A/N It's been a couple weeks... And I have NEWS! So ABC Family was having a contest for Hunger Games fans and so I entered and what you had to do was Tweet a pic of you with your THG stuff. So I did...and I have over 200 dollars wroth stuff. I was one of the winners and so this weekend (Yesterday Today and tomorrow) They will show my picture (With the other winners Pictures) On TV for their Hunger Games Weekend! Sooo My picture was on TV! :D Showing off my nerdiness!


I sit with Tobias at my side on the couch while everyone else is having a good time. My head rests on his shoulder his arm wrapped protectively around me. "I'm sorry." He says in my ear.

"It's fine you have no reason to apologize." I say, I mean it's not his fault, he has to be somewhere close to his... To Marcus. I look around the room and watch everyone dancing around having a good time. "Come on get up." I say getting up and pulling him with me.

"What?" He says getting up, looking down at me.

"let's have a good time and worry about this when it gets closer."

"Okay, if that's what you want." He says stepping closer to me, I look up at him and smile, I give a light nod and we walk to the kitchen to get a drink.

"Oh god do you guys mind!" I say walking in the kitchen to see Christina and Will making out on the counter, they pull apart laughing.

"No we don't." Will says with a smirk, I roll my eyes, as Tobias grabs a couple of drinks.

"Come on, let's go somewhere." Tobias says, I smiles and grad his hand, I take him in the front yard, we sit in the driveway because the grass is a little damp. "Out here? Why?"

"So we can be alone, and because the grass is wet."

"Okay, then." He pops open the two beers and we slowly sip them while watching cars go up and down the street. "Wow look." He says pointing to the sky, I look up and see the moon, it's a bright yellow-orange and it's HUGE!

"Holy crap that's amazing! It's so big and bright! It's beautiful."

"Like you."

"Stop."

"Why?"

"Because. Just don't."

"No why? Tell me. I have the right to call you beautiful because you are and I'm your boyfriend I can call you beautiful if I want."

"Yeah, but I don't want you too."

"Tell me why."

"Because. Just stop it. Forget I said anything." I don't want to be to close to him. I just realized this, if my parents say no than I don't think I can stand a long distance relationship. I don't think I can handle it, I mean I want to but it would just be so hard! It's not like I'm going to break up with him tonight or anything but I mean worst comes to worst...

"You okay?" He says with a look of concern. I nod even though I feel like I'm about to lose everything.

"Let's go inside with everyone." I say, he gets up and gives me a hand pulling me up. We walk inside together and I try to enjoy the rest of the party.


I take a deep breath and open the door to my house. Tobias will be here in a couple of hours so I have to ask them before he gets here so I can tell him they said 'no' I know they are going to say 'no' why would they say yes to me going that would be crazy!

"I need to talk to you guys." I say and sit on the couch in between them.

"Sure what is it." Mom says.

"Four is leaving in 2 months. For 3 months. To Nebraska, he has to be closer to his father for that time."

"I'm sorry to hear that, I was hoping he could come with us camping." Dad says, I nod a little and fight back the tears I can feel coming.

"So we were both kind of wondering...Well more of hoping, that I could go with him..."

"Rewind! What?" Dad says giving me an are-you-serious-right-now face.

"I mean it's just 3 months and you guys trust me right?"

"It's not that we don't trust you Tris, its that 3 months is a long time and it wouldn't be right if we let you go for 3 months with your boyfriend? What kind of parents would that make us?""

"I know, I just. It's going to be hard not seeing him and I don't think I can handle it Mom. It's 3 months of not seeing him, a lot can happen in 3 months! Please!" They look at each other with questions looks. "Please?" I say once more.

"We have to talk about this." Mom says to Dad, he nods and gets up, she follows him and they go into their room. I lay on the couch and cross my arms. This is the shits. Why can't I just go I mean what am I going to do? Nothing that's what I thought. I hear the front door open and see Caleb start-up stairs.

"Where were you?" I say still laying on the couch.

"With friends, you?"

"Same."

"What are you doing?"

"Waiting."

"For?"

"A better life."

"No really?"

"Mom and Dad."

"For?"

"An answer."

"Too?"

"None of your business."

"Don't need to be so mean Tris." I don't answer him, he stands there for a few minutes waiting for me to speak but I don't. He turns around and leaves up the stairs.

I lay on the couch a few more minutes until I hear the door open again. "Tris?" I hear Tobias voice say.

"Yeah?"

"You okay? What are you doing?"

"Waiting for the verdict."

"Oh I see." He sits next to me placing his hand on mine, I give him a weak smile.

"How are you doing?"

"Fine I guess."

"Tris?" I hear Moms voice. I sit up and get off the couch.

"Yeah." I say following her to the kitchen, I hold up my index finger to Tobias gesturing for him to wait.

"Your dad and I talked and came up with an answer."

"Which was?"

"I'm sorry."

"Mom. Please."

"I'm sorry we already decided. "

"Change you mind!" I shout quietly.

"Tris! I'm sorry it's just not right."

"Kay." I say and walk to the living room and out the front door. I can't stand to look at Tobias right now, I don't want to see his face when I tell him I can't.

"Tris wait up!" I hear him yell behind me.

"I can't talk right now." I say and continue to walk down the street, he runs up next to me and then falls into pace with me.

"I know you're upset but we can get through 3 months!"

"Can we?"

"You doubt us?"

"It's not that. It's I don't want to see everyone around me with their boyfriends all happy and then I'm stuck here without you. All summer. It's not fair everyone will be happy and have a great summer and this is going to be the shittiest summer."

"We can Skype."

"Woo hoo." I say flatly.

"Tris come on."

"Come on what Tobias? You are leaving and you have no choice. I'm going to be here without you."

"What did you do without me before?"

"I was alone, and only talked to my family." He sighs and stops walking.

"You have your friends."

"I just want you."

"Tris let's try to make the most of the 2 months we have."

"Okay. Key word being 'Try' right?"

"Tris." He glares.

"Sorry." I say and continue to walk.

"Where are you going?"

"Just walking."

"Do you want some company?"

"If you want." He walks up beside me and takes my hand.

"It's going to be okay. We're going to be okay." I nod and smiles up at him.


Guys I feel awful, I'm so sorry that I haven't updated in over a month I had half of this written out but never finished it. I'm so sorry I have been so busy and I know that is the excuse I always use but it's true. School is the shits and same with work. Please forgive me!

Keep Crazy and Fangirl/Boy On! ~Kim