Hey guys.
Hope you liked the last chapter. Just know this chapter isn't as sad as the last one but the next one will be. (:
When we walked up to the door Amber was crying again. We all went in and sat down on the couch.
"Amber, baby, please stop crying your dad wouldn't want to see you like this he would want to see you moving on with your life.""I know mom but I cant I miss him.""I do too honey, but we have to be strong."
"I'll go make some dinner." I said getting up and going into the kitchen. I looked in the fridge and found some spaghetti sauce. I took it out and got some pasta.
"You okay man?" I turned around and saw Jason leaning on the counter.
"It's hard. I hate seeing her like this. Every time a tear drops from her eyes I feel another part of me break inside because there's nothing I can do to stop it. There's no way I can bring her dad back all I can do is hold her and watch her cry."
"I know it's hard but you have to be there for her. It's a hard time for her.""I know Jason, but I don't know how much longer I can take watching her break apart. I love her so much and I cant bear it anymore.""I know but you have to we're all going to help you. Man if there's ever a time where you cant bear it any more we'll take care of her.""Jase I cant depend on you. Danielle's about to have the baby any minute now. Anyway its her that lost her dad not me it shouldn't be hard for me.""But it is because she means so much to you. When she breaks you break with her. Nate there's no way you can stop that it come's with love. It happened with me and Danielle I feel her pain every time the baby kicks but this is so much worse.""Jay what am I going to do when we go back on tour? What if she's still like this? I cant leave if she is. We cant count on Rachel for everything. She cant take care of Danielle and Amber there's no way I can do that to her. Jase we've got so much going on and its stressing Rachel and Shane's the one that has that worry then its not fair to put all our problems on them.""I know Nate. If things aren't sorted after Christmas the rest of the tour is being cancelled.""Jase we cant do that to our fans either.""I know Nate but there's nothing else we can do.""Ok. Go make sure she's ok while I make this." he nodded and left. I took out a big pot and put some pasta in it. I stirred it around until it was soft then put in the sauce. I stirred it for a few minutes then went outside to the others. Jason was sitting on the chair with Danielle rubbing her back and Shane was sitting at Rachel's feet on the floor. Charlie was sitting on the floor not knowing what to do. Amber was on the couch in her moms arms while she cried. I bit the inside of my cheek trying to fight the pain running through my body. Jason looked up at me and knew what was wrong. I closed my eye's and walked back into the kitchen. I set the table then took out eight plates and start putting some spaghetti into them. I put the on the table then took a deep breath before walking back out.
"Guys dinner's ready." the others all got up and walked into the kitchen except Amber and her mom.
"Sonia, why don't you go have some dinner I'll take care of Amber." I smiled putting my hand on her shoulder.
"Thank you Nate." she stood up and walked into the kitchen. I sat down beside Amber and took her face in my two hands.
"Amber, baby please be strong. Don't do it for me, your mom or anyone else do it for you dad.""Nate I'm not crying because of my dad, I'm crying because I tried to go into the kitchen to help you when I heard you and Jason talking. I didn't know it was hurting you so much Nate. I was being to selfish and thinking about no one but myself." I shushed her my crushing my lips against hers and kissing her with everything I had inside me.
"Amber, don't talk like that. I'm not worried about myself I can take the pain. You're the one I'm worried about, Amber you father just died I don't blame you for crying I don't blame you for being venerable you cant help it your hurt, upset and no one can tell you not to be.""Nate, I promised my mom I would be strong and move on for everyone, for my dad and most importantly for you and then I heard what I was putting you true and I'm so sorry.""Baby don't be sorry. I love you and nothing could ever change that.""I love you too Nate.""Come on you need to eat." I stood up and she followed. I stopped her then whipped her tears away with my thumbs. I missed her once then we walked into the kitchen. We sat at the table and start eating. I put my hand on Amber's tight and she put her hand down and entwined our fingers.
"Oh god you two are like love sick teenagers." Sonia laughed.
"Ah they are." Jason smiled. I glared at him and he glared back.
"Guys stop!" Dan said breaking us up.
I looked back down at my food and continued eating.
"Mom what you going to do now?" Amber asked.
"What you mean?" Sonia asked.
"Like who are you gonna live with? Your not going to stay here alone are you?" I looked up at Sonia.
"No I'm not. Your brother has bought a house not far from here and wants me to move in with him.""Brother?" I asked.
"Your moving in with him?" she spit it out like it was a disease.
"Yes I am and be nice to your brother." she grinded her teeth and looked back down at her food. I looked at her questioningly but decided I would ask her later. I felt Shane and Jason's eyes on me. I looked up at them and they had the same looked on their faces as I did. They wanted to know about her brother.
After dinner Jason offered to clean up.
"Have fun cleaning." Shane smirked walking into the living room.
"Nate?" Jason asked.
"No way man, I made the food I'm not cleaning too." Sonia had gone to bed early and she brought Charlie up to bed too.
"Jase I'll help you." Rachel offered. The two of them start cleaning while the rest of us went into the living room.
"Uh I cant believe she's going to move in with him!" Amber complained.
"Who is he?" Shane asked.
"I mean it's not as if she couldn't move in with us for a while or anything but no she decides to move in with him." she ignored Shane and continued with her rant.
"Well I'm going asleep, yous can continue talking but please shut up?" Shane asked.
"No Shane." I sighed.
"Guys go to bed." Rachel said coming in. she went over to Shane and lay down on the sofa be with him as he pulled the cover over them.
"Ok lets go." Amber said pulling me up. Me, Amber, Jason and Danielle went upstairs and they went into the guest room while we went into Amber's bedroom. We got changed and climbed into her bed.
"Amber your going to need to get a double bed in here for when I stay over." I said gesturing to her single bed.
"Your right but we wont be staying here.""Who's your brother you never told me?" I said wrapping my arms around her. She put her head on my chest and sighed.
"He's my step brother. He's name is Josh. My dad had him before he met my mom. When I was born Josh bullied me. He used to hit me and tell me that I robbed him dad and if it wasn't for me he would still have his dad. I used to tell him we could share but Josh never agreed he wanted dad for himself. When we came over on the weekend Josh would get all the attention because he would pretend to be an angle and if he wasn't getting the attention he would do something to change that.""Amber how old is he?"
"26.""Well then he's a grown man, I bet he's changed.""Nate you don't know Josh like I do. You don't get him angry or else something bad will happen." she looked up at me and I could see the fear in her eyes. "Amber don't worry I will never let him do anything to you. Ever."
"I love you Nate."
"I love you too baby." she buried her head deeper in my chest and I kissed her head.
Then next morning when I woke up Amber wasn't beside me. I got out of bed and went downstairs.
"Hey baby." she said once I went into the kitchen.
I walked up to her and wrapped my arms around her. I put my head on hers and let out a big yawn.
"Still tired?" she giggled.
"A little." I smiled.
"Breakfast is almost ready, will you wake Rachel and Shane while I wake the others."
"Sure." I let go of her and watched her walk from the room. I went into the living room and laughed at Shane sprawled out on the bed and Rachel at his side.
"Shane." I said shoving his side. "Whoa, what!" he jumped up causing Rachel to wake up.
"Breakfast." I smiled. "Give me a heart attack why don't ya." Shane complained.
"Shane shut up!" I said hitting him.
"Shane you big idiot Amber might hear you.""Sorry I forgot.""Come on." I sighed. They got up and we walked into the kitchen. The others where all sitting at the table. I sat down beside Amber and start eating.
"Mom when's Josh gonna get here?" Amber asked.
"He should be here by now." Sonia said looking at her watch. Then there was a knock at the door.
"Speak of the devil." Amber muttered. I put my hand on her thigh and squeezed it softly for support.
"Everyone this is Josh and his wife Jennifer." Sonia smiled.
"Hey sis." Josh smiled at Amber.
"Hi." Amber didn't even look up at him and played around with the food on her plate.
"That's Nate, Amber's fiancé." Sonia smiled.
"Hi man." Josh smiled holding out his hand. I took it firmly and shock it.
"Hey dude." I smiled.
"You remember Rachel?" Sonia asked. "Oh yeah hi Rach.""Hi Josh.""And that's her boyfriend Shane, then that's Danielle and Jason and their little brother Charlie." "Nice to meet all you.""You too." they smiled.
"I'm going upstairs to clean up." Sonia smiled before leaving.
"Charlie why don't you go help Sonia.""Ok" he said jumping up and running after her.
"Lets go inside." I suggested. We all got up and I took Ambers hand. We walked in and sat down on the couch. Dan and Jason sat on the other couch and Josh and Jennifer sat on chairs while the other two sat on the floor.
"Amber you not still mad at me for how I acted when we where young are you?" Josh asked.
"What's it to you?" Amber asked. Josh got up and knelt down in front of her.
"Amber I'm sorry I was young and jealous.""Jealous!" Amber scoffed. "Jealous of what?""Dad gave you everything. You got all his attention. I only had him until I was four then he left us and found mom and then had you and you where everything to him. You where the one with the voice, the one that could dance, the one with the looks you had everything. I was a burden that got bad grades in school and was always in trouble.""Josh, you don't get it do you! You made my life a living hell! And don't call her mom she's not your mom she's mine! Just because you got so out of hand and your mom left you don't try claim mine!""I'm sorry. Amber just forgive me.""Forgive you! Try give me back all them years and that you hit me and took dad away from me! You got all the attention for years because of your bad behaviour then when I start getting it again he dies and now I have nothing!" she burst into tears and I pulled her into me.
"Shh Amber it's ok. Don't worry." Josh looked at me and I could see he was truly sorry.
"Sis-" he put his hand on her knee. "Don't call me that. And don't touch me!" she hit his hand away and jumped up from the couch and ran upstairs. I looked after her not knowing what to do. Josh sat on the couch beside me and put his head in his hands.
"I was hoping I could get her back, be the big brother I was meant to be. What am I going to do now?" he asked looking at me.
"How am I meant to know?" I spat. How could I like him after all he put her true.
"Nate, she has never trusted anyone. Never. You're the only one she's ever opened up too and you're the one who knows her best." I never knew that.
"Fine I'll talk to her." I got up and walked upstairs. I could hear her crying in her room. I took a deep breath and bit my cheek before I walked in. she was lying on her bed with her head buried in her pillow crying. She looked like a little kid after getting told off from their parent. I walked over to the bed and sat down beside her.
"Amber please talk to me." she looked up at me. She sat up and I pulled her onto my lap.
"Baby, please just listen to him. He wants to make it up to you he wants to be a real big brother.""Why couldn't he do that when we where younger then?"
"You heard him he was jealous because you're the one with the voice, dance moves and looks and could you blame him your beautiful and have you seen him?" she start laughing and I smiled. "I knew I loved you for a reason." she smiled.
"Please Amber? For me?"
"Ok for you.""Thank you." I leaned in and kissed her.
"Come on lets get this over with." she stood up and took my hand. I wrapped my arm around her waist and we walked downstairs.
"Your lucky you have Nate to get me to talk to you or else I'd never talk to you again." she sighed sitting down.
"Amber thanks for talking to me again.""I'm not doing it for you I'm doing it for Nate.""That's enough for me."
"Fine say what you want.""Amber please let me back into your life. I want to be a real big brother and hurt anyone that ever hurts you and protect you from everything.""Josh, I'll let you back into my life but it seems that Nate has taken care of all them things. He was the one that helped me get over the bullied from high school, he helped me through dads death and he will help me through everything else that ever happens."
"And I'm thankful for that. I'm thankful that you had someone when I was such an idiot and didn't do all them things for you.""Josh I'm sorry for being a bitch to you.""Don't say sorry. You had a right to be that way after everything I done to you." he leaned in and hugged her.
"So is everything sorted yet I want to go to the Waffle House." Shane complained.
"Shane shut up!" I said throwing a pillow at him.
"Is he always like that?" Josh whispered to me.
"Yeah, he's a bit slow." I whispered back.
"Ok lets go to waffle house." Josh smiled.
"I'm going to get my coat and Charlie." Amber said getting up."Will you get mine?" I asked.
"Sure."
We walked out toward the cars and I was at the back with Josh.
"I know this is meant to be the other way round but if you ever hurt Amber again I will kill you and I know my brothers will help. Shane might be an idiot but when someone he loves is hurt he's not.""Ok I get it. Amber means a lot to you and I promise I will never hurt her again.""Thanks." I said patting his back.
"Here's your coat Nate." Amber said running up to me.
"Thanks baby." I kissed her head before pulling it on.
"Nate why are we going to Waffle House we just had breakfast." Charlie asked.
"Shane." I sighed.
"Uh. Shane!" he said running up to his and hitting his back.
We all climbed into the cars and drove down to Waffle House. When we got there not many people where there. We got a table and sat down. I put my arm resting on Amber's chair and Josh sat the other side of her.
"Does anyone want anything besides Shane?" Jason asked.
"Nope." we all said together.
"Can I take your order?" a woman asked.
"I'll have waffles with caramel and sprinkles please." Shane asked.
"Anything else?""No we're fine." Jason smiled.
"Ok." she walked away and we all looked at Shane.
"Sprinkles? What age are you? A four year old girl?" Jason asked.
"What? I like sprinkles."
"Rachel what do you see in him?" I asked.
"I find myself asking the same question." she laughed.
"Hey! Rachie that's mean.""Rachie!" Amber burst out laughing and was clutching onto her stomach. Shane glared at her which made her laugh even more.
"Here's your food." the waitress said putting Shane's food in front of him.
"Oh god that was hilarious." Amber sighed.
"Amber?" "Yeah Shane?"
"Shut up."
She picked a spoon up and threw it at him.
"Hey thanks I needed this." he picked it up and used it to pour caramel onto his waffle.
When Shane was finished we went back home only to find out the funeral would be tomorrow. My mom and dad rang and said they where on their way up and would stay in the hotel down the road. The rest of us continued to ring different family members for Sonia telling them about it. Emma and Amy had got on a plane over the day before and should be here soon. A lot of family members had got a plane over and where now at the house. Sonia never told us they where coming and when we got home they where all there.
"Hey." a soft voice said behind me. I turned around with Amber to see Emma and Amy standing there.
"Emma! Amy! I've missed you.""We missed you too. How you holding up?" Amy asked. Once Amber pulled out of their hug she took my hand and smiled up at me.
"I'm okay if it wasn't for Nate I would have broken down by now."
"Thanks Nate." Emma smiled.
"No problem girls." I smiled. "I'm going to go make sure Shane's not breaking anything." I smiled. I kissed Amber's head and walked off.
Amber's POV
"You two are so cute." Emma smiled.
"Emma shut up." I said nudging her.
"Oh guess what!" Amy gasped.
"What?"
"We're here till New Year.""Really?"
"Yeah isn't that great.""Yeah but after the funeral we're going back to New York.""Yeah and we have an apartment up there rented out.""Awesome!"
That night I had fun with the girls when the rest of my family went. We stayed up late until they had to go. I just had to prepare myself for tomorrow. Nate and I went to bed and I cuddled in his arms trying to block out the thoughts of the next day. I was not looking forward to it.
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