Chapter 28: Heart Broken
James didn't speak to me all day let along the whole week. He wouldn't even talk to Lily, the love of his life and all I did was cried. Sirius isn't talking to me either because now he knows. Remus, well he'll talk to me but not when the guys are around. I told Lily and Cass everything. They didn't blame James and the guys for not talking to me, hell they are barely talking to me now.
The guys' left to give the Potter's a funeral and left me here at school. I knew what it was like to have someone taken from you when you lease expected it. I sat in my empty dorm room and pulled out panting supplies. I set up and let myself get lost in panting. I painted my mother when we got attacked. I had painted my sister and I in the painting, we looked scared. I didn't hear the door open nor hear anyone come in. I just stood there looking at the painting and let everything from my hands drop onto the floor as I feel to my own knees as I cried harder.
I haven't slept well for the last week since the guys stopped talking to me and Sirius stopped sleeping in my bed. I had put silencing charms around my curtains to stop them hearing me scream when I wake up or hear my crying. "Vix, are you alright?" Remus' voice said and I didn't bother to look up. I could feel them all there: Sirius, James, Peter, Remus, Cass and Lily.
I felt a pair of arms touch my shoulder and I shoved them always. I stood up and walked to the bathroom, shutting the door on their faces. I locked the door and turned on the water, hot water. I didn't bother to strip out of my sweat pants and tank top as I stepped into the tub, sitting down on the floor and letting the water rain down upon my body. This time I head the door open and closed. I had the curtains closed around the tub and my head down on my knees. I heard the curtains being wrenched opened but I didn't look up.
"Demya, I'm sorry on how I acted towards you." That was James' voice but I still didn't look up at him even as I felt his hand on my shoulder.
"You knew I lost my mother at a very young age and I hated my father. This is what you do to me when you knew everything? You have the guys choosing you even though I'm dating one of them. That hurts worst when my boyfriend chooses his best friend over me." I said and looked up at him. I bet I look like shit with my baggy eyes and none make-up face. He turned off the water and picked me up out of the tub, wrapping a towel around me as best as he could. He walked us both out of the bathroom and set me down on my bed.
I rolled over on my bed and turning my back on everyone. They still needed to gain my trust and this was a bad way of doing so. I let my magic flow through me, drying my clothes and my hair. I taken the towel off and slipped out of bed, headed towards the door without looking at anyone.
"Baby, I'm sorry." Sirius' voice said which caused me to stop at the door, my head still down.
"You have a lot to do to gain my trust back. That means everyone in this room. I didn't tell you because I wanted it confirmed. You had the right to be mad but you didn't have to take away the one person that kept the nightmares away. The one person that would keep all my visions away when I slept because I never slept right after my own mother was mauled by a werewolf in front of my own eyes. Maybe being killed by the killing curse was better than the suffer my own mother went through." I said and left the room as the tears fell free from my eyes.
I ran down the stairs from the boys' dorm and out the portrait hole, down the hallway. I continue like that until I got the Headmaster's office and gave the password before heading up there. I walked in and noticed the Minister was standing there with a confused look on his face. I noticed Mad-Eye Moody looking grumpy as ever in front of the desk but I walked up to my Papi and plop down into a chair, propped my feet up on the edge of the desk.
"Yes, Demya how can I help you?" Papi asked as he looked me in the eyes which I knew he was reading my mind. So I let him read what was bothering me and what I wanted. I wanted to learn how to fight like an Auror but I wanted Mad-Eye Moody to teach me. I watched he sighs and nodded slightly. "Of course, of course why didn't I think of that?" He whispered but I was the only one who heard it.
"You'll let me then?" I asked louder than he would have asked which caused me to grin more. "I want that done here where I can move about freely unless you give me permission to leave the school grounds to do so?" I asked as I looked at him with determine eyes.
"Yes, you may leave the school grounds to do as you asked even if you didn't ask it aloud. Moody will you go with her and do as she asks?" Papi said which made Moody grumpier.
"Do I look like a bloody babysitter?" He grumbled and I grinned as I got up and walked to the door.
"Let's hope you can keep up, old man." I said and walked out of the office with him right behind me. We continued to walk until we got the front gates. I held up my hand and pushed open the gates, walking out with him still behind me. I pushed the gates closed and locked them back up with all the enchantments. We headed to the other side of the Hogsmeade and apparated to a deserted field.
"We'll be training to make me a better fighter, Moody. Since I'm in the Order it's only right for me to train now than it is later when I go into the Auror department. I want to stay alive and live a long life. I see things that I wish no one would see. I have even seen death and the after math of it. My friend's hate me and my boyfriend doesn't want to be around me, he only feels sorry for me. I've been hurt and I want to improve myself." I explain to him and turn to face him with my wand out. "Teach me to defend myself even more. I should warn you I can use wandless magic since I'm a Gypsy." I explain to him with a grin on my lips.
He sighed and pulled out his wand. We battled and I got wounds right off the bat. I didn't back down but continued to fight him until it was pitch dark outside. That's when I used my senses to reach out to where he was and when he was going to attack me. I fired off a stunner and he went down, I grinned and went over to him. I reversed it and helped him up. He took me back to the school and dropped me off at the Great Hall. Let's say we were both sore eyes with our own battle wounds we caused on each other but I was relieved from all my anger and sadness that was bottled up inside of me.
"Thanks, Moody." I said and left him as he grunted and walked away. I walked over to where my sister and the guys were, sat down and started eating while they all stared at me.
