When all of his friends had left besides Penny and Leonard, Sheldon sat down on his old spot, and broke down in tears.

Between the sobs his two friends were shocked to hear what his nightmares had been about, and rushed to his side, with Leonard sitting on the couch cushion next to him and Penny on the arm of the couch.


As soon as Amy had left the building, and walked towards her car, she was pondering if her last comment was the right thing she could have said to Sheldon.

When she had spoken those words, there had been a small hint of frustration in them. Maybe not as much as she had expected, but still that feeling had been there.

When Sheldon had said that he wanted to talk to Leonard and Penny in private, she had to admit to herself that maybe Sheldon would never turn to her first when something was bothering him.

Even though they now had an actual physical relationship, she couldn't help feel left behind, simply because she hadn't known Sheldon as long as his other two friends.

But he also had said he would tell her when he would be back home later. This was a big change for Sheldon, if you looked back how he previously had handled things like this.

After arriving home, she tried to find things to distract her, but none were very successful. From putting the laundry that was now done washing into the dryer, or reading her favorite book, her mind kept milling over what happened this morning.

What could have frightened Sheldon so much he almost went into a state of shock? Was it still over what happened with his mother, and the aftermath between them?

Mary had been fine after all, Missy had told them exactly that last week, because they had been back to the hospital for several check-ups and Mary had recovered completely.

She had no idea what had caused Sheldon to be so scared, and she couldn't help but worry about him.

All she could do now was wait…


"Sheldon, that's horrible" Penny said, now cradling him into her arms as she sat next to him.

"No wonder you feel like the way you do" was all she could say, trying to sympathize with him.

"Have you ever had dreams like this before?" Leonard asked, as he sat on the other side of him.

"No…I've never had any bad nightmares similar to this" he admitted.

"I had troubles sleeping after Pop-Pop died, but that never caused me to wake up shivering, with the bed sheets soaking in sweat" Sheldon continued.

"I'm so glad that Amy was there, she remained extremely calm through it all. I don't even want to think what could have happened if she hadn't been there…" he said, shivering at the thought.

"But I still don't understand why you would think about something like that, even if it was just your subconscious making you think something like that could happen?" Penny asked, taking hold of his hands.

"I mean, I know you and Amy have spent exploring the boundaries of intimacy over the last few weeks, but you still haven't actually slept together" she continued.

"You…you know about that?" Sheldon asked, looking at his blond friend, as he wiped the tears from his eyes.

"Well, after you two decided to move in, Amy told me everything. And today she couldn't stop talking how excited she felt about living with you. But don't blame her for that, she was just so excited about it all, she couldn't keep it in Sheldon" Penny confessed, waiting to see how he would respond to this.

"I don't blame her, you two are my best friends, so I don't mind she told you about it" Sheldon responded to the surprise of both Leonard and Penny.

"That's good to hear Sheldon, it's good to talk about these things. It must be overwhelming for you as well" Leonard said, as he had sat watching the interaction between him and Penny.

"It was, but it was nothing compared to what happened yesterday morning" Sheldon said, as a brief smile broke through.

"What do you mean? What happened yesterday?" Penny asked.

"Why do you ask? Didn't Amy tell you?" he asked, confused about what was happening.

"I thought you said Amy told you about what happened over the last few weeks?" Sheldon asked again.

"Amy only told me that you two have been sleeping in the same bed all of this week, even before you officially moved in with her, and that you had shared another shower here during which things heated up between you two" Penny stated.

"What are you referring to Sheldon?" she had to ask.

"Well...when we woke up yesterday morning, we cuddled and kissed, which eventually resulted in …other things" Sheldon said cryptic.

"You mean you two finally had sex?" Penny asked bluntly, not hiding her excitement, as she clapped her hands together repeatedly.

"Obviously" Sheldon replied, remarkably calmer now.

This took some time to sink in with both Leonard and Penny, not just because that it finally happened between their best friends, but how Sheldon wasn't freaking out about, admitting it so calm to them.

"Sheldon, that's great. I'm so happy for you two" Penny said, as she threw her arms around his neck, pulling him towards her forcefully.

But shortly after his words had sank in, Penny started wondering about its implications.

"Sheldon, do you think that this step you and Amy took might have something to do with your nightmares?" she asked.

"You have to admit, they are, in a way connected to each other" she continued.

"Hmm, you could be right about it Penny" he said.

"What do you think I should do now?" he asked her.

"Sheldon, Honey, you need to talk to Amy about this. You can't shut her out on this, it involves her just as much as it does you, especially now you are living with her" Penny replied.

"I want to Penny, but what if she thinks I'm weak, because of all this?" Sheldon asked, nervously rubbing his hands together.

"Sheldon, Amy won't think that, she will react completely the opposite way. She will understand that you freaked out about this. Anyone would" Penny said.

"So go talk to her, Leonard you better drive him there now" she stated, not asking.

"All right" was all both Sheldon and Leonard had a chance to say, before they left the apartment.


After thanking Leonard, and asking him to thank Penny too on his behalf, he got out of the car and walked up to towards apartment 314.

When he opened the door, he noticed Amy had fallen asleep on the couch, an almost empty wine glass standing on the table.

He stood there only for a minute, admiring the view of the woman that caused him so much pleasure, but also had been the subject of his nightmares last night.

"Amy" he said, as he carefully touched her shoulder, seeing she was clutching on to one of the pillows which was always present on the couch.

Slowly his girlfriend started to wake up, seeing his bright blue eyes shining like a beacon in the night at her, reflecting the light coming from the lamps she had turned on earlier this evening.

"Sheldon?" Amy asked, rubbing the sleep from her eyes, as she sat up.

"What time is it?"

"Just past 8, I'm sorry I didn't come home earlier" Sheldon responded, sitting next to her.

"That's ok, did you have a good talk with Leonard and Penny?" she asked, waking up more and more as she sat there, looking at him.

"Yes I did, can I get you something to drink Amy? Some tea perhaps?"

"That sounds great, chamomile please" Amy replied.

When Sheldon returned, placing the yellow and blue mugs with tea on the table, he sat down next to her once more.

"What have you done tonight?" Sheldon asked trying to delay the conversation he needed to have with her.

"Not much, I tried reading" she said, pointing to the copy of Pride and Prejudice lying on the table. "But I was too worried about you, so I just closed my eyes for a second, I must have drifted off shortly after that" Amy said, before taking a sip of the tea.

"So what did you talk about with Penny and Leonard?" she asked, as she saw Sheldon starting to tense up after she had finished her question.

"Well, they are excellent listeners" he stated, avoiding her eyes.

"But in the end Penny suggested I should just tell you about what the nightmares were about"

"What? I thought you said you didn't remember what they were about?" Amy asked.

"You lied to me?" she asked angrily.

"No…no" Sheldon quickly said.

"When I woke up and told you about it, I really didn't know what they were about, you have to believe me Amy" he said, looking worried at her, hoping this wouldn't push her away.

"Only when we were driving towards Leonard's, it started to come back to me. I just didn't know how to tell you about it, because they were about…" Sheldon continued, feeling a few tears escaping his eyes.

"About what Sheldon? Why can't you tell me?" she asked, wiping a single tear from her own face.

"Because they were about you Amy!" he shouted, frustrated about feeling this way again.

This hit Amy hard, she had tried to think all evening about what could have been the reason of his disturbing state this morning.

But it had never occurred to her that she was the reason, or at least played a part in it.

After sitting silently, and taking another sip of the beverage before her, she recovered slightly, finding her voice again.

"Me? I was part of your nightmares?" she asked.

"Tell me Sheldon about them, and tell me right now!"

"I don't know how to say it Amy, I know what happened in them, but I still don't understand why I had them" Sheldon replied, as he started shaking softly again, just like he had done this morning.

"Penny thinks it might because of what we did yesterday" he continued, now too forcing himself to drink some of the tea.

"And after thinking about it, it actually makes some sense" he admitted to himself.

"What are you trying to tell me Sheldon?" Amy asked.

"I thought you liked what we did, we actually did it twice that morning?" she wanted to know, confused about his behavior.

"I did Amy, I enjoyed it beyond words. It's just my mind can't stop thinking about the consequences for the future" Sheldon said, now finally meeting her eyes.

"Remember when I asked you about using protection before our first time? You did comfort me, telling you already had thought about it. But I guess it never really left my mind."

"When I was asleep last night, I dreamed about how my future with you would be like, and eventually it came to you being pregnant" he continued.

"Why would that freak you out Sheldon? You know we can control that, and even if it were to happen, wouldn't that be amazing?" she asked, smiling a little as she thought about it herself.

"That wasn't what freaked me out Amy, and one day I would love for us to have children. It was what happened next that scared me" Sheldon replied.

"What happened Sheldon?" Amy asked, seeing he had turned himself even more to her.

"You…you died during childbirth" he said, tears streaming down his face, before throwing himself into her arms.