After you watch everything crumbling down you may think that there isn´t a way to make everything grow again. You may think there is nothing left and there is no hope. But maybe, you just need someone, anyone, to help you realize not everything is lost. Maybe the other buildings are broken and down, maybe they were cute and enormous at their time but now that they are gone you have to start all over again. You got the base; you have the stringiness and most of it…now you have someone by your side.


Cameron, Samuel and Bryce talked at the waiting room almost in whispers. Damian was on the hospital room getting over his last test so he could be realized. He was also aware of Cameron´s and Samuel´s plan; in fact everyone knew except the key person of the plan, Bryce.

"So are you telling me we are going to switch roommates?" asked Bryce as he looked at Cameron skeptical. Not that he had something against Samuel but he and Cameron had already a routine and he wasn´t sure how would things work out with Samuel.

"Temporally." added Samuel quickly. He hated the fact that he may made uncomfortable Bryce in anyway, so he was already searching for an apartment.

"Are you sure about it? It is a really big responsibility." Cameron nodded as only response.

"But it is not like he is a five year old boy. He is about to turn 19." added Samuel, Cameron smiled. Samuel was really worried for Damian as well but everyone knew that Cameron could take better care than him.

"So you are staying with Damian and Samuel is staying with me at my place." repeated Bryce as he sat on a chair. "What about your clothes?" Bryce looked at Samuel and then to Cameron. Now that he thought about it he was the only one with a car and he feared he was going to work as their driver for the rest of the afternoon.

"Well, we were thinking that you could drop Damian and Cameron at their place and then we go to your place. Cameron and I are like the same size of clothes." said Samuel almost breathless. Cameron could sense he was trying to please Bryce.

Suddenly Damian appeared on the middle of the room as silent as the wind. Cameron couldn´t have noticed his enter if he hadn´t felt with a garbage box that was next to the door. Damian stood up and placed the garbage box on the same position as he wanted none to know he had stepped on it leaving a dent. The three guys turned around to see him and they smiled at the same time. He looked alive again and he even had a smile on his face, a real one.

"Damian over here." screamed Cameron as he waved Damian. The irish guy waved back and ran toward them.

The room felt warmer when Damian and Cameron crushed together and hugged for a few seconds. Damian smelled Cameron´s colony and let a soft gasp escape from his lips. He wanted to stay like that forever, between Cameron´s arms, but he knew that it wasn´t the time and the place. Maybe later…

"So are you ready to go?" asked Bryce as he took his keys and made them ring.

.-.-.-.-.-.-

Damian and Cameron entered to the apartment still talking about some stupid comment that Samuel had told in the car. The apartment was completely clean and everything in order. Cameron was surprised because he had thought Damian saying Samuel was a shame when you talked about cleanness.

"Weird." said suddenly Damian as he left his backpack fall into the floor. He inspected every corner of the entrance and part of the living room. Cameron also started searching for something not normal just in case.

"What´s wrong?" asked finally Cameron in a whisper. Damian entered to the living room and looked around. Cameron followed him as quiet as Damian.

"The last time I was here it was a complete mess." he said finally. Cameron sighed relieved but Damian still seemed uncomfortable. "Wait here for a second; I will be back for a second." Cameron nodded and sat on the couch. Damian tried to fake a smile and then left the living room. Cameron followed with his eyes until he got to the bathroom. Cameron stood up and followed him but when he finally got to the bathroom it´s door was closed. The guy breathed heavily and made the lock of the door turned around.

He opened the door slowly and not wanting to disturb Damian but he knew that Damian was capable of hurting himself again.

"Damian?" he asked slowly. Damian didn´t answered. "I´m coming in." he announced, again there was no answer.

When he looked into the bathroom he sighed relieved. Damian was putting all his cutters and razors in a plastic bag. Damian raised his eyes and smiled at Cameron.

"I should have guessed Samuel would throw away the most of my stuff but I knew he wouldn´t find my secret compartment." Damian pulled the last of the razor from a wooden box and then closed the bag. Cameron and Damian left the bathroom and then went into the kitchen. Damian pull a big garbage can and threw the bag in it. After that he closed it with a big SLAM.

"Better?"

"I promise I´m not getting more." said Damian with a serious voice. Cameron knew it was true.

"Do you want some pizza and a move?" proposed Cameron as he took his cell-phone out. Damian nodded and sat on the table.

"But remember not to ask for the Hawaiian. I hate…"

"Pineapples." ended Cameron.

.-.-.-.-.-

The room was almost completely dark except from the light that gave the TV. The movie was still on, some kind of comedy mixed up with some drama, but neither of Cameron and Damian were watching it. Damian was sitting on Cameron´s lap and Cameron was almost laying on his back against the couch back. The kiss had gone from soft and sweet to passionate and thirsty. Cameron had his hand around Damian´s hips and Damian was trying to get closer Cameron by pulling his hair. The irish had his eyes closed enjoyed every single second, every time Cameron bit his lip, his hand´s traveling through his back.

Suddenly he felt how Cameron put his hands under his shirt and touched his chest. Damian gasped when he felt how Cameron´s hands started unbuttoning his t-shirt.

"Are you alright?" asked Cameron as he stopped what he was doing and looked at Damian with a concerned look. Damian just shook his head and smiled.

"Sorry; it is that I´m kind of nervous." Damian looked way ashamed. For the first time he felt completely aware of his body. Of the way it moved and looked; of every place where the marks and scars laid.

"We don´t have to do anything you don´t want to." Cameron touched Damian´s cheek with his fingertips. The other one turned around and then kissed Cameron on the lips softly. He wanted to. The thing it was that he didn´t knew how.

"I want to." it´s was the truth, he kissed Cameron´s lips and then his neck leaving a hickey on it. Cameron moaned softly and pulled Damian closer.

"Do you want to stay here…?" started Cameron but Damian interrupted him.

"No…" he was breathing deeply and slowly. "Amm… what about my room?"

Cameron had never been to Damian´s room so the pressure grew a little bit more.

"Okay."

Cameron felt how the pressure over his chest grew smaller and then he sw how Damian walked out of the living room. Cameron stood some seconds in the couch thinking what to do next. It was impossible to know. Damian appeared on the edge of the door way and gave Cameron a "What are you waiting for?" look. Cameron nodded as only response. Like if they had a secret language between them.

Cameron´s shirt was lost on the way to the room. Damian had intercepted him in the corridor and had dragged him against the wall. The kiss had went again passionate and fast. When they finally got to the room Cameron was lifting Damian still not breaking the kiss and Damian had his led around Cameron´s hips. The older guy laid Damian on the bed and then he realized Damian wasn´t wearing his tennis and socks anymore. He wondered when he has taken them off. Cameron slowly started unbuttoning Damian´s t-shirt as he kissed his cheeks, forehead and lips.

"I love you." He said uncountable times. Damian couldn´t even talk anymore.

Cameron finished unbuttoning the shirt and then he started kissing Damian´s neck. It was soft and his skin was almost white, he just wanted to kiss it all. He was about to take Damian´s shirt off when he cut out and pushed Cameron aside.

"Wait!" he almost screamed. He sat up and tried to hold his t-shirt closed again. Cameron was able to see something different on Damian´s eyes. It wasn´t only lust and love anymore, there was something like shame.

"Sorry I didn´t want to push you." Cameron really felt bad now. Maybe he was going to fast again. He remembered that on the Glee Project rooms Damian had asked him to slow down and maybe things hadn't changed that much since months ago.

"No, it is not that. It´s just that I don´t want you to see…them"

Cameron got it in a second and without wasting anytime he hugged Damian.

"I don´t care Damian. Really, they will not bother me."

"You haven´t seen them. You can´t know how they look like." Damian had seen it. Every time at the mirror he saw them and how they made him look like a monster day by day; cut by cut.

"That doesn´t matter; Damian, you are perfect. No matter what mistakes you have made, no matters how do you look, you are just perfect for me." Cameron took Damian´s face between his hands and made him look at his eyes. "And I love you just the way you are."

Damian raised his gaze and his blue eyes connected with Cameron´s brown ones. They were full of love and comprehension. Damian took a big breath and then smiled. Maybe he could understand; maybe he was the only one capable of understand him. Cameron pulled down Damian´s t-shirt slowly. His shoulders and part of his back were covered by scares of different form and size. Some of them looked kind of recent while others seemed they were about to disappear. When Damian lost his shirt Cameron was also able to see his scars on his forearm. Slowly he kissed first his wrist. Damian gasped and looked at Cameron a little bit confused and nervous. Cameron´s lips moved higher until he got to his shoulder and started kissing his shoulders. Damian took his boyfriend´s face and raised it.

"I love you too." He said as he placed a quick kiss on his lips. "with all my heart and soul."

.-.-.-.

Cameron woke up because of the light of the sun. The room was warm and a complete mess. The put his hand over his eyes and looked around. He felt like a déjà vu of when he had woken up on Bryce bathroom with Damian but this time it was different; he remembered what had happen last night. He smiled and then turned to see Damian.

He had his hands under his head and the sheets only covered his lower part. He was giving him his back and Cameron was able to see his soft and white skin, he wanted to touch it again, he wanted to kiss it and lick it. Cameron put his arms around Damian and placed his face between Damian´s shoulder. He smelled his scent and kissed him softly. Like if he wanted Damian to keep calm and innocent as he looked sleep. Cameron could only compare him to an angel. Damian mumbled something and opened his eyes slowly.

"Cameron?" asked Damian in a whisper.

"Yes Damian?"

Damian moved a little bit so he could lay on his back. Cameron tried to look through Damian´s blue gaze. He was so beautiful.

"Are you staying with me?" Damian delineated Cameron´s mouth and then he touched his cheek. "Forever?"

Cameron smiled, both of them knew the answer.


Hope is always there. Sometimes it is hidden on the corners or on the back of our own fears. But it is always there, all you have to do is find it and keep it. Make it grow and then share it with everyone. No matter what happens, no matter the mistakes, you are here. You are still alive and breathing. All is left to do is keep smiling; keep enjoying life and most importantly…keep loving.


So here is the end...I hope you have ejoyed it as much as I enjoyed writting it. I hope I hear new from you soon and it would really help me to know what did you think about the netire fic...Thank you so m much for all the support and like I said before...never stop loving.