A/N: *drumroll* Here it is my dears! The next part of my double update! YAY! :D Now, this is super long, to make up for the last chapter that was super short :) Also, this chapter is named for part of a famous quote, I shall leave the entire thing at the bottom, and see if you can guess who said it :)

Disclaimer: It's getting depressing writing that I don't own BTR :'(

Chapter 28: This pain is part of being human

"Are we there yet?" Carlos asked for the umpteenth time. They were on the tour bus, heading down a straight, boring, empty road, with nothing to look at but the straight, boring empty horizon.

"Carlos, you've asked that ten times already!" Logan said shortly.

"We're a couple miles away, buddy," James smiled, and Carlos turned to look out the window, leaning forward in his seat to look in front of the bus.

"Why can't we see the sign yet?" he whined, turning to Kendall, who was staring gloomily out his own window on the other side of the bus.

"You see anything, Kendall?" Carlos asked a silent Kendall, who was staring out the window, gazing out at the bleak sky, his mind wandering.

"Kendall?" James asked, turning to face his friend.

"What?" he asked numbly, looking up.

"Whatcha thinking about, man?" Logan asked.

"Just thinkin'," he trailed off and looked up at Logan,"she hasn't called,"

"Kendall, you've gotta stop thinking about her," Logan said gently.

"She wasn't well," Carlos replied.

"No she wasn't, she would have told me if she was sick, she's just mad,"

"Mad?" Carlos repeated.

"Yeah, she still is," Kendall shook his head "she hates me, and I don't even know why! And I never told her I was sorry!"

"Kendall-" Logan tried.

"What kind of boyfriend am I?" Kendall asked shakily "what kind of father am I?"

"What are you talking about?" James asked bracingly "you're gonna be a great father!"

"No, I'm not, James!" Kendall pressed "What kind of father isn't there for all the doctor's appointments? They say the next two months are the most important ones, and I'm gonna miss them, all because I'm on a stupid tour!"

"Kendall, you're not a bad father because you miss one appointment, you're working! Most dads your age don't even work at all! They finish school and find that they can't support their families, so they just leave them behind."

"But, I'm not working Logan!" Kendall cried in anguish "I'm prancing around on stage for a bunch of annoying screaming girls-"

"How can you say that?" James yelled "I thought you loved performing on stage, I thought you loved our fans!"

"I do, James, don't be stupid!" Kendall retorted "I just wanna be with my own girl while she's getting to see our baby!"

"Kendall," Logan's voice began to rise "you can't think you're the only one who's missing his girlfriend, OK? We all are!"

"But he's got a baby, too!" Carlos defended.

"No, he doesn't!" James snapped scathingly "All he's got's a girlfriend who looks like she's swallowed a balloon-"

"Take that back!" Kendall shouted.

"You take back what you said about our job!" James returned.

"Guys-" Logan began.

"This is all your fault!" James yelled, rounding on Logan "If you hadn't mentioned working in the first place-"

"ENOUGH!" Carlos exploded suddenly "I'm sick and tired of you guys attacking each other about this!"

"Carlos, don't be stupid-" Logan began.

"I'm not being stupid, Logan, you are!" Carlos pressed on as Logan opened his mouth to protest "You and your stupid logic, Kendall's obviously not gonna fit into your 'average teen dad' folder!" he air quoted the words mockingly before whipping around to address James "And you! Of course Kendall cares about touring and the fans, how could you even think that he doesn't?!"

"Hey!" James exclaimed, offended.

"But, he's got a little bit more on his mind than we do!"

"So, you're siding with-"

"No, James, I'm not 'siding' with anyone!" Carlos snapped "Kendall, " he resigned his voice to an empathetic swell " I know you've got a baby on the way, and you're nervous, but seriously," his angry tone returned "you've still got a couple days to go, OK? So can you just focus?"

"How can you say that?" Kendall cried "You don't even know what it's like!"

"No, I don't, Kendall," Carlos retorted "and I don't plan to any time soon-"

"You take that back!" Kendall yelled.

"No!" Logan put in "Don't you dare, Carlos!"

"You stay out of this!" Kendall snapped.

"No way!" Logan returned "I'm sick of hearing you whine about how much you wanna see Jo, you've been at it all tour, just give it a rest!"

"What are you talking about?" James shouted "It's not just on tour, for the past 9 months, all it's been from him is 'baby this, baby that'! Who cares, Kendall?"

"How could you say that?" Kendall screamed "Take it back!"

"No way!" James snapped.

"That was way out of line!" Carlos yelled.

"Take it back!" Kendall thundered, leaping on James , Carlos and Logan in hot pursuit. James was slammed into the glass table, shattering it as he felt someone punch his jaw, and someone's knee in his abdomen. It was impossible to tell who was hurting who, and so they just punched and kicked any inch of skin they came into contact with, throwing shouts and insults all around the tour bus.

"DOGS!" came a thunderous shout, that closely resembled a whip crack that had been amplified one hundred fold. Kendall felt a huge pair of hands grip his shoulders roughly, yanking him from the fray and dumping him on the ground again, where he watched Freight Train do the same with James, Carlos and Logan, who hung limp like rag dolls as he lifted them. "Enough fighting!" Gustavo snapped from the front door of the bus, causing all four boys to leap a foot in the air and whip around to face their furious manager. "This is your last show, so get in there, give 'em all you've got, and then get out!" he thundered after the boys as they made their way around the back of the building and in through the backstage door.

They traipsed to their dressing room in a guilty but tense silence, changing quickly and heading backstage to warm up. There was a silent agreement between the boys in that moment; they would forget about their fight for now, they would be civil and polite to each other while they were in the venue, and they would give the fans what they came for. Kendall checked his phone for a message from Jo before Gustavo snatched it from him and handed it to Kelly, who put it with the others.

"20 seconds," Gustavo warned, putting on his headphones as the boys put on their in-ear monitors and turned on their microphones, Logan, Kendall and Carlos adjusting theirs slightly, while James flattened his hair around his, checking it in the mirror before joining the others at the side of the stage. Kendall's stomach lurched unexpectedly, and for a moment he felt like he was going to throw up, but it subsided quickly. He wished that he and the guys were talking again to he could tell them about it; Logan would know what it was. Kendall was certain it wasn't nerves, he never got nervous, especially about performing, it was second nature to him.

The countdown clock ended, and Gustavo sent out a blast of smoke as the guys got into position on the lift to open the show; Elevate.


Back in Los Angeles, Camille and Jo were sitting on the couch in apartment 2J watching a movie with Katie while Mrs Knight was out shopping. Jo wasn't paying much attention to the movie though, she was thinking about Kendall; he hadn't replied to her text that she'd sent over a month ago, and she was starting to worry. What if something had happened to him? What if the tour bus had crashed? She knew she was being stupid; surely it would have been all over the TV and the internet if Big Time Rush had died.

Suddenly, a great wave of pain shot across Jo's stomach, and she clutched her middle, fighting the urge to scream, resigning herself to a sharp gasp, drawing the attention of both Katie and Camille.

"Jo?" Camille asked "Are you OK?" Jo gritted her teeth as she waited for the contraction to subside.

"Yeah-" another pain "No!"

"What is it?" Katie asked, her voice panicky as she looked between the two older girls, desperate for an answer.

"It's OK, Katie, it's just a-" she let out a scream as another contraction caught her, leaving her breathless.

"It's the baby!" Camille cried, and Jo nodded shakily "Katie, call your mom! get her here, now!" Camille demanded, putting a hand on Jo's as Katie scurried off to find the phone "It's OK, Josie,"

"It hurts," Jo cried, tears streaming down her cheeks as she held her stomach, leaning forward as though she was going to vomit.

"I know, sweetie," Camille soothed, keeping a frim grip on Jo's hand as she let out another cry.

"Make it go away," she whimpered, looking imploringly first at Camille, then at Katie, who had just returned, and whose eyes widened, filling with tears as she watched her big brother's girlfriend cry and scream like she was in a horror movie. Katie stood, petrified, watching; ever since Jo had moved in, she had been like a big sister to Katie, and Katie had always admired how brave she was. But now, Katie was scared beyond belief, Jo had lost all that bravery; it had been washed away with her tears, and Katie had no idea what to do; even Camille was running out of things to say,

"Jo? Come on, you can do this, we just have to breathe until Mama Knight gets here, OK?"

"I can'-" Jo's words were lost as another contraction overcame her, and she let out another blood curdling scream, gripping Camille's hand so tightly that her knuckles were turning white. Camille tried to make 'shh' noises to calm her friend down, and Katie watched, horror struck, as Jo hiccoughed and screamed, her tears falling into her mouth as she cried out in anguish.

The door was pushed open at that moment, and everyone, including Jo- who was now sniffling and whimpering- fell silent as Kendall and Katie's mother entered the room.

"Mama Knight?" Jo got out "It's time,"

A/N: Whoa! Sorry for such a gigantical chapter, I just didn't want to end it after the guys went on stage :) As for the quote, here it is:

"Suffering like this proves you are still a man! This pain is part of being human … the fact that you can feel pain like this is your greatest strength."

If you can tell me where it's from, you can have a virtual corn dog :)