How do you tell a 2 almost 3 year old that who's your father isn't determined by who you like at the time. Gabriella had no idea how she was supposed to respond to what Lissy said, it melted her heart that Lissy loved Troy enough to ask if he could be her daddy but the truth was that the situation is way more complicated then what Lissy would even understand. All Gabriella wanted to do was tell Lissy yes but then what about David, she technacly still belonged to him even thought he was being such an ass. And Gabriella didn't even know if Troy would want to be Lissy's 'Father'.
Gabriella shifted in her seat still trying to find the best answer or at least the best comment.
"What about Daddy, I would think that he would be very upset to hear you say that."
"I don't like him any mores," Lissy said looking down at her feet.
"Baby why not?"
Lissy sniffled, "Cause he don't see me no more and he doesn't call me Lissy Doll no mores when he called that one times."
Gabriella had to hold back her tears after she looked at Lissy through her rear view mirror and she was starting to cry.
"I'm so sorry baby…..Why don't
you ask uncle Troy."
Lissy looked up and wiped her eyes, "Okay,"
she smiled.
After Lissy calmed down she sang along to the radio with no care in the world. However Gabriella couldn't concentrate on what Lissy was singing or whatever she was telling her mother; all of Gabriella's thoughts were on Troy and David, who was better for Lissy.
They went and got Lissy pajamas then went back to see Camryn, which they did every night before they go to bed. The nurses watched and played with Lissy while Gabriella was talking to the small little girl in her incubator.
"Hey sweetheart, it's mommy. How are you," she spoke as the baby girl wiggled around in her small confinements, "Auntie Taylor planned a party for you tomorrow and you'll get a bunch of new stuff from mommy and daddy's friends does that sound fun? I'm sorry you cant be there but I'll take a bunch of pictures and I'll bring then here and show you okay….So baby mamma needs your help, I don't know what to do, Lissy wants daddy to be her daddy and I don't know what to say to her and I know you would most likely love to have the same daddy as your big sister but I don't know if she can. Am I doing the right thing by letting her forget her old daddy for a new one?"
Gabriella didn't expect Camryn to answer her in any way, she just wanted to express her thoughts out loud to someone who would understand what was going around her; an innocent bystander. And she also was told that it was better for her to talk to Camryn about anything to help her brain development so even thought it was about her sister and her dad at least she was getting stronger while learning new things about her family. Gabriella watched her as she started to calm down and then looked at her sweet little face and saw that he eyes were open revealing bright ocean blue eyes identical to Troy's; then a smiled crossed Gabriella's face as she saw her baby girls eyes for the first time staring back at her.
Only a few seconds later Camryn's doctor came in the NICU and walked over to Gabriella.
"Hey Gabriella," he smiled, "She's been opening her eyes all day today, they're beautiful aren't they."
"Yeah just like Troy's," she responded not taking her eyes away from Camryn's.
"Now that she's opening her eyes,
we're gonna have to give her eye drops to see if her eyes are fine
and they are working right."
"How do the drops work," she
asked now looking up and the doctor.
"We put a small amount on her eyes and if they turn up clear on the eyes then they are fine but if they have like a milky look to them then her eyes aren't working right and we may have to do more intensive tests," he explained.
"Do they hurt?"
"Not at all,
it just feels like water."
"Okay but what about her ears are they fine," she asked.
"We cant determine that now we have to wait until she's older, when her motor skills are better….But we did get the scans of her brain and they are looking great. Amazing for how they would be at this stage of age. Once she can eat without the tube and her lungs are stronger and all her test are fine then she'll be like a regular baby just a little smaller and she will be aloud to go home."
"Really it's that easy," she said excitedly.
"Yea well that's not such a easy task but yea it's that easy….I'm surprised that you and Troy came separately, I would have thought you would come together as always."
"You mean Troy was here," Gabriella asked.
"Yeah he left about 15 minutes ago, I
told him the same thing I told you about Camryn."
She smiled
knowing that Troy probably came here to do the same thing she was
doing; talking to Camryn, expressing their feelings to Camryn. I
guess it's the place where they both felt most comfortable to share
their most deepest secrets/feelings.
A few minutes later Gabriella said goodbye to Camryn and went to get Lissy and go back to the apartment. Lissy feel asleep only a few seconds after she was buckled into her carseat leaving Gabriella to drive in silence. When she pulled up into her parking spot at the apartment she noticed Troy sitting on a bench right next to it.
"Hey stranger," Gabriella said as she stepped out of the car.
"Hey babe, how was Camryn?"
"I
don't know how do you think she looked," she said trying to hide
a smirk.
"How'd you know."
"The doctor," she shrugged.
"Did you see her eyes," he asked pulling Gabriella closer into her body.
"Yeah I did, she's a total daddy's girl all around," she said giving him a kiss.
He untangled his arms from Gabriella's and then went into the car and carefully get Lissy out of the car without waking her up and then put her in her bed back to the apartment.
"Do you think that I'm a horrible person for wanted to take Lissy away from David, for me to be her dad instead of him," he asked laying down on their bed as Gabriella changed her clothes.
"Not at all, I think you are a way better father to her then he has been lately….You know what she asked my while we were in the car," she asked, "She asked me if I you could be her dad."
"Really," he said sitting up, "You
think I can be?"
"Yeah, definitely, I'll David tomorrow and
ask him to give her up to you."
"Thank you so much I would love that," he said grabbing her and pulling her down on the bed and gave her sweet long kisses and then they fell asleep in each others arms.
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