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Chapter 28
Act 1
"Hey, how are you?" Janis asked on the phone, she had been back in Charming for a few days, she didn't talk to Chibs yet, she was afraid, she was confused again, she didn't know what she would do next. Her life was a complete mess, no matter how she tried to fix it and she had to choose one of those guys, she just didn't know who and how she would do it. "I haven't talked to you in a few, I miss you." She said.
"I'm fine babe, and I miss you too." Kozik said in the other line. He was at the clubhouse so it was hard for Janis to listen to him with all the noise. "So, what are you doing?" he asked after a while, he just needed to hear her voice, her breathing, her chuckle, since she left back to Charming, Herman couldn't think of anything else and of no one else, all he wanted to do was making her his again and now once and for all.
His attempt to make her chuckle succeeded, she then said. "I am working, I'm actually drowned into work lately, it's hard, you know, not knowing what to do next." She said, and then asked him to wait a bit, as she helped Half Sack with a box. "Shit, I gotta go! Sorry. I call you later?" she asked him.
Kozik sighed on the other side, he didn't want to turn off the phone just yet, he just arrived from a new deal for Samtac, talking to Janis was the best part of a great day to him. "Alright, can I call you tonight?" he asked her, the rest of the day he would spend in church with the rest of his club member, to see if the new deal would pass.
"Yeah, you can, I'm at Gemma's, not leaving for a while, I'll be with mom and dad until I find out what to do." She said, as she said that, Piney entered in the room and sat in the chair in front of her. It was only them in the club house, so Janis turned off her phone and held the hand of the elder. "Hey Bubba, what's up?" she asked him.
As always around Janis, Piney opened his big smile. "I'm great, daughter." He said, he held her hand back. "Jan, I know you since you were a child, I know when you are ok, and when you are not. What is wrong sweetheart?" he asked her, he had been observing the girl in those past weeks and he came to the conclusion she wasn't happy with her life.
"Nothing's wrong, Piney." She said, although the old man didn't believe in her. "Alright!" she said after a while watching Piney having no reaction at all of what she said. "I've been in a dilemma; I don't know what I want in my life. One time I want to be happy with Chibs, he makes me the happiest woman in the world and I love him more than anything; but then in the next second, Kozik is in my mind, like a devil, he made me happy too and I love him probably as much as I love Chibs." she said, looking straight to nowhere.
"Babe, I thought you had made that choice already. You've been with Scotsman for a while now." The man said, trying to understand. For much that Piney liked Janis with Chibs he knew the real love of her life was the other one, he saw how bad she was when they broke up, he saw how bad she was when a teenager, when Clay said no to them, but what made him understand that the girl couldn't live without him was how she was in doubt, this never happened in her life before.
"I had made, until… Tig beat Herm's ass off, I took care of him and when he was leaving, well, I kissed him. He asked me to do it, I couldn't say no!" she said, now with her hands in her face hiding the tears falling from her face, tears of embarrassment and of her being incapable to decide. "After that, I met him again on Lizzie and Alex's marriage." She said.
"I saw you guys. You looked lovely sweetheart." Piney said, trying to put a smile on her face, but it didn't work.
"I told him I loved him." She said, silence fell upon them, for a minute or so; then she continued. "When Meg died, he gave all the support, he helped me, he went to the wake, gave me a place to sleep. Piney, I kissed him again, this time not just once, many times, and almost went back together with him."
"Jan, sweetheart, don't you understand what this means?" Piney asked, the girl looked so lost, worse than she had ever been. "This means you love this man, always had and always will. I know you love them both. Now, you need to think, who of them would make you happy, forever. I hope you come with the right answer." He said. Piney already knew what the right answer was, it was Herman Kozik.
"Thanks for the chat, Bubba. As always, helped a lot." She said, finally opening a smile. She then rushed to the bar, to take a beer, she hardly ever drank in the morning, but that day, was different, those days were. She'd been drinking more than she ever had; people were noticing and commenting about it.
Bobby entered a bit after in Clubhouse. He was in his Elvis costume, but he didn't seem very happy. So he sat in the bar and took a drink, as Janis was now alone, she joined him with her own drink. "Hey Jan girl." He said as he opened his jumpsuit and took his hand to his bullet wound.
"Hey Uncle Bobby, hurting much the shoulder?" she asked, he just shook his head and took another gulp of his beer. Bobby then took the glasses off and his wig and signed heavily, as something was bothering him.
As he did that, Clay entered. "Sad Elvis." He said, and then kissed his daughter's hands. "Hey baby, got up early today." He said then, the girl just nodded.
"Blow me." Bobby answered, making the girl beside him chuckle. "These goddamn Bar Mitzvahs are killing me." He added and drank a bit more.
"Then why are you doing it then? Tahoe presentations will come back around." Clay said, opening a locker, Janis looked to see what was inside. When she was little, she often hid inside the lockers in Samcro, so she could scare people.
Janis saw it was time for her to go, they would just complain about their lives and she already had too many troubles to work with. "I gotta go, is mom around?" she asked Clay, her dad nodded. "Great see you." She said, getting up her heels and leaving them as Bobby complained about some surgery his son had to do.
She moved to her mother's office. "Hey baby, how are you?" her mother asked, Janis knew she was still a bit traumatized about what happened, she saw by how her mother wasn't working straight, how her desk was a complete mess and how she didn't seem to stick her mind in anything. "Lemon called?" she asked then.
Of course Janis had told her mother about what happened between her and Kozik, how could she not tell something like that to her mother? She hoped Gemma helped her to decide about what she would do next, but it didn't seem to help much. "I'm fine, mom and yes, Herman called. I don't know what to say or do" she said then. Gemma just kissed her cheeks, as a form of telling her to be strong. "How about you? I noticed you didn't sleep last night." She said then.
"I'm alright baby, don't you worry about me. I'll always be alright." She said, tapping Janis' shoulder.
"I'll be too." Janis added, smiling at her mom, as the phone rang. It was Luann, so Gemma answered it. "What is wrong? Any of the precious girls got aids?" she asked, joking.
"Luann got a problem. I'll go there." Gemma said, Janis knew that Gemma going to Caracara meant trouble, meant fights between her and Clay. She tried to stop her mom but it didn't seem to work. "I gotta go, sweetheart. Wait here, Chibs is almost here." Gemma added, but then she saw that Chibs wasn't going to make her daughter stick in the TM. "Alright follow me." She said then, they both leaving the office together.
Janis got into her bike and left with her mom, arriving in Caracara a bit later. "Hey T." she said, when she arrived at the studio, Tara was sitting in Jax's bike. They became friends after what the doctor had done to Abel; Janis thanked her forever for that, and the fact that Jax was happy with her helped a bit too. "You're finally meeting Caracara! I'd give you a tour, but those girls kinda hate me." She said.
The woman smiled at Janis. "Don't worry, I'm fine here." She said, so Janis sat on her bike and waited Gemma to arrive.
But instead of Gemma, who arrived was Ima, one of Luann's stars, listening to horrible music, loud on her car. "Should you be polishing that bike sweetie? Jax likes it nice and shining…" she said, entering the room.
Janis didn't let Tara answer. "Answer her and only gets worse. You are with Jax, not her." She said. "Don't worry, I'll give her a slap someday." She added and Tara smiled at her. Gemma arrived a few minutes later with Clay and Tig on her tail. "Good grief, here comes the fight." Janis muttered, looking down. All of a sudden she was a kid again, listening to those two screaming and tossing things around. The one who always saved her from it was her ex-boyfriend. She suddenly wished he was there. As her parents fought, Janis observed Tig, he got out of his bike and sat in Jax's bike with Tara, making the girl really uncomfortable. That made Janis laugh, so Tig held her hand and blinked to her. "Thanks Tiggy." She muttered, she knew he was there for her, for helping her cope with her family fighting again. As things started to fly and kicks started rolling, Janis called Tara. "Come on, let's end this." She said, taking the girl inside the studio.
She let Tara do the talking, but Ima interrupted her. "He is occupied honey, you should wait outside like you were told to." The bitch said.
"Ima, one more bad attitude, you are fired." Janis said, but the woman didn't listen.
"Jax and Chibs would never let that happen." Ima added. Adding Chibs made Janis' blood boil, that bitch should never say his name again.
Jax saw his sister and his girlfriend were about to jump on Ima, he stopped them. "I'm sorry, I'm sorry. She is a little out of her mind." He said taking both girls out of there, but Janis knew Ima would only get better in the attitude as someone took a good hit on her, she just hoped that person was her.
"Well she is not the only one." Tara added, as they left.
They got outside to find Janis' father punching her mother's car, which made her chuckle a bit. Gemma was so in love with that car that was almost sick, seeing her dad punching it made her day. As she came back to mind, she saw her mother screaming about slicing her dad's throat, so she saw it was time to interfere. "Come here mom. He doesn't mean it."
Clay tried to pull Gemma back. "Don't you touch me! Don't." she said and started crying. Janis held her mother in one side and Tara in the other.
"Happy now?" Janis asked her dad, as she took her mother to sit, Jax looked incredulous to Clay and went to call Janis. "Hey brother." She said, as Tara took care of Gemma.
"Did you know Clay asked Bobby to work on Caracara?" he asked. Jax and her have been talking and asking themselves if the tactics that Clay used were the best for the Club, that's why they decided to include Luann, it was clean, cleaner than guns, at least. They were being guided by John's book.
"No I didn't. But Bobby was two months inside, he needs this, he needs money." She said. She wasn't agreeing with Clay, but Bobby was one of the guys and if he needed help, any of them would do anything to help him, including Janis.
It was time of her to go back to TM, she knew because had three missed calls from Chibs in her cellphone. Arriving there she found her man smoking and waiting for her, she hated when he looked as sexy as he was that day, with his grey shirt and his cut. "Hey sweetheart, how are ya?" he asked her, holding her waist and kissing her forehead.
"Fine, Scotty, what about you? Had good morning watching porn being made?" she asked chuckling at him. She didn't know how could she say good bye to him, she saw how love poured out of him when she was around and she knew he was special, that she wanted him.
"Ya know, it's art. And I'm better now…" he said, then he kissed her lips in a really tender way. Chibs saw that she was different after she came back from Tacoma, but he didn't had the courage to confront her yet, he didn't want to lose her. "Jax wants to talk with us later." He said then.
She was afraid of Jax's talks now, it was only about two things: Zobelle or Clay. She hoped it was something light, that they hadn't found out what Zobelle did to her mother, if they found out, Charming would become a witch hunt, there was no way Zobelle and his racist friend would get out of Charming alive.
"What's wrong baby, ya are all quiet suddenly?" he asked, her mind just drifted off in this Zobelle shit. "Hey, don't worry. I know they scare ya, I won't let them touch ya sweetheart." He said, holding her tight, Janis just melted in her man's arms, it was good to be with Chibs all over again."Come on Jax is calling." He said, and walked with her towards TM.
Act 2
"Are you going to the wrap party today at Caracara?" Janis asked her man, while Chibs was smoking outside, they were waiting Jax's answer about the tip they gave to Hale, about Darby's meth lab. "I heard that bitch Ima talk to Jax, she said something about a wrap party." She added, trying not to show the jealousy she was feeling.
"Well, only if ya say that I can go, darlin'" Chibs answered her, pushing her close to him and wrapping his arms around her tiny waist. "I can stay at home if ya want." He said then. Janis then smiled at him and kissed his scar. "Although I need a good party" he confessed, looking down, like he was saying something wrong.
Janis chuckled at his worries. "If you want to go, you can go" she said, smiling the most honest of the smiles. He kissed her cheek. "Just don't do anything stupid alright." She said.
Chibs smiled at her, his smile always reached to his ears, it was beautiful. "Ya know I'd never do anything stupid." He said. "Yer brother is here." He said then, as Jax arrived in his bike, his was the loudest of them.
"Sold the story, now let's wait." He said to her, entering in the garage where Opie was working in an engine. More than two hours passed, of Jax and Janis playing around and acting like teenage brothers pissing each other off, for Hale to turn back the call. Everybody waited in silence as he talked with the officer. "Get the boom." He said.
Clay and Janis looked at him in the exact same way. "It seems like squeaky clean cop ain't so clean after all." Janis said, going with them to take the things for blowing up the meth lab. She took some things with Opie when Clay stopped her.
"You stay. I don't want you blowing up a drug house." He said. Janis was going to answer him, but he never let her. "You are staying, I'm telling you. " She didn't buy that dad crap so he got to make it better. "I want you with your mother today alright? Take care of her, for me." He said.
There was no way Janis could say no to her mom. "Alright, but blow it good for me ok?" she smiled. She also needed to call Kozik back, she waited the whole day to make that call, she wanted to hear his voice again. So she went to call him, Gemma was going to stay until late at the garage so she had plenty of time to talk with him. "Hey, remember me?" she asked him, she was still insecure of Kozik, she didn't know if he was going to break her heart again, she was positive it would never happen again, but, what if did? That was one of the things that caught her, she didn't know that to do about it.
"How would I forget?" he answered her. That day was hectic to him, he made deals, broke others… But the highlight of his day was hearing her voice, just to him. "How could I forget the love of my life?" he asked her.
In the other end, Janis blushed and laughed alone. "How are you?" she asked then, she sat alone in the clubhouse, smiling and talking to him, everything seemed to be away, she seemed to be transported to years before when they were just a couple, when nothing else mattered to her, just Kozik.
"I'm great. I found a little cat today, I took it home do you wanna name it?" he asked. People didn't believe, because he was a Son and because he had a huge record at PD, that Kozik was actually a great person, he loved kids and animals, whoever touched any dog or cat would piss him off, when Jax or Tig told him about the kids that always messed with Janis and Lisa, he wanted to catch them, for messing with them and with the smaller kids.
"What you've been thinking about naming him or her? Look, see if it's a boy or a girl." She said, over excited about his pet. "If it's a boy we should call it Jeff, if it's a girl, Lady or something like that." She said, Jeff because she loved that name, it was the name of her favorite singer ever and the name she always said she wanted to give to her son. Lady was because the day before she watched Almost Famous, her favorite movie and her favorite character was Penny Lane whose real name was Lady, Janis didn't had in mind a name of a girl that she would put in her daughter.
He was also happy for having the new friend. "So you know boys names and no girls?" he asked, she knew what he meant, he meant that if she had a kid, she knew what name the boy would get and not the girl. "You sounded like naming a kid or something." He said then, before looking if was a male of a female cat. "I guess it's Ms. Lady Morrow Kozik that we got here." He said, his clock was ticking for a baby, he wanted a kid soon and he knew he would only have it with Janis.
Janis didn't know it would be their cat, she liked the idea. "I loved it, but tell me, how I can live away from my baby cat?" she said, he laughed a bit. "And of its daddy?" she said then, seriously, so he understood she was really asking.
"When its mommy tells her boyfriend she can't stay with him anymore." He answered as seriously as her. "Janis, I'm serious, you just have to ask." He said then. He didn't know what her answer would be, he didn't know if she wanted him back in Charming. But her answer didn't matter; he would fight for her until his last day.
Janis stood quiet for a moment, she had to make her decision right there, how would she do that? She didn't know who to choose still. So she decided to think about all the things that happened. She thought about how she first met Chibs, when she arrived from Tacoma. She was still with Kozik, she still wanted to be with him, she thought Chibs was cute but who of the girls didn't? Then she thought how she met Kozik, really met. Before dating him, she knew everything about him, they were friends, they liked each other, they passed from every rough path possible he took shots for her, she took beats, they fought drugs, dealers and every possible thing together. She looked at Chibs, her heart melted, but when she was with Kozik, she felt right, complete, the way not even Chibs could make her. "Come to me?" she asked, serious too.
He kept silence for a second. Janis, on the other line felt the tears rolling down her face. In his end, Kozik smiled, the biggest smile ever, he couldn't contain his happiness. He was finally going to make her his, forever! "I'll arrive in the morning." He said. He tried to hide, but he was crying too, as much as her, he could hear her sobs.
"I'm waiting for you." She said, cleaning the tears off her face. "I love you." She said then, her tears now becoming laughter. "I love you, and now I'll be yours again." She added.
He took the engagement ring off a night stand drawer and tugged inside his cut. "I love you too, Janis Morrow. And now you are finally mine again, forever." He said. The word forever made her smile again, she had decided, she was Kozik's again, only his. "I see you tomorrow, my Black Rose" he said then before hung up.
"I see you, my Starlight." She said to him, she was going to tell her she loved him again, but she didn't, because Tara entered in the room. "What's up, T?" she asked.
"Let's get Jax." The woman answered and pulled Janis out of her chair. "He is at caracara." She added. Janis just nodded and entered in the car. As they entered there, Janis saw Chibs all over a brunette girl, she didn't say a word, she just looked at him, and he never even noticed she was there.
"This is a closed party" Ima said to them. Janis was in the peak of excitement, and if this bitch looked for any trouble, Janis would not mind send her to ER with a few bruises, it would only make her night better.
"I'm looking for Jax." Tara said, with an impressive self control.
"Honey" Ima replied, that honey false shit made Janis go crazy in rage. "He's got all he can handle tonight, don't worry."She said, Tara tried to pass through her but Ima stopped her with her friends. Janis wanted them to do that, so much! Now she could hit one of them without pity. "I said get out, bitch." Ima added.
"Alright, little piece of shit, get out of mine and my sister-in-law faces, or I'll break your dry open ass. " Janis said. Tara went away.
"Yeah, you better run you little skank" Ima added.
"Wrong answer." Janis said and took a full hit in the bitch's face. Ima fell on the floor for a second and came back. "Mess with them again and you are dead, cock sucking bitch." She added and got out of the place.
Chibs now noticed her. "Darlin' what the hell was that! Good punch." He said. He tried to get close to her but she stopped him. "What's wrong, Janis?"
"I think we gotta talk. But not now, go enjoy the party. We talk tomorrow." She said, and started to walk towards the way out.
