Thanks to all of you who ahve reviewed, I appreciate it but the time has come to say good bye...For now. Yes, I have plans to do a sequel sometime soon. I need a break from DS fics and work on my Four Brother's fic. The sequel will not be as long as this one, at least I don't think so, but I have tons of stuff planned for it. Trust me you'll love it! So stay tuned and check out my Four Brother's fic if you get bored...lol. Thanks again!! :)
I laid back and watched as Billy cut the cord. The doctor carried him over to the bed and laid him down. He wiped him off and checked his stats. The finished with me and I was finally able to take my legs down.
"You okay?" Billy asked from the side of the bed. I stared up at him and smiled.
"Perfect." I whispered. He smiled and kissed my head.
"Who wants hold him first?" the nurse asked. We looked at each other and I spoke up.
"Billy." I told her. He looked at me and back at the nurse. She smiled and held out the baby. He carefully scooped the baby into his arms and held him to his chest. He let out a ragged breath and looked down at the baby.
"He has green eyes." he said softly. I smiled and sat up to look at our baby in his arms. I moved the blue blanket and smiled.
"He looks like you. But with my nose." I laughed. He smirked and stared at the baby. I watched as a million emotions flooded through his eyes. He looked up at me and smiled.
"You want him now?" he said. I nodded and gently grabbed the baby from him. I smiled down at the tiny baby in my arms and ran my finger down his cheek.
"Hey there." I whispered. I bit my lip and held back tears as Billy wrapped an arms around me and kissed my head. I heard voices from outside and then the door was pushed open.
"Are you..." Heather started and stopped. Joe walked in behind her and gaped at us.
"You had him?" he asked breathlessly. I smiled and looked at Heather.
"You mean I missed it?" she asked sadly. I smiled and patted the bed next to me. Joe walked over next to Billy and peered over his shoulder while Heather sat next to me. She smiled as I moved the blanket from his neck and showed him off. Joe reached out and laid a hand on the baby's chest. He grabbed Joe's finger and he lit up.
"He looks just like Billy. I'm sorry Ness but he does." Heather told me. I laughed and looked up at Billy.
"Yeah he does. He looks just like his daddy." I smiled. He kissed my head and grabbed my hand. The nurse walked in and held up her hand.
"There are a few more people who wish to see you. Is that okay?" she asked. I nodded and in walked Bodie, Baggy and Heco. They smiled at me and walked over to see the baby better.
"Good god we got another Billy." Bodie laughed. Billy smacked his arm and laughed. "Seriously, congrats you two." Billy stood up and hugged him, well gave him a manly hug. We chatted for a few minutes and Joe finally asked the obvious.
"What's his name?" he asked. Everyone laughed and looked at us. I looked up at Billy and smiled.
"You wanna tell them?" I asked. He nodded and cleared his throat.
"Gavin Kade Darley." he told them.
"Well hello Gavin, I'm Uncle Joe." Joe said rubbing Gavin's tiny hand. We talked and eventually passed the baby around. Boy, did it look weird to see Bodie and Baggy holding him. Any other mom would have flipped to see them looking at her kid and I was letting them hold mine. After about an hour everyone left except Billy.
"So how does fatherhood feel so far?" I asked Billy. He looked up from feeding Gavin and smirked.
"So far so good. No peeing on me or screaming yet." he joked. I smiled and watched him. He seemed like a natural. I didn't know how such a tough man could carefully hold a baby. It was a contradiction. But everything about us was. The way we loved, the way we fought. Nothing was like it was supposed to but I liked it that way.
"You gonna burp him?" I asked. He shook his head.
"No, I might hurt him. You can burp him." he told me. I laughed and took Gavin from him. "When can you leave?" he asked and sat next to me on the bed as I patted Gavin's back.
"You don't have to stay here. I'll be fine. But I might be able to leave tomorrow night." I told him.
"I'm not gonna leave you and our baby it's first night. I wanna be here." he told me. I smiled and laid Gavin in my lap after I heard a small burp. He flung his arms and looked around.
"He's gorgeous." I whispered.
"He's not gorgeous. He's a boy. He's handsome." Billy scowled. I laughed and patted his leg.
"Thank you." I told him. He smiled and nodded. He knew what I meant. I looked back at Gavin and rubbed his feet. We sat there for hours just staring at him and taking turns holding him.
Billy's POV
Gavin was nearly six weeks old. He was a pretty quiet baby. When he woke up he started out whimpering then he slowly got louder. He rarely got to a full out cry unless we were crashed. I had taken the first few days off so I could be with her. We wanted to get used to having the baby around and I needed my days off. So far, so good though.
"I'll get him." I mumbled as the faint whimpering came from the monitor. I pulled my pants on and walked into the next room. I looked at the clock as I walked in, 3:24am. "You've been up a lot, huh?" I asked as I picked him up.
It was the fourth time he had woken up. Usually, he woke up every four hours. We put him to bed at 9 and it was like clock work from there. But tonight he had woken up every hour or so. I sat in the corner chair and held him to my chest. I pulled the recline out and laid my head back.
"Let's get some rest. Daddy's gotta work tomorrow." I whispered. He threw his arm up and looked at me. "What? You knew that, huh? Ya think keeping me up all night will make me stay, I wish." I told him. He waved his arm and I smiled. I looked up and saw Vanessa smiling at the door.
"He keeping you up?" she asked and walked over.
"Nah, he's good. At least I have an excuse to sleep at work." I laughed. She smiled and sat next to me in the chair. She laid her head on my shoulder and tickled Gavin's stomach.
"Hey baby." she cooed. I kissed her head and closed my eyes. "Give him here and you go sleep." she told me and stood up. I stood up and passed Gavin to her. I kissed her lips and then her head.
"I love you. You need me, come get me." I told her. She smiled and sat back down.
I watched her coo and cuddle him before I left. I smiled and shook my head. So much has changed. I walked into the kitchen and grabbed a beer from the fridge. I opened it and leaned my elbows against the counter. I sipped it slowly and a smile graced my face when a small hand crawled across my stomach. I felt her kiss my bare back and set my beer down. I turned around and her lips were on mine in an instant. She kissed me with force and such love. I picked her up and set on her on the counter. I got in between her legs and she quickly wrapped them around my waist. I pulled her closer and moved my lips down her neck.
"Please." she whispered. I picked her up and carried her into the room. I laid her on the bed and pulled her night dress off. I kissed down her now flat stomach and pulled her panties off. She had been so worried she wouldn't get back in shape but she did. I pulled off my pants and boxers and got in between her legs again. It amazed me that we waited this long to have sex. When the doctor told me no sex for at least five weeks I about died.
"If he cries, he can wait." I told her. She smiled and pushed herself closer to me. I rubbed her entry and smiled when I pushed inside of her. Her fact contorted with pleasure and she gripped my arms. I groaned and pumped in and out. I held her hips and made her meet me in each thrust. She bit her lip to keep from crying out as I moved faster.
"God Nessa." I groaned and kissed her chest. I let her hips go and intertwined our fingers above her head. I felt her bite my neck when she started to tighten around me. I covered her mouth with mine as she came. She moaned into my mouth and bit my lip as she let go. I smirked and stared into her eyes as I pushed into one last time before I came. I stayed on top of her and rested my head against hers.
"I love you." she whispered. I opened my eyes and looked into hers below me.
"I love you too." I whispered back. I was about to kiss her when the familiar whimper filled the room. We laughed and I got up to get dressed. "I'm bringing him in here." I told her and walked out to the room. I picked him up and grabbed his bassinet. I pulled it into the room and set it next to her side of the bed. I crawled back in bed and sat him in my lap. Vanessa turned the lamp on and sat next to me.
"I guess that was our night." she laughed. I nodded and bounced him a little. "Big bad Billy Darley." she smiled. I glared at her.
"Don't push it. He's still here, he's just taking a break." I told her. She kissed my cheek and grabbed Gavin's foot to kiss it.
I looked at her and Gavin and sighed on the inside. He looked exactly like me. He had the dirty blonde hair I used to have. He had my eyes and lips. He was already tall, well long for his age. But he was guaranteed to be tall between my 6'2" and Nessa's 5'10". He was a calm baby which I thanked god for everyday. It wasn't as bad as I thought. But the tough part hadn't come into play. The boys had taken over the streets since he was born but from what Bodie said trouble was on the brew. I eventually had to go back. If people thought I was a bastard before, they won't stand a chance now. I dare them to mess with me now. Back then I had nothing to loose, now I have a family. And I'll be damned if I let someone touch them...
Please forgive me while I turn out the lights
Watch this haunted day turn into a wasted night
So cut me off-throw me down
Cause I'm reckless, goddamn son of a bitch!
I'm reckless
So reckless
God save me from this madness
I'm walking on broken glass from the wreckage of my past
I'm locked up in a cage 'cause I'm a prisoner of my ways
So cut me off-throw me out
'cause I'm reckless, I'm a reckless goddamn son of a bitch!
Thank god I've got a women with my name across her heart
Loving me ain't easy, loving me is hard
I'm sorry about the madness but that's the way its gotta be
'cause it takes a crazy woman to love a reckless man like me
Reckless by Papa Roach
