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Chapter Twenty-Seven: Here We Go Again

Daniel was coming downstairs, Jack still in the babies room putting Zada down for bed. It was a little early but Jack said that he had plans for Daniel and they needed some extra evening without babies.

He wandered into the kitchen to check on the dinner he'd been preparing when someone touched him and he lost himself in the darkness.

When he woke again, Daniel found himself in a strangely familiar surrounding. The dark and damp cave made him feel like he'd been transported back in time and then he turned to see that maybe he had. "Amada? What happened to you? What are you doing here?"

"I came to retrieve you, it took me some time to find a way onto the island once more. I was sent away because your lover found you but they sent me away with magical guards. They were easy pickings but one of them had teleportation abilities so we were off the island when I finally found my chance."

"I told you then and I will say it again, I love Jack and I do not belong to you."

Amada moving close to him, Daniel couldn't help but flash to half a year before when she had him last time. He struggled against her, trying to hold her hand away from his chest but this time she went for his head, digging her nails into his scalp and pressing her palm into his forehead. He could already feel the devastating pull of her power and wondered what sort of damage she was capable now after all this time.

The pain wasn't in his heart but his head, he tried to jerk away but she was sucking his energy to fight away first.

"Jack," he whimpered from the ache in his head. He could feel the headache building from the center of his head and gathering around the edge and pushing down into his neck until he started to black out from the pain.

"Your Jack is going to realize you are gone but he cannot leave the children you two have decided to have. He'll be trapped by your need to tie him to you, he cannot search for you the magical way, he will have to find help and that gives me precious time to make you forget who he ever was. If you don't know him then you will have no reason to leave with him. I was not able to focus on memory before but now I can. I have been practicing."

Daniel didn't know if he was losing memories yet, he didn't think he was. He still had time for Jack to come for him. But this time when he fainted from the pain, he knew she didn't release him and let him recuperate. Amada was going to keep damaging his mind until Jack was no longer among the memories he cherished.

In his mind, his dreams he and Jack were lying on the grass together, They must have been on earth because it was a park that was near the mountain base, Jack had his head in Daniel's lap and he was slowly rubbing his fingers through Jack's crew cut.

"You can't let her win, Danny. Keep thinking of me like last time. Remember you fought her off, you held onto the love we share. Just keep thinking of all the times were were together even before we knew we loved each other."

Daniel thought back to a moment in time when he'd wished so much that he could tell Jack how he felt, "Do you remember when you got the Ancients knowledge downloaded into your brain?"

"My head still aches sometimes when I think of it."

"I remember when it was just you and me, when you were having such a hard time communicating anymore and how scared and frustrated you were and most of that time all I wanted to do was hold you in my arms and tell you that you would never be alone. I would always be with you and that I would always love you no matter what language you spoke in."

Jack smiled, "You know nothing good could have come from that honesty, right?"

"Of course, I know what your career means to you and I would have never put you into that circumstance, I just wanted you to know that nothing ever mattered more than you."

"Your wrong Danny, something mattered more than me. That was you."

Daniel smiled, leaning down to kiss Jack when suddenly an unnatural darkness rolled over the park and Jack disappeared from his lap. "Jack, Noooooo!" Daniel screamed and it sucked him back to consciousness.

He reached out and flailed around, pushing away from the hand that was still on his forehead but he didn't have the strength to buck her off. He thought about Jack, about holding Zale and Zada today when Demetria walked into their home. He focused on the safe way Jack held him close and the words they shared. He recalled the beauty of their children and the love he always felt when they had time to make love. He remember the last time they were alone together and the way Daniel had moved on top of Jack and the way Jack mumbled and groaned from the way their bodies melded together and the way they spoke poetry and love songs without ever uttering a word.

Daniel just kept playing his memories on a loop, trying to ignore the pain as Amada pushed down even harder on his forehead. Even with the good memories playing through his mind, he couldn't stop the scream of pain.

The thoughts were getting dimmer; he was losing the battle to save his memories. Soon he wasn't playing the loop anymore. He was trying to recall the day, and why he was here under someone else's hand. He wondered where the pain was coming from.

"Daniel!" someone shouted and the hand disappeared from his head. He was left with the overwhelming relief as his head felt like it had suddenly been released from a vice. He tried to sit up to see who had called his name but he couldn't find the energy.

He could hear the grunts and sounds of punches landing. He hoped whoever was here was winning so he could get back to Jack and the rest of SG1, his family.

His heart clenched in his chest, something was missing and he didn't know what. He also didn't know why he couldn't seem to move, must have something to do with the hand that had been holding him down not but a minute before.

"Come on Daniel, we have to go," someone shouted even as the fighting sounds continued. He looked at the young man and the black hair hanging over his green eyes.

"Do you know Jack, are you taking me to him?" Daniel asked as he struggled to stand with the help of the young man who was frowning at him now.

"I am taking you home to Jack," he finally responded.

Daniel nodded but the motion was jerky, within a second his savior grabbed the other girl who was standing over Daniel's attacker with a grin on her face and then they were somewhere else.

Daniel stumbled away from his protectors and luckily there was a couch in the house where they landed. He looked around just in time to see Jack run down the stairs and he ran across the room to land on the couch next to Daniel. He frowned up at his friend and pulled away as Jack reached out to cup his cheek gently. Daniel didn't really have the strength to pull away but he frowned up at the Colonel, "Jack what's going on? Where are we?"

"What? Danny, are you messing with me right now? I was so worried when I came downstairs and you were gone."

"We live here? We're not on a mission?" Daniel wondered.

"Oh Zara!" his rescuer whispered.

"What is going on Adrian?" Jack demanded. Daniel was starting to freak out again, he didn't understand what was wrong with Jack, what he thought was wrong with him.

"Her hand was on his head, I think she learned how to focus her energy and stole some of his memories."

Daniel watched as Jack's face fell and he could have sworn he saw Jack's eyes tear up a little, "What? He doesn't remember us? Zale and Zada?" the last words were asked of Daniel directly. Daniel could feel the pull on his heartstrings but he didn't know why.

"Jack, you look hurt? Tell me what I did and I'll fix it."

Adrian chuckled a little and Jack turned to glare harshly at the young man, "Sorry, I just don't think its all gone Jack. Would old Daniel before you came to this place say that?"

Jack smirked a little and settled back against the couch, "Danny I need to tell you something that you might not believe at first."

Daniel nodded, still utterly confused but just glad to be next to Jack.

"Do you remember when you stayed behind on the mother ship, and you made me leave you behind?"

Daniel nodded, "I hated that moment, watching you walk away but I couldn't let you die."

"Why?" Jack demanded.

"Because you are my best friend," Daniel responded quietly even as his heart denied the truth within, the truth he could never speak.

"No, why is it that we were always called to one another? You save my life and I always had to save yours. Why?"

"I don't know what you want me to say." Daniel was getting annoyed, especially since he couldn't seem to wrap his arms around himself or move away from Jack, even as he wished he could move closer.

"I need you to understand that we are on earth right now, but not in our time anymore. We got stuck here about a year ago and we have no way back, too many variables and not enough power."

"What?"

"Yup, babe we are not in Kansas anymore."

"Babe?" Daniel squeaked in shock, he could feel his belly warm at the thought of what the easy slip of the tongue could mean.

Jack flinched, "Sorry, I need to know why you were willing to die just to get me to leave. To make sure I survive. Why was that more important than your survival?"

"Because I care about you," Daniel mumbled and he could feel his heart thundering in his chest.

"The same way you care about Sam? Or Teal'c?"

Daniel shook his head.

"How is it different?" Jack cajoled, reached over and placing a warm hand on Daniel's shoulder. The contact seemed to fill Daniel with energy and the power to move returned to him a little at a time. He focused on Jack.

"Because I care more than I should," Daniel admitted as though the words were ripped from his heart and forced into sound. Once they were out though he could never take them back.

"You don't have to worry about the words, about taking them back," Jack responded and Daniel frowned, wondering if he spoke the words out loud. "It's okay Danny I just known you so well."

"The words have never been said," Daniel responded.

Jack reached out and held Daniel's left hand up for him to see and he noticed the small silver band around his ring finger and Jack held up his own left hand and Daniel saw the same band.

"The words have been said, I love you Danny and I'm not afraid of it at all."

Daniel could feel the trembling in his limbs, feel the tears trapped on his lids as they tried to slip down his cheek, "I said the words?"

"Whenever possible," Jack said with a grin.

"Jack O'Neill I have loved you since our first year together. I have wanted you for even longer. We've had a life together here?" Daniel whispered.

Jack smiled, "I'll help you remember my love but first, what happened with Amada?" he asked, turning to Adrian.

"She was killed in the struggle with DK, she cannot hurt you anymore."

"Well that's good to hear at least," Jack said.

Daniel nodded but never took his eyes off Jack, who loved him. They were together? They were married? He needed to know the answers, he needed to know how much time he was missing and if there was a possibility of getting them back.

"Well it's late and DK and I need to see the queen again, give her an update and I will send a message to Erica, get her to come see to the damage Amada had done. There may be a way to get the memories back, if not there are more memories to make. Maybe he should meet Zale and Zada?"

Daniel watched as Jack nodded and then the Colonel helped Daniel to his shaky feet and they walked together across the room and up the stairs. They came to a door and Jack paused, "Don't freak out on me okay?"

Daniel nodded but he figured Jack didn't take him too seriously since this situation was a perfect time to freak out. Jack opened the door and they walked into a nursery where Jack led Daniel closer to one crib and they both looked down at a sleeping baby boy. Daniel knew him on sight, "Zale? My son, our son?"

"You remember?" Jack asked excitedly.

"I think my heart remembers and reminded my head, its different with you. I loved you before we got together so the memories she took couldn't remove the feelings but it also is instinctive with him, he's my son."

"Danny, I am just glad you realize who he is to you. Do you remember everything about the Awakened Magis?"

"What's that again?" Daniel asked, confused about Jack making up words.

"We'll talk about it later, so you know who he is but not necessarily his history."

Jack moved Daniel to the other crib and it wasn't immediate this time, he reached down and touched the little girl, "Zada?" he asked, matching the extra name to the child.

"It's not the same is it?" Jack asked sadly.

"No, I'm sorry Jack, sorry baby girl," he whispered the words to each person in turn.

Jack squeezed Daniel in comfort, "Zale and you have a genetic link to one another, Zada is my genetic daughter so it wouldn't be the same. We'll get you all caught up I promise."

Daniel nodded, "Maybe you should show me our bedroom? It might help."

Jack chuckled quietly at that, "Okay."

Daniel allowed his husband, so weird to think of Jack that way, to move him towards the next bedroom where Jack helped Daniel get into some bed clothes and they both climbed into bed together. Daniel didn't have the energy to even wrap his arms around the older man but Jack seemed to understand his need and did it for him. They fell asleep that way, happy to be together again, even if it meant Daniel would never remember the first year of their lives together as a couple.