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Roger
I can't blame April for everything that happened to me. Sure she was the one who supplied it to me but I was the one who decided to take it. She never forced me to do anything that I didn't want to do. I did it all willingly. I feel guilty sometimes, it was her death that forced me to get clean. It's like someone had to die so that I could live, granted I won't be living into my eighties but I would have died a lot sooner if I was still using. I can still remember the day she killed herself.
Flashback
Roger opened his eyes and looked at the clock on the side of his bed. It read five thirty in the afternoon. He slowly dragged himself out of bed. April was nowhere in sight. 'good.' He thought to himself. 'She's probably out getting some more.' He slowly made his way out of his bedroom. He saw Maureen sitting on the couch watching TV.
"Where's Mark?" Roger grumbled.
"He's in the bedroom." Maureen said without even looking at him.
"God what's your fucking problem?" Roger asked getting angry.
"You and that whore you brought into our house." Maureen said angrily.
"Listen you stupid bitch…" Roger started but Mark cut him off.
"That's enough." Mark yelled coming out of the bedroom.
"She started it." Roger grumbled as he made his way towards that bathroom.
"Way to act like a five year old." Maureen said rolling her eyes. Mark shot her a look that said that now was not the time. Roger said nothing as he walked into the bathroom. Out of the corner of his eye he saw the blood. He rushed over towards the bathtub.
"April!" He yelled as he pulled her out of the pink tinted water. He vaguely heard Maureen scream and Mark tell her to call 911. Mark was at his side wrapping April's wrists with towels, knowing it was useless. They both knew it was far too late. For some reason Roger glanced up at the mirror and that's when he saw it. A yellow post it note, three words.
We've Got AIDS.
That's all she said. Almost immediately Roger pushed Mark back from the body.
"What the hell." Mark said as he tumbled backwards.
"Don't touch her." Roger said as he began to shake.
"Roger I'm trying to help." Mark yelled as he tried to help again but Roger pushed him away again.
"She's got AIDS!" Roger yelled. Mark immediately stopped in his tracks.
"She's got what?!" Mark asked looking up at him.
"AIDS Mark. You know Acquired Immune Deficiency Syndrome?" Roger asked looking down at him.
"Oh my God Roger. What the hell did you do to yourself?" Maureen asked crying from across the room.
"I guess I finally succeeded in killing myself." he yelled looking up at her.
"Roger, you're not gonna die. You can treat this." Mark said as Roger looked down at him.
"You know what Mark? I'm ready. I fucked up every good thing I've ever had in my life. I deserve to die." he said rushing off to his room.
"Now what Mark?" Maureen yelled crying before running off to their room.
"I don't know." he answered quietly as he stared down at April's lifeless body. "I don't know." he repeated running his fingers through his short blond hair.
END FLASHBACK
I don't remember much else from that night. I vaguely remember talking to the cops. I try not to think about that night too much. I said a lot of horrible things to my friends that night, especially Allison. I'll regret the things that I said and did that night for the rest of my life. You would think that after everything that happened that night I would want to get clean, but it was the exact opposite. All I wanted to do was die faster. Mark and Maureen tried their best to convince me to get help but I wouldn't hear about it. So they called the someone who would smack some sense into me.
Flashback
"Where is he, Mark?" Billy asked as he stormed into the loft, Barb was right behind him.
"Billy calm down." Barb said.
"No. All this shit ends today." Billy said raising his voice.
"He's in his bedroom." Mark said quietly. Mark had lost a bunch of weight and looked like he hadn't slept in days. "I'm sorry we didn't call sooner. I didn't know it would get like this."
"It's ok." Barb said hugging him. "We'll get him help."
"I'll be out in a little bit." Billy said walking towards Roger's door. He didn't even bother knocking, he just pushed the door open. He saw red when he saw Roger tying a belt around his arm.
"What the fuck?" Roger yelled. Billy didn't say anything as stormed across the room and grabbed Roger.
"What the hell are you doing?" He yelled.
"What the hell are you doing here?" Roger yelled.
"Trying to make sure that I don't have to burry my brother." Billy yelled. "What the hell are you doing to yourself?"
"You don't have any idea what it's been like!" Roger yelled. "Don't pretend like you do."
"No Roger, I lost them too." Billy yelled with tears in his eyes. "Ellie was my neice. It killed me when we buried her. And Kelly was like my sister, you don't think I don't miss her?" Billy let go of Roger and started going through his drawers. He found the photo album he was looking for and pulled it out.
"What are you doing?" Roger asked.
"Look at this." Billy said tossing him the album. "I want you to look at those. Look at the people in those pictures."
"Billy, please don't." Roger said as tears formed in his eyes. Billy opened the photo album for him.
"Those are the people your killing along with you." Billy said as he pointed to a picture when they were younger. It was of their parents and all the kids. Billy turned the page and there was a picture of everyone at the loft. "Them too."
"Billy." Roger said as he started to cry. Finally Billy turned the page and there was a picture of Kelly, Roger, and Ellie.
"Roger, you owe it to them most of all to get your shit together." Billy said.
"It hurts too much!" Roger yelled throwing the photo album across the room.
"This isn't just about you!" Billy yelled. "Don't you see how you're killing everyone with you?" Before Roger could respond Billy grabbed him again and dragged him out of the room. He dragged him over to the couch where Mark was sitting. "Look at him." Billy said pointing at Mark. "He isn't taking care of himself because all he does is worry about you! You're supposed to be his best friend and you're letting him suffer with you."
"I didn't ask anyone for anything!" Roger yelled.
"What was I supposed to do Roger, watch my best friend kill himself?" Mark asked yelling. Mark rarely yelled like that. "I was just supposed to continue on with my life and not notice what's been happening to you?"
"I…I'm sorry." Roger said collapsing on the couch and sobbing.
"Don't just be sorry." Billy said. "You have to promise that you'll do something about it."
"What?" Roger asked as the tears came down his cheeks.
"Go into rehab." Billy said. "It's already been arranged. We'll take you today."
"I can't afford it." Roger said still crying.
"Don't worry about that. It's already been taking care of." Barb said looking at Mark.
"How?" Roger asked. Mark looked away. Allison had offered to pay for rehab but she said she didn't want Roger to know where it came from. She thought that Roger wouldn't go if he knew that she had paid for it.
"Everyone pooled their money together." Mark hated lying but he had to respect Allison's wishes.
"I can't let you guys do that." Roger said trying to regain his composer.
"Roger we want to do this." Barb said moving to sit on the table in front of him. "If it means that you get better then it's worth it."
"Thank you." Roger said looking up at all of them. "I'm really sorry."
"Just get better." Barb said hugging him. When she pulled away she had tears in her eyes. "We should get going, why don't you go get your bag together."
"Ok." Roger said nodding his head. He walked into his room and picked up his duffel bag and started putting clothes in it. He walked over to where he had thrown the photo album. He took out the pictures that Billy had shown him. He stopped and looked at the picture of him, Kelly, and Ellie. "I promise I'll make this up to both of you somehow." With that he put the pictures in his duffel bag and walked out into the living room.
END FLASHBACK
I've been clean ever since. I don't think I would have been able to make it this far with out the support of my family and friends. I don't think I'll ever fully forgive myself for all that I put them through. But I know that I can't change the past. That's one of the things that I learned in rehab. In rehab they had me talk to a therapist. I wasn't exactly happy with talking to a stranger about everything that happened. But sometimes it was easier to talk to someone who wasn't in the situation, who didn't live all that with me. She helped me to see things with an objective view.
Flashback
"So why don't we talk about Kelly?" The doctor asked as Roger sat down in the chair.
"I don't want to talk about her." Roger said as he sunk down in the chair.
"Roger we have to." She said. "She's a big part of your life."
"You mean she was. She's not here anymore." Roger said getting angry.
"So you don't love her?" The doctor asked.
"I'll always love her." Roger said quietly.
"Roger, you need to resolve what happened with your relationship." The doctor said. "Talking about it is the first step."
"Where do you want to start?" Roger asked.
"How about from the beginning?" The doctor said. "How long have you known each other?"
"Since the day we were born." Roger started out. "Our parents were really good friends and they happened to get pregnant at the same time. Me and my twin sister Becca were born on the same day as Kelly."
"That doesn't happen often." The doctor said smiling. "So you've always been close?"
"I don't have a single memory from my childhood without Kelly in it." Roger said.
"When did you realize that you liked Kelly as more than a friend?" The doctor asked.
"We went to the freshman dance together that fall." Roger said smiling at the memory. "That's when I realized that I liked her."
"When did you start dating?" The doctor asked.
"The following June." Roger said.
"Why did it take you that long to ask her out?" The doctor asked.
"I didn't know that she if she felt the same way. And I didn't want to ruin our friendship if she didn't feel the same way." Roger explained.
"What made you finally decide to take a chance?" The doctor asked.
"There was this guy who was putting the moves on her at this party we were at, he kept harassing her and stuff so I went over there and I ended up hitting the guy." Roger said.
"So her knight in shinning armor came to her rescue." The doctor said smiling.
"Not exactly." Roger said smirking. "The guy was about to kick my ass but my brother was there and threw the guy out."
"So what happened that made you decide to take a chance?" The doctor asked.
"The guy had punched me and Kelly took me to the bathroom to help get me cleaned up." Roger said. "And then I looked at her and kissed her."
"And that was the start of your relationship." The doctor asked.
"Yeah, we went on our first official date the next day." Roger said.
"So what was your relationship like during high school?" The doctor asked.
"It was great." Roger said. "She was over my house all the time. Her mom had died when we were thirteen and her dad was always out of town."
"Your parents were ok with that?" The doctor asked.
"Yeah." Roger said. "It had been that way even before we started dating. But when we started dating she had to sleep in my sisters room."
"Ok so what happened after high school?" The doctor asked.
"We moved to the city. She went to NYU and I started working putting a band together." Roger said slowly, he knew where the conversation was heading.
"Would you say that things changed once you moved to the city?" The doctor asked.
"I think we matured." Roger said. "But we were still really happy."
"When would you say the turning point happened?" The doctor asked. Roger paused and took a deep breath.
"When our daughter died." Roger said as he felt the tears well up in his eyes.
"What happened after she died?" The doctor asked.
"Kelly started pulling away. She started working a lot." Roger began as a few tears started escaping his eyes. "And I started staying out at the bar a lot too."
"So whose fault would you say the breakup was?" The doctor asked.
"I cheated and she caught me." Roger said as more tears fell.
"You said that she was pulling away from you, so it's was only natural for you to try to find solace elsewhere." The doctor said.
"There is no excuse what for what I did." Roger said angrily.
"I'm not saying that, Roger." The doctor said. "I'm just saying that you both made mistakes after your daughter died."
"Are you saying that it was Ellie's fault?" Roger yelled.
"Roger I didn't say that." The doctor said. "I'm just saying that you both avoided each other after her death."
"No what happened was my fault. I should have been the one to be strong and help Kelly threw it but no I fucking started drugs he yelled." Roger yelled. "I should have been the one to be strong for everyone but instead I acted like some stupid kid."
"But Roger, you were just a kid." The doctor said.
END FLASHBACK
She was right, I was just a kid when all that happened. Most adults wouldn't know what to do in that situation. But that still didn't give me the right to do what I did. But I'm trying to move on a put that in the past. Trying to be a better person for my friends and my family. I don't want them to look back when I'm gone and remember that part of my life, I want them to remember the good things I did, the things that I did right. I was so scared to face my family after I went into rehab. I didn't want to deal with all the questions that would have for me. Not only questions about the drugs but questions about the HIV.
Flashback
Roger was sitting in the "living room" of the rehabilitation center when he looked up and saw his parents along with Billy, Becca, and Barb walk in. Becca was the first one to speak.
"How are you doing?" Becca asked as she gave him a big hug.
"I'm getting better." He said hugging her tight.
"That's good." She said when he let her go. Roger turned to his parents, he didn't know what to say to them.
"You look better." Mr. Davis said as he pulled Roger into a crushing hugs.
"Thanks." Roger said with tears in his eyes. After he pulled away he hugged his mother, Billy, and Barb before sitting back down. Once everyone had sat down they settled into an awkward silence. Finally Barb spoke.
"I got a job at the hospital." Barb said smiling.
"Good for you." Roger said smiling. He could tell they were all avoiding what they really came her to talk about. "You guys don't have to dance around anything, if you want to ask me something go ahead."
"How long were you using for?" Billy asked bluntly. Roger winced at the comment.
"About a month after Ellie died up until the day I came here." Roger said looking down at his lap so they wouldn't see the tears in his eyes.
"Why didn't you come to us?" Mrs. Davis asked.
"I didn't know what I was supposed to do." Roger started out. "I couldn't deal with the pain and then I started with the drugs and that made it go away. I didn't think that I would end up like this." Roger said as he started to cry. Mrs. Davis moved to the couch and sat next to Roger and wrapped her arms around him.
"There's nothing we could do about what happened before." Mrs. Davis said quietly as she cried. "But promise me that from this day forward you will come to us."
"I promise." Roger said quietly. "I'm so sorry."
"We know that Roger." Mr. Davis said. "But I need to know that your completely done with the drugs."
"I swear on everything that I'm done. I'll never touch that stuff again." Roger said adamantly. "It's already cost me too much." They slipped into another period of silence before Barb spoke again.
"How are you adjusting to the medications?" Barb asked.
"They said my T-Cells were good and they started me on AZT." Roger said quietly. "A lot of the things they said I didn't really understand."
"I could talk to your doctor." Barb said. "I probably could explain it to you."
"Ok." Roger said quietly. His family stayed for a little but longer before heading back home. Before Barb left he asked to speak with her alone.
"What's going to happen?" Roger asked. Barb was a nurse so he knew she would know and give him the truth. Barb sat back down next to Roger.
"The truth is we don't know that much about it yet." Barb started out. "We know that you get it from bodily fluids. They're starting to come out with more medications all the time." She looked at Roger with tears in her eyes. "I don't know how long you're going to live. But I know that if you keep yourself healthy and take the medications like you're supposed to, you have a shot at a fairly long life."
"What's going to happen when it turns into AIDS?" Roger asked with tears in his eyes. He saw the tears well up in Barb's eyes as she looked away.
"You'll probably start out with a common cold." Barb started shakily. "Then it'll probably turn into pneumonia, you'll probably start getting lesions." Barb stopped talking and started to cry.
"I promise I'll fight this with everything I got." Roger said hugging her tightly. "I'm not going down without a fight. I promise."
"I'm going to hold you to that promise." Barb said wiping way her tears.
"I know." Roger said. "You should probably get going, Billy is waiting for you."
"When have I ever cared if Billy was waiting?" Barb said laughing.
"I know." Roger said laughing too. "But I think I'm going to go lay down for a little bit."
"Ok." Barb said standing up. "I'll see you soon."
"Ok." Roger said hugging her goodbye.
END FLASHBACK
I thank god everyday for my family. Most people would have cut me off after how badly I fucked up but they stood by me through it all. They are part of the reason that I made it this far. My parents were so supportive after I got out of rehab, they offered to let me move back with them just until I felt up to going back to the loft. They knew the loft held a lot of memories, but so did Scarsdale. After I got out of rehab I slipped back into a depression. When I got back, I knew that Kelly wasn't there and that stung. But I knew I would have to deal with those feelings eventually. I didn't leave the loft after I came back. Mark tried his best to get me to be social, but I couldn't do that until I was ready. Mimi was the one that made me see that I needed to get out and live my life to the fullest. I'll always love Mimi. She was a truly special person, so full of life. And once she got clean it was like that life was magnified by ten. The world's a little bit darker with out her in it. But at least she died clean and knowing that she did change a lot of people's lives. It was because of Mimi that I found out that Allison paid for my rehab.
Flashback
Mimi, Roger, and Mark were sitting in the loft watching one of Mark's films.
"Is that Benny's wedding?" Roger asked.
"Yeah." Mark said getting up to turn it off. "I didn't know that was on there."
"It looks like Muffy got the wedding she always dreamed of." Roger said rolling her eyes.
"Don't talk about Allison like that." Mark said. "She wasn't the one that caused all that drama, it was Benny and Mr. Grey."
"Whatever." Roger said getting up.
"Isn't she the one that paid for your rehab?" Mimi asked looking up at Roger.
"No." Roger said looking at Mark. "It was Mark and everyone." Mark looked away. "Wasn't it?"
"She thought you wouldn't accept the money from her." Mark said looking down. "So we told you that it was us."
"I can't believe you didn't tell me." Roger said storming into his room and slamming the door.
"I'll go talk to him." Mimi said quietly getting up and going to the door. "Roger can I come in?"
"Yeah." Mimi heard him say as she opened the door.
"Do you want to talk about it?" Mimi asked sitting on the bed next to him.
"I feel like some charity case." Roger said. "I never asked for her charity."
"You're not a charity case." Mimi said. "She was your friend and she paid for your rehab because she was your friend."
"I feel horrible for calling her Muffy all these years." Roger said looking down. "I treated her really bad after April died."
"Then go make amends." Mimi said. "Maybe it's time to get past everything that's happened."
"I don't know if I'm ready to forgive Benny just yet." Roger said looking at her.
"Then just talk to her." Mimi said. "Go talk to her when you know that Benny is at the office or something."
"Maybe." Roger said. "I need to think about it."
"Ok." Mimi said kissing his cheek.
END FLASHBACK
A week later I found myself outside Benny and Allison's apartment.
Flashback
Roger took a deep breath before knocking on the door.
"Roger?" She asked shocked when she opened the door. "What are you doing here?"
"I needed to talk to you." Roger said. "Can I come in?"
"Of course." Allison said smiling and hugging him. "It's good to see you."
"It's good to see you too Ally." Roger said hugging her back. When she let him go she led him into the living room.
"So what did you want to talk about?" She asked as they sat down on the couch.
"I came to say I was sorry about all the things that I said." Roger began. "I was hurting really bad and I took it out on everyone that was around me."
"It's ok." Allison said quietly. "I think we all made a lot of mistakes back then."
"No it's not ok Allison." Roger said. "Especially considering you're the one that paid for my rehab."
"How did you find out?" Allison said looking away.
"Mimi." Roger said a little hesitantly.
"Benny probably told her." Allison said quietly.
"I should probably go, I didn't mean to come here and bring up bad memories for you." Roger said standing up.
"No, Roger don't go." Allison said. "Benny and I have gotten past that. It's just sometimes it still stings."
"I know." Roger said sitting back down. "Thank you for what you did."
"It was nothing." Allison said smiling. "I would do it again in a heartbeat."
"But you didn't have to." Roger started to say but Allison cut him off.
"I did have to." Allison said. "I wasn't going to let one of my friends suffer when I had the power to help them."
"I really don't deserve a friend like you." Roger said hugging her.
"Don't sell yourself short." Allison said smiling. "You've been a good friend to me too."
"Yeah but I fucked up there for awhile." Roger said.
"We all make mistakes." Allison said. "At least you rectified your mistakes."
"Most of them." Roger said looking down.
"You still have time." Allison said. "You'll get the chance one day." They had been sitting there for an hour talking about the old days and telling each other what had been happening, when Benny walked in.
"Roger, what are you doing here?" Benny asked shocked.
"I was just telling Ally thank you." Roger said standing up. "It was long over due."
"You look good." Benny said not really knowing what else to say.
"Thanks." Roger said. "I should probably get going."
"Come back anytime, ok?" Allison said standing up and hugging him. "I don't want you ever going that long with out calling again."
"Don't worry I won't." Roger said as he pulled away, he started walking toward the door when he stopped and turned around. "Listen, I know a lot of stuff has happened in the past but I was wondering if we could all start over?"
"I think that's a great idea." Allison said smiling.
"So do I." Benny said with a slight grin.
"How about everyone meet at the Life?" Roger suggested. "It'll be like old times."
"Are you sure that's a good idea?" Benny asked. "I know I'm not on everyone's good side."
"I'll talk to everyone." Roger said smiling. "Just meet us at the Life at seven, ok?"
"Ok, we'll see you then." Allison said smiling as Roger walked out the door.
END FLASHBACK
I really wish I could have filmed everyone's reactions when I told them that I had invited Benny and Allison out with us. It was still a little awkward at first. But eventually all that awkwardness subsided and we were all able to get back to being friends again. Even Mimi and Allison were able to form a friendship, as odd as that sounds. Mimi had invited Allison to lunch to explain everything that had happened so they could put it in the past. But Mimi always knew that there was something in the back of Allison's mind that prevented them form becoming really close. At first she thought it was what happened with Benny but I think she knew it was something else. Mimi asked me about it about two weeks before she left. And I knew that I had to tell her about Kelly.
Flashback
"Roger, can I ask you something?" Mimi asked as they lay on the couch.
"Sure." Roger said as he looked down at her.
"Do you ever notice how Allison gets distant when I mention certain things?" Mimi asked choosing her words very carefully.
"What do you mean?" Roger asked.
"Like if I start singing certain songs, it's like I'm reminding her of someone." Mimi said slowly. "You do it too." Roger took a deep breath, he knew that they would have to have this conversation sooner or later.
"Sit up Meems." Roger said as he sat up. "She gets quiet because it reminds her of Kelly."
"She was your girlfriend before April, right?" Mimi asked.
"How did you know?" Roger asked.
"I knew that there was someone before April." Mimi said. "If you don't want to talk about it, I understand."
"No, it's ok." Roger said slowly. "I should have told you about Kelly sooner, but it was just hard to talk about it." Roger started at the beginning and told Mimi everything. By the end they both had tears in their eyes.
"I'm really sorry." Mimi said. "But it makes things a lot clearer now."
"Allison and Kelly were really close." Roger said. "It's not you, it's just Allison still misses her."
"You all do." Mimi said. "Her not being her left a void in all of you. Especially you."
"I do miss her. I owe her an apology." Roger said. "But you know that I love you.
"I know that." Mimi said hugging him. "I love you too."
"You're an amazing person." Roger said hugging her tightly. "I don't know what I would do without you."
"You give me too much credit." Mimi said. "You'd be fine."
"No, I owe you so much." Roger said looking her in the eyes. "You saved me."
"You saved me too." Mimi said as he leaned in and kissed her.
"Why don't we go lay down for awhile and then we'll go out with everyone?" Roger asked when he pulled away.
"Ok." Mimi said as he pulled her up and led her to the bedroom.
"I love you Meems." Roger said hugging her tightly.
"I love you too Roger." Mimi said as they fell asleep.
END FLASHBACK
Two weeks later she was gone. She said she needed to make amends with her family before she died. I think she knew that she was starting to get sick again. At first I was crushed. I loved her so much I didn't know what to do. And then all those feelings that I had buried about Kelly started to come back. I didn't lock myself in the loft like I did the last time, but I started to pull away from people. It was Mo who read me the riot act. She was never one to dance around the issue.
Flashback
Roger sat in his bedroom looking at pictures of Kelly and Ellie. He felt the tears sting his eyes the longer he sat there. Finally he broke down into tears. He hadn't even heard the door open.
"Roger?" Maureen said standing in the doorway.
"What are you doing her Mo?" Roger asked as he tried to cover up the fact that he was crying.
"Don't bother." Maureen said as she came and sat down next to him. "I know that you're crying."
"I guess I can't pull anything over on you." Roger said laughing lightly as he began to pick up the pictures.
"What made you decide to bring these out?" Maureen asked as she looked at them.
"I don't know. I've been thinking about her a lot since Mimi left." Roger said. "I just can't help but think she'll never know how sorry I am."
"You have to believe that she'll come back." Maureen said wrapping her arms around him. "She just needs time to heal."
"It's been four years Maureen." Roger said. "I don't think that she's coming back."
"She's got a lot of demons in her." Maureen said. "And not just Ellie, everything with her mom and dad too."
"I know." Roger said. "I just know that I don't have all the time in the world, and I want her to know that I'm sorry."
"You're not going anywhere yet." Maureen said hugging him tighter. "But you need to start hanging out with everyone more. It's not healthy for you just to be in the loft all day."
"I do go out." Roger protested.
"Oh sorry, you occasionally pick up a shift of two at the bar." Maureen said pulling away and rolling her eyes.
"I just needed sometime to myself." Roger said.
"Well you've had enough time." Maureen said standing up and pulling him up with her.
"What are you doing?" Roger asked.
"You are going to take me out to lunch." Maureen said pulling him towards the door.
"Maureen." Roger said sternly.
"Oh don't you dare say my name like that." Maureen said putting her hands on her hips. "I swear to god I am not above using violence."
"You're not going to give up are you?" Roger asked.
"I'll never give up on my friends." Maureen said smiling.
"I guess I'm going to have to buy you lunch then." Roger said smiling as they made their way out the door. "You're a great friend." Roger said wrapping an arm around her shoulders.
"Thanks." Maureen said smiling up at him. "You're not too bad yourself.
END FLASHBACK
Maureen was the only one that wouldn't let me stay in the loft. Everyone else would just let me have my alone time and hope that I would decide to come out. Mark would try but if I said no he would let it drop. Maureen would drag me kicking and screaming. But that's what I love about her. She's there if you need someone to talk to but she won't put up with your bullshit. That's what makes her such an amazing friend. I'm really lucky to have her. Actually I'm lucky to have all of my friends. They have all been there for me through everything and I'll be forever in their debt. I know they say it's what they would do for any of their friends and that they know that I would do it for them if the situation was reversed. But the fact is the situation wasn't reversed. It was me who needed them to be there for me and they were one hundred percent. And I wouldn't trade them for anything in the world.
A/N: Ok so I know that this chapter is really long. It's 17 pages! But all of this needed to be included. Roger's chapter is the most important chapter besides Kelly's. Just so you know Kelly's will be just as long if not longer. I hope everyone enjoyed this chapter. I'm really proud of this chapter. Well I'll keep this short, I'm going to start working on Kelly's chapter tomorrow. I have no idea how long it will take me to get that chapter done. But I'm going to push to get that chapter done by next Friday, but don't hold me to that. Thanks to everyone that has reviewed! You guys are amazing. I can't believe that there is only one more chapter left and then this story will be done. It's kind of sad for me. It'll be the end of an era. And it'll be the first story that I get done. Time Flies will also be coming to an end soon too. But don't worry there is still a lot to write for that story. Well that's it for now. Remember to review! Oh and I very big thank you to Renthead621, thanks so much for your help on this chapter and for writing a bit of when they find April. I don't know what I would do without you!
Until Next Time, Lot's of Love,
BohemianGirl06
