The breeze felt amazing on her face as she hung her top half out of the sunroof of the limo Derek had pick them up at the airport. She felt like a princess. She was getting the special treatment from every direction and it almost made her feel guilty that he was going through all of this trouble. Derek sat back in his seat laughing at how carefree she seemed. Knowing the last few weeks had been hard on her and this was just what she needed.
"Mer…"
He could hear her giggles as he pulled her back into the limo, laughing as she fell into his lap.
"So birthday girl are you ready for your weekend in New York…just you and me…and what ever we can think of to fill our time with" smiling he kissed her. Hearing her gasp he pulled back suddenly…wondering what had her attention…and then smiling as he noticed they had reached their destination.
"Oh my God Derek it's beautiful…."
"Do you like it?"
"Like it, I love it…I can't believe we are staying here" she smiled as the limo door was opened and a valet greeted her. Stepping out she took in the magnificent sight of the New York Palace hotel in all it's glory, smiling as Derek came to stand next to her, softly kissing her.
"If you would just follow me miss, Jeff here will bring up your luggage." The valet said to her as he turned and headed for the entrance. She squeezed Derek's hand and took off behind the Valet, nearly dragging Derek along. She was exploding with excitement.
As soon as they made it to the room and had tipped the other valet, Jeff, the door was slammed and Meredith had Derek against the wall.
"Wow! Calm Down Meri..." He said laughing as her tiny hands attacked his shirt. Her hungry lips were devouring his neck.
"Derek, I...I don't... know what to... say." She said between kisses and nips. "This...is...amazing."
"I am waiting for you to realize that you are worth all of this. I don't know what you normally do on your birthday, but I wanted this one to be perfect." He said as he grasped her hips, picking her up and carrying her over to the huge king sized bed.
Falling backwards he landed with her straddling him. The flimsy material of her sundress gathering between her legs just as his cock hardened and did the same. His hands gathered in her hair pulling her into a kiss "Mer…I really do hope you know how much you mean to me…"
Meredith smiled, feeling self conscious as she stared down into those baby blues filled with so much love…it was an emotion she had wanted to feel for so long…and now it petrified her "Derek do you want to talk….or….." gyrating her hips in a sensual dance she let him know how much her body needed him.
Derek groaned deep in his chest, rolling over he pinned her beneath him. Frustrations running high…he wanted to talk to her, wanted her to know she meant more to him than this…but at the same time it was hard to think about anything else than the feel of her small hands as they worked their magic over his body.
"I think that answered my question.." She said laughing as he pulled the straps of her dress over her shoulders.
Meredith hated the moments when all she was able to do was sit there and stew in her emotions. She had been fine, the city lights, the huge buildings...Even at the hotel, distracting herself with Derek's kisses and passion. But now, Derek was holding her, his breathing even, and she knew he was sleeping. She sighed as she slipped out of his arms and put on a robe from the bathroom and stepped out onto their private balcony. The city was breathtaking, even more beautiful than in pictures.
She felt trapped...There were no distractions now. Nothing to keep her away from her nightmares.
She heard the glass slide behind her and a groggy Derek snaked his arms around her, taking her into his warmth.
"Mer, you have to tell me what's going on. I can't pretend your okay anymore. It's killing me to know you are hurting." He said as she looked up at him, a tear slipping down her cheek. He thumbed it, stopping it from traveling any further.
"Derek...Its not you...I just...I don't know how to explain it...I'm not ready to try." She replied a flood of tears now soaking her delicate face. Derek's heart was breaking at the sight. He just wanted her to be happy.
"Meri, you know you can tell me anything. I am only here for you. I love you."
"I know Derek...birthday's are just hard for me. I have hated them...ever since..." She stopped herself remembering her family falling apart. Her mother made sure Meredith would never enjoy a birthday again.
Closing her eyes she rested against his chest, his arms a cocoon of comfort even as the memories haunted her thoughts…
Creeping down the stairs in her pink nightgown Meredith crept into the kitchen, her Daddy had always made a huge breakfast for her birthday…calling her a birthday princess that should be waited on hand and foot.
Walking through the doors she saw that her Daddy wasn't there, she knew they said he was never coming back but somehow she thought he would come back for this, tears filling her big green eyes she turned seeing her Mother sitting in the nook of the kitchen sipping her coffee…
"Hi Mommy…"
"Meredith why are you still in your pajamas, you know better, now run upstairs and get dressed…" Ells coldly told her daughter as she barely even looked up from the papers in front of her.
"But…."
"No buts Meredith run along and do as your told…."
"Mommy it's my birthday…aren't we going to have breakfast?" Meredith asked as her lip quivered.
Ellis stood coming to stand in front of the small child "your birthday…you want to celebrate your birthday…we just buried your Father. I'm left alone with two children to raise on my own…and you want me to worry about your birthday…I always told him you were selfish…a spoiled brat…well not anymore. Now run upstairs and get dressed and no more of this nonsense…."
Meredith ran as fast as her feet could carry her small body. Collapsing on her bed she let the tears flood her pillow…her Daddy was gone and she was all alone…life was different and for a six year old that was scary…she didn't like feeling all alone….
Shivering in the night air Meredith ran her hands along her bare arms, glancing up into Derek's eyes she could read the worry on his face…she wanted to open up…tell him everything…but it just hurt to much.
"Come on let's go back to bed" she whispered tugging on his hand.
Derek stood still for a second wanting to argue with her…to beg her to open up, but seeing the pain in her eyes he knew for now he should just let it go….
