Chapter 28
I thought coupling with Leah would ease all of the hurts in my life. I thought as long as we loved each other it would everything else would be easy. However, the longer we were together it made me realize that Leah's reservations were valid. The many times she told me loving me would be the hardest decision she'd ever make. She wasn't lying to me. Lately, all we seemed to do is argue. She desired her independence and I desired her safety. Last night she finally asked the question that was probably looming over both of us.
"This isn't working is it?" She said with tears in her eyes.
"I love you," I responded and just looked down at her fingers.
The horrible part was that I couldn't answer her the way I needed to. Part of me wondered if it would be best to let her go. I looked down at Leah as she walked beside me she was wrapped up in her own thoughts too. We were finally going on the hike I wanted to take the only difference was that since Sam and the other members of his pack were so mischievous the whole Cullen family tagged along. They gave us our space but we both knew too well they were with us. Leah sighed and took my hand.
"We could be friends," she whispered so quietly I wasn't sure if she meant to say it. I was debating pretending as though I didn't hear her at all.
"I don't think I can be just your friend," I responded without looking at her. "I don't want you hurt and I don't want to argue with you anymore."
"I think arguing with you hurts worse than not being with you Nahuel," she cried softly. "I hate it especially because this isn't about us or how I feel about you it's because I really don't want you hurt. Alice told me that she think regardless if we are together or not that I have jeopardized your safety here. I am sorry … I feel like you're the unluckiest soul in the world to be loved by me." She was sobbing and went to break out into a run. I shocked her as gripped her from behind before she got the chance to phase.
"Don't ever say that Leah. I love you more … I love you more than my own life," I murmured in her ear. "More than each breath I take. Each day my love for you grows and I think it makes me more frustrated. I fear loving me has made you a caged bird. It has taken you away from your loved ones and clipped you wings so that you can't go out without supervision. I can see how unhappy you are. So … if I can't have you I will leave Forks." Her body went limp and then she began to shudder. She was crying in my arms. I kissed her forehead. I felt like we were breaking up and I knew my heart would shatter into a million pieces to leave her here. We stood united like this for what seemed an eternity before Leah spoke again.
"We could leave," she whispered.
"I don't want to uproot you from your home," I explained.
"Nahuel, what home? Everything I loved about this land has been tainted. You are truly the only thing I have in my life worth getting up in the morning," she said as she placed her hand on my heart.
"Besides, it would kill you to leave me. You're like totally all about you some Leah," she teased but her eyes were still watery.
"I am totally enamored by you Leah. I'm completely absorbed." I gripped her hand at my chest and she gave me a little grin.
"So we stick together and this conversation will not be revisited! Got it!" She wrapped her arms around my neck and I held her to me.
"You'll receive no arguments from me," I murmured into her shoulder. "I want you in my life forever Leah." She chuckled a little but said nothing. I know my words comforted her though and seemed to literally melt in my arms. After a few minutes she released me and opted for holding my hand again. This time as we started to stroll, my steps seemed lighter and Leah actually seemed to enjoy herself. Once we reached the top of the terrain she seemed impressed by nature's beauty as was I. However, nothing was as beautiful as Leah was by this sunset. I tiled her chin upwards and brushed my lips against hers. She looked at me with loving warm brown eyes.
"I was thinking it would be nice to visit your home one day. It would be nice to actually see the places you talk about frequently," she mused.
"I would like to see you there. We wouldn't stay very long as I fear my home land isn't as … technologically developed as it is here," I explained and she nodded.
"Technology isn't always needed Leechy Pooh," she murmured seductively. "I'm sure you'd find ways to entertain me." I wrapped my arms around her waist and she giggled a little.
"I'm sure I could entertain you right now," I murmured before kissing her again this time with more passion but not enough to start anything. I pulled away from her and she looked a tad disappointed.
"We do have to find a way to uh …," she stammered as she looked for the proper term.
"Yes, we do need to find a way to have privacy yet be safe and sensible. I agree. I miss you in that way … very, very much," I assured her and she almost seemed bashful by my confession.
"I miss you too. I think this was good though. I didn't want my lust for you to dictate our relationship. I wanted to get to know you and with all these people around we really can't do anything but talk. So I can safely say I just like everything about you Nahuel."
"Well, that's good to know," I was amused by her little revelation. "Of course, you know the feeling is mutual!" I picked her up and situated her so I was carrying her on my back. "How about we head back down the path Ms. Clearwater?" I jostled her a little before taking off at my fastest speed. I was so thankful today had turned out better than anticipated. Leah and I had cleared the air and I felt we were closer than ever. My only concern was resolving this issue with her ex because we couldn't live under the Cullen's surveillance forever.
Author's Note: This chapter is for Brankel she requested I update and so I did. She has also been reading my stories from day one. You will never know how much I appreciate that! I hope you all enjoyed the chapter. I plan to start working part time so I don't know when I'll be back. However, I didn't realized how much I missed this story. Please review if you have the time!
