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Chapter 28:

2 Hours Later

Kwest: Come on Sadie breath, push!

Sadie: What do you think I've been doing for the last 2 hours trying to make my head explode? Ahh! Oh My God! If you ever think about having kids again forget it. There's no way!

Kwest: well ok dear now come on push

Sadie: I AM! I Hate you!

Doctor: Don't worry they all say that. Alright now I can see the head we need on more big push come on Sadie you can do it

Kwest: alright hold on to me on the count of three 1..2…3 AHHHHHHH! OMG!! Who knew you could squeeze my hand so tight.

Sadie: Stop Complaining

Suddenly the whole room heard it the cry Kwest and Sadie would never forget the cry of their first little boy.

Kwest: what should we call him Sadie?

Sadie: Andrew, yes then we can call him Andy for short. Andrew Kyle Wesley.

Kwest: your naming him after me? …….Well sort of .

Sadie: well why not he does kinda look like you

Kwest: yea I guess he does doesn't he. He smiled at Sadie and kissed Andrew on the top of his head.

Kwest walked to the lobby to inform Jude and Tommy that he had a son and noticed they were fighting about something. He decided that he better break it up before they said something they would regret.

Jude: But Tommy why don't you want to have a baby? Do you think that I'm not strong enough?

Tommy: Because it's just not time yet I think that was proved already and I don't think you're to weak to carry our baby it's just not time for us yet. Ok?

Jude: yes you do think I'm too weak or maybe you really don't want to have a baby that's why you would be so insensitive to bring up something so hurtful as my miscarriage.

Tommy: Jude I..

Jude: I'm going to stay with my dad tonight now just make sure you feed and walk foxy before you go to sleep.



Tommy: Jude wait I'm sorry we should talk about this I don't want to go to sleep with you angry at me.

Jude: Tomorrow Tommy we can talk tomorrow give me time to think ok as I said we will work it out I still love I just need some time alone right now.

Tommy: (sigh) alright goodnight then I'll see you tomorrow

The next morning

Jude walked into the house and sat next to a sleeping Tommy on the couch.

Jude: Tommy? Tommy wake up.

Tommy: huh? Mmm. Wha? Oh Jude honey finally I had a hard time sleeping last night I was trying to but I couldn't. Can we talk now?

Jude: well that's what I'm here for so lets talk why don't you want me to have a baby? Are you scared you'll be a bad father?

Tommy: no that's not it.

Jude: Then what is it because I cant understand if you don't tell me.

Tommy: It's just I don't want anything to happen to you and if you were to miscarry again I didn't want you to suffer from the loss twice

Tommy looked away from Jude because he felt like he couldn't look her in the face.

Jude: Hey (he kept looking down) look at me ( he peered straight into her gaze) I'm not going anywhere and if it's God's will that we have a Child we will so we should keep trying ok ?

Tommy raised an eyebrow

Tommy: you mean like now?

Jude: yea I've been of birth control for two weeks now…

Tommy quickly scoped Jude up and bounded up the stairs.

A Week Later

Tommy: Alright Jude last him one more time

Jude: no way not again not doin it

Tommy: oh come on Jude we've had this conversation before.

Jude: yes, yes we have. So you know why I'm not doing it again.



Tommy: come on Jude one more then we can go do our little celebration before the release party I'll take you to a bar….

Jude: ………ok fine go one more time but that's the last time.

2 AM and she calls me 'cause I'm still awake,
"Can you help me unravel my latest mistake?,
I don't love him. Winter just wasn't my season"
Yeah we walk through the doors, so accusing their eyes
Like they have any right at all to criticize,
Hypocrites. You're all here for the very same reason

'Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button, girl.
So cradle your head in your hands
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

May he turned 21 on the base at Fort Bliss
"Just a day" he said down to the flask in his fist,
"Ain't been sober, since maybe October of last year."
Here in town you can tell he's been down for a while,
But, my God, it's so beautiful when the boy smiles,
Wanna hold him. Maybe I'll just sing about it.

Cause you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table.
No one can find the rewind button, boys,
So cradle your head in your hands,
And breathe... just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe

There's a light at each end of this tunnel,
You shout 'cause you're just as far in as you'll ever be out
And these mistakes you've made, you'll just make them again
If you only try turning around.

2 AM and I'm still awake, writing a song
If I get it all down on paper, it's no longer inside of me,
Threatening the life it belongs to
And I feel like I'm naked in front of the crowd
Cause these words are my diary, screaming out loud
And I know that you'll use them, however you want to

But you can't jump the track, we're like cars on a cable,
And life's like an hourglass, glued to the table
No one can find the rewind button now


Sing it if you understand.
and breathe, just breathe
woah breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe,
Oh breathe, just breathe.
(2am by Anna Nalick)

Tommy wow Jude that was perfect. So why don't you come in here and help me finish up the mixing amour?

Jude smiled and walked out of the booth.

So they sat for an hour finishing up the last mixing for Jude's forth album.

When the last note was right Tommy made a final copy to give to Darius the next day and reached over and gave Jude a passionate kiss. Then she something he never expected

Jude: Tommy..

Tommy: Hmm? He said he was reaching for a cd in the rack to find a case for the final copy cd.

Jude: I've been thinking about something lately

Tommy: yes Jude. What is it?

Jude: well after Sadie had baby I really wanted my own family. I know you and me that's a family but, I really want a small precious baby that looks like you and me to love for my own. I really want that more then anything.

Tommy: ( Tommy sighed) yes Jude I know. I know how badly you want a baby but, that's not something we can force to happen. When the time right we'll have a baby you'll see.

Jude: well I was kinda thinking I've put out four albums and I was thinking maybe it's time to take a break and concentrate on our family. I mean I'll still write so that when do decide to come back we can jump right back in. I just think that a year off might be nice don't you ?

Tommy was surprised that she said this after all Jude loved music but, it wasn't like she was quitting or anything

Tommy: alright I'll ask Darius tomorrow when we talk about the album release party ok?

Jude: alright thank you I wasn't sure how you were going to react. Who knows maybe this will be a good chance to do some traveling hmm?

Tommy: that sounds great how about a back trip across Asia. I talked about that a while back remember?

Jude: yeah Tommy that sounds wonderful we'll see if we get to do that or not.

Tommy: ok , so I think we should go home for the night I'll talk to darius tomorrow and you can take the day off incase he says no



Jude: ha ok lets go then I'm egshusted and I have to clean the house tomorrow

The Next Day in D's office

Darius: So Tom come in have a seat lets hear this album that's been taking so long.

Tommy: yeah but, after I have something I'd like to discuss with you.

11/2 hours later

Daruis: yeah Tommy I approve of this best album yet. We should send this off right away. Now what was it you wanted to talk to me about?

Tommy: me and were talking and she and I were thinking of taking off a year to focus on us. It's not like we're quitting or anything but she…. Well I don't think she really fully got over her miscarriage. No matter how she acts. It would do her some good I think , besides she said she wants to try again so you know I for this.

Darius Chuckled: typical Tommy but, yeah I think you're right you have my approval take as much time off as you need, though don't get carried away. So what else are you planning besides keeping Jude your bed twenty-four/seven?

Tommy: maybe traveling to Asia maybe head back to Japan we don't really know yet. So I suppose i'll see you in three days right?

As Tommy was leaving Darius said something to he that made him laugh.

Daruis: oh Tommy make sure that Jude can stand and talk she needs to perform in three days.

Tommy shook his head and walked out the door.

Tommy pulled up in the driveway and Jude welcomed him at he door. " so what did D say?

Tommy: he said besides the release part that we could take off for as long as we needed at long as we didn't get carried away.

Jude: That's great!

3 days later at the party

Daruis walked up to the stage to introduce Jude the song.

Daruis: welcome to the 4th Jude Harrison album "Just Me and My Shadow"



Everyone cheered and make load hoorays and congrats for Jude

Darius: and now Jude Harrison and Speidermen

Jude: hey everybody I just wanna thank you all for coming and to thank all of you who have supported me thus far in my career. Now let's party!

The hours pasted and people partied and congratulated Jude on her latest album. When all the fuss and partying was over it was still pretty early.

Tommy: Hey amour why don't you , me and the family head to a club to celebrate some more. What do you think?

Jude: yeah that sounds great I'll meat you there ok? I call you when I'm on my way this dress is a bit formal for me

Tommy: yeah ok you know that one on 5th and kings (A/N: made it up)

Jude: yeah I'll see yeah there

Tommy: ok I'm going

The drive home was quiet for Jude she was use to gong everywhere with Tommy that it felt strange without him

When she finally reached home she walked up to the door and inside, quickly went upstairs changed and headed back out the door

It was about a twenty minute drive to the club so she decided to call Tommy since it might take her a little while to get there.

Tommy: hello?

Jude: yeah Tommy I'm on my way now but might time me a

minute to get there give me about twenty minutes ok?

Tommy: so Jude …. What are you wherein for this night clubbing

adventure hmm?

Jude: oh you typical. You'll find out when I get ….OMG!

Suddenly Tommy heard screaming and screeching tires and then something that made his heart stop, a crashing sound.

Tommy: Jude! Jude can you speck to me? Amour where are you? Jude

Stay with me babe. Jude? Jude? Jude!!