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~ Chapter Twenty Seven ~
"She finally gave up.. A tear fell down her cheek
& she whispered to herself..
I can't do this anymore."
~ Sonny ~
"Are you sure you don't want me to come in with you?" My mum asked as I climbed out of the car, I just shook my head and shut the car door. I watched her as he drove away and then looked up at the large hospital in front of me. It was time for my weekly weigh in and counseling session. I shook my head, and let a tear fall down my pale cheek. I started to walk away from the building and towards the sea.
It had been a whole two weeks since Tawni had passed away, but it didn't seem to get any better. Today was the first time I had been out of my bedroom since it happened. I went to the funeral, I cried with everyone else but then I made myself stop when I got home. I locked myself in my room, and just lay there ignoring the calls from my mum to go out there and eat. I ignored the phone calls from Grady, Zora, Nico and Zane. I just lay in my bed, holding back the tears and thinking about Tawni.
I didn't stop walking for a while, I knew where I was going but there was no rush. I sighed as I thought about Doctor Winters, how she would be waiting for me to arrive. But I never would, I couldn't do it anymore. I had given up on recovery, I don't think its possible for me to even think of eating after what I did to Tawni. Nothing was possible anymore, I couldn't do anything.
I sat down there just staring at the water for ages when I got to the beach, sitting on the sand, until I thought I saw something move out of the corner of my eye. I looked up and stood up quickly, I started to walk over to it, I saw someone in the distance, but they moved too quickly for me to see them. I shook my head, making sure I wasn't seeing anything and when I decided I wasn't I started to move forward, they were going to towards the rocks that Tawni and I had so often used as a meeting place. My heart pace quickened as I saw the person run away from me, I still couldn't see who it was so I ran after them. It all became clear when I saw them standing on the large rock on the beach, I shook my head and closed my eyes. But when I opened them again she was still there.
Her blond hair was blowing in the wind and she was smiling at me, she held out her hand. I started to walk over to her, letting tears fall down my face for the first time in over a week. I watched her carefully, afraid she was going to disappear. She smiled at me and I could tell she was happy now, I looked up at her and wiped away the tears from my face. She was happy now, I wanted to be happy as well. Tawni shook her head as though she read my thoughts. Then she started to fade away, I shook my head,
"No! Tawni! Come back!" I shouted as I ran towards her now faded figure.
"Come back!" I dropped to the floor, letting the tears fall down my face fully now.
"Come back." I whispered,
"Please stay." I curled up on the sand and just cried, I wanted Tawni back.
"Come back please." I whispered before I closed my eyes.
But she was gone, she was gone forever. I wanted her back, but I knew she would never come back to me. The only thing I could do was give up, and let myself die with her.
