Song for this chapter: from where you are by life house (don't take it literally but figuratively) I love how much this song is actually working for this chapter.
Day 8 grand canyon
Jem hadn't talked to Will since last night and it was worrying. The silence was killing Will. It was not the usual silence, a comfortable, peaceful one, this was the cold, feelingless kind.
He just wanted Jem to scream or punch him for what he had told him last night. He just wanted some response. Some way to find out about Jem's feelings.
He could feel the closeness and openness that was once between them fade.
'FUCK OFF KID!' Simon had tripped over Will's leg.
Jem glared at Will from over his book. Will mumbled a quick sorry and Jem went back to reading again.
Will looked at Jem. His silver hair was shiny and fell half down to his face when he read. The sun lit up his silver hair even more. He was truly the most beautiful thing he had ever seen...
and now he was losing him.
It had been 30 minutes of Jem reading and Will staring at him when Will couldn't take it anymore. He walked over to Jem and sat down next to him.
'Hey.' Jem didn't respond. 'Jem? Please talk to me.'
'Talk to you?! Fine.' He closed his book with a slam. 'We've been dating for 3 years and you just forgot to mention a cousin and uncle and aunt who died?'
Will opened his mouth to say something. 'NO I'm not done yet!' He lowered his voice when he saw the hurt look in Wil's eyes. Even when they were fighting he could not yell when Will looked like that.
'On top of that you also forgot to mention you cheated on me in the first week we started dating. Why did you tell Jace, but not me?' His voice broke and with it Will's heart.
'I'm sorry.'
'You are always sorry, but then you hurt me all over again.'
'I was just scared okay?! I started to care about you. I started loving you and it was terrifying. You know how I was before you, but I am not the same anymore.'
'I'm sorry, but it's just not good enough. Not anymore.' Jem turned around and walked away.
Will felt like he was punched in the stomach repeatedly and after that thrown of a mountain. Completely crushed.
Will threw open the door and jumped on the bed in between Magnus and Alec.
'What?' Magnus sighed.
'Nothing. I just need some company. Shove it lover boy.' He motioned to Alec.
Alec was getting up, but Magnus pulled him down. 'He isn't going anywhere and if you need company go find James.'
Will's eyes turned sad. 'I can't.'
'Why not?' Magnus's face and voice softened when he saw Will's expression.
'I screwed up.'
'What did you do this time? Drinking again? Don't worry Jem always forgives you.'
'I cheated on him.'
'You did what?!'
'Calm down it was a long time ago. Only Jem can do the trick nowadays. But he said he gave me enough chances and that he couldn't forgive me this time. I only love him now why can't he see that'
'Just give him some time to process and think things over. I'm on his side, but I'll go talk to him for you.'
Will's face brightened. 'Thanks mate.' He walked out of the room.
'How did those two meet? They're like day and night.' Alec crawled in Magnus's arms.
'A couple of years ago Will had gone wild. He was drunk every night, skipped almost every class, did drugs, had sex with everyone etcetera. One day he was assigned a person who would look after him. It was kind of a school program or something. That person was Jem and the rest is history.'
'That must have been tough.'
'Yeah. Their relationship was a bumpy road, but Will's life is back on track and everything was going quite well. I'm worried about what is going to happen if they seperate. Will really needs Jem.'
For the first time in 8 days it was quiet. Nobody spoke. All they heard was the soft rustling of the leaves.
Jace handed everyone the alcohol they so desperately needed. Jem and Will sat across from each other on the wide plaid (they were picknicking).
Simon tried to make conversation, but it was just plainly uncomfortable.
'Hey- um - where are we going next?'
'Vegas.' Magnus answered shortly.
'What are we going to do there?'
'Everything you are supposed to do in Vegas.' Magnus answered again.
'And that is?' This time Magnus kept quiet. He was getting fed up with this awkwardness.
'Hey Jem I need to talk to you.' Raphael pulled him off to a more private place.
'What is up with you and Will.'
'He cheated.'
'NO WAY.'
'Calm down not everyone has to know.'
'But seriously? He loves you. I don't think he could do it with someone else.'
'It was in the first week of our relationship. He said he was scared of his feelings for me. But I gave him so many chances.' He paused to regulate his breathing. 'But I love him.' Raphael but his arms around him and patted his back to calm him down. He heard Jem's breath hitch.
'Do you want to sleep in my room for tonight? Then we'll see what happens next.'
Jem looked grateful, but he didn't want to cause trouble for Raphael and Ragnor. 'Won't Ragnor mind?'
'Nah. It'll be okay.'
'What?! I have to share a room with that ass? I'll rather get left behind.' Ragnor knew he was overreacting a little, but Will was a horrible roommate and he really wanted to share a room with his boyfriend.
Raphael sighed. 'It's just for a couple nights. Please do it for me.' He put on his sweetest smile.
'Okay I'll do it, but why?'
'He cheated on Jem.'
'Nooo. That guy is completely smitten by Jem. He only has eyes for the guy.'
'I know, but Jem doesn't believe it.'
Ragnor saw Will lounge on the couch. He walked over and grabbed his head tightly between two fingers. 'Have you gone insane?'
'What?'
'Raphael told me.'
'Of course he did.'
'We both know he makes you a better person. You need him.'
'I do, but he doesn't need me.'
'He does, because the fool somehow fell in love with you.'
'I know you're trying to help, but if you call him a fool again I'll have to beat you senseless.'
'No! Don't go.' The yell turned into a sad whine. 'Please. I need you. I love you.'
Will kicked Ragnor's leg as if the sleepscreaming wasn't bad enough.
'Will. Wake up.' He nudged his arm.
'What?'
'You were screaming. Just take this.' He handed him a sleeping pill.
Will muffled the pill away. He had no intention of going to sleep yet.
My story hit 30k! I never thought I'd make it this far actually, but all your cute comments etc. Have pulled me through it^^ Thank you for being so supportive.
Sorry this chapter went a whole lot different than expected, but I hope it was good.
Do you guys ship ragnor/Raphael and will/Jem? (BTW I might not write that much ragnor/Raphael since that is kind of hard to write)
I think I have a way to include sort of saphael in the near future.
Next time: actual road tripping again & more drama.
