Hey everyone! I am so sorry it took me so long to write this! It was surprisingly hard to write! I mean I needed to keep with the plot, but because I changed the POV as well it was just so tricky! So thanks for baring with me, is what I'm trying to say. Also it was my birthday yesterday (13th) Yeah I know, I share my Birthday with Supernatural! It's so freaking cool! Yet, there was no Dean or Sam shaped presents :'( Maybe next year eh? ;)
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Payton's P.O.V

I am an Arch Angel. One of the highest ranking creatures in all creation. I watched as the world was formed, learned how to teach the little helpless creatures called humans, to walk, talk, grow. I was there through it all. The early days, back with Adam and Eve. I gave them a book, just to give them a head start in life. Sure my brothers frowned upon me, but I always had a soft spot for the little hairless apes. The trouble with the Romans, that was a bad time. I tried to be supportive, help our Father through the rough. I helped the word of our Father spread across this tiny planet. I watched as the world got older, and people started to forget about us. How science took over and the only real religion was money. I lost interest in this tiny world as it turned it's back on us. I guess I turned by back on them as well. I did stupid things. Made the wrong choice. I wanted to end it all, wipe the world clean and start again.

But then things changed. The world came to the brink of annihilation, and not by my hand. I watched as my brothers were slaughtered and killed for standing up to Lucifer. I watched as the little humans, who once marvelled at our existence, fought for survival. Alone. I watched as they were willing to do anything to stop Lucifer and that gave me the strength to stand up shoulder to shoulder with these odd little creatures. And together, we changed it all. We brought the walls crashing down and stuck up two fingers to the master plans. We changed everything and at first I thought it was amazing! I thought it was what our Father wanted us to do...

Now I know the truth. Now I need to share the truth, wont you listen to my tale?


I'd known for a long time things weren't right in Heaven. For centuries there had been unrest. My brothers beginning to wonder if Father would return at all. I couldn't blame them, I had long since forgotten the sound of his own voice. But unlike others I kept the faith. Angels like Zachariah and Raphael would talk of war, of changing the status of the planet to make the Rapture begin. But I was just the nerdy little brother back then. Yeah I know, hard to believe some so hot and sexy as me was a nerdy little brother. But it was true. I was shunned and told to return to my books; and for a long time that's what I did. But I found out the fate of this tiny planet. That's when I started to make a plan. I tried to make things right. I tried to make the humans stand up for themselves. That's when I introduced Megan O'Connor to Dean Winchester. Sure Cass got the orders from Zachariah, but who gave him them? That's right, me. See I am more than a pretty face. But that wasn't enough. It couldn't be with Raphael making a play for title as the new God. Long before the Apocalypse started I knew Raph was itching for more power. Little did I know I should have been keeping my eye on another brother...

The battle to stop the Apocalypse cost more then just what the humans saw. It cost me my family. My brothers who survived thought we shouldn't have interfered. They believe it would have been best for Michael to fight Lucifer and for him to win so that a new order of peace could begin on Earth. But my brothers opinions did not matter to me. The little humans were safe again and that's all that matter. The cost was high though. We lost good people, both human and angel. It even cost me my life. I died, but someone, something, brought me back. I was needed on Earth and I saw it as that I was needed to keep the humans safe. As soon as I knew Cass was alive I went to Heaven to find my brother. I knew the army would fallow Cass, that they would see him as our Fathers chosen one.

"So they did it?" I smirked as I stood next to Cass. The humans had stopped the apocalypse and started a new ages for us all. An age of wonder. An age of freedom. We were stood in a version of Heaven I loved to celebrate. It was a guy called Ash's. He was a smart dude, managed to make a door into any heaven. His heaven was a bar, the Roadhouse, it was a bit of a dive but it had a total rock feel. I was stood at the bar slapping Cass on the back. I still couldn't believe all that had happened.

"He is gone." Cass said plainly without looking into my eyes. Ash walked into the bar with a big grin on his face.

"Dudes!" Ash grinned as he walked holding three bottle of beer. "I herd the good news! Time to par-tay!"

"Sam Winchester is still locked in the cage with Lucifer and Michael. I do not find that a reason to celebrate" Cass stated with some frustration. I knew how he felt. Sam and Adam had given their lives for the world. Sam had thrown Lucy and Mikey in the cage and got stuck along the way. We knew as soon as the plan was formed that there was no way to get him back. It made winning a bitter sweet moment for us all.

"Whoa! That's rough dude. Is there no way to bust him out?" Ash asked as he passed me a beer.

"Lucy and Mikey fighting in there. No way." I said shaking my head. "The man you brought back, it wouldn't be Sam..." I said shaking my head more as I thought about it.

"Bummer!" Ash sighed. "But you guys stopped the apocalypse, you should at least have a drink!"

"Do you believe it is possible to pull Sam Winchester from the Cage?" Cass asked glancing at me. I looked into his eyes and saw how serious he was. I glanced at Ash and he walked off leaving me to talk to Cass.

"Yes, but I'm telling you bro, there is no way to know how he would come out. He's locked in there with Lucy and Mikey. All they have for entertainment is Sam's soul." I said seriously. "You can't bust him out."

"I..do not intend to." Cass sighed. "Have you told the others of your resurrection?"

"No!" I snapped, if the crowds herd more then one angel had risen, they might have lost their faith in Cass. "No bro, I think the angels knowing your up is enough. Plus they all believe in you. They see me as the black sheep still."

"They have put their faith in me. They believe I was brought back with purpose." Cass stated. He didn't sound to sure of this new leadership role. But I honestly couldn't think of any angel better for the job.

"I know. But they are just looking for a leader. And I think you'll be a great leader." I said hitting my bro on the back. He still didn't look so convinced.

"I do not know how to lead them." Cass admitted. "And Raphael will not go without a fight."

"So we fight." I said with a small smile. "Castiel, we are the only two angels in creation who truly understand the humans and our new fate. The angels need a leader who can explain it to them and I know you can."

"Balthazar has stole many angelic weapons." Castiel said turning to me. He looked worried. With the angel weapons loose, it meant anything could happen. They were Heaven's most powerful creations, in the wrong hands. Well it was best not to think about that.

"I know. But if your wanting me to go chat with him..." I rubbed the back of my neck nervously. Ever since I tried to kill Balthazar, we had a strained relationship. I've got no idea why, honestly.

"I need help tracking him down." Cass stated. "I will keep Raphael's armies at bay, if you could find the weapons. Together we can defeat Raphael and bring peace to Heaven again." Ash returned with lipstick on his cheek as he walked over to us.

"I will do what I can." I said nodding softly.

"Another beer?" Ash smirked at the pair of us.

"I have other business to attend to." Cass said quickly before leaving. Ash turned to me looking confused.

"Is your bro ok?" Ash asked passing me another beer.

"I'm not so sure..." I said opening a beer. Something back then felt wrong. But I had to keep the humans safe from any threat or so I thought. I was so busy looking for the evil coming from Hell, I didn't see the evil coming from above...


As soon as I herd Sam Winchester was up and kicking I knew Cass had brought him back. But I didn't have any proof, I didn't have anything that could help explain his actions. I had watched brother turn on brother in the war for Heaven. I truly believed that Cass was one of the good guys. So I kept my mouth shut. They didn't need to know. I could cover and lie with the best of them. Even if it felt wrong to lie to those I wanted to protect so badly. And protecting the ones I cared about was all I really ever wanted to do. But no matter how many humans I saved there will be always one who sticks in my mind forever.

Megan O'Connor/ Winchester. What a creature, I mean that in the most positive way! A werewolf our Father chose to battle evil on a big scale. A hunter. A werewolf. A woman and generally a kick ass person! When I first learnt of her, she was desperate to end her own life. She saw her existence as something to be ended. She had no purpose, or so she thought. I helped her see the light, and return she helped me. She taught me a lot about life and family. About trust and doing the right thing no matter what the cost. I always felt a connection to her since I met her and I had to protect her... I tried to save her from her werewolf side, but I ripped her soul in half. If I knew now what I did then, I would never have preformed the spell...

I had always tried to protect her, even after she left the Winchesters behind. I watched over her from the moment I returned to Earth. Just out of view, just to make sure she was ok. But I knew after she left the guys I had to come back for her. I needed to be there. After all she played one of the biggest roles in this story, even if she thought she was worthless.

"Payton... we lost Sam... I lost Dean." Megan said sobbing slightly as I held her in my arms. It felt so good to talk to her again, to keep her safe. In that moment I knew Father had returned me to keep her safe. "I can't...your back. You're really back." She said pulling away to get a good look at me. She looked just like I remembered. Well except her hair was shorter. Her dark brown eyes, soft brown hair. The smile that was always on her lips. She even wore the same clothes. But looking into her eyes I saw the hurt, the loss, the guilt. I vowed in that moment to help take those things away from her. To make her whole again, and I knew who just to grab to help me do that.

"In the flesh!" I said winking at Megan.

So I took Megan with me on my search for Balthazar. We travelled the country searching for the weapons to bring an end to the war in Heaven. And during the search we stumbled onto Sam Winchester. When Megan told me she had found him my mind raced. I was scared that she would put two and two together and realise Cass had brought him back. But thankfully she didn't. They all thought it was God or a demon. Never an angel. I hated lying to them, but I needed to keep Cass safe. I still believed in him. I still hoped everything he was doing was for the right reasons.


But the lying grew and grew. And the truth became harder and harder to keep. I started to get lost in the lies and that's when I got the first wake up call. I found out that Cass had planned to get Megan killed, and I knew the only way that would happen was if she was separated from Dean. The pair were strongest together, but as soon as they were apart they became easy prey. At the time I only knew that Cass wanted Megan away from Dean and I that I couldn't let it happen. I went to her, to warn her, but she was broken from loosing Channing. She loved him, in a different way from the love she shares with Dean. Channing was her Alpha, he completed her werewolf side. I knew loosing him, like she did, it crushed her for a long time.

"You never intended to let me change anything, did you?" Megan whispered softly as she looked into my eyes. She was so broken, so lost. My heart ached seeing her in that much pain. I put my arm around her and pulled her closer to me hoping to take some of her pain away.

"I can't baby girl. Things have to happen this way." I said softly kissing her forehead. I moved away to look into her eyes. She was so lost, but she needed to know, she needed to stay with Dean. That he would protect from anything. "You need to know, you and-" As soon as the words left my mouth I felt it. The burning hot pull that felt like your very existence was being torn in two. The brilliant white light and burning sensation faded to reveal a much worse fate then I could ever imagine.

"Cass?" I said shaking my head. I was trapped within a holding cell. Stood just outside was Castiel. "What are you doing?" I yelled slamming my hands against the walls. A bright painful spark shot out to my hands sending me back a couple of steps. He had trapped me in heaven's version of prison and I knew why.

"I can not allow Megan to be fully reunited with Dean Winchester." Castiel said plainly as he looked anywhere but in my eyes.

"But why? She's safer that way." I said confused. Castiel didn't say a word and it clicked in my head. "You want her weaker? Why?" I asked utterly confused from my brothers actions. This wasn't the actions of a angel who was going to unite our Heaven under a new leader.

"You need to trust in my actions brother. I am trying to reunite Heaven and defeat Raphael." Castiel said plainly, again refusing to look in my eyes.

"How?" I asked in utter shock. "How is keeping them apart helping? She'll die alone!" I said getting mad. Castiel glanced at me before looking else where. That's when it sunk in. He wanted her dead. My stomach turned and I took a sharp breath.

"Raziel." Castiel said plainly. "You can not return to them, unless you remember your place. With us. With me."

"My place?" I yelled getting so mad. "My place? My place is with the humans! My place is keeping them safe from evil! My place Castiel?"

"They are not your family. They are humans." Cass said coldly. This wasn't the man I put my faith in. I had no idea who was standing in front of me.

"So is Dean just another human?" I asked shaking my head.

"Yes." Cass lied looking away from me. I scoffed and shook my head.

"This is bullshit! Let me out of here! I demand as Arch Angel of the Celestial Army!" I boomed as my wings stretched far out showing my rank.

"I can not brother." Castiel said with pity in his eyes. "You will return to Earth and warn them of my plans. You will ruin the only chance for peace."

"Peace? By killing humans?" I asked as I paced up and down. "Cass this isn't how you bring about Peace. Father wouldn't-"

"Our Father hasn't been around for a long time! He doesn't care about us! I'm just trying to do what is best for us all!" Cass said pleading with me. "Don't you want peace in heaven? Don't you want our brothers to stop killing each other?"

"Of course I do! But this isn't the way! This can never be the way!" I said and walked right up to the wall. "What's happened to you Castiel?" I asked honestly. He took a moment to look into my eyes before turning his back on me.

"You will learn not to question." He said before disappearing.


In heaven time works a little different. It may have only been months I was missing on Earth but in fact it was millennia to me in the prison. Not that really matters to an Angel. The problem came when I was taught my lesson. In angel prison there are a certain breed of angel. One created to 're-educate' angels, so that they do not disobey. These Guardian Angels have no mouth, no remorse. All they care about is beating you down. They are simple beings created souly to destroy an angel. For millennia I was beaten, broken and ripped into a million pieces. There is no cooling off period, no escape. Everyday during the beatings Castiel would appear and ask me if I repent. If I pledge allegiance to him alone. To do what we must to save Heaven. For the longest time I said no. I refused to give in on Megan. To give up on the human race. But as with any torture, there is only so much any being can take. I broke and for that I will be forever ashamed.

"Come on Tiny, pulling my limbs out of my sockets are so 1800's." I coughed up blood as one of the Guardian Angels, pulled my arms out of their sockets. The pop echoed around the room as I muffled a scream. In Heaven, pain hurt, it hurt worse then in Hell. "What no whitey come back?" I joked as I felt my muscles pulling back together. The Guardian Angel's stopped as Castiel appeared.

"Cass, come to join the party?" I asked spitting blood, guts and I think teeth on the floor. I was beyond weak, I could barely look up into his face.

"Do you realise how many angels have died in this fight?" Castiel asked plainly.

"Wh... what?" I asked as I pushed some of my hair out of my face. My hair was mattered with my own blood and sweat.

"Do you realise how many of our kind has died in the fight for Heaven?" Cass asked plainly. I shrugged as I slumped into a pile on the floor. Cass nodded and held his hand out to me. Suddenly I was experiencing the death of a thousand angels all at once. It was too much for me to take I screamed my heart out as tears rolled down my cheeks.

"Stop Castiel! Stop this!" I begged as the scorching pain just continued to burn though me.

"Repent." Cass said plainly. I nodded as the pain consumed me.

"Anything! Just stop... stop this pain!" I begged.

"Very well." Castiel nodded and the pain stopped, just like that. The next thing I knew I was in a version of heaven. My hair had been cut shorter, I was wearing a suit and all the pain I felt had disappeared. Stood next to me was Castiel. He had a plain expression.

"I never want that to happen again." I muttered running a hand through my shorter hair. The pain he had inflicted on me, it shook me to the core.

"You can help me save all angels, so none of us need to die ever again." Castiel said looking me dead in the eye.

"I want that." I said honestly. But in the back of my mind, I knew it was wrong. I was just helping him fall from Grace all over again.

"This will remind you." Cass said taking my hand and branding me with an open scar. The symbol was one of allegiance and it was burnt right into my skin. I pulled my arm back quickly and found it wouldn't heal.

"What have you done?" I asked confused, looking from my wrist to him. This wasn't my brother. This wasn't the angel I thought would unite our heaven. This was someone going down a slippery slope. If only I was stronger to see back then that he was heading down the wrong road.


There was a time, a brief moment when I could have spilled the beans. A moment when my oldest friend, my oldest enemy came down to my rescue. My brother Balthazar.

"You're heaven might be. Mine... Let's say Hell could learn a few lessons." I said looking down to the bracelet, so much pain was held behind the thing. It would be so easy to show Megan, explain. But I never, never, wanted to end back there. I felt her eyes match mine. "Don't bother asking, I wont show you." I muttered as I glanced back at her.

"Why not?" She asked pushing herself away from the cars she lent on and walked over to me. She wanted answers, I couldn't blame her, I hadn't been the most reliable person in creation. But this was one thing... I needed to keep my brother safe. If he could stop one more angel dying needlessly, I had to help him.

"You don't need to see it." I huffed placing my arm behind my back so that she wouldn't see it. "It's a reminder for me."

"What? Keep in line or else?" She half joked. I looked down into her face and felt the pain run through me as I remembered what happened. "What? Raphael did this to you as a warning?" Megan asked pointing to my arm.

"Not Raphael." A voice said from behind her. Balthazar stood there, he looked into my eyes. "Tell her brother. She needs to know." Balthazar said to me telepathically.

"I can't. Cass will-" I responded.

"Cass? You are stronger then him!" Balthazar argued.

"I was... things change." I admitted, defeated by Cass and the whole situation. I made the bed, I put my faith in him and I needed to stick to it.

"You're arm? He's mark is on your skin. It's a binding spell. I can help you." Balthazar pleaded. I wasn't sure if it was Cass testing me or not. He smiled to Megan before I pushed in front of her.

"Leave brother." I said, my whole body tensing up with rage.

"We're just talking here." Balthazar replied plainly.

"Leave. Brother." I said through grit teeth, I did not like being tested. Balthazar took a glance at Megan and winked.

"Fine, you answer the questions... oh wait, you can't can you?" Balthazar teased me, yet I still couldn't tell if he was working for Cass or not.

"Don't." I threatened balling my hands into fists. Clouds started to form above, dark stormy clouds. My power may not have been as strong as I thought, but I still had enough to take down Balthazar.

"Very well." Balthazar said and in a blink he was gone.

"Ok what the hell was that about?" Megan asked as I turned to face her. She was mad, and I could see that she really wanted answers.

"Nothing." I huffed pushing past her as I walked towards the house. I knew she was racing after, she wanted answers and one thing I knew about Megan. She never gave up until she got what she wanted.

"You know, I am getting sick of this!" She yelled blocking my path. "You're my friend! I want to help, but you need to tell me what happened! You need to tell me why you were dragged from me! And you need to tell me what you wanted to tell me back in the Camero!" She shouted, her arms flying out in all directions. She wanted answers. Answers I had sworn not to tell her. Maybe if I had, maybe if I had done something then... Hind sight is always perfect. I ran a hand through my short hair and looked up to the cloudy sky's.

"You don't get it." I said as I met her brown eyes met my own. Looking into her eyes, feeling so conflicted I saw her take a sharp breathe. "This isn't something we fix. This isn't something you can help with. You're barely human. You can't understand. You can't understand the damage I've done, the damage that would happen." I tried to keep my temper under control but it was a hard fight, I know I was making fists straight by my sides as each word with enough venom to make her take another sharp breath. I never intended to loose it. But she didn't know the bigger picture. She couldn't understand all that was happening.

"Excuse me?" She chocked out shaking her head a little.

"You should ask to be excused! You don't even realise how being on your side has cost me!" I snapped as the first few drops of a heavy down pour started. "The family I've watched die, the brothers and sisters I've killed... their blood is on my hands..." I said looking down at my hands as if I could see the blood on them. I shook my head, letting out a bitter laugh. "You call yourself my friend, but you only call when you need help. You don't get it, how much, being your friend has cost me. Castiel is probably the only angel who still trusts me. Balthazar wants to see me fail and Raphael is out for my blood. I can't show my face in my own home because I became your friend! You have no idea how much this has cost me... none at all! And now? Now you stand there, demanding to know the details, to see the scars and hear the horror stories! Why? Why do you need to know?" I almost growled at Megan. The rain by now had already soaked clothes as it came down in sheets. Lightening struck above as she stood there looking at me, I could see the cogs turning, the feelings being crushed by my words.

"I care about you, you are a friend." She said softly and I scoffed at her.

"A friend of convenience." I said looking away from her. I could believe how much anger I felt towards her. I had tried to keep her safe, more then she will ever know and she was there questioning me.

"No, just a friend. I'm sorry if I've coursed you-" She started to say and I jumped in.

"Sorry?" I butted in as another lightening bolt darted across the sky. "Sorry? You cant expect sorry to cover all this? You... I can't be here right now!" I snapped as the thunder roared above us. In a blink I vanished. I burnt a bridge I thought I would never get to fix that day, all because I believed in him. In Castiel. I knew he could bring our world into a new area of peace, but I should have seen the signs...


And I guess I did. Although I never went to Balthazar to help remove the spell, I did manage to lift it. I started to look into Cass and what he really was looking for to win the war in Heaven. It wasn't easy. It never is. But I had learnt to sneak around heaven like a pro. I started to hear things, rumours of terrible things. At first I refused to believe them. There was no way that my brother could do such things. No way the angel I put my faith in would crumble and do these things I was hearing. Talk of an alliance with demons started to rise and I fought tooth and nail to find any real proof of this. Then I herd the truth. Something that made me challenge everything and set me back on track. Castiel told me, Megan, while I had stopped watching her, had gone to Luke/Channing an Alpha Werewolf. A powerful creature. A dangerous creature.

"Raziel, please calm down." Cass said looking at me.

"Calm down? She is with Luke, she is going to be turned into the Omega, she has half a soul in case it escaped you attention! Do you know what this means?" I asked pacing around in front of my brother. We both knew what this meant. Megan would be turned evil. When she died, her soul would go to Purgatory the one place every demon in creation was looking for to get control of Hell. Castiel had her half a soul, and if he made a deal with a demon for her soul...

"I do." Cass said firmly. I stopped walking and looked Cass dead in the eyes. I looked into Castiel's eyes for a moment as his words sunk in. You know? You. Know. YOU KNOW!

"You know?" I asked shocked. It was in that moment I decided to really look into Cass and his true intentions for Heaven. If he was dealing with a demon, he was heading down the wrong path, fast.


But it was too late. By the time I had learnt Cass was in league with a demon, Megan had turned. Her soul tainted with human blood. There wasn't much I could really do apart from keep her alive. And then I nearly didn't get there in time.

"You really don't want to do this." I said taking the blade out of her hands. I couldn't believe I was nearly too slow to stop her dying. She was more than a charge to keep safe. I thought of Megan as family. Werewolf or not.

"I do." She responded with a cracked voice as her painfully sad eyes looked up into mine. I had coursed this hurt. I was the reason she had fallen into this personal hell. I should have stood up for what I believed in. I had vowed to keep her safe... looking at the broken shell of a human in front of me. I had broken every promise to her.

"Trust me, you life is worth more then this." I said softly wrapping my arms around her.

The night I stopped the blade, was the night I learned the truth. Crowley was alive. Castiel was working with Crowley and it had something to do with Purgatory. I needed to find out exactly what. But first I needed to get Megan back on track and keep her safe. I stayed by her side, invisible most of the time. Silently helping her build her control, her strength. Her resolve to make up for the evil she did. After a few weeks I learnt exactly what she did and what happened to her. It filled me with a new determination. One to find out exactly what Cass was up to with Crowley. This goal I shared with Bobby and Sam.


A demon called Red was strapped to a chair under the devil's trap on Bobby ceiling. I watched invisible as Bobby and Sam interrogated him. Megan was stood in the kitchen listening to everything. She was still so broken. I only hoped finding the truth, that there would be some way to fix everything.

"I got to tell you, Red...for a filthy, lower-than-snake-spit Hellspawn, you seem to have turned yourself into a damn fine hunter. I don't know whether to kill you or kiss you." Bobby joked, sitting in a chair just in front of Red.

"Oh, please, kill me." The demon joked.

"That was you that dug out that nest of vamps back in Swan Valley, wasn't it?" Bobby stated as the demon just watched him.

"That was nice work." Sam said with a nod.

"Eight of 'em in one go, roped and tied." Red nodded with a smirk.

"And then you brought them to Crowley, right?" Bobby asked plainly.

"Read the papers, redneck. The king is dead." Red said plainly. Bobby chuckled and tossed holy water on the demons neck. Hissing boiling steam came off as the demon screamed.

"Ugh! Nng!" Red said pulling against the ropes.

"Crowley's alive. You prove it just by being, you poor, dumb jackass. Crowley's alive. His nets are still out. Except now he's using you schmucks to hunt his monsters." Bobby stated.

"Up yours." Red hissed. Bobby turned to Sam and held out his hand. Sam passed Bobby Ruby's knife before Dean walked in and nodded to the kitchen. He and Megan, they care deeply about each other, but I know the werewolf thing has ripped them apart again. Dean smiled at Megan before turning to Sam.

"Red...Where's Crowley? No? Nothing? Oh, okay, then. Here, hang on to this for a bit." Bobby asked stabbing Red in the leg with Ruby's knife. I smirked as the demon screamed out in pain.

"Aaaaaaaaaaahh! Aaaaaaaaaaaahh!" He screamed as I fallowed Bobby into the kitchen.

"So, what'd you tell him?" Sam asked worried.

"Nothing. Just relax." Dean sighed as he stood next to Megan.

"What's the hubbub?" Bobby asked as he entered the room.

"I saw Cass. He popped in on me about two hours back." Dean stated plainly.

"What'd you tell him?" Bobby asked plainly.

"Nothing, all right? Told him we were on some crap monster hunt. He doesn't know that we're getting close to Crowley." Dean sighed softly. "You know, he's our friend...And we are lying to him through our teeth." I knew they were looking into Crowley just like me.

"Dean-" Sam started to say.

"-so he burned the wrong bones. So Crowley tricked him." Dean said looking at everyone for help. He really held faith in Cass, and learning it could be misplaced knocked Dean to his core.

"He's an angel." Bobby stated as if that made everything crystal clear. That we never made mistakes... I almost wish that was true.

"He is the Balki Bartokomous of Heaven! He can make a mistake!" Dean said defending his friend.

"Nobody's saying nothing yet." Bobby sighed softly.

"You think that Cass is in with Crowley. Crowley?" Dean asked looking at each of them.

"Look, I'm just saying I don't know. Now, look, I hate myself for even thinking it. But I don't know." Bobby admitted as Castiel appeared by my side.

"Look, Dean, he's our friend, too, okay? And I'd die for him. I would, but...Look, I'm praying we're wrong here." Sam said throwing Dean the puppy dog look.

"But if we ain't...If there's a snowball of a snowball's chance here...that means we're dealing with a Superman who's gone dark side. Which means we've got to be cautious, we got to be smart, and maybe stock up on some Kryptonite." Bobby stated. Dean turned to Megan and she looked to the floor.

"I don't know any more Dean. I really wish I did." She sighed softly. Dean looked at everyone for a few seconds.

"This makes you Lois Lane." Dean muttered as he looked at Sam. I smirked a little.

"Look, one problem at a time here. We got to find Crowley now, before the damn fool cracks open Purgatory." Bobby said plainly and Megan glanced at the guys.

"Wont he be coming after me?" She asked softly.

"He wont get a hand on you." Dean said firmly.

"So - they already suspect something." Cass said turning to me.

"I think it's time for a talk brother." I said plainly.

"Very well." Cass replied.


We ended up in Russia, it was remote and perfect for a frank talk. I looked around at the snow covered trees and turned to Cass. He just stood there and watched me.

"So, is it true?" I asked softly.

"Is what true?" Castiel asked plainly.

"The Winchester's, Bobby... what they said." I asked plainly. "Cos bro, if it is. I need you to tell me now."

"They believe I am working with a demon." Castiel stated.

"They believe you are working with Crowley!" I said throwing my arms in the air.

"You believe this as well." Cass stated. I turned to him and sighed.

"Bro! I don't know any more! At first... When we came back. I believed in you! I trusted you with every ounce of my being. I knew you could end this war in Heaven. I thought you were the man for the job!" I said and started to pace around. "But then things started to change! You brought Sam back soulless! Even after I said don't! Then Megan."

"I did not harm her." Castiel said plainly.

"You killed her." I said firmly. The rage began to build in me as dark clouds formed in the sky above me. "You allowed her to be torn from Dean. You let her soul be ripped in two! You allowed her to become evil. You made sure every person who could keep her safe wasn't in the picture! You wanted her to be killed with Luke! But the only reason I can't figure out is why?" I snapped as the rain began to pour down.

"I did not want to kill Megan." Cass said firmly.

"So did Crowley?" I snapped.

"I am fighting for us! You wanted me to lead and I am! I have a plan to beat Raphael once and for all! I could end this war, stop the needless death of our siblings!" Cass said storming up my face. I could see the anger in his eyes as he looked at me. As the thunder roared and the lightening crashed Cass disappeared.

"Damn it Castiel!" I screamed to the sky in frustration.


I decided to check in with the guys to see if they had learnt anything new. I still had no real proof that Cass was working with Crowley, I half hoped we were all wrong and that he was still one of the good guys. One we could all still trust. I popped in the kitchen were Dean and Megan were stood.

"Bad timing?" I asked looking at the pair. Dean grunted and walked off. Megan let out a sigh and brushed some hair out of her face. "Is everything ok baby girl?" I asked wrapping my arm around her shoulders.

"No." She sighed looking up at me. "Cass is the bad guy. My soul might be the key to Purgatory and Crowley is up and walking."

"Well, yeah that all does suck ass." I admitted. "But least we still look smoking hot." I joked and Megan let out a small laugh before rolling her eyes.

"Why have you dropped by?" She asked walking over to the table and perching on the edge of the table.

"To check on you, and see if you guys have found anything." I explained softly.

"In that order?" Megan asked with a raised eyebrow.

"Yes." I admitted. She studied me for a few seconds before nodding.

"I'm crap. But we think we might have caught a lead." She said with a half a smile. "A demon version of Bobby called-"

"Ellsworth?" I asked and she nodded.

"So you know this eijet?" Bobby asked as he walked into the room.

"'Fraid so." I said standing up straight. "Nasty demon. He's got mad skills and the dude has connections to everything."

"How do we find him?" Bobby asked plainly.

"I wish I knew." I explained with a shrug.

"You can't find him?" Megan asked shocked.

"No. The dude is a master at hiding from Angels. I can go look, but I can't promise anything." I explained shaking my head.

"You check it out. I'll see if our friend Red feels like sharing." Bobby said before walking out of the room. I nodded and set off to try and find Ellsworth.


I searched all of the Earth for any trace of Elllsworth. I knew he liked to keep mobile. He would always jump from place to place. I knew him back in the bad old days when I wanted this world to burn. He was the Bobby Singer of the demon world. He ran FBI gigs, he handled a million and one demons, telling them of hunts, warning them about hunters. He was everything you could imagine and probably a little more. But I couldn't find him. Not even a trace of him. So I changed tactics. I didn't want it to work but I looked for Cass. I found him watching the guys in a wooden lodge.

"Hey...The place is clean." Sam said walking into the building.

"Yeah, but it's...It's like "Mr. Clean" clean, you know? It's kind of OCD for your average demon." Bobby commented.

"Well that's not worrying at all." Megan said as they continued to look around.

"Yeah. So what now?" Sam asked looking at everyone.

"We'd call Cass." Dean said plainly.

"What?" Sam asked confused.

"Dean." Megan added softly. He looked at the pair and shook his head.

"This is usually the point where we would call Cass for help." Dean stated, and they were right. This was the time they usually turned to Cass for help.

"We talked about this." Bobby said firmly.

"Yeah, Dean." Sam added softer.

"No, you talked. I listened. This is Cass, guys. I mean, when there was no one...And we were stuck - and I mean really stuck - he broke ranks. He has gone to the mat cut and bleeding for us so many freakin' times. This is Cass! Don't we owe him the benefit of the doubt at least?" Dean said still full of faith in the angel. I saw the look on Castiel's face. Something was eating at him, my guess Dean's constant faith.

"Castiel...This is really important, okay? Um...We really need to talk to you." Sam said praying.

"Castiel...Come on in." Dean added glancing around.

"You're not going to them?" I asked plainly, standing next to my brother.

"They will have questions I can't answer...Because I am afraid." Castiel admitted looking at me.

"Cass is busy." Dean stated with a sigh.

"That's all right. We are, too. Come on." Sam said and they all started to pack up.

"Back to square one." Bobby muttered to Megan and she sighed giving him a sad smile.

"Great. Well, what do we do now?" Dean sighed looking confused.

"Well, we caught one hunter demon before. We can do it again." Bobby stated.

"Dean!" Sam and Megan yelled at the same time as Dean is attacked by a demon. Seconds later Sam, Bobby and Megan are also attacked.

"Crowley says Hi." The demon smirked and I looked at Cass in shock.

"We need to act." I said firmly.

"Agreed." Cass said and within a blink Cass was back to his old self. Back to the good guy I believed in. Back to the angel he was. We smote the demons within seconds and it felt good to be fighting side by side with my brother again.

"It is good to see you, Cass." Dean smirked as we stood around.

"You all right?" Castiel asked.

"Yeah. Perfect timing, Cass." Sam said brushing himself down.

"I'm glad I found you. I come with news." Cass said and glanced at me.

"Yeah? What?" Dean asked.

"I firmly believe Crowley is alive." Cass stated.

"Yeah. You think, Kojak? Well, Bobby, what do we think about Cass saving our asses... Again?" Dean asked looking at Bobby.

"I think we owe you an apology." Bobby muttered.

"Why?" Cass asked acting confused.

"We've been hunting Crowley this whole time...And keeping it from you." Sam admitted.

"We thought...You were working with him." Bobby explained.

"You thought what?" Cass asked and glanced at me again. I kept my mouth shut.

"I know. It's crazy, right?" Dean smirked.

"It's just that you torched the wrong bones. It doesn't matter. We - we were wrong." Bobby admitted tripping over his words.

"You know...You could've just asked me." Cass said plainly.

"And we should have. We never should've doubted you. It's...I just hope you can forgive us." Dean stated.

"Excuse me, I need to-" I didn't finish my sentence I needed to leave. He had lied to the ones he had trusted the most. Seeing how he reacted to the thought he was working with Crowley was all the proof I needed. I couldn't believe it, the angel I trusted. The one I thought could change Heaven for the good was playing with a demon.


I was burning a thousand thoughts a second when I herd my name being called. Megan was calling from me. I popped back into Ellsworth's house and instantly felt the distrust. I looked around and none of the guys looked happy.

"You called?" I asked looking at Megan.

"Did you know?" She asked softly, looking straight into my eyes. I knew what she was talking about. I took a deep breathe and let it out slowly.

"I... I didn't have any proof." I admitted and I saw Dean look away. "I didn't want to believe it. He is family."

"Why didn't you say something boy?" Bobby asked me.

"How could I? I mean, you guys. You trust him as much as I do. As much as any of us in Heaven do. If I was wrong..." I shook my head. "I couldn't do that to you."

"How long have you known?" Sam asked me. His face stone.

"When we saved you from Crowley's demons." I said plainly.

"Can we even trust you?" Dean asked and I could see the betrayal written all over his face.

"Yes." I said firmly looking straight into his eyes. "I want to keep humans safe. I don't have a hidden agenda. I just want to keep you all safe."

"Dean, we don't have much choice, right now." Bobby sighed running a hand over his face.

"What are you planning to do?" I asked seriously.

"We need your help." Megan said plainly.


"Castiel, uh...We need you for a little powwow down here, so come on down." Dean prayed and Cass appeared in the room, invisible to the guys.

"What do they want?" Castiel asked me.

"I don't know." I replied and he appeared in the room.

"Hello." Cass said looking at everyone.

"Oh, Johnny on the spot." Bobby muttered.

"You're still here." Cass said slightly confused.

"Yeah, we had to bury the bodies." Sam nodded.

"And we found a little whiskey." Dean said taking a small drink from the bottle. "Thanks for coming."

"How can I help?" Cass asked plainly.

"Oh, look. We, um - we have a new plan. We think we've finally figured out a way to track down Crowley." Sam said plainly.

"What is it?" Cass asked looking at everyone. Megan lit a match and dropped it by Castiel's feet trapping him in a ring of holy fire.

"It's you." Bobby said firmly.

"What are you doing?" Cass asked looking around at everyone.

"We gotta talk." Dean said plainly.

"About what? Let me go!" Cass demanded. It was hard seeing my brother like that, but the humans deserved answers. We all deserved answers.

"About Superman. And Kryptonite." Dean said bitterly.

"How'd you know what I said?" Bobby asked firmly.

"How long you been watching us?" Sam asked.

"Did you even try to help us?" Megan added.

"You know who spies on people, Cass? Spies." Dean said and he couldn't even look at him.

"Okay, just wait. I don't even know what you mean." Cass said shaking his head.

"What about this demon crap hole? How is it so, uh...Next to godliness clean in here?" Sam asked shaking his head.

"And how exactly did Crowley trick you with the wrong bones?" Bobby asked with a growl.

"It's hard to understand. It's hard to explain. Just let me go. Let me out and I can-" Cass pleaded with them. It was sad to see the angel I believe in crack and fail.

"You got to look at me, man. You got to level with me and tell me what's going on. Look me in the eye and tell me you're not working with Crowley." Dean begged Castiel. He was begging for more then the truth. He wanted to know he hadn't been betrayed by someone he held so close. Castiel looked at Dean and for a second I thought he was going to lie to his face, but then he looked away. "You son of a bitch." Dean said turning away from Cass.

"How could you Cass?" Megan asked softly.

"Let me explain." Cass begged.

"You're in it with him? You and Crowley have been going after Purgatory together? You have, huh? This whole time." Dean asked shaking his head.

"I did it to protect you. I did it to protect all of you." Cass pleaded looking at everyone. I could see the rage building in Megan as she rolled her shoulders.

"Protect? Were you thinking about protection when you let me turn back into a werewolf? Were you thinking about protection when you were going to let me kill myself? When you were going to use me to get to Purgatory?" She snapped and almost growled at him.

"Protect us how Cass? By opening a hole into monsterland!" Sam added throwing his arms in the air.

"He's right, Cass. One drop got through, and it was Eve. And you want to break down the entire dam?" Bobby scoffed.

"To get the souls. I can stop Raphael. Please, you have to trust me." Cass begged. Now I knew everything. I knew why he wanted Purgatory, why he was doing it all. Cass thought that he could save Heaven and by extension the world by beating Raphael. The souls would give Cass the extra power to stop Raphael and put him in his place.

"Trust you? How in the hell are we supposed to trust you now?" Sam scoffed barely looking at Cass.

"I'm still me. I'm still your friend. Sam...I'm the one who raised you from Perdition." Cass explained and I saw Sam's face.

"What? Well, no offence...But you did a pretty piss-poor job of it. Wait. Did you bring me back soulless...On purpose?" Sam asked thinking it through.

"How could you think that?" Cass asked in total shock.

"Well, I'm thinking a lot of things right now, Cass." Sam bit back and I could see how his words were hurting my brother.

"Listen. Raphael will kill us all. He'll turn the world into a graveyard. I had no choice." Castiel pleaded with them all to understand.

"No, you had a choice. You just made the wrong one." Dean said firmly, almost growling at Cass.

"You don't understand. It's complicated." Castiel sighed.

"No, actually, it's not, and you know that. Why else would you keep this whole thing a secret, huh, unless you knew that it was wrong? When crap like this comes around, we deal with it... Like we always have. What we don't do is we don't go out and make another deal with the Devil!" Dean snapped.

"It sounds so simple when you say it like that. Where were you when I needed to hear it?" Cass asked shaking his head.

"I was there. Where were you?" Dean asked looking Cass dead in the eye. "You should've come to us for help, Cass."

"Maybe. It's too late now. I can't turn back now. I can't." Cass said as I sensed a large number of demons heading our way.

"It's not too late. Damn it, Cass! We can fix this!" Dean was begging with Cass to make things right.

"Dean, it's not broken! Run. You have to run now! Run! Raziel!" Cass called my name and I appeared in the room. The cloud of demons were so close to us. I glanced at my brother before zapping everyone back to Bobby's house.


"Son of a bitch!" Dean said before walking out into the yard.

"I'm sorry." I said softly.

"What?" Sam asked confused.

"I... I should have known a long time ago. He's my brother." I admitted feeling ashamed that I didn't see it sooner.

"Hey Pay, don't go so hard on yourself. We all should have seen it." Megan said softly as I looked up at her.

"He's taken it hard, hasn't he?" I said looking out the window.

"Dean thought we could trust Cass to the end." Sam said before walking out of the room.

"What will you do now?" Bobby asked me as I looked out the window.

"I guess the only thing I can do." I said taking a deep breathe. "I need to see Cass."

"Are you going to fight him?" Bobby asked sounding slightly worried.

"No old man. He's still my baby brother. I just need to try and reason with him." I admitted softly.

"Be careful Pay." Megan said with a nod.

"Always baby girl." I smirked before going to find Cass.


I searched the Earth and Heavens and finally found Castiel in a small park. He was sat on a bench looking out into nothing but a pond. Snow covered the ground as I walked over to him. He looked up at me.

"Raziel." Castiel said standing.

"Castiel." I said sighing. "So it's all true?" I asked plainly. I already knew the answer, but I needed to hear it from his lips.

"Brother you need to understand." Cass said looking up at me. "I did all this to protect the Earth. Protect us all."

"You need the souls to be stronger?" I asked plainly.

"Yes once I am strong enough to take on Raphael and win, I can then banish Crowley too." Cass said pleading for me to understand his actions his ideas. But I couldn't.

"You plan to kill Megan?" I asked, the question tasted bitter on my lips. Cass couldn't look me in the eyes. "Answer me Cass." I said firmly. Cass walked a short distance away from me and turned to look at me.

"She is the only way to reach the souls." Cass explained. "I plan on bringing her back once she has served her purpose." I couldn't believe I herd Cass say that. It was just more evidance that he had lost his way.

"How would Dean feel about that?" I asked controlling my anger.

"I would bring her back!" Cass argued.

"Like you brought back Sam?" I asked plainly.

"Sam was different! He was in the cage!" Cass argued.

"And Megan's going to be in Purgatory." I added. "I can't imagine its any easier to bust out of."

"But I will have the power." Cass sighed.

"Power you don't need." I tried to make him see sense.

"I do." Cass argued.

"Cass you have me, we have ways, we can-" I started to argue back.

"No! We are not strong enough to take on Raphael." Cass said shaking his head. "We aren't. We need the souls. We need the power."

"We? Does Balthazar know?" I asked shaking my head.

"No." Cass said firmly. "You are the only other angel who knows."

"Puts me in a tricky situation don't you think?" I asked softly.

"You can not tell the others!" Cass said walking right up to me.

"You've lost your way Castiel. Can't you see?" I said shaking my head. "This is wrong! This isn't what our father would want for us!"

"How do you know?" Cass asked me seriously. I scoffed looking away.

"Yeah Father would really want to kill humans! He really would want that! Just so we could have the power to do what we want!" I scoffed.

"You don't understand." Cass sighed.

"I do!" I snapped. "I know you want to save us all. You think this is the only way-"

"It is the only way Raziel!" Cass said cutting me off. "Working with the devil, to rid the world of someone far worse! It's the only way!"

"Brother please." I begged shaking my head. "Just... come with me now. We can fix all this! We can make it all right."

"It's not broken!" Cass snapped back. I stood there and realised my brother had turned into a monster. That we were now on opposing sides.

"You aren't going to change your mind are you?" I asked softly as it started to snow.

"I must do this!" Cass said firmly.

"You know, I can't let you." I said and drew my angel blade. "I wont let you hurt her."

"I'm sorry that it has come to this." Cass said drawing his own blade.

"I love you brother." I said taking a deep breath.

"I also love you." Cass replied. The battle didn't last long. We both were equally matched. I guess I was rusty or Cass had taken lesson because somehow we both managed to stab each other badly. I had weakened him as he had weakened me. I could never kill my brother, I just prayed that I had done enough to stop him.

"I'm sorry Castiel." I whispered as I pulled my blade.

"As am I Raziel." Cass replied pulling out his blade. I staggered backwards before using the last of my energy to reach a safe location. One were I could heal and rest up.


I landed on the floor in Bobby's kitchen. My cut was bleeding badly and I could barely roll onto my back.

"Payton! What happened boy?" Bobby yelled as he dropped to his knee's to help me.

"Got in a fight with my brother." I admitted and tried to sit up.

"Whoa take it easy!" Bobby said pushing down on my cut. "I need help in here!" Bobby yelled and seconds later all three Winchesters rushed in. Megan's eyes widened as she saw me bleeding on the floor.

"What happened?" She asked dropping to my side.

"The eijet went up against Cass." Bobby sighed as I sat up a little.

"Are you insane?" Megan cried hitting my arm. "He could of killed you!"

"Ow!" I yelped shaking my head. "I was kinda trying to talk him down actually."

"So what happened?" Sam asked as he and Bobby got me to the couch in the living room. I started to feel weaker as I was loosing more energy.

"He wouldn't back down." I said and felt my eye lid's go heavy. "Sorry." I mumbled.

"Don't you dare die on me!" Megan snapped hitting my arm again. "I've not done, chewing you out yet."

"Sorry baby girl... I just need...a ...nap." I said closing my eyes as I felt exhausted from the battle. As I closed my eyes I saw Castiel, thrusting the blade into my side. His eyes, they were filled with so much sorrow, so much regret. I can only hope mine showed the same.


I guess it's a fitting end in a way. Going out fighting. But I need to know. I need an answer. I need a sign from you Father. One thing, anything. Just a sign that I am doing the right thing. That telling the world about Castiel and his plan was right. That betraying my own brothers trust wasn't for nothing. That we can make him see the light before it's too late. I don't want to kill my brother. I never did. I just want my family back. Am I doing the right thing? I just need some kind of answer... please?


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