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i stand unmoving in the shower

the water so hot my skin turns crimson

but i'm at an impasse

i came here to see you

visit

and i did

but now the leaving is coming

a time to exit

and i don't know how to leave this

leave us

leave you

but i do

have to go

back to my life

my other one

and i don't know what to say

what to promise

how to make my feet move away

from you

from us

/ / /

i don't know if i should give into that need

the one that hungers for you

that desires you like the necessity of oxygen

is that what you want?

is that what you need from me?

to devour you?

and then walk away?

because i'm not so sure that i can

walk away

and not know when i will see you again

if i take that hit

indulge in that fix

of you

i'll crave more

and more

it's how i work

when it comes to you

how i am

please just tell me what you want from me

and i'll give it to you

the best i can

the moon?

the stars?

the pure crystal clear water from the bottom of the deepest ocean?

done

just say it

it's yours