelled.
Sirius quieted down, trying to steady his breathing.
"And why is that," he said, quietly.
"No," she whispered, trying to pull away from him.
"Why don t you want to hurt me, Elizabeth!" he said.
"Because -" Elizabeth sobbed as she felt a tear slide down to the corner of her mouth. "Because I love you. Alright? Is that what you want to hear? That I love you. That I never stopped loving you. That I have to wake up every morning and wrestle with my heart just to try to keep myself from falling into your arms."
"Why cant you just let this happen," he said, searching her eyes hopelessly.
"They loved each other Sirius," she cried, shaking her head. "She loved him. She loved him and she was the cause of his pain. And he never got over it and he s dead, Sirius. He s dead and she can t help feeling like it s her fault. She can t-"
"Who?" Sirius tried calming Elizabeth down, as her whole body shook with sobs.
"My mother!" Elizabeth cried, the tears blurring her vision. "She s - she s-"
"Oh, Elizabeth," Sirius pulled her close to his chest and wrapped his arms around her, trying to soothe her. "Elizabeth - you re not your mom. And we re not your parents. You cant think that way."
"I don t want to hurt you," she sobbed.
"Not being with you hurts me," he said, staring into her eyes. "Staying away from me - staying away from me is the worst solution."
"But-"
"Elizabeth," he said. "I cant picture myself being happy with anyone but you. And a room full of one night stands will never be able to fill the void that was in my heart when you left me."
"I don t know what to do," she whispered, staring up at him with teary eyes.
"Do me," he said with a grin.
Elizabeth gave out a sad laugh and smacked him against the soldier.
"There s that smile," he said, staring at her.
Elizabeth smiled up at him, but was startled as she felt something land on her nose.
"Is it raining?" she asked, confused.
Sirius looked up at the sky and laughed as it slowly began to drizzle.
"That s perfect," he said, as his wet hair stuck to his face.
The two of them laughed as they continued to get soaked.
"We should go inside," she yelled over the loud sound of the rain.
"Yeah," he said.
But as she began to walk away, Sirius brushed the wet hair out of his face. Almost suddenly, he pulled Elizabeth to him, crashing his lips against hers. He moved his hands to cup her face as she held onto him for dear life. Pushing strands of wet hair away from her face, he slightly pulled away and stared into her eyes, nearly an inch apart from her face.
"Lizzy, he said with a smile.
"Yes, Sirius."
"Don t tell James that he was right."
