Jon sighed setting the weights down, wiping the sweat off his brow "I don't know man, how would you handle this?" he asked his best friend after explaining what happened last week with Rene Young, Roman shook his head looking at his friend setting his own set of weights down.
"Man you dug yourself this time." he chuckled gaining an eye roll from Jon "stating the obvious man." Roman shrugged "Just tell her man, you didn't do anything wrong, OTHER-" Roman stressed looking over at Jon "then not immediately going into that room and telling her that night, that might get your ass kicked." Jon sighed rubbing his fore head "I plan on telling her, I just don't think it should be within reach of Rene, we're supposed to go to Texas at the end of the week and I figured I'd tell her then, she can process it in the privacy of our home and not catch a murder charge." Jon grabbed another weight "possibly two." he mutter.
Roman stared at his friend shaking his head "I'd do it today man, but hey you know her better then me, I just see Sam being upset you kept this from her, the same way you did with her and Brock kissing her."Roman chucked seeing his younger friend tense at the mention of his girlfriends very present ex boyfriend "Fuck Brock." Jon mutter setting his weights down.
Roman shook his head "Man you gotta get over the Brock shit, she's with you, shes obvious to a blind man in love with you, let the Brock shit go." Roman advised him again, Jon sighed heading towards the locker room Roman behind him "Man I try, I really do and it has nothing with being insecure with her, I'm not, his so fuckng disrespectful about it man, he eyeball fucks her anytime shes within his sight, pisses me off." Jon dug through his duffle bag, Roman nodding "I know man, but thankfully you only have to deal with that shit what three times a year, part timer." Jon nodded "yeah." he mumbled heading towards the shower's not feeling any better then when he came in.
SAMS POV-
I groaned kicking the hotel room door shut with my foot tossing my two bags down on the floor I flopped on the made up bed we had left unmade this morning, I groaned closing my eyes, shopping with the Nikki was like running a marathon, I swear that girl doesn't know when to stop.
NOONES POV-
Jon groaned stepping off from the elevator they had some time before they had to head to the arena so he was hoping for a nap and maybe quick shower, he was also hoping Sam would be back, his mind was fucked over with this Rene shit, Roman made sense, Sam would be hurt he didn't tell her right away.
However he didn't want a scene at there work and he knew Sam would probably explode on Rene, especially since this means she was right with all her worries about Rene.
"Hey Jon can I talk to you?" he groaned hearing the voice that was the main cause of his head, rubbing his face he turned around shaking his head "No unless its Rene young and Dean Ambrose, you and I have no reason what so ever to speak, you disrespected my girlfriend, myself and our relationship last week and what you did should've never happened." he snapped before walking off not allowing Rene to speak another word.
SAMS POV-
I smiled hearing the door click shut indicating Jon was back "Mmm." I heard feeling his weight on my back "Hey darlin." he mumbled as I rolled to my side him wrapping his arms tightly around me and putting his leg over mine "hey honey." I muttered my eyes still closed "how was your work out?"
"A work out, shopping?" he asked causing me to groan making him chuckle "that much fun huh?" I shook my head "Nikki is insane! I don't understand how she still has anything to shop for." I shook my head "I'm so tired." I yawned "Me too." I nodded feeling my eyes getting heavier as Jon and I just laid in silence cuddled into each other.
This was peace for me just laying in his arms, no one around us, just me and him laying in a bed. Closing my eyes I slowly drifted off for a much needed nap.
I groaned laying in the middle of the ring William Regal standing over me holding out a towel I shook my head "I didn't realize how out of shape I got." I muttered feeling embarrassed, Regal sat down in front of me leaning against the ropes "it happens when you fill your body with drugs and liquor." he raised his eyebrow to me, I sat up hanging my head embarrassed "I know." I whispered, I couldn't believe I allowed Brock to break me so badly I almost destroyed everything I worked so hard to build for myself.
Mostly my own name and reputation I so badly wanted outside of my farther "Hey little no need to be embarrassed, I was once in the same position as you, it happens to the best warriors." Regal broke my thoughts making me look at him, I shook my head "I'm no warrior Regal, I'm a failure." I muttered, I shook my head "I allowed a man to use me, my body, my heart, my soul, and I let it destroy everything I worked for, all for the sake of love." I rolled my eyes "fuck love."
"Samantha Calaway you look at me right now." he spoke so sternly it was if he cast a spell on me I had no choice but to obey his command looking at him eyes wide "you are fierce, your a survivor, you're a fighter through and through, there is a warrior inside of you, warriors aren't born and bred, they create themselves through trail and error, through there pain and suffering and ability to conquer themselves as there worse emnenys, you my dear have done that, and will keep doing that, now enough with the pitty party."
I wiped my tears nodding standing up just as the training class came in Regal put his arm around my shoulders as I used the towel to cover my tear stained face "your going to be fine little one." he squeezed my shoulders as I looked up to see the purest eyes I'd ever seen on me.
Suddenly feeling a pull I couldn't help the words that came out of my mouth "whose that guy?" I nodded towards him, Regal looking at me smiling, I shook my head "Not like that, not for a long long time, if ever." I muttered, he chuckled his eyes falling back on the guys with the blue gray eyes "that dear is Jonathan Good, or Dean Ambrose as our universe is getting to know him as." he spoke before leaving me alone in the ring.
The man now name Jonathan gave me a wink making my face hit as I looked down climbing out of the ring I headed towards the showers.
I groaned hearing my phone going off pulling me out of my dream of the first time my eyes landed on Jon, I smiled lookng over at him, his dirty blonde hair messily in his face, I ran my fingers through it leaning forward kissing him on his forehead before jumping up to answer my phone, I frowned seeing it was gunner, he normally didn't call me, we'd text but mostly saved conversations for when I was home.
"hello." I quickly answered hearing the panic in my own voice "hey." I frowned he sounded worn out "whats wrong?" I quickly asked seeing Jon slowly sitting up rubbing his eyes, Gunner sighed on the other end "sis its ghost" I frowned sitting on the foot of the bed "what about him?" my heart was pounding it started to hurt, my gut tighting with dread "its bad sis, we where waiting for you to get home to tell you and see what yoi wanted to do but its just spread so quickly." I frowned shaking my head "JUST TELL ME." I snapped causing Jon to fully wake and scoot closer to me, my knee bouncing up and down w"whats wrong with her?" I bit back tears
"Doc said it was arthritis, old age, pop's took her out two weeks ago and she couldn't make a jump." I frowned I won blue ribbon's jumping that house, we set records together, state championships "then she was down in the coral, Doc ran some more tests, she's got cancer sis." I frowned covering my mouth.
"well what can we do?" I asked my mind racing "you guys have access to my bank it doesn't matter the cost for treatment." I rattled "Sis."
I shook my head "NO! You guys do not do anything with my horse, I'll be home tomorrow. Dont touch my horse." I hung up on my brother angerly wiping the tears from my cheeks.
"whats going on?" Jon placed his hand on the small of my back as I shook my head not accepting any of this "they say she has cancer and there's nothing-" I shook my head "I need to go home like now, I need to find a treatment for her."
Jon nodded "OK listen, we'll go talk to Hunter, book us the flight, I'm going to jump in the shower and we'll head straight to the arena now OK." I nodded grabbing Jon's hand before he got to far away squeezing it "I love you." I looked up at him, he gave me a reassuring smile walking back towards me bending forward placing his lips gently on mine "i love you, it'll be OK, I promise." before disappearing to his shower.
I sighed going over flight nothing until first thing in the morning which really pissed me off I wanted tonight, hell I wanted now, unfortunately I knew that wasn't a possibility, selecting the flight, I went ahead and paid for two tickets unsure if they'll allow Jon to come with me, but maybe, I hoped they would.
I didn't know what I would do without Ghost, my dad bought her at an auction for me, after everything that happened with Jodi, she was what got me through it, my entire life she was my strength, my best friend when everyone else failed me she never had, she had to be OK after JJ I couldn't lose Ghost as well
Jon's text notification going off breaking me of my thoughts "babe can you see who that is?" Jon yelled from the bathroom after hearing his phone go off, I groaned leaning over grabbing his phone laying on my stomach I entered his pass code in, frowning upon seeing renes name, why the fuck is she texting him?
Biting my lip looking back towards the closed bathroom door maybe he had an interview with her, knowing him he could and forgot or some media to do and forgot, man was terrible with his schedule I decided to open the text, also curiosity of why she was texting my boyfriend got the best of me.
Opening it my stomach dropped reading the text message from her "look I know you told me last week should of never happened, and I agree it shouldn't of, but I really need to talk to you,Jon its really important-Rene"
I frowned as tears burnt my eyes as I kept re reading the text over and over "hey who was it?" Jon asked coming out of the bathroom still naked wrapping a towel around his waist as I wiped the tears from my eyes holding it out to him, he looked at me like I had five heads until he read the text dropping his head "Shit." he sighed grabbing his pants "its not what you think." he told me as he started to get dressed.
I nodded "and what is it because im thinking some pretty fucked up shit right now." I snapped he sighed coming to stand in front of me I held my hands out stopping him giving him a death glare "are you dumb or smoking crack? Do not touch me right now." he sighed cursing rubbing his forehead.
"she kissed me last week." I closed my eyes shaking my head "It was a kiss, I pushed her off of me, I told her I loved you very fucking much, it fucking meant nothing, I told her that, I told her she crossed a line and shouldn't of done that period." he quickly defended "so that's much better?, I just did an interview with her! I gushed at how amazingly perfect you are! How happy we are, how we're buying a fucking house!" I yelled pissed off, he sighed shaking his head "Sam please just listen to me.' I shook my head as tears burnt my eyes.
"I have nothing to listen to, I swore I wouldn't go through this again!" I held my hair back turning around my mind was spinning right now, so many thoughts running through my head, mostly I just felt sick, her lips on my jons? She kissed my Jon? Why would she even think that was OK? Why didn't he come and tell me immediately?
I heard him grunt "Its not the same fucking thing, im not Brock!" he snapped making me turn around glaring at him "Really did you come and tell me? Huh, cause that's the same thing he did, he went out for drinks I stayed in the hotel, SEEMS SIMILAR TO ME!" I yelled.
"You didn't tell me right away when Brock kissed you! Can we please just talk about this?" Jon asked, I shook my head opening the door "No go talk to Rene, she seems chatty!"
"Sam come on." he whispered standing in front of me, I looked out "Just get out, with everything else I cant handle this right now." I mumbled trying not to cry in front of him "please just go." I now begged as he stood staring at me, he sighed grabbing his duffle bag walking towards the door, he paused in front of staring like he didn't know how to go, I just turned my head refusing to make eye contact with him, I slammed the door shut behind him before falling on top of the bed.
He was right I didn't come and tell him immediately after Brock kissed me, but right now I had too many emotions running through me to talk to him about this, it was bringing on too many past demons I've worked so hard to put away, and I needed to focus on getting home.
Jon's pov-
I felt the door slam behind me rubbing my forehead, fuck Rome was right, I should've told her immediately, I just wanted to wait until we got home and handle this privately, I frowned turning back to the door, I wanted to walk back in there, I wanted to tell her we where working this out and I wasn't leaving. However if I did that im pretty sure I'd walk out with a broken jar "dammit."
I decided to go to Romans room, let her have the space she needed, the same space I needed when I was in her position, I shook my head.
I sat on Roman's balcony, I fucked up I knew it, "I think I could've kissed her all day man." I spoke quietly, trying to text Sam to no responses " I could've swept back those lose strands of hair out of her eyes and spent the day in bed with her just like that." I don't do this emotional shit "maybe its because there's so much pain in her but man she kisses like she needs it, like shes aching for it and i fucked it up."
"its not to late man, Sam fucking loves you, so fix it." Colby encouraged hating that this was happening between his two friends, Jon shook his head "She forgives a lot my anger, my bullshit insecurities, the shit I pulled with JJ, she probably could've forgiven this if I told her right away, but I didn't, I hid it in her eyes I lied to her, she wont forgive that."
Jon groaned rubbing his face "man how do you know?" Colby asked "her eyes man, her fucking eyes told me." Colby laughed "your basing this off of her eyes?" Jon looked over at Roman "Roman gets it." Roman nodded in agreence, they had the eye conversation before "god I love her fuckign eyes, they hold the entire ocean, when shes happy they're a clear radiant blue, a sparkling blue no trace of a storm a head in them." Jon drank down his beer knowing he needed to stop, they still had a show to do tonight and if he showed up drunk, Hunter would rip his head off, "but when shes angry, mm that's completely different, they change to gray, marky and blaze with rage, those eyes could stop any man dead in his tracks, doesn't hurt shes sexy as hell when shes angry." he sat back smirking at the memories he'd purposely make her mad just for that reason "whens shes sad? Fucking sucks man, she'll drown you in her eyes, they turn icy, cold, completely unlike her man, those eyes kill me, those eyes are killing me, but today when I left, they where an odd mix of all three, they fucking swallowed me whole." he rubbed his face "Rome you where right I should've told her that night, I just, I get it now, I get why she was wanting to wait to tell me about Brock." he shook his head, Roman patted Jon's shoulder "Lets get to the arena see where she's at, I think you two can fix this, you just gotta keep your temper in check, let her go off, let her be pissed and DO NOT BRING BROCK UP AGAIN." the older man advised his friend after he told them how he compared this to Brock kissing her, which Roman agreed it was VERY similar situations, and he knew Sam would see it that way once she calmed down, bringing it up in the heat of the moment, not his friends most brilliant moments.
Sam's pov-
I walked into the arena with my duffle bag over my shoulder and sunglasses covering my puffy tear stained eyes, I didn't want to be here, but I had a commitment, I wanted to do my thing and get out of here, Jon kept blowing up my phone and I just didn't want to talk to him, I needed space and he didn't get that, I needed to get my head straight, between what's going on with Ghost and now this shit. I shook my head.
"OIY THERE YOU ARE!" Nikki excitedly yelled as I started checking my line up for the night, I sighed so much for in and out, I turned around seeing her exicdelty run up with a manila envelope "There here! They overnight expressed them, you are officially the proud owner of your home and here are your keys." she smiled handing me the envelope, I sighed smiling small, this was bitter sweet today, I should be excited, I should be running to show Jon, yay some good news today and it fucking sucked! we bought this house for us and our son, for JJ and JJ's not here and Jon cheated on me, and my horse is dying of cancer, I'm just one fucked up sad country western song.
"thanks." I muttered making Nikki frown "you OK?" she asked, I sighed rubbing my forehead "Tired." I mumbled as the other girls gathered around Nikki excitedly telling everyone I had my keys "oh girl when are we having a house warming party?" Trin asked as her husband walked up, his face told me he'd been around Jon, I sighed blowing out a breath "I uh I don't know, im probrally not moving in." I shrugged making everyone's jaws drop.
"Sam you are in love with that house, is this about JJ?" Trin asked, I blew out a breath shaking my head and shrugging "Trin-" Jon spoke softly as I sniffled all of the emotions becoming to much, I groaned not wanting to do this here and now.
"Sam whats wrong?" Brie asked putting her arm around my shoulders "Jon cheated on me,maybe, I think, or not, honestly I don't fucking know" I admitted to them making everyone looked around shocked and confused
"What?, no way, what happened?." Nikki asked shocked I sighed pulled off my sunglasses wiping my eyes "Uh yea, we where in the room this morning, and his phone went off-" I shook my head looking up blowing out a breath "Look I just don't want to talk about it at work, I cant." I told them, they all nodded Brie hugging me tightly to her "we're here when you need us, we're here." she told me, I nodded thanking them as I walked off I had an interview to do.
I went and got my make up fixed and willed myself to keep it together until I was finished for the night and can be on my flight home, I texted Hunter earlier and he said I could have the rest of the week, Jon was a no but now I was grateful for that now, give me time to get my head around whatever this Rene shit was, I looked over the papers in my hand, we owned this home, this was going to be our home and now, I didn't even know, do I still move in? Do I give it up? What?
"Ok ready?" I heard the one voice I didnt want to making me look up to her smiling face, I quickly stood up shaking my head, seeing the shield in the distance Jon's eyes wide as he watched the scene "No get Jo Jo get fucking boso the clown I don't give a fuck any one but her." I pointed at Rene who looked shocked as everyone looked around.
Brian AKA road dog came over "Whoa Sam what is going on?" he asked standing in front of me "get her the fuck away from me Brian before I kill her!"
"Excuse me what did I do to you?" she had the nerve as Jon headed our direction, I laughed at that one "why don't we ask Jon!" I turned to Jon as he stood next to me "uh what did she do to me?" I asked him glaring he looked down "Sam lets just-" he started before I shoved him "NO! I went through this once, I will not, I wont-" I swallowed hard seeing Hunter running up "what is going on?" he asked looking around Rene at least having enough Shame to look down "Get anyone but her to do my interviews from now, because she comes within five feet of me, I'll make her fucking bleed Hunter you guys will fire me." I told him he nodded "OK OK."
"Really? This isn't professional at all!" Rene exclaimed I narrowed my eyes at her as Hunter
"Is it professional to stick your tongue down my boyfriends throat?" I asked her letting it out, Jon throw his head back cursing under his breath.
"Uh OK Sam come with me, go do another interview for now Rene.'' Hunter spoke as she just nodded quickly walking off.
He was silent until we got to his office having me sit, I felt like I was in trouble with the principal but right now I didn't care, I'd be in trouble with the principal.
"OK what was that?" he asked, I sighed knowing I couldn't tell hunter I didn't want to talk about it, especially after the scene I just made, so I went into what transpired this morning.
Shrugging I was picking at my nails "that's all the info I have." Hunter blew out a breath "OK well even still that personal and shes our lead journalist so you gotta work with her." I shook my head "not right now hunter, maybe I should've came to you first, but right now if I work with her I'll either lose it and kill her or I'll lose it and break down on TV, and neither I want." Hunter sighed "OK for now we'll get Kathy or Jo Jo to do your interviews, for now Sam." I nodded standing up "is that all?" I asked, he nodded "you OK?" he asked as I got to the door, I let out a shaky breath "I'm just wondering how much can be thrown at me in one year." I mumbled before walking out.
I found myself sitting in the stands watching the ring be put together, tears burning my eyes, I seen a shadow fall over me making me look up, I frowned there stood my farther "great." I mumbled sitting back as he sat next to me.
"look Hunter already read me the riot act on professional and personal and business being separate." I muttered picking at m nail polish, my dad put his arm over my shoulders chuckle "i asked if you hit her." he spoke making me look up at him confused.
"its hard being a dad, especially a father to a daughter-" he shook his head kicking his leg out "but you made it easy, Gracie, chasey, and kia they're ballerinas, princess-" he rolled his eyes "mermaids-" I chuckled shaking my head "But you, I don't know you where my little country girl, practically lived on that damn horse, then you moved into that damn ring." I smiled nodding.
"Yea I did."
"Either way your gonna get through this." I shook my head fighting back the tears.
" I don't know, I love Jon, more then I ever loved Brock, and no its not because of JJ-" I sucked in my lips shaking my head "He was like, he was like I was drowning and he pulled me out of the water, and I don't understand." I frowned looking at my hands before a sob unintentionally came out putting my elbows on my knees and my head in my hands cove ring my face "I love him so much, why is all of this happening to us?" I cried feeling my dad put his arm around me.
"Oh shh darlin, your gonna be just fine." he soothed pulling me closer into him "lets get you through on thing at a time OK." I nodded laying my head on my dads chest as we watched the crew set up for the show tonight.
