That day after I finished all of my homework, Peeta came over for a talk. We sit in the kitchen because I don't want him to get any ideas if we talked in my room. I get us some water to drink. I sit down, across from him. He looks at me with his bright blue eyes, seeing if he can maintain eye contact with me. I look away slightly, not wanting to encourage him.
"Alright, I guess I'll start talking," I say adjusting myself. "I understand why you did what you did. It doesn't mean I have to like it. You kind of saved my life, seeing as my doctor told me I would've overdosed if I had more,"
"Katniss-"
I hold up my hand. "Let me finish," I insist. "So thank you for caring. It's nice to have someone care for you when you can't even care for yourself. So I have been thinking hard about these things. I do stand by my decision of breaking up with you, but not for telling my mom. I just think we just need space. I've messed up a lot and I need to find myself. Find who I truly am. I'm really sorry for freaking out on you, the other day Peeta, I didn't take my medication that morning,"
He stands up and reaches over to hug me tightly. "I understand Katniss. I just missed talking to you. I can't stand the thought of you mad at me,"
"I'm sorry Peeta," I sigh. "What do you have to say?" I ask him
"Katniss, I did what I did to protect you. I almost lost you once when we just started being friends and I can't lose you again," He says. His face turns red, I guess of embarrassment
I reach my hand towards his and hold it. "I'll make you a promise," I say rubbing my thumb on the back of his hand. "When I've gotten my shit together and I've done something great in my life, we can try to be together again," I offer him
"I'll wait for you," He says
I shake my head. "Peeta if you meet someone else, just go for her. Don't let me stop you from seeing anybody,"
"Katniss, Peeta," I feel someone shake me awake.
I yawn and rub my eyes, trying to wake myself up. I regain my sight and notice that I'm laying on Peeta's chest. My mom shakes her head at us. "I didn't know you two were together again?" She says confused about the whole ordeal.
"Oh! No!" I push myself off his chest and sit up. "We're only friends, mom. I guess we ended up falling asleep," My eyes linger towards Peeta, who is still sleeping. This kid can sleep through anything.
"Send him home. I was just about to leave for the hosiptal when I noticed you two," She says narrowing her eyes at me. "I'll see you later, Katniss," She kisses my forehead and then proceeds to exit the house.
I adjust my hair seeing that it is messy before I throw one of the sofa pillows at Peeta's head. He still doesn't move an inch and it is starting to annoy me. I lean closely to his face.
"Peeta, wake the hell up!" I yell in his ear. His eyes open immediately. I think I scared him, because he grabs onto my arm tightly. I laugh at him, wishing I had my phone with me to take a picture of his face.
"Why'd you do that?" He mumbles
"It's 11 o'clock, and I think you were supposed to be home about an hour ago,"
Peeta sits up quickly. "Can I climb out your window to my room?" He asks me
I nod. "Just go. We don't need you getting into trouble," I smirk
We go upstairs quickly. I hope he doesn't get into trouble because we both fell asleep. When we reach my bedroom, I open up my window. The wind flows by, making me feel a little chilly. Peeta reaches his hand towards my waist and puuls me close to him.
"Goodnight, Katniss," He kisses my cheek. He turns and climbs out of my window and gets into his. He waves when he's in his bedroom. I watch as his turns off his lights and gets into his bed. I turn around to close my curtains.
I didn't realize how much I missed Peeta, as a friend. He really knows how to make me feel better. Maybe it's a good thing, that we're not together for now.
Life is the weirdest thing anyone can ever experience. Some people's life seems to be perfect and other's suck ass. I'm not sure why it works like that, but it's time for me to beat it. I've let people ruin my life early on to make me this way. It doesn't mean that I can't change myself to the way I want to be. No more death wishes, no more drugs, no more depression. I'm a new Katniss, reborn like a phoenix.
And with that thought, I lay down in my bed and fall back into a peaceful sleep.
I said that I would update this like an hour or two after I updated The Evil Inside Us, but instead I went around on the internet watching Youtube videos instead of focusing on my writing task XD. My apologies for keeping you waiting. I hope you enjoyed this chapter, if you would be so kind to leave a review, telling me what you liked about this chapter. PM me if you have any questions, comments, or concerns. I will see you guys later :)
