I sat on the floor of Sirius's new flat, wanting so bad just to leave and curl up in a ball of despair. I had lost my Sirius, and the only way to get him back to me was to pretend to be with Lily, which had lost me, not only Sirius, but also James's friendship. Who was currently stirring a bowl of creamy brown stuff with a passionate force.

"Siriiiiuuus, I have been stirring for ages, my arm hurts and THE LUMPS WON'T COME OUT!" He yelled. Sirius took the bowl, shifting Snape off his legs and onto the floor. I ground my teeth at the thought of what they had done together. He was mine, and no-one would ever take that fact away. He began to spatter it everywhere in an attempt to stir it, and Lily licked off a chunk that hit my cheek in a kiss. I grinned and coughed in an annoying fashion. "Some of those chucks are chocolate chips." I sighed. An echo of "Ahhh yes" from all my drunken friends reverbirated from around the room. I was probably the only sober one, or sober ish. "Well whatever, it needs more..." He grabbed at the bottle and squinted at the writing "Wh-wh-whisk-eeey-" he pronounced phonetically. He tipped the entire contents of the bottle into the mixture and I gasped. "Siri-us" I added quickly, calling his Siri would not help my "over you" act. "It's going to be disgusting" I declared, "disgusting" Sirius repeated. He stopped, looking upwards, biting his lip in thought.

"MIRANDA" he exclaimed. Lily grinned widely at him and he squared his chest up proudly "It is agreed" He slurred. I rolled my eyes "What's agreed Sirius?".
He sighed exaparatedly. "Mi-ran-da." He said as though I was an idiot. He stared at Lily as though she spoke "Yes...it is agreed...Miranda!"
Snivellus turned around and mouthed "miranda" into the still air. "Miranda!" Sirius yelled, as if it were a blessing, so joyously it could have been a holy word. I comandeered the bowl and poured it's questionable contents into a huge baking tray.

After half an hour of baking the monstrosity I pulled it out of the oven and sliced it into wonky squares. Everyone took a fearful and experimental bite, and Lily immeadiately went green. She hurtled off to the bathroom and I followed her, if only to piss Sirius off and hold her hair. When we got into the bathroom she instantly picked up and turned to me, lacing her arms around my neck and kissing me ferociously.
Her hands took off my clothing and I reciprocated the action.

After both of us had finished I took her hand and picked up her clothes "C'mon lets go back to mine, Sirius won't be too pleased when he finds out what we've done" I giggled. She followed me out and we were within running distance of my house. I think my parents were so happy I had a "girlfriend" they wouldn't care what we did. I took her up to my room and she sat down on my bed
"I see why Sirius can't keep his hands off you Rems. You're amazing." I ran my hands through my hair "I miss Sirius" I moaned. She walked over and kissed my cheek "I know you do, but I'm not sure this is the right thing anymore." she confessed, hugging me. "You've made James jealous and now you want to date him, right?" She grinned mischeviously and nodded.
"But I am not going back there tonight, Sirius will rip my head off." I grinned "You can stay. It's no problem" she smiled "I love you, Rems, you're the best." she yawned.
"Take my bed" I suggested, "I don't think I'll get much sleep anyway. The thought os Sirius and Severus is making me a little sick to be honest."
"Ooh, possesive much" she sighed, taking my bed and sliding under the covers without another word. About ten minutes later her quiet and steady breaths told me she was asleep. I lied down on my tidy and clear floor, I was the type to keep things in order and tidy. Sirius wasn't. He never had been, oh, how much I missed him. I missed his touch and his hair and everything. Anything about him there was. I missed it.

My back clicked against the hard wood floor, and I looked over at Lily, her auburn hair splayed over my bed. James was a lucky guy, even though me and her were just friends, if he didn't look after her I would have to beat him up until he did.

The sun was peeking over the horizon and I wondered what Sirius was doing...then realised I probably didn't want to know. I sat up, after a whole 5 minutes sleep and put my head into my hands, beginning to cry. I could not handle life without Sirius, there was a gaping hole in my stomach that Severus just kept making bigger, soon there would be two parts of Remus Lupin. The torso, the legs, and the black hole in between. Lily rubbed her head and sat up "Remus, is that you?" I sniffed loudly and nodded "Yeah" my voice broke on the last part and at once Lily's arms were around me "Oh, oh Rems, come on, he isn't worth it, he has never deserved you, I hate seeing you like this, I swear I will do anything I can to get him to redeem himself, and you two back together. I know he isn't worthy, but you without him is just unnatural. It wont last" She assured. I nodded, though I thought that was highly unlikely. Sirius seemed so infatuated with Snape at the moment, it was likely to not break down until I was on my knees crawling to him and begging for him back.

She brought herself to her feet and pulled me up to take me downstairs for breakfast. "I'm not hungry" I mumbled. She slapped me, hard "You are not starving yourself on some sort of crazy hunger strike until Sirius comes back to you. It's not healthy."
"BEING WITHOUT SIRIUS IS NOT HEALTHY, WHY WILL NOT EATING MAKE A DIFFERENCE" I bellowed. Lily put her hands on her hips and glared at me. "Please, Rems, eat. For me." I crossed my arms ferociously and turned away "No. And that is final"
"You're an idiot Rem-" we were interrupted by a sharp knock at the door. Snape was stood, red faced and panting at my door. I was so close to slamming the door in his simpering little face. He seemed to guess my intentions, for he gathered enough breath and strength to stand up straight and face me. Pleading in his dull black eyes.

"Please...Remus...you're the only one...help...he's gone...he's gone...MAD"