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EPOV
Excuse me?
"No, I'm sorry. But absolutely not. If she's knocked up it's definitely not my fault." I looked over at Bella, pleading with her to believe me. There was no way in hell I touched Tanya. No fucking way. "And besides that, she's been in town for what? A month? And we dated for a week, two weeks ago? I dunno, Dad, but that sounds off to me."
I didn't touch her. I knew I didn't touch her.
"I'm not saying it's yours. I know you're smarter than to have unprotected sex. What I amsaying is that people in this town talk. And if people are already talking about you being a sexual deviant, then it wouldn't be far fetched of them or worse, someone at Social Services to assume you're sleeping with Bella."
Fuck. I hadn't thought about that. What have I done? "So... what does that mean?"
"That means that you and Bella," He started, looking between us both. "Both need to be incredibly careful over the next few months, about your public interactions."
I looked at Bella, "Are you following this?"
She sighed, nodding sadly. "He's saying we have to hide our relationship."
I groaned, "Again?" Fuck, I thought we were over this shit.
"No, not necessarily." My mother started, "What I think your father is trying to say Edward is that go ahead, be friends with Bella. But the... more intimate displays of affection should be kept at a minimum in public."
"Mom, that's crap. You know this is crap. Imagine if someone asked you to act like you don'tlove Dad. Can you even fathom how hard that is? I did it. For too long, I did that. And I'm not doing it again. I won't. And besides, it's not like I molest her face when we go out in public." It was bull shit. Plan and simple. I couldn't let Bellla go though. I needed her with me. There wasn't anywhere else for her.
"Molest her face?" My mother asked, laughing even though she didn't want to. "That's a new one." She composed herself before giving me "We don't want you to hide. But even more, we don't want to lose you, Bella. You have felt like the daughter I never had since you were in diapers. Edward, I understand that you don't want to hide, but I will not let your inability to follow the rules let us lose Bella. You may be in love with her, but we love her too. And if it becomes clear that this rule cannot be followed, we'll need to think of alternate living arrangements - perhaps living with the Brandon's until you both go off to college in August." She paused, making sure I was listening. "This is serious Edward. If they think we're unfit as parents to care for her, they'll pull her from our home immediately and not think twice about placing her with who knows what kind of family, who knows where in Washington."
I sighed, looking at Bella. I couldn't do this to her. I couldn't let my... shit keep her from having a home. She needed this. She needed them. "Okay. Fine. Whatever." I closed my eyes, shaking my head. It felt like I had just sold my soul to the devil. "But either way, Tanya isn't having my baby." I stood up after that and walked away from all of them. I just needed a second to clear my head and forget... everything. I found myself in Bella's room. Smith was curled up on her bed, sleeping soundly. I didn't want to wake him, so I just watched him sleep. It wasn't long before I felt Bella's arms wrap around my waist.
She pressed her lips to my back over my tee shirt. "It'll be okay Edward. I turn 18 in 10 months. We should have sex in front of town hall that day to say 'f-you Forks'." She laughed, rubbing her cheek on my shoulder. "It'll be okay."
I took a deep breath, closing my eyes. "Maybe we shouldn't be doing this. Maybe we should wait... until you're eighteen." That broke my heart. Saying the words nearly killed me. But i had to have her near me. I couldn't risk her being moved. She had to understand that.
She dropped her arms from around me, and moved into view. "You don't mean that."
I sighed, "Of course I don't. But Bella, I can't let them take you. I have to do what's best for you, and that's being here. If my reputation, however undeserving jeopardizes that then we have to talk about what's best. I can't let them take you, Bella. I won't."
"What's best for me is you. We can get through this. You were the one that said you didn't like watching me walk away, well the same goes for me. Don't walk away Edward, please." She asked, her eyes brimming with tears.
I cupped her face in my hands brushing my thumbs over her cheeks. "Bella, don't. Please, don't cry. I'm not walking away, Baby. I'm here; right fucking here. I'm never going to leave you. Not ever. I'm just saying that if we have to... cool it for a little while, if it's in your best interest maybe we should. Bella, consider it: if they take you away, there's a very good chance I won't ever see you again." my heart tightened, and I knew I couldn't let that happen. Nothing would keep me from my Bella.
She nodded slowly, her eyes trained at the ground. "Okay."
I leaned in, kissing her softly. "I love you. Forever. Nothing will ever change that, okay?"
Bella nodded again, "So I guess... we have to break up publicly?"
i pulled her into my arms. "No. No. I can't... I can't do that. I can't... with you. Bella..."
It killed me to see the tears still threatening to spill as she spoke. "Edward... think about it. As long as... we're an 'us' people are going to assume things. The only way it'll stop, is if no one thinks we as a unit exist..."
"So just tell them we broke up. Bella... I can't do that with you. I can't do that to you." I kissed the top of her head, and we began rocking slowly.
She sniffed. "Okay."
"I love you, Bella. I promise, I'll love you for the rest of my life."
"Me too Edward. Forever." She pulled away and looked up at me. "So what are we telling people when they ask? Who dumped who?"
I hated this. "You can dump me."
She wiped her cheeks, "If they ask, you cheated. That seems to be the rumor that's going around anyway."
"I was going to say I was gay."
She smiled sadly, shaking her head. "You have a rep of banging anything with a pussy. You all of a sudden being gay would be suspicious."
there wouldn't be anyone but Bella, though. I knew I wasn't going to be able to even enjoy the next year. Fuck. Why couldn't we have more time? "Bella, when you bring home... someone else." Fuck, that stung, "Don't tell me, okay? I... I don't want to know about it." I didn't want to think of anyone else with my girl. Bella was mine. The end.
She furrowed her brow, "Edward, what are you talking about?"
"Well, I'm just saying that if... you wanted someone else, that I'd rather not know about it." Thinking about it made my chest tighten.
She looked to the left and right, then up at me. "Um... I was under the impression that once we got inside this house the breakup was void?"
I pulled her back into me, squeezing her to my chest. "Oh, thank fucking god. Don't you ever scare me like that again, okay? Never. Fuck, Bella."
She laughed into my chest. "You thought..." She looked up at me, a huge fucking grin on her face. "You thought I'd actually start dating?" Then she laughed at me.
"Shut up it's not fucking funny," I said, smiling back at her. "This whole situation is so fucked up."
"So... I guess this means our group date is over?"
I sighed, "And pressing you up against the lockers."
She pouted as she bit her lip, then smiled up at me. "You did miss the one shining star moment of the conversation when you came up here."
I kissed her nose. "I did?"
"Mhm. Your dad said that if everything started blowing over, i.e. we behaved like nothing more than foster siblings-slash-friends, that they may reconsider letting me live in this room. As a sort of reward." She said soothingly, reaching up to cup my jaw. "I really believe they're trying to understand how hard this is for us right now."
i leaned my head to her shoulder. "I hope so. I only just got you, Bella. This isn't fair."
"I know." She sighed, her fingers tugging at my hair. "But you'll always have me, so in the grand scheme of a lifetime this is nothing more than tiny blip."
"You're right. I know you are. Baby, tell me you love me."
"I love you Edward." She whispered, pressing a kiss to my temple.
I squeezed her tighter. "No matter what?"
"No matter what."
"Stay with me? Let's take a nap or something."
Bella nodded. "Should we... in the living room? So your parents don't freak out."
"Fuck that." I said, nuzzling the side of her neck.
"Edward..."
"Bella..." I said, mocking her tone.
She sighed again, running her hands over my back. "Fine, but I'm not taking my top off - and we're leaving the door unlocked."
I loved how we were fucking celibate all of a sudden. She moved toward the bed, and I followed slowly. "You have to at least take your bra off. And your jeans."
"Bra, but not jeans." She said, removing her bra with out letting me see her tits.
I pushed her down on the bed, then started undoing my jeans. "Then you're sleeping with a half naked Edward."
"Tease."
I kicked off my jeans and crawled on top of her. "I have to give you up for most of the day. I absolutely refuse to do it in my home."
"But... what about your parents? You heard what they said..." She breathed, arching her hips up into mine.
"I won't tell," I murmured, grazing my teeth along the delicate skin of her neck. "Will you?"
"lock the door." She whispered.
I grinned into her skin. "Let them see."
She pushed me back, "Edward, if you want my jeans off and me naked in this bed you're going to lock the door because I can guarantee if you parents walk in on us you and I will neverbe having sex again."
I pulled away a little, smirking at her. "You're just a little vixen, aren't you?"
She looked at me pointedly "no, i'm a teenager that's scared of getting caught fucking her boyfriend by his parents; now lock the door so I can ride you before I'm banished from this building."
I leaned in, kissing her slowly and letting my tongue swipe against her lips. She had just opened them when I pulled away, hovering above her. "I love you, Bella." I hopped off of her, and clicked the lock before switching off the light.
She undressed and I found her under the covers when I came back to the bed. "Shutting the lights. Good call."
I laughed, pulling the covers back and climbing on top of her again. "Why? Are you suddenly worried I don't like your body?"
She shook her head and laughed. "No, but the lights off gives them one less reason to check on us here."
I shifted my body inbetween her legs. "Where did you tell them you went?"
She was kissing along my neck as she spoke. "To see Angela."
I inched her underwear down slowly. "And they didn't hear you pull away?"
She rolled her eyes. "Really Edward? You'd think I was a novice... I parked your car a few blocks down the road."
"Shit, Baby." I moaned, rubbing my hard on into her core. "What have I done to you?"
She moaned into my ear, her hands clutching at my back. "You evidently weren't paying attention to me before everything happened." She breathed, grinding into me. "Police Chiefs' daughters are usually worst than the rest." Then she sunk her teeth into my neck.
I moaned, slipping into her quickly, "Well. We haven't exactly been on the best of terms, love."
She arched into me and whimpered, "I know... can we not... talk so much.." She asked, panting.
I started moving in and out of her, picking up my pace with every thrust. "Why? You love it when I talk to you." Fuck, it was hard to do this... actually speak to Bella, and be inside her. But fuck if I didn't want to try. I dropped one hand to her hip to anchor myself as I plowed into her a little harder. "Might help keep the noise down."
She curled one hand around my neck and another behind her in the pillow. "Edward... fuck. Faster..." She moaned.
So I did. I went hard and fast, drilling into her over and over again into her, until I knew I couldn't take it any more. I leaned into her, pushing my face into the crook of her neck. "Cum for me, Bella."
That was all I said, and it worked like a fucking charm. Bella came hard and fast all over my cock, her body arching off the bed as she clung to me. I shot my load deep inside of her soon after, my breath coming out ragged against her skin. My favorite part of the day: Being with Bella.
BPOV
After a while, Edward distracted his parents while I snuck out of the house and reentered, walking into the living room where all 3 of them were sitting like a big happy family watching
something on the Discovery Channel.
"Bella, you're back early. I assumed you'd be gone most of the evening." Esme replied, smiling up at me. A twinge of guilt ran through me as I sat down in one of the arm chairs. Edward threw me a confused look and patted on the cushion beside him on the sofa. I shook my head smiling up at Esme who had turned to face us.
"So, what were you thinking for your room? Have you even seen the spare cottage? It's beautiful. It's practically like having your own little apartment." I shook my head politely. "No, I've never been back there."
"Well - the way it is now is very plain. I was thinking we could go with a pattern and build around that or--"
"I think that I'll move out there," Edward said, interrupting Esme and turning towards his father. "It's not fair for Bella."
"Edward," Carlisle interjected sternly. "What're you--"
At his tone, Edward's gaze flickered to the TV as he spoke. "She's had enough change. She needs you more. Let her stay upstairs, and I'll go in the back."
"Edward that's very nice of you, but the decision has been made. Bella? Are you alright being out there?" Esme asked softly, turning her gaze from her son to me. I nodded, taking a breath. "Yea. I'm just glad you guys still want me." I said laughing sadly and looking down at my lap.
Carlisle moved slightly, patting my knee. "Of course we want you, Bella. And maybe someday, if things are as the two of you say, we might see you become our daughter officially." He replied, a genuine smile spread over his face.
I felt my heart swell at his words and glanced at Edward out of the corner of my eye, who was actually smiling. "I'm looking forward to that very much Mr. Cullen."
From my peripheral vision I saw Edward leaning over, towards me. His lips ghosted over my cheek as he whispered into my ear, "You're only allowed to call me Mr. Cullen."
I blushed and looked down at the space between us. When I finally glanced back up Esme was looking at me with a warm smile. "Carlisle, I think you may have been wrong about these two. I think this is the real thing for them. Look at how happy they look." I felt my cheeks flush an even deeper shade of red and bit my lip nervously.
When I looked up Edward was grinning at me with a dopey grin plastered on his face. I smiled shyly back up at him and he winked before turning back to his parents and pulling away slightly. "Now that we feel like a side show..."
"Bella dear, why don't I show you to your new living space?" Esme offered, standing up. "Edward, can you grab Bella's things that you two brought home today? Everything else is over there already."
Edward moved to stand, offering me a hand which I took. He pulled me up and kissed my lips softly, resting his forehead against mine. "I'll meet you out there." He whispered
I blushed at his public affection and nodded, looking over at Esme who looked like she was about to burst with joy. I laughed internally and followed her outside.
It was further than I remembered it looking, but still close enough to where I could see inside the kitchen window from my new living room area. Esme had just giving me a small tour of the quaint kitchen, living room, bedroom and bath by the time Edward had come inside.
"So what do you think?" Esme asked, looking at me expectantly. I smiled in thanks, "it's amazing Esme. Thank you again for letting me stay here."
"Nonsense. Thank you for being so accommodating. I'm sure Edward didn't make it easy." She said turning to glare at her son with slightly pursed lips.
"Why do you always blame me?" He accused, dropping the bags in the hallway.
"Oh, so you didn't do ANYTHING to coerce Bella to change her mind about staying here?" She asked putting her hands on her hips. I tried to hide the laugh that busted out, but the room was too quite and she spun around grinning at me. "He wants to pretend his own mother doesn't know him." She stated, scoffing playfully.
He smirked, shaking his head. "I didn't do anything."
"Mhmm, right." Esme replied, shaking her head. "But you two sit, I have something I want to talk to you about something without your father here." I peered over at Edward, who shrugged and looked just as confused as I was. We took seats beside each other on the sofa bed and Esme sat in the recliner that faced the coffee table.
"Now while I don't necessarily think you two should be living across the hall from each other, that doesn't mean I agree with the decision being made. However, for the protection of keeping Bella in this family this is the best solution." She began. Edward took my hand in his, resting it on his knee as we both looked at her to go on.
"With that said, I don't like the idea of you Bella, being alone here all night every night. So, if on occasion Edward you came to check on her and slept on the sofa I might be willing to turn a blind eye. BUT!" She continued quickly. "If I see, hear or find out about anything less innocent than that going on, Carlisle's rules go back into full effect. Understood?" She asked looking from him to me and back.
"And please invite your friends over to spend the night as much as you'd like Bella. I really don't like the idea of you being so isolated from everyone." She said, looking at me with slight regret at her decision. I nodded and saw Edward doing the same out of the corner of my eye.
"Thank you Esme. Again... for everything." I said, following her lead as she stood. "Of course dear." She pulled me into a warm embrace and I hugged her tightly. "Now don't make me regret giving you this extra leeway." She said looking solely at Edward.
"C'mon, Mom. Do you honestly think I'd let anything happen to her?"
"It's not anything outside of this room I'm worried about..." She said, looking at him pointedly.
His eyebrows arched inquisitively as he glared right back. "Have I ever given you a reason not to trust me? Aside from the whole secretly falling in love with Bella thing?"
"Exactly. It makes a wonder what else about the relationship you're hiding." She said with an accusatory tone in her voice as she arched an eyebrow
"What do you mean, what else? What do you think? Bella's pregnant?" He asked, laughing as if this were all one big joke that I wasn't in on.
"Should I have a reason to believe you two have been doing things that would put her in that state?"
"No, that's the point!" He exclaimed, his laughter doubling in volume at her insinuation.
She remained stoic looking from him to me. I of course, gave it all away with the severe blush I had glued to my skin. "Well, that's enough of my questioning. I don't need any gray hairs from having this conversation." She stated. "Edward, why don't you go upstairs and change. I want to have a little chat with Bella."
He placed a kiss on her cheek and grinned. "Love you, Mom."
"Mhmm.." She hummed as if she didn't fully believe him. "Love you too Edward." Once Edward had left she turned to me and sat back down.
"I really hope you're using birth control." She said calmly, letting out a soft laugh. How the fuck do you respond to that?
"Umm..."
She laughed a little louder patting my hand. "Bella, I'm not dumb. Please don't start acting like Edward and thinking that I don't know what's going on in my own house." I tensed up and puffed out my cheeks nodding slowly as I exhaled.
"So, you're using protection?"
I felt my cheeks relight on fire as I nodded.
"Good. And he didn't pressure you, right? I worry about him and about the things I've heard from parents at PTA meetings." I shook my head, smiling. "No, no pressure."
"Good, I'm glad." She paused, her shoulders straightening a bit as she sat up. "I know Edward sees this separation as a joke or punishment but it's really not. I mean, if you and he had started dating months ago you'd be living separately. I hope you can understand where Carlisle and I are coming from." I nodded again. "I do." I replied, smiling up at her. "I like that you act like parents. It's... comforting." I said honestly. "As much as it kinda sucks at the same time." I continued, laughing a little.
She smiled and let out a puff of air that sounded like a laugh. "I'm glad to hear that. Hopefully you can rub some of that optimism on Edward. He doesn't seemed too thrilled right now."
"He's acting just like I would be, if my parents were still here." Her face softened at my words and she rubbed my arm affectionately. "Your parents are looking out for you, you know that don't you?" I nodded, feeling the familiar tightening in my throat. "I know." I squeaked out. She sighed and stood up, leaning over to give me another hug.
"Do you need anything else?" She asked, moving towards the door. I shook my head. "No thank you." She nodded and opened the door. Edward was pacing in front of the door in his pj pants and a hoodie. I laughed to myself, thinking that this was the first time I'd actually seen him wear pants to bed. He moved inside, kissing his mother on the cheek again before shutting the door.
"You okay?" He asked, reaching to cup my cheeks between his hands.
"She's knows we're fucking. She called me out on it." I said, still a little stunned from the conversation.
"Oh, God." He muttered, his eyes widening and his jaw dropping slightly.
I nodded and pointed at his reaction. "See that - that is the look I had."
His face blanched and he ran a hand over his chin nervously. "So... so what does this mean?"
"She actually seemed okay with it once she asked if we were using protection." I paused rethinking my wording. "Well, maybe not okaywith it but... accepting. She didn't seem upset." I laughed recollecting the conversation in my head. "Actually, she seemed more pissed that you were trying so hard to hide it."
"Well, everyone thinks I'm a slut. I'd rather my mother didn't."
"Well she made mention of what parents say about you at PTA conferences." I joked, tugging at his hand and pulling him towards the couch. "I'm not sure if the mothers were talking about their own experience with you or their daughters." I teased.
He took a deep breath and nodded solemnly. "Yeah."
I sighed, looking at how frazzled he looked. "Are you okay? Should I have not told you?"
"Told me what? I'm fine."
"That your mom knows we're having sex." I looked at him with furrowed brows. "And no, you're not fine. You haven't tried to even touch my arm and it's been like ten minutes. Should I go in the other room?"
His hand slapped against my thigh and his gripped around my flesh with his fingertips. "No, it's fine. I just hate that everybody thinks I'm a whore. Including my mother, apparently. Bella, do you have any idea how embarrassing that is?"
I sighed, cupping his jaw with one hand and looking him directly in the eyes. "Your mom doesn't think you're a whore, Edward. Sleeping with your girlfriend does not make you a slut." I paused kissing the place between his eyebrows. "Plus I don't think you're a whore."
"Bella, you saw the look on her face when she asked me if you were pregnant. She assumed we were having sex because it's me. And you thought I was up until very recently."
"Yes, but I stand corrected. And your mom probably was just going based off of how much I was blushing when she asked it in the first place. I really think that as my guardian she would be trying to keep me as far from you as possible if she thought you were a man-whore."
His facial expression completely contorted and his eyes sparkled with uncertain hope. "You think?"
I nodded and smiled, kissing his lips softly. "I'm positive Edward. She would not allow you to spend the night on the sofa down here if she didn't trust that you weren't whoring it up all over Forks. And she certainly would be trying to respect my parents enough to keep me away from you if she really felt you were bad for me... in that way." I sighed kissing him quickly. "She loves you. She trusts you."
"Who said I was sleeping on the couch?"
I smirked. "She did."
"What does Bella say? Baby, are you scared?" He grinned playfully, taking a step closer to me.
"I'm petrified." I murmured, kissing down his neck. "So if you sleep on the sofa, so do I."
He chuckled, kissing my temple and rubbing his hands along my back. "Yeah, that's what I thought. I have to protect you, Baby."
"Opinion on clothing?" I mumbled, burying my face in the crook of his neck and sliding my hand under his hoodie.
"What if there's a fire? We'll burn to a crisp." He stated, as if that were a legit threat. He made quick work of tossing off his sweatshirt without needing to move much.
I giggled, sliding off my sweater and unclasping my bra as I moved to straddle him. "And pants?" I breathed against his lips
"What a stupid invention."
My lips found his and I arched myself up so he could slide them down. He removed them quickly, kicking them off when they were at his ankles. I took the time to twist myself to the side and quickly dispose of mine as well, letting them fall to the floor beside his before crawling back over him. His hands palmed my ass as I brushed my throbbing core against his tip. We both let out a quiet moan at the sensation, as I slowly slid down onto him. His mouth reached for my bottom lip and pulled it in, sucking softly as I moved up and down on his shaft in hard deliberate movements. The pace was driving Edward mad; I could tell by the way he was grunting and squeezing my ass, digging his fingertips into my flesh.
I picked up the pace, rolling my hips against him. I still couldn't get over how well we fit together, like we were meant to do this - to be like this. I buried my face in the crook of his neck and bit down roughly, eliciting a growl from his throat. His hands began palming my ass harder, trying to move me faster against him. "Baby, you're driving me and my cock crazy. I need to feel you cum." I moaned against his skin, clawing at the top of his spine with my fingernails as I moved faster. One of his hands slid between us, rubbing quick circles against my clit. It wasn't long before I felt the familiar tightening let go and I thrust my body down against his shaft as hard as I could cumming around his throbbing cock. The movement must have taken him by surprise because he didn't even pump in and out once more before I felt him let go deep inside me, my name spilling from his lips in reverence.
We both sat there, panting into each others' damp skin, trying to catch our breaths. We were clinging onto each other like we were all we would ever need.
And in that moment I knew that was true.
Edward was all I would ever need.
