I'm going camping tomorrow, and next week is going to be spent getting ready for school cause i got back in 5 days. :'(

so, yeah, idk how much ill update.

--

Jake stayed a couple more hours then left when I had to put Charity down for a nap. She was practially falling asleep as she and Jake played, but wouldn't listen to him. He didn't bring up the subject of Edward and I, for which I was thankful for.

As soon as I sat down on the couch, there was a soft knock on the door. I sighed, and pushed myself up off the couch, and made my way over to the door. When I pulled it open, my personal Adonis was standing there, soaked from the rain. I smiled, and stepped aside so he could come inside.

"Hello, love." He said, smiling.

"Hello." I sad. He leaned down, and kissed me gently on the lips. Unlike I would have before, I didn't push it, or try to make him go farther. When I pulled back a second later, he seemed a little surprised. I was never the one to pull away. I laughed quietly, and walked over to the couch. When I sat down I saw the he had followed me, and sat down ext to me. I leaned into his side gently. His icy skin felt good against my arm.

"Love, no offense, but you stink." Edward said, scrutching up his nose.

"Jake was here all morning." I said, knowing that Edward didn't like it. I felt him tense slightly at that.

"Edward." I said, my vioce warning.

"Bella." He said right back.

"He's not going to hurt me!" I said, moving back out of Edward's grip so I could see him better.

"You said that last time, and look what happened." Edward said, glancing at my arm.

"It was an accident! If I hadn't gone and opened my big mouth then it never would have happened!"

"You say it like he had no part in it." Edward said. I wondered what was up with him. He was being harsh.

"I'll admit that he did. But I pushed him to it. He was just worried about Charity." I argued back.

"We're not going to hurt her." Edward said.

"I know that Edward. But he can't help but worry." I said, my voice softer now.

"But he doesn't need to. Haven't you told him that?" He asked.

"I have. And he knows that he's just gonna have to deal with me, and Charity being around you guys. So he will. Because he loves Charity, and will do it for her. So, why can't you just deal with it like he is?" I asked, getting annoyed with his new attitude.

"Because, Bella, I don't want him too hurt you again. He could phase too close, again." Edward said. I just got angrier.

"Yeah, and he's worrying about you hurting me again, too. Cause you could leave. Again." I said, getting up. I walked into the kitchen, and when I turned around, he was gone. I sighed, and ran my fingers through my hair. leaned back against the counter, and covered my eyes with one of my hands. Despite my efforts to hold them back, the tears still managed to leak out.

Why was I always doing this? I was always hurting the ones around me I loved. Edward was just trying to keep me away from what he thought was dangerous, and I have to go, and bring back painful memories. And with Jacob, he was just being protective of Charity. Then, I just go, and run my mouth to him.

Tears were falling fast now, and I didn't bother to wipe them away. My hand caught some, but they still leaked out. My body was shaking slightly from the soft sobs that I was letting out. The sound of two little feet crossing the tile suddenly caught my attention. I wiped the tears away, and bent down to pick up my daughter. I don't care what Carlisle says, he can't stop me from picking up my daughter.

"Momma, whys you crying?" She asked me, wiping away a tear I missed.

"Cause, sweetie, I made a really good friend of mine hurt, and I feel really bad about it." I said.

"Did you hit them?" She asked, looking up at me with her blue eyes.

"No, but I said some really mean stuff to them."

"It gonna be otay, momma." She said, giving me a hug. I smiled, and kissed the top of her head.

"I hope so." I said, putting my head gently on top of hers.

Tabitha's P.O.V.

It's getting close to midnight, and my dad still isn't home. He's been gone since just after two. He had gone out to see Bella. I asked everyone else, but they just said that he was probably watching her sleep, or sometime. Apparently, he did that a lot.

I still didn't know a lot about my dad, and Bella's past. Nobody would tell me anything. All I knew was that they had been a couple, and I only assumed that. Also that he had left her. They admitted that. But I didn't know why, or what they were before he left. The only person who I knew would might me anything was Bella, but I really wasn't close to her.

I waited downstairs until almost six. I heard someone approaching the house, and knew it was my dad. I stood up, and looked at the door waiting for him, but he didn't come in. I heard a soft thud upstairs, and realised he had come in through his window. I huffed, and headed upstairs to my room, the one across from his.

When I reached my room, I could hear soft music coming from my dad's. I listened, and realised it was the song that he had played for Bella, and her daughter when she came almost a month ago. That song had brought so much emotion out of her. I knew he had written the songs he was playing, and it made me wonder if he had written that one for her?

I sighed loudly, and made my way to my bathroom to get ready for the day. It was a Monday, which meant I should be getting ready for school, but I had other plans. It was only one day, right? And it's not like I'm not gonna get to go again.

Once I had showered, and dressed in a tight gray sweater dress, I jumped out my window. I knew it was the only way I could go because my dad had probably heard what I was thinking, and would try to stop me. I knew he could still stop me. He was the fastest in the family, and could easily catch me, even with a head start.

I followed his scent trail, knowing it would lead me to her house. I was surorised, though, when it veered off into the forest. I followed it anyways, curious as to where he had gone last night. I followed it for a couple minutes, when I finally came upon a small clearing. I knew this was where my dad had gone because his scent was all over. I gasped when I took in what was in front of me.

It was clearly a small meadow. Bit, in part of the side, a large chunk of the ground had been ripped up, and was shredded. Also, it appeared that a boulder had been shredded to pieces. I was a little worried as I took this in. Clearly, my dad had been very mad, or upset about something.

I followed his scent out of the destroyed meadow, and after a couple more minutes, came upon a small house, surrounded by trees. You couldn't see the neighbors, but I could hear them. I knew this was Bella's house for I could smell her, and her daughter in it. It also stunk like wet dog. I figured that was the wolf that hung around. I was about to go, and knock on the door when I realised that they were both asleep. I hadn't realised how early it was.

"I'm...sorry. Please, forgive me..." I heard Bella say suddenly. I listened, and it took me a minute before I realised that she ws just talking in her sleep. I smiled, and sat down on her porch, leaning against the front door.

"Edward, I'm...sorry. Please...no..." I stiffened. She was dreaming about my dad? A cry suddenly cut through the air. I heard Bella jump up, and rush to her daughter's room.

"Oh, sweetie." I heard Bella say in a soothing voice. I could smell the vomit from where I was. "Your burning up!"

I listened as she picked Charity up, and took her to the bathroom. She started filling up the bath tub, and went back to clean up the vomit in her daughter's room. I listened as she bathed her, dressed her, and then took her into the kitchen to get her some orange juice. When I heard her sit Charity down on the couch, I stood up, and knocked on the door.

"Hi Bella." I said when she opened the door. She seemed a little surprised to see me.

"Tabitha. Come in." She said, stepping back so I could come in. When she was leading me over to the couch, she seemed to trip over nothing, but caught herself.

Charity looked up at me when I sat on the other end of the couch. She took a long drawl from her sippy cup, and then sniffled, still looking at me.

"Hi Charity." I said. She just lookd at me a minute longer, then went back to sipping at her juice. That little girl was so strange...

"So, Tabitha, if you don't mind me asking, why are you here?" Bella asked, siting next to Charity. Charity snuggled into her mother's side, and Bella wrapped her bandaged arm around her. She still had on old sweats, and a tank top so I could see her arm bandages, and some of what was on her back.

"I'm sorry it's so early. I didn't realise what time it was when I left." I said.

"It's okay. I had to get up anyways." She said, glancing down at Charity.

"I know. I heard." I said.

"Oh." Was all she replied with.

"But, oh, I'm sorry. I was hoping that you would answer some questions for me. No one else will answer them." I said.

"Oh. I kinda figured you would ask eventually." Bella said, leaning back. She winced slightly when her back pressed into the couch. I felt bad for her.

"Well, I was wondering... did my dad stay the night here?" I asked first. She seemed a little surprised, and confused at first. I guessed that at first she thought I meant Carlisle. He was everyone else's father.

"No. He actually only stayed ten, twenty minutes. Why?" She asked.

"He just got home maybe half an hour ago. I didn't see him when he got home because he went in through his window, but i kinda thought something was up. When I followed his scent to get here, I found this meadow that it led to. The place was destroyed." I explained.

"He destroyed the meadow?" Bella asked, seeming shocked. I was a little confused.

"You know the place I'm talking about?" I asked, surprised.

"Yeah, it was where he first... well, it's a long story." She said, blushing. I wondered why.

"I have time." I said. She smiled, and laughed quietly.

"I guess you do. But aren't you supposed to be in school?" She asked, catching me off guard. In this short time I had been around Bella, I realised she was full of surprises.

"Yes, but they won't miss me." I said.

"Ditching every once in awhile is good for you." She said, smiling slightly.

"I wouldn't have pinned you for that type." I said, smiling.

"I wasn't, until I met Edward. He told me that one day at lunch, before we started dating." She said. Then, she tacked on, "I bet you wouldn't have guessed I would be a drop out either."

"That doesn't sound like my dad, unless it's sunny. So you guys did date. And, no I wouldn't have, even with her." I said, glancing at Charity.

"Well, that's only because it was biology next, and it was blood typing. Yeah, we did date. And I was afraid of what people would say, even if they knew how Charity was conceived."

"What do you mean, 'how she was conceived'?" I asked.

"They didn't tell you?" I shook my head. "I was raped while shopping in Port Angeles. That day when that guy attacked me with the knife, and I saw you guys. Well, that guy was her father." Bella said. I was surprised.

"That's horrible." I said, shocked.

"I know. But at least I got something good out of it." She said, stroking Charity's hair. Charity had set her cup down, and was dosing off into Bella's side.

"You've been through a lot." I commented. I saw her glance down at her wrist. I looked, but couldn't see what she was looking at. She saw me look, and moved her wrist so I could see a faint crescent shaped scar on her wrist, like the ones on Jasper. I gasped, wondering how she was still human.

"How about I start from the begining, when I first met your dad?" She asked, seeing my expresion. I just nodded. She smiled, and launched into her story.

--

urrrghhh. sorry for the spelling, but my spell check ins't working.

please, review.