It had been decided that we were going to go shopping then have dinner together. I had started the drinking at lunch, followed it up during dinner and was close to drunk when we decided to watch a movie. The only thing that was showing was Something Borrowed. The boys laughed hard as they bought the tickets. I had to giggle some myself, as drunk as I was. I sat next to Jules, he was holding my hand the whole time. Nick got mad when we started making out, claiming we were too loud and he really liked this movie. Jules did not like it at all; I was concentrating on everything else. Sasuke was joking around the whole time, fake crying, pretending to be scared and even did the fake yawn trick and put his arm around Nick. They acted more like a couple than we did.

I decided that it was late enough to hit the bar when the movie was over, I was sobering up and I didn't want any of that. "Bar! Bar! I'm thirsting!" I dragged Jules hand, he wasn't the hardest to get to a bar. Nick followed muttering something about needing some girl, Sasuke followed up by acting devastated accusing him for cheating. I love those guys, wouldn't surprise me if they were gay for each other. Just judging by the way they were acting.

No need to say that we ended up having a wet night. The bars closed earlier here, I don't know when we were thrown out. Sasuke was long gone, and Nick had gotten the girl he wanted. Jules and me had gotten on a bus and jumped off on a random spot. "I have no idea where we are, do you?" He took my hand and ran down to some field. "I don't need to know where I am when I'm with you." He was so sweet, I kissed him. He smiled and lay down. He looked up at the sky. "It's amazing that they are there, even if you can't see them. The stars, you're my star Ino. I might not always see you, but you're always here, in my heart." I lay down next to him, he held my hand. "That's so sweet. Even when I'm mad at you, there's still that one part of me that loves you, that's ready to give up everything and forgive you no matter what you've done."

I rolled on top of him. We would sleep with each other right there, under the stars that didn't shine but was still there. We were shining that night; we were the stars, putting up a show on the field for everyone to see. We didn't care, we loved each other, we didn't mind if someone saw us.

Some of the romance was lost when I woke up to Jules throwing up in a river not far away. Still I couldn't help laughing at him; I didn't feel much better myself. I was just happy I was waking up with him.

The whole jumping off in the middle of nowhere wasn't that smart the next day. None of us had brought phones, we had been waiting for a bus to pass for hours. To make time pass we had sex once again, this time in the bus shed. "Oh! We have to write our names, so that we'll know that we had been here, having sex!" I pulled out a sharpie from my pocket. I always brought one in case somebody wanted my autograph and they didn't have anything to write with. "J.D and I.D with a heart around! Isn't that cute?" He kissed me and giggled slightly and my teenage like silliness. "That's really beautiful, even on a wall we look good together. We're both D, maybe people will think we're married. Then they'll think when some childish teenagers have made it, we will too! Then we'll be the cause of many failed and unhappy marriages!" The bus pulled up. I paid for the both of us, he hadn't brought enough money.

At the hotel Nick was going crazy along with our manager Shikamaru. When did he come? Had he been here the whole time? "Yo…" Jules tried to break the tension. Really, was that the best he could come up with? "No, you're no rapper! Go and pack! We're late as it is!" That's why they were worried, busy old Shikamaru. He stepped up when he needed to, that bright ass. Jules and me just laughed in the elevator up with them. I felt sad about leaving the bartender. We had become such good friends. He was the last one I said good bye to. I slipped him a check and a note without him noticing. It was so he would have something extra to take care of his sick mother with and some so he could focus more on school when he started. I thanked him for being there for me. He had done more than he had been hired to do, I knew that.

Then we would repeat the same pattern until we came back home. I was so tired I slept for weeks. it seemed like it was all I did. If it was to block out the empty sad apartment I didn't know. It didn't feel right without Deidara there. I redecorated, painted the walls, bought new furniture, still it didn't feel right. Not even when Jules was there, it helped it just wasn't the same. He couldn't fill the emptiness.

"Where do you think we're heading? How can you say you're my boyfriend when you're still with that girl?" He had refused to break up with his old girlfriend. Saying he couldn't do this to her twice, but cheating on her with the same girl twice was totally cool. "Don't you trust in our relationship? I'm going to give you an ultimatum. You have one week to end things with her, or we go back to being friends." I thought this was what he needed, that he would pick me over her. "I won't be mad if you stay with her, I just need everything or nothing." I was going to get everything. That was the only way he was going to make me happy like Deidara did.

I hadn't told him what happened when Deidara came by to pick up the last of his stuff. We had sex, but we talked first. I had promised him to stay off the drinking and the drugs. It had started affecting the music too. I don't think anyone had dared to point it out yet. I had noticed it, listening back to the recordings; it just wasn't like it had used to be. It was best for me in every way to just stop. Jules wasn't thinking in the same way. To be honest that was becoming a problem. We would have to work on that when he broke up with his other girlfriend. Other girlfriend, just thinking it sounded wrong.

It was from there it all went downhill. Sasuke got a girlfriend, knocked her up he was becoming a father. The first one to become a parent out of us. Jules and Nick was always bickering, he was jealous of Nick, that we had a slept together, that we were friends. A simple convocation would make Jules raging. He and Nick weren't friends anymore; I couldn't be with Nick if Jules knew. It strained my relationship to both of them. Work on the new CD was slow, it was bad. Everybody was so hostile towards each other.

I ended things with Jules, he never left his girlfriend. He said our relationship really didn't have a future, we hadn't told anyone about it. He was right, I could see that. Didn't stop me from hating him. I went crawling back to Deidara begging for mercy. I had learned my lesson now. It was strange in the start. We decided to take it slow this time, but we decided that I should still have the ring. It took almost a year before we moved back together. We felt safer, we trusted one another. It helped a great deal that I was sober on and off.

The band decided to take a break after the new album, all we ever did was argue. The only one on speaking terms with everyone was Sasuke, but all he cared about was becoming a father. I hated Jules, he hated me, Nick and Jules hated each other. Or so it seemed like, I can't speak for the others. I didn't talk much with any of them after the break. I focused on making my relationship with Deidara work. We were serious this time, or I was serious he had always been. I didn't do much, I didn't do anything publicly. I turned down every offer I got. It seemed like I had disappeared. I didn't mind that, that's what I wanted. I didn't know what to say about me and the band, me and Jules, and I freaked out just thinking about the future.

I hurt some when they all started moving on, I tried to gather the band in the start. Nobody was interested, even if it was just for dinner so that we could talk. It didn't mean that we had to get back together and make music; it just meant that we needed to talk. I hated that everybody was so frustrated and angry with each other. It didn't work, so I put it at rest.

Jules ended up marrying his girlfriend; they had a son together now. We rarely spoke, we were polite when we did. Still it was clear that we hadn't put anything of what happened behind us. Nick was the one I had most contact with. He seemed to never settle down, moving from one girl to the next every month or so. If I was any crazier I would say it was because of his feelings towards me, but then I'm also being really stuck up. Sasuke didn't have much time for me, he had twins and a wife. They were beautiful and so cute, that's coming from me who hates babies. It made even me want one; I would never admit it to anyone. I knew I couldn't get pregnant, Deidara and me had talked about adopting one day. That was one day, we weren't sure when. I felt bad for not being able to get pregnant; I knew how much Deidara wanted to have children. I felt that I had let him down, because it was my fault that I couldn't get pregnant in the end. I couldn't change anything now. It was too late.

Sorry for the big jump, change or whatever you feel like calling it. I'm still not done with this story, but I'm just not going to drag it out and jump some years forward. I think that this is the best thing to do for me as a writer and you as a reader. I'm going to finish the story, since one person wanted me to! Oh the joy, so thank you that one person. This is all for you! Feel special!

Hope everybody liked it, if you make a valid complaint and don't want me to change it up I'd be more than willing to listen. Take care and have a good morning/day/evening/night

"It really changed my life. When we split up, something changed, permanently, in me. My heart sort of broke that day, and it will never be the same."

A quote I just felt like fitted for what's going on. This is what I do on my spare time, look up quotes. I'm an odd one.