After DeLuca delivered the CT scans to Arizona, she couldn't help her sad look. The baby was in a serious distress and putting in risk the mother's life, with a big leak of amniotic fluid inside her abdomen. She knew how delicate would be to inform that, but it was a high risk going forward with the pregnancy. She had to deliver that baby today and still would be risky.
"Mrs. Rosensky? I have your CT scans back" – Arizona informed, while Meredith was checking on the boy who had really low vital signs due to the progressive failure of his kidney.
"Yes, what is it? Is my baby ok?" – the mother asked, worried.
"Mrs. Rosensky, your baby is in a serious distress right now. And that means that both lives are at risk right now, his and yours. Your amniotic fluid is leaking inside your abdomen and it's highly dangerous" – Arizona explained.
"No, please, can we do something else? I can't have the baby today, I need him to be fully developed to be able to donate his kidney to Dimitri" – the mother begged.
"I'm afraid we don't have anything else to do at this point. 36 weeks is not that dangerous for a baby to be born, I'm sure that with proper care he will fully develop as well" – Arizona explained, trying to convince her to accept the birth.
"I can't risk it! If he has any problem in his kidney I can't save Dimitri. Please, look at him, he's dying!" – the mother was desperate and both Meredith and Arizona were touched.
"Look, I'm also a pediatrician. I see several cases of sick kids and parents who think they're running out of options. But these kids are resilient, you know? He will fight hard for his life, as you need to do with yours and right now for this baby to be born because he's also gonna need you. So you need to be alive for both of your children, and trust that we will do everything we can to take care of them" – Arizona comforted the woman and Meredith couldn't help but to feel enchanted by how amazing the blonde was, every single time someone needed her.
The woman nodded yes and although she was sobbing, she held Arizona's hand as a sign of trust. Meredith gave Arizona a look that expressed kindness.
At the OR, Arizona held Mrs. Rosensky hand one more time and said that everything would be all right.
She performed a c-section and the baby was already deprived of oxygen without the amniotic liquid. The nurse quickly took him to a small table next to them and Arizona was making her miracle to keep the baby alive.
Since the mother had only an epidural, she was awake and asking why the baby wasn't crying. Soon enough her vitals started to drop quickly and she was fainting.
"She needs anesthesia and oxygen in 100%, we need to cut her open" – Arizona shouted, at the same moment the baby cried. – "DeLuca, take him to NICU and don't leave his side until he's no longer cyanotic. He's in danger of life right now"
DeLuca quickly took the baby to NICU while Arizona fought hard to fix the mother. Meredith entered the room holding a scrub mask in front of her face.
"I heard you saved the baby" – Meredith asked.
"He's in NICU. He was almost dead, he will have to fight harder to live" – Arizona said, without looking into Meredith's eyes.
"What about the mother?" – Meredith asked.
"I'm doing my best. Is Dimitri any better?" – Arizona asked.
"I took him to ICU an hour ago, he needs to be fully connected to a dialysis unit to survive now. His kidney won't take much longer" – Meredith explained. – "Do you need help in there?"
"I'm good, thanks" – Arizona answered, still not looking at Meredith, who left the room and realized it was almost time for her to meet Thorpe to help him with whatever diagnostic he needed.
If Arizona was there, at the hospital entrance, she could say that her dream from last night was becoming a reality. There he was, waiting for Meredith, opening up a big smile when he spotted her and they leaving the hospital towards his car in the parking lot.
The only difference, this time, is that when Thorpe leaned forward to kiss Meredith, she kissed him back. Maybe because she felt like she should, or maybe just to feel better about her fight with Arizona. Arizona was still in surgery and didn't see anything. He suggested for them to go to his place and it was right when it hit Meredith: she didn't want to do that. Not anymore. Not with him.
The way his lips touched hers was different. His lips weren't soft and shiny as Arizona's. His hands were bigger and heavier, pressed against her cheeks. It wasn't like the delicate and slightly chilly hand of Arizona. He didn't have that pair of dreamy eyes. He didn't look at her the way Arizona did. He didn't know that her neck was her weak point and that it took only a light touch of Arizona's nose for her to find out. Thorpe was a nice guy, caring and respectful, but he wasn't Arizona. He didn't taste like her, he didn't sound like her and surely he didn't look like her.
Meredith felt suffocated again.
The image of Arizona smiling to her and the feeling of their first kiss, all of that was playing in Meredith's head like a movie. She pulled Thorpe away, she couldn't bear being that close again with him.
"What? What's wrong?" – Thorpe asked her.
"I can't, Will. I'm sorry" – Meredith said.
"Still not ready? Did I do something wrong?" – Thorpe asked, confused.
"No, you didn't. I think you just showed me that I'm actually ready, but I'm in love with someone else and I was trying to hide." – Meredith was honest, even though she knew it would be hard for him to hear.
