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Summery: What if Sanzo was actually a woman? How long will she able to keep it a secret? And how will the others react when they find out? Read what it would be like if Sanzo was actually a woman!

Pairing: Sanzo x Just about everyone

Note: Since I don't have the 9th book yet, I'm going to give you this little special piece for Kozen, so this chapter is a Tsuki x Kozen pairing.

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Tsuki went down to the Underworld. It was a dark, bleak place, but what disd you expect of the Underworld. There were many parts of the underworld, but Tsuki was on his way to only one.

"Amatsu!" he yelled as he threw the doors open. Sitting on a tall throne boredly was a man with long golden hair and fiery eyes. He looked at Tsuki boredly.

"Oh. It's you. To what do I owe this great displeasure to?" he asked.

"Want a list? You entered heaven, killed a officer, turned Kozen into a kid and kidnaped her. Now I don't care so much about the killing part, it's just the messing with my lover part that doomed you." Tsuki frowned as he summoned his scythe. Amatsu looked at him, amused.

"Are you going to kill me?" he asked.

"Yes." said Tsuki shortly. Amatsu laughed.

"Oh, really? And how do you intend to do that? You know I'm way stronger than you."

"We'll just have to see, won't we? I do have one question, though. Why are you trying to destroy both worlds? I don't understand. You never cared before, so why now?" Tsuki asked as he got into a stance. Amatsu chuckled as he stood.

"Why? Because I can." Suddenly he vanished. Tsuki looked around him, looking for him.

'Shit! Where did he...?'

"Right here." said a playful voice from behind him. Tsuki whipped around to meet Amatsu's fiery gaze.

"Shi--" Tsuki started, but just then Amatsu kneed him in the gut. Tsuki started coughing up blood, and Amatsu then grabbed him and threw him into a wall. Tsuki dropped his weapon and fell to the ground coughing up more blood. Then he forced himself to stand and he picked up his scythe and charged at Amatsu. Amatsu caught it. Then with a smirk he threw Tsuki into a wall again.

"Pathetic. I haven't even drawn my weapon, and I'm already kicking your butt. Do you know how pathetic this is?" Amatsu asked as he lifted Tsuki by his neck. "You know, if I kill you, I'll be the only ruler of Hell. Which means all this will belong to me. You always were just a burden." he said as tossed Tsuki like a rag into a another wall. Tsuki tried to stand, but many of his bones were already broken. Damn. He really should have made a plan before coming here. Amatsu walked over to him.

"You know no one really cares about you. You're just a burden. A mistake. Who would want to be near something like you?"

Tsuki suddenly remembered the words he heard through out his childhood.

"You're just my toy. Your mother gave you to me. That's as good as getting abandoned! She didn't want you! Don't you get it?! Everybody hates you because of your tainted blood! The devils hate you because of your god blood, and the gods hate you because of you devil blood! Get it?! Nobody cares! Nobody cares about a thing like you!"

"Do you hear me? I'll never forgive you! It's all your fault everything happened! Everything's your fault! It's all because you exist! Someone as rotten as you... oughta do us all a favor and just disappear!"

"Where on earth have you been?! Hurry up and go back to your sister! I refuse to be humiliated over something so insignificant like you!"

"Everybody hates you!"

"This world is black. Just like our life. Just like heaven. There are no possibilities, no hopes... We'll always live on a pitch black path. So don't misunderstand... and think one day we'll be saved."

"Do you understand now, Tsuki Yomi?" Amatsu asked as he kicked Tsuki. Tsuki skidded across the floor. "No one cares. A lot have people have suffered because of you. Why don't you just do everyone a favor and just disappear? You know, you should be the Lord of Evil. With all the people you make suffer, why I would tip my hat to you if I had one." Tsuki forced himself to stand.

"Why don't shut the hell up for once!" he yelled as he charged forward.

//Meanwhile//

"Kozen... There's something I think I should tell you." The Kanzeon said to Kozen when they were alone.

"What? Can't it wait until Tsuki returns?" Kozen asked as she stared out the window.

"I'm afraid not. It's about your parents." said Kanzeon as she sat down.

"My parents?" the Kanzeon nodded.

"Yes. I think after all you've been through, you deserve to know. But just keep in mind, there's a very good reason I didn't tell you." she said.

"Yeah, yeah. Just tell me already!" said Kozen impatiently. Finally, she was going toi learn about her parents!

The Goddess of Mercy sighed.

"Alright. Your mother was my older sister. She was just like you. Stiff and no fun. But one day when she was on earth she met a human with long golden hair. The man you saw the other night."

"Wait! You mean the man who slipped me the poison is my father?"

"Yes and no."

"Make since."

"I will if you let me finish! Now my sister knew it was forbidden to fall in love with a human, she couldn't help herself. There was something about him that attracted her to them. They hung out together and soon fell in love. They kept seeing each other in secret, until one day someone discovered that they were seeing each other and they had Amatsu come and take his soul. But Amatsu liked your father's body so much, he took it as his own. When your mother found out, she was devastated, but by that time she was pregnant with you. So after you were born... she committed suicide. After that I took care of you." The Kanzeon explained. Kozen stared at the floor.

"I... I see. So the man I saw..." she trailed off. Kanzeon nodded.

"That was Amatsu Mikaboshi."

//Back to Tsuki//

Tsuki laid on the ground half dead. This was really pathetic. He had been fighting Amatsu for hours and he was half dead and Amatsu wasn't scratched.

"Don't tell me that's all you've got. This is so pathetic even for you Tsuki." Amatsu said as he walked over to Tsuki. "Do you want me to end this?" Tsuki couldn't reply. Amatsu picked Tsuki up by his neck and suddenly the room changed to a tall roof tower. Tsuki realized he was dangling over the edge in the air by his throat, Amatsu chuckling all the while. Tsuki struggled as he fought to breathe.

Amatsu tighten his grip tighter and tighter, almost breaking the Tsuki's neck. Tsuki was coughing up a lot of blood as he struggled. Finally he couldn't fight anymore. He just hung in Amatsu's hold limply. Amatsu smirked.

"How pathetic. It looks like you're going to do something useful and unselfish for a change." Then he dropped Tsuki and he started to fall to his death.

'This is it. I'm gonna die. It'll be better that way, right? No one would miss me.' he thought.

"It's all your fault everything happened! Everything's your fault! It's all because you exist! Someone as rotten as you... oughta do us all a favor and just disappear!"

'Maybe disappearing... is the first useful thing I can do. If my dark, useless d is such a hated place, then there really is no point to my existence.'

"...Well? Are you going to die, Tsuki?"

'There's no point in my selfish existence.'

Then he remembered something else.

"What's wrong with being selfish? After all don't we all live to die smiling?"

"If love means wanting to be with someone no matter what and wanting to do whatever they can for each other and being there for them whether it's laugh or cry, then I guess I love you too, Tsuki Yomi! You're... My special someone just for me."

Tsuki gritted his teeth.

'I... I can't die yet. I can't even think about dying yet!' Suddenly he sprouted his wings and flew back up. Amatsu looked surprised to see him.

"You... You're wrong. Someone does love me. There is someone waiting for me. And so what if I'm selfish? What's wrong with being selfish? After all don't we all live to die smiling?" Tsuki panted as he glared at his brother. "Maybe I do bring suffering to everyone? I don't care. I only care about two people and that's my lover and my sister and that's it. Everyone else can go ahead and die for all I care!" he yelled his scythe flew to him and he caught it. Then with a battle cry he flew towards Amatsu, who dodged.

"Ha, ha, ha! Foolish boy, do you honestly think you can stop me?! I am the Lord of Evil! There is no way you can destroy me!" he laughed.

"I'm not trying to." Tsuki smirked. He began chanting a spell and Amatsu's eyes widen as he realized what the spell was.

"Are you mad?! That spell will destroy you!!" he yelled.

"Maybe, maybe not. I, unlike you, have something to return to so I won't die. You, on the other hand, don't. Goodbye brother." Tsuki said as he finished the spell.

"TSUKI YOMI!!" Amatsu yelled as a bright light filled the room.

//Later//

Kozen was back to normal now. Right after the Kannon had told her about her parents, she had suddenly turned back to normal. The girls guessed that Tsuki must have done something.

So right now she was staring out her window at the moon, waiting for Tsuki to return.

"Nn, Kozen? It's late. Shouldn't we be sleepin'?" asked Goku sleepily, as he rubbed his eyes. He was over joyed when he saw Kozen was alright he was crying and hugging her for a long time before he realized she had been shrunk, but then he just kept going on about how cute she was.

"Later Goku. You go ahead. And don't worried, I'll be right here." Kozen told him.

"Are you waitin' for Tsuki?" Goku asked a bit sadly.

"Go to sleep, Goku." Goku just nodded sadly as he laid down in the lime green bed. He like Tsuki. He really did. But he loved Kozen. He really loved her more than anything. But she loved Tsuki. And Tsuki really loved Kozen. He could see it every time they were together. He saw the way they looked at each other and he knew...He could never take their love away.

Kozen stared out the window, rubbing her arms.

'Tsuki... Tsuki, where are you?' she wondered as she stared. Just then she spotted a bloody figure outside her window. It was a badly wounded Tsuki looking at her, smiling. A unknown smile crept on her face as she jumped out her window and ran to him.

Tsuki smiled as he weakly ran towards Kozen.

'It may be selfish of me... But no matter what... I want to be near her always. I always want to look over her. That... Is my selfish desire.' Tsuki thought as Kozen wrapped her arms around him and he embraced her.

'I want to protect her.'

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Aww!! That was so sweet, I wanted to cry. Not! Hee, hee! I know I'm mean, but hey! That's just who I am.

Polls:

Goku-13

Hakkai-11

Gojyo- 12

Kougaiji-5

Tsuki- 8