Ok...sorry about the wait here guys...I was caught up in some drama and I didn't have time to put it up...but anyways...i'm not sure this chapter came out the way I wanted it to but I did my best...it has Brucas...it has Revon...it has a little bit of Liley. It has a bit of everyone but it's gonna mainly focus on Riley, I guess. On how she feels and on how she goes through it. Anyways...thank you everyone for the reviews...I LOVE THEM lol It's so awesome to hear what you guys think...WooHoo! Haha anyways on with the story!
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LUCAS' ROOM
Lucas opened his eyes and sighed as he looked down at the girl in his arms. He smiled slightly as he looked at her sleeping form. Last night there had been plenty of tears and heartache but one good thing had came out of it. Them together. Or were they? Lucas wasn't sure what last night had meant but he was sure that he wanted to be with her. Fully. He gently slipped out of her grasp and winced as she rolled over and groaned. He smiled and quietly walklked out of the room. He walked to the kitchen, passing the livingroom on the way there and smiled to himself as he saw Haley and Nathan curled up together on the couch.
He continued to the kitchen and walked over to the fridge and took out the orange juice. He began to pour himself a glass when he heard a familiar voice.
"Pour me a glass, would ya?"
Lucas looked up and watched as the girl sat at the table and sighed, picking up a random magasine. He nodded and took another glass out and poured some juice into it and handed it to her.
"Here ya go, Ry." He said and sat down at the table next to her. She took the glass and gave him a nod of thanks. She chugged her juice and looked back at the magasine for a moment. "How are you?"
"Fine." She said not bothering to look up at him.
"Ry.." He started to protest but she put the magasine down and looked at him with a look that said, Don't-push-me-right-now. He sighed. She turned back to her magasine. "Well will you at least tell me what happend?"
"He cheated. Nothing else to it." She said still not looking at him.
She was doing exactly what he had been doing awhile ago. She was acting as if nothing was wrong when deep inside her whole world was falling apart. He wanted to hug her, tell her that everything would be ok, but he wasn't sure if that was true. So he decided that the best thing to do right now was to do it her way until she was ready to talk.
"Ok." He said and she tore her eyes away from the magasine and looked at him.
"Ok? That's all you have to say? No, big speeches on how love hurts but you can get through it with a little help?" She said mocking him, somewhat. He shrugged and shook his head. She looked taken aback but turned back to her magasine.
Just then another girl walked in and stretched and stopped as she saw Riley sitting at the table. Riley looked up and sighed. She really didn't want to deal with all the pity stares. It was irking her. She hated pity.
"Hey. How ya feelin' buddy?" The girl said and took a seat next to Riley. Riley rolled her eyes.
"I"m fine." Riley said and the girl looked at Lucas who shrugged.
"So Hales, how was your sleep?" Lucas said with a knowing smirk. He saw Haley blush but he could see the confusion in her eyes. Lucas shrugged and gave her a look that said, I'll-explain-later.
"It was good." She said and smiled at him. Lucas nodded. Just then two more faces popped into the kitchen both smiling. At the sight of the blonde girl they both stopped and glanced at eachother and then to the other two teenagers in the room.
"Hey Riles." Brooke said and took a seat next to Lucas who gave her a smile. She returned it. Nathan sat by Haley and looked at his sister with worry. "How are you doing?"
Riley had had enough. She hated that everyone was trying to be nice to her and kept asking her how she was. She didn't want pity and she didn't want to be around anyone. She just wanted to be alone but she knew that she couldn't do that. She slammed the magasine down on the table startling everyone but Lucas, who expected it, and she stood up.
"That's enough!" She yelled and looked at everyone around her with rage filled eyes. "Stop asking me if i'm alright! I'm fine!" She yelled again and stormed over and grabbed her purse and keys. " I don't need him and I don't need any of you to feel sorry for me!" With that Riley Scott exited the building in blazing fury.
"Well that went better then I thought it would." Lucas said and sighed. He looked to see that everyone was staring at him like he had two heads. "Haley, do you remember July 4 of this year?" He asked and Haley thought for a moment and she nodded.
"Ya that was the night that you...oh." She said finally getting what he was saying.
"Ya...oh." He said and she nodded. Nathan and Brooke glanced at eachother with confused looks. "Look, she'll get over it. She just needs some space right now. Space away from Devon." Lucas said and sighed and rubbed the back of his neck.
"I think that can be arranged." Nathan said with an angry scowl. Lucas shook his head.
"Fighting isn't gonna solve anything. Besides, he made a mistake." Lucas said and Nathan scoffed.
"He hurt our sister, Luke. In my world that just isn't acceptable." Nathan said and Lucas let out a chuckle. A bitter one.
"In your world? Does it have your name on it?" Lucas said sarcastically and shook his head as Nathan was about to speak, "No, it doesn't. This isn't your world Nathan. It never was and it will never be. So quit acting like it is."
"You know what? He hurts our sister and you want to give this guy a break? What, do you not care or something?" Nathan asked and Lucas clenched his fists.
"Of course I care, but hurting him isn't gonna make her feel better. It might make you feel better but this isn't about you. It's about her." Lucas snapped back and Nathan could feel his temper rise.
"Well I think that kicking his ass would make her feel better. After all, he's just a cheating bastard. You know how they are, Luke." Nathan said and a small smirk graced his lips. Lucas smirked as well.
"I know just about as much as you, Nate. " Lucas said and watched as Nathan's smirk faded and was replaced with an angry scowl.
Haley and Brooke sat there unsure of what to do. They watched as the two guys they loved the most argued and for once they didn't know what to do about it but what they did know that if they didn't do something soon, the smart remarks would get to one brother and it would cause an unwanted fight.
Haley glanced over at Brooke and nodded her head towards Lucas. Brooke nodded and wiggled her eyebrows at Haley and nodded over to Nathan. Haley smiled slightly and both girls nodded and stood up to go to their guys who were still in an intense arguement.
"Well fine you can be a pussy...i'm gonna go kick his ass." Nathan growled and started to walk past him but Lucas pushed him back and glared at him.
"You go near him and it'll be me who's gonna kick your ass." Lucas barked and glared at him more. Nathan scoffed and was about to say some other witty remark when he felt a hand on his shoulder. He turned and his eyes softened as he saw Haley pleading with him to walk away. He sighed and Haley smiled at him. He knew now that his time with Haley was crucial and if he wanted to be with her he would have to play by her rules. "Ha, Nathan Scott whipped. Wow, now i've seen everything." Lucas laughed to himself.
"You won't be seeing anything if you keep talking like that, Mr. Davis." Nathan said and smirked. "Or should I say Mr. Sawyer." Nathan said and Lucas lunged at him and manged to punch Nathan in the eye. Nathan fell back and almost knocked Haley down too. He jumped up and swung at Lucas and managed to hit him in the mouth. Lucas went to punch him again but was stopped when a hand grabbed his. He looked over at the person and he immediatly softened. He put his fist down and looked at the brunette beside him.
"That's enough, Luke." She said in a small voice and he stared at her a moment before nodding. He turned to Nathan who seemed to be talking to Haley.
"Get out." Lucas said in a calm voice. Nathan looked over at his brother and would have said some canny remark about him being whipped too but he knew that it wouldn't help their situation. Lucas was still mad at him for sleeping with Brooke and he had to accept that. He definitly wasn't helping the matters by saying smartass remarks. "Leave him until I get to him first."
"Fine." Nathan said and walked out. Haley looked at Lucas and he rolled his eyes and nodded his head for her to go after him. She smiled gratefully and ran out after Nathan.
Lucas sat down in a chair and sighed. He ran a hand through his hair and stared into space for a bit. That was until he heard the brunette speak.
"You know, you're...kinda whipped too." She said and Lucas let out a small chuckle. She looked at him and noticed that his lip was bleeding. She stuck her hand out. "Come on."
He looked up at her and couldn't help but notice that she looked so innocent. Her hair was framing her face and she had make up still on her face. Obviously from the crying she had done last night. Lucas felt his heart drop at the mention of last night. He had done a lot of bad things in his life but he had overstepped his boundary last night and he knew it.
He followed Brooke into the bathroom and she pushed him down so that he was sitting on the edge of the tub. He watched as Brooke searched for something in the drawers and pulled something out, smiling. She turned to face him and knealt down and started to dab at his lip slightly. He stared at her intently and Brooke smiled again.
"What?" She asked as he stared at her with an unreadable look. She wasn't sure what was going on in his head and it was starting to scare her. He sighed.
"Brooke, about what happened last night..." He started but she waved it off with her hand.
"Look, let's not dwell in the past Lucas. What happened, happened. We have to..." Brooke tried to explain but Lucas shook his head and grabbed the hand that was dabbing at his lip and held it. She looked at him confused.
"Brooke...I didn't mean to...I did something..."Lucas cleared his throat trying to find the right words to explain himself. "I was someone last night that I never want to be again. I messed up last night and I messed up before and I just...I don't know what came over me...I" Lucas tried but was silenced by a finger being pressed to his lips. He looked up at the brunette and watched as she nodded.
"It's ok. I know that last night was just...it was hard for all of us." She said and sighed, "Some more then others." He nodded at that and looked down at their now entertwined hands. They fit so perfectly. "Last night you were.."She started but was cut off by him.
"A monster, Brooke. I was a monster." He said and she was about to protest but he shook his head and put a finger to her lips. "I need time to find myself again. I need to find the old Lucas. I tried before but it's just not working." He said and she bit her lip trying to hold back the tears.
"So you don't want to be with me?" She asked in a small voice. Lucas could almost feel his heart breaking. He shook his head and pulled her in for a hug.
"No, that's not it. I love you so much Brooke. I want to be with you forever." He stated and pulled away to look at her. She looked at the ground. Lucas put a finger on her chin and tilted it up so that she was looking right into his eyes. "Brooke I love you. But I can't start a relationship with you, knowing that I could be like that again. I just can't." He said and she nodded as tears started to well up in her eyes.
"How long are you gonna be gone?" She asked quietly, looking at the ground. He sighed.
"I don't know...we leave tomorrow night." He said and she looked up at him as the tears started to fall down her face.
"We?" She choked out and he nodded
"Riley and I." He said and she nodded.
"Tomorrow night is such short notice." She said calmy yet, painfully.
"I know. I called my friend Terri, in California, last night explaining my situation. He said that Riley and I could come up tomorrow night and stay up there for as long as we need." He said softly and she looked up at him with hurt eyes.
"California? That's so...so far." She whispered as more tears fell down her face. He let go of her hand and wiped away her tears. "I don't want you to go." She said and started to sob. Lucas too felt tears come to his eyes.
"Trust me Brooke. I don't want to leave. If I could, I would never leave you. But...I have too." He said stressing that he had to go. He knew that it was the only way. She nodded and pulled him to her. She hugged him as tight as she could.
"I know...i'll just miss you." She said and smiled as she pulled away. "We always seem to cry when we're together." A smile graced his lips as he shrugged.
"Guess you bring out the girl in me." He stated and she smiled slightly. "And i'll miss you too."
"I do love you Lucas and I always will. Just remember that." She said seriously and he nodded.
Lucas had had enough of them talking. He pulled her to him and captured her lips with his in one of the most emotional, passionate kisses either of them had ever experienced before. He pulled her closer, if that was possible, ignoring the pain from his lip as she wrapped her arms around his neck. Eventually they both pulled away when air became and issue and Lucas rested his forehead against hers.
"Time to go deal with everything at school. Are you ready?" He asked and she thought about it for a moment and smirked.
"Bring it on."
SCHOOL
Riley walked into the doors of the school with her head held high and immediatly the halls quieted down and gave her obnoxious glances and stares. She breathed in deeply and headed to her locker. She quietly tried to open her locker and turned when she noticed a tall dark figure come up beside her.
"Hey, you look angry. What got shoved up your ass this morning?" The person asked and Riley scoffed.
"None of your business, bitch boy." She said and the person scoffed in return.
"Bitch boy? Please. Not even funny. At least have the decencey to come up with a good comeback" The person said and Riley turned to face them.
"Thanks Nate. I really need someone to be a complete ass right now." She said sarcastically and rolled her eyes and Nathan looked down, guilty.
"Sorry." He mumbled and she slammed the lock down angrily and banged her fist against the locker. Nathan looked taken aback by her hostility but knew why she was this way. She sighed and leaned her head against it, closing her eyes. "What did the locker ever do to you?" Nathan joked and Riley shrugged. He sighed and put a comforting arm around her. "It'll be ok." He whispered and Riley turned to him and wanted so desperatly to believe him but as she looked past him and saw the person she longed to be with, she shook her head.
"No...it's not going to be ok." She whispered and turned on her heal and walked away. Nathan looked behind him and saw the pain stricken look on Devon's face and decided that maybe the boy just made a mistake like everyone else. Maybe there really was an explanation for his actions. Or maybe he was just a stupid ass that didn't know what he wanted.
CLASS
Haley sighed as she watched everyone fidget in their seats. It was the only class in the day that everyone thought was the best but now, everyone just wanted to be anywhere but in here. Well it was mostly because of the tension between Devon and the Scotts. Devon tried to get Riley to speak to him. Riley stayed quiet and ignored Devon. Nathan glared at Devon everytime he tried to speak to Riley. Lucas glared at Nathan everytime he tried to hassle Devon. It was a none ending cycle and it was starting to piss her off. She looked at Brooke who was talking to Peyton and Jake and she sighed.
"Mrs. Scott, am I boring you?" The teacher asked causing Haley to look up and shake her head. "Because if I am...please feel free to leave." The teacher said somewhat glaring at her. Haley smiled fakely.
"No, no it's ok. I'm sorry, Mr. Guisser, i'm just tired." Haley said and the teacher nodded and continued.
"As I was saying, i'm going to put you in a groups of five and for this class only, i'm going to give you a list of things to get accomplished. Between eachother. " Mr. Guisser said and smiled at the class. "Okay now, first group is Landon, Peyton, Nathan, Lidia, and Becca. Next group is..."
Haley was listening to the groups but was distracted as she thought of everything that had happened lately. If it wasn't one thing, it was another. Nothing had seemed okay for awhile now but what more could she do? Haley's attention came back into focus and her head snapped around as five names were said, one including hers.
"And the final group is Riley, Lucas, Haley, Brooke..."The teacher said and tried to read the last name on the list. Haley smiled at Lucas who smiled back but their smiles soon faded as the last name was read off. "And Devon. You can all begin now."
Riley felt as if the world was playing games with her. Or if it just plain hated her ass. Either way her heart wasn't going to be able to handle the following events. She sighed deeply and walked over to the others who were already sitting there and she ignored Devon's gaze. She sat down and sighed again.
"Ok, let's get this crap over with. What's this assignment anyway?" Riley asked not even acknowledging Devon. Devon's face crumbled and he sat back in his chair. Lucas picked up the paper and looked at it and he winced mentally. This was a list of questions. Ones that no one were ready for.
"It's a list of questions. We read off the questions and we have to go around the circle and answer them out loud." Lucas said and Riley shrugged.
"Good, not a big deal. What's the first one?" Riley asked and folded her arms against her chest. Lucas looked down at the paper and cleared his throat. He really knew that no one was going to like this.
"Ugh...well...Do you think that love is more like a lie, or the truth?" He asked and he looked at Haley who was next to him.
"I think it's the truth. No one can really admit that they've never loved before. It's just something that sticks." She said and shrugged. She looked over at Riley and Riley let out a small laugh.
"Definitly a lie...love can last as long as it wants but it doesn't mean that it's gonna be happy. It hurts like a bitch. It's always gonna so why waste your time?" Riley stated and looked over at Devon for a second before turning her gaze somewhere else.
"Well I think it's the truth. No matter how much hurt you go through it's always worth it because in the end, love wins over the hurt." Devon said and looked straight over at Riley who turned to him. She glared at him and shook her head.
"You have no input on this matter since your loving skills suck." She said angrily and although to them she looked angry she was slowly breaking. It was killing her to hear these words from him. Eventhough she wanted to believe them she had no choice but to not.
"Riley.."He started in a pained voice but she silenced him.
"Don't." She said with the coldest tone any of them had ever heard. She turned to look at Brooke who looked at her with saddened eyes. "So what's your answer?" Brooke thought for a moment.
"I think both." She said and Riley looked at her with raised eyebrows. "Love can hurt but it can be great too and no one can deny that it feels great to be loved. No one." She said and gave a look to Riley who rolled her eyes but Brooke knew that inside Riley was about ready to break down.
"Love is the truth, it's never fake and it's never unreal." Lucas started and paused. "It could be a lie if you made it that way. But never can it be something that was never there. Love is always gonna be there, no matter how hard you try to deny it, no matter how hard you try to get rid of it. It's always there." Lucas finished and smiled at Brooke who smiled back. Riley sighed.
"Next question." She said and slunk back in her chair. Lucas looked at the next one and closed his eyes, knowing that this next one was going to cause big consequences.
"Who was your first love?" Lucas asked and sighed. Riley scoffed.
"Nathan." Haley said and smiled slightly at Lucas who tried to smile but he failed miserably. He knew what was coming and by the look on Haley's face, so did she. Everyone looked over at Riley who rolled her eyes, trying to hold back tears but was starting to fail. So with every ounce of confidence and strength she had left in her she muttered one forced, cold, bitter word.
"Casey." By the look on Devon's face, Riley knew that had definitly hurt him and she almost felt guilty but when the thoughts of last night came rushing back to her she pushed the guilt away. She figured that he would say something to hurt her as well but what he said surprised her.
"You." He said and he looked deep into her eyes and Riley felt a tear fall down her face.
"Well apparently I just wasn't enough." She whispered and got up and ran out of the classroom. Devon got up to follow her but was stopped by Brooke.
"I've got her." She said and gave him a wink and started to run after her friend. The teacher went to stop her but instead nodded his head towards the door and Brooke smiled gratefully and followed Riley out the door.
Devon looked at the door his girlfriend...or ex-girlfriend just walked out of. His heart hurt and he knew there was only him to blame for this. He screwed up his relationship with her and couldn't fix it. He breathed in deeply and looked around and noticed for the first time that everyone was staring at him. He could see Nathan at the corner of his eye and knew that he would definitly be in trouble by him. He sighed and sat down.
"Hey." Lucas said trying to get his attention. Devon turned to him and was ready for Lucas to yell at him or hit him but it never came. Lucas breathed in. "You have until tomorrow night. Talk to her before then." Lucas said and Devon closed his eyes and nodded. It was his last chance. Wait, tomorrow night? Where was she going? Devon thought as he continued to slink back into his chair.
GIRL'S BATHROOM
Riley slammed the door open as more tears fell down her already stained face. She walked over to the line of sinks and looked at herself in the mirror. She looked like something that came out of a horror movie. She tried desperatly to get rid of the unwanted tears but it wasn't working. She then heard the door open but remained staring at the mirror.
"Riles?" A familiar voice rang through the bathroom. No response. "I figured you'd be in here." Still no response. Brooke sighed and sat up on the counter beside Riley. "I know it hurts."
"You have no idea how much it hurts!" Riley yelled angrily through her tears. Brooke sighed and it was as if her heartbreak came rushing back to her.
"Ry, you and Lucas never discussed about what happened to us the first time we dated, did you?" Brooke asked and when she got silence she assumed that they hadn't. "Lucas cheated on me with Peyton."
No response was heard from the younger Scott twin.
"He cheated on me with Peyton. I found out and I totally went off the lid. I mean, it's not easy finding something like that out." Brooke said and looked down. Brooke looked up as she heard a small sob and was faced with a girl that Brooke didn't recognize. A girl that was too angry for words.
"You're damn right it isn't but you know what? At least you didn't have to walk in on it and see it happening before your own eyes!" Riley snapped with tears in her eyes. " They didn't sleep with eachother either." Riley said and Brooke lookd shocked. "Lucas told me everything. I know about what happened between you two and ya, I bet it hurt like hell. But you're pain is nothing comapared to what mine feels like."
"That doesn't mean that it didn't hurt, Riley!" Brooke growled a little upset that Riley was making it seem as if her heartbreak didn't matter at all.
"I know it probably hurt Brooke, i'm not saying that it didn't!" Riley snapped back "All i'm saying is that right now, I feel more lost and confused then I have ever felt in my life. I don't know what to do and for the first time, I actually have to deal with all of this crap, "She paused and ran a hand through her hair, "...and I can't run away from it." Riley stated as more tears started to fall from her face.
"Riley he..." Brooke started but was cut off by an angry Riley.
"No! I don't want to hear it! I don't care how he feels or if he's sorry...it still doesn't make my pain go away!" She yelled and waved her hands around in the air. "He doesn't get to have me...not anymore, he screwed it up and i'll never forgive him!"
"You may think that now, but trust me...it does get easier." Brooke said softly and when Riley's face pulled into a disbelieving look Brooke added, "It does."
Riley sighed and shook her head. Although she was angry, she was grateful for the comfort her friend was giving her. Still, it was a proven fact that help was not needed here, in this situation. It needed to be dealt with on its own. Riley looked up at Brooke and wiped at her tears. She made her way to the door but stopped.
"Life is never easy, Brooke. We just like to think that it is." She said tiredly before walking out the door.
Brooke sighed and leaned back against the wall. She knew that Riley was being just like she was. To anyone around her, she would act normal but behind closed doors, it was a different story.
"Maybe this trip will be good for you." Brooke whispered and closed her eyes, praying that things would get better.
NEXT DAY/RILEY AND LUCAS' HOUSE
"Hey, you all packed up?" Lucas asked and Riley nodded. She sighed and sat down on the bed as the radio played softly. Lucas took a seat beside her and stayed silent.
Yesterday had been very painful and emotional, for everyone. Riley had stayed strong through all of it and hadn't completly broken down but Lucas knew that she was getting pretty damn close to it. At home she seemed as if she was a zombie. She wouldn't really talk, wouldn't eat, and definitly wouldn't go near anyone except Lucas and occasionally Nathan.
"When do we leave?" She asked with an emotionless tone. Lucas sighed.
"In a couple of hours." Lucas said and Riley nodded again. "Are we ever going to talk about it?" He asked and when Riley turned to look at him he sighed again. "Guess not." He mumbled and got up.
"Just not now." She said quietly and Lucas turned to her, surprised at what she had said and nodded.
Lucas turned as he heard a knock at the door and motioned to Riley that he was going to get it. She waved it off and he went and answered the door. He was surprised to say the least but he was also a little angry. He gave the person an angry scowl.
"You have 5 minutes." He growled and let the person in. The person sighed deeply and walked towards the younger Scott twin's door. The door was slightly opened so the person knocked lightly.
Riley looked up and as her eyes met with gorgeous hazel ones hers turned into ones of fury. She sat up and glared furiously.
"What the hell are you doing here, Devon?" Riley said coldy. Devon flinched slightly at her tone. He took a deep breath. This was going to be really hard.
"I came here to talk." He said and Rliey scoffed.
"Well I think that much was obvious." She snapped and rolled her eyes. He closed his eyes and took another deep breath.
"Riley, I love you with all my heart and I can't believe how much of a dumbass I am. I just..."He paused and he opened his eyes to look at her. "I don't remember anything...I don't...I just wanted to be with you but I couldn't...I" He looked at her with sad and regretful eyes.
Riley's resolve was weakening. She could see that he was truly sorry and that he never meant to hurt her and that he did, in fact, love her. She just couldn't get past it...she couldn't handle anymore pain right now...it was just too hard. She closed her eyes and let out a small sob but covered it and cleared her throat.
"You know, i'm tired and I don't want to hear your lame ass excuses. Face it, we're over." She said with as much confidence as she could but she knew that it didn't sound too convincing. She turned away from him and fiddled with some things on her bed. She tensed as she felt a hand on her shoulder.
"Please...let me explain. Fully." He said with so much of a pleading and sorrowful voice that she couldn't turn him down. Even if she wanted to. "That night, Ry, I was so scared. I don't want to ever rush things with you. I want to make them special for you cause every girl deserves it. Especially you." He said and Riley could feel tears start to fall down her face but she kept her back turned. "When you wouldn't talk to me, I got sad and I started to drink. Stupid thing on my part." He mumbled and sighed. "Then that girl that I was telling you about...my old best friend from high school...that was the girl. She came and tried to get me to come with her but I refused and told her how much I love you."
"Well you don't love me enough considering you cheated on me..." She said bitterly. Devon closed his eyes once again and tried desperatly to hold back tears. He wasn't going to get her back. She was closed up again and it killed him to know that all the pain that both of them were feeling was because of him.
"I know that you'll never forgive me for this. I know that." He said and paused. He ran a hand through his hair. " But please...will you at least look at me when I say this?" He asked desperatly and Riley wanted to say no. She wanted to tell him to get out and get away from her but most of all...she just wanted him to hold her. She slowly turned and looked at him, tears staining her face.
"Well go on with it." She snapped quietly. Devon licked his lips and breathed in. He looked deep into her eyes and had a look that had never made Riley want him more then at this moment. His look held determination, confidence, and hope.
"I love you. I'm always going to. Even when you leave, i'll still be loving you. This thing might change your opinion about me but i'm always going to think of you as the same loving, caring, beautiful girl. You're everything to me Riley. And if I have to wait until you realize that you still love me, then I will. No matter how long it takes. I'll make you fall in love with me again and I will do anything in my power to make sure nobody ever hurts you again. Ever. I don't know what i'd do if I ever lost you for good." He finished and by the end of it his eyes were glistening with unfallen tears.
Riley was left almost speechless. She knew what she wanted to say but she couldn't. She knew that her telling him that she loved him more then ever would just mix things up and it would make it harder for the both of them. So she did he only thing she knew how to do. Be sarcastic and angry.
"Well, you know what? You'll be waiting forever because you're right." She said angrily and he looked at her confused for a moment before she continued. "I'll never forgive you." She snapped and felt anger surge through her. "Besides, it's not like you meant anything to me anyway." She said nastily and regretted saying it after the hurt look Devon gave her. But his hurt was quickly replaced with anger. He took a step closer to her.
"I meant nothing to you?!" He asked her with a raised voice. "That's a load of crap, and you know it! What we had was special!" He said, anger in his voice. Riley scoffed.
"What are you a girl? " She said and he sighed. "What we had was special. " She mimicked in a girly voice. " I mean seriously, grow a pair, would you?" She spat out and turned back to the bed to fiddle with some things. Devon shook his head and walked right behind her and grabbed her arm, whirling her around to face him.
"We're not done!" He growled and Riley held a looked of disgust. She pulled her arm out of his grip and huffed, angrily.
"Yes, we are!" She replied back and went to turn around again but Devon grabbed her shoulders and kept her so that she was facing him. He softened immediatly when her eyes started to fill with tears again and he pulled her to him and wrapped his arms around her waist. Riley stiffened, he noticed, but relaxed against him, keeping her hands by her sides. "Just let me go." She whispered sadly and Devon pulled away.
"I can't." He said sadly and looked at her face with pleading. " I can't let you go. I'm sorry. I just can't." He said and Riley felt hot tears slide down her face.
"It's so hard...and it hurts so much...I" Riley tried to say but got choked up. Devon went to hug her again but she pushed him away and her angry face was back. "Devon, we're done here. Just go." She said sternly.
"Ok. I'll go." He said defeatedly. She nodded and went to go past him but he stopped her by grabbing her hand and pulling her back to him. "I just want to know that I meant something to you." He said and Riley sighed.
"You meant..."She began to say but was cut off by his lips on hers. For a moment Riley forgot where she was. She was enjoying his warmth when he pulled her closer and she couldn't help herself. She kissed him back. Tears ran down her face as she kissed him back with everything she had but the moment was over when she realized what was happening. She pushed him away and walked past him.
"Just go." She managed to choke out between her tears.
Riley went over to the bed and started to once again fiddle with things. Devon took that as a hint to leave so he did. He took one last look at the girl he loved and walked out the door but not before mumbling a phrase Riley knew so well, "Stick Together Forever. "
She closed her eyes as she heard the door shut and she let out a loud sob and collapsed on the floor. Her heart was hurting more then she ever thought and there was no way to stop it. She pulled her knees to her chest and let the tears fall. She looked up at the door when it opened and then burst into more tears at the sight of the person.
Lucas walked over to his sister and pulled her to him. He wrapped both of his arms around her and held her as her tears soaked through his shirt. He didn't care. She sobbed loudly and she gripped his shirt with all her might. Lucas placed a kiss on her head and could feel tears burn at his eyes.
"It's gonna be alright, Riley. It'll be alright." He whispered softly and he could feel Riley shaking her head as she started to cry harder.
"No...I...I love him...so... much." She managed to get out between sobs. Lucas closed his eyes and nodded. He didn't know exactly what she was going through but he did know that she was in a lot of pain and he promised that he would make it all better. How, he had no idea.
"I know sis. I know." He whispered soothingly. He stroked her smooth blonde hair and closed his eyes, wondering what could be done. "You know what? We're gonna have a blast over there. We'll forget everything. For now." He said and he pulled away do he could see her eyes. They were red and puffy from all her tears and his heart broke a little more.
She stayed silent and rested her head back against his chest just a familiar song started to play on the radio. It was a song Riley knew so well and it just made her cry harder. Lucas listened to the song and instantly recognized it. Brooke made him listen to it once and he actually liked it. But as he listened to it now, he felt that it just wasn't the right time, it was what she should do. But it wasn't what she wanted to hear and Lucas knew that.
He held her closer and closed his eyes as the familiar song played from the radio. It was times like these when he wished he could reach the radio and chuck it across the room but he felt as if maybe it would do her some good to hear it again. Maybe, just maybe.
If
you just have faith I don't want to
be the one Let 'em fall baby
fall If you'll trust that I'm gonna stay true And I don't want to be the one Let 'em fall baby fall As your world spins around Fall Just like the rain washes it all
To let me be the man that I am
I'll always
run back
To show you what words never can
just to love then lose
Just like the rain washes it all
If the tears will help
you to heal
All that is real
All that is wrong
Let 'em fall
baby fall
even
when I'm gone
You don't have to worry
'cause I'll always be the
man that you want
just to
love then lose
Just like the rain
washes it all
If the tears will help you to heal
All that is
real
All that is wrong
Feet
never touch the ground
Always hurting inside
Hiding behind the
sun
waiting still for the love
but it all seems so
right
Just like the rain washes it all
If the tears
will help you to heal
All that is real
All that is wrong
Let
'em fall baby fall
If the
tears will help you to heal
All that is real
All that is
wrong
Let 'em fall baby fall
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There you have it...next chapter it's gonna have them leaving and some other stuff...then it's gonna have a time jump. Not sure how long...maybe a month or so. It's gonna be March when they come back...just to let you know. I'm not really sure if my timing matches but that's what it's gonna be...lol anyways I hope you guys liked this chapter...next chapter is gonna have Brucas...it's gonna have Laley...and it's gonna have a whole lot of Liley...i'm hopin...either a lot of Liley or Brucas...not sire yet...or maybe both! lol Anyway keep reviewing! Woo Hoo!
