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Edward's POV

The phone sat lifeless in my hand after Bella hung up on me.

I was lost and I wasn't sure how to find my way back to solid footing. Bella held my future in her hands and she wouldn't even talk to me; actually no-one was talking to me, well my parents were and sometimes Emmett but no-one else.

Even Jake wasn't going out of his way to talk to me and he is my best friend.

I know I've fucked up royally but seriously I don't think anyone has realised just how this affected me as well as Bella.

I don't want to sound selfish but I had just gotten my life on track, I had a job I loved and friends I trusted with my life but I had nothing permanent.

How was I supposed to provide for Bella and a baby?

How the hell was I supposed to tell my parents that I'd gotten their friends daughter knocked up?

I'd already proven to them that I was messed up and I know how much they loved Bella.

But the thought of letting her go, never seeing her again, never seeing my child, it hurt.

I heard myself whimper again and I shoved my hand against my mouth to stop the sound.

I looked down at the darkened phone and whispered "Peaches" hoping she was okay and that she would talk to me soon.

A soft knock at my door had me swiping at my face to try and get rid of the tears, I cleared my throat and said "Yep?" my mothers' soft voice came from the other side of the door "Edward, honey, we are leaving for LA in about thirty minutes. Are you going to come down and say goodbye?"

I sighed deeply but knew that I couldn't hide from everyone, any more than I already had, without my parents suspecting something, especially since they were already suspicious of why Bella hadn't been around much.

I went to the door and opened it just enough for me to say "I'll be down in a minute mum."

The smile she beamed at me was one of pride and love and it caused another shaft of pain to shoot through me at the thought of disappointing them again.

I survived the farewell of my parents and was relieved that within minutes of them leaving everyone else found something to do else where.

Jake, Nessie, Henry and James were still here enjoying a 'holiday' and I must admit that once everything with James had come out, no pun intended, in to the open I had found myself actually liking the man.

He seemed open and caring and he was kind of funny; not to mention that he was the only one to not avoid eye contact with me.

He didn't talk to me but he didn't run away from me when I walked into the room.

Once I was alone I wandered through the house, finding myself in the music room.

I hadn't played in years and I was surprised by the overwhelming urge to play.

I sat down at the sleek black piano and run my fingers over the keys, amazed to find it was in tune, I did some scales to warm up and just let go.

I lost myself in the music and I found while I was playing that the problems I had seemed further away and it made me wonder why I'd given up the feeling music had always induced within me.

I raised my arms above my neck and stretched out my muscles, all of which protested the movement, a small moan from behind me had me swivelling on the stool to see who had invaded my space.

My gaze clashed with dark chocolate orbs; eyes that flashed with something that looked like lust.

I was thrown off kilter and found myself resorting to the hard assed shell I'd perfected since Tanya "How long have you been standing there Peaches?"

As I said the nickname I felt stupid, I had no right to call her anything, but the sound of another muffled moan caused my body to respond.

Bella moaned like a pro and it had always done wicked things to my body.

I watched as she crossed the space between us, her movements slow but deliberate, until she was standing within touching distance.

She reached out a finger and run it along my jaw; I felt my jaw clench as her touch electrified my entire body.

Confusion warred with want as she touched me lightly but I forced my wayward body to remain still, while every fibre in my body screamed 'touch her' I knew that if I moved she would either disappear or stop touching me and I didn't want either thing to happen.

But no matter how badly I wanted her to continue touching me, she stopped and a small noise of protest slipped passed my lips but she moved slightly away and I knew the moment was over.

She dragged in a ragged breath and said "We need to talk, can you come out here, please."

I nodded and stood up, effectively putting me closer to her small body, her smell invading my nostrils and I couldn't stop myself from pulling her closer and kissing her.

She opened up like a flower to the rain and I deepened the kiss, burying my hands in the thick tresses and pulling her closer.

As we kissed the world felt right, there was nothing outside of the passion and need that encompassed us, there was no unplanned pregnancy, there were no concerned friends; there were no parents, no expectation, nothing, there was only the two of us and this thing between us.

I knew I needed to give her some space and allow her to work through her feelings and thoughts on her own but lust has a very effective way of shorting out the wires of self control in your brain; it didn't help that she was wrapped around me, pressing her delectable body against mine and writhing against the bulge in my pants.

"Bella" I murmured against her lips but she growled and said "More, now!" making me forget what it was I was going to say.

I backed up, sinking down onto the piano stool, bringing her between my outstretched legs, my hands kneading her ass all the while our mouths duelled.

Her hands gripped my head, her fingers scratching my scalp; she straddled my lap and whimpered as she ground against my straining cock.

A deep rumble sounded from within my chest, cutting short as her tongue touched my ear.

Her hot breath fanned against my neck as she said "I need you, please, now Edward."

I knew it was a bad idea, there was so much we needed to get through but there was nothing better than being inside Bella.

I lowered her onto the floor growling "Fuck me, Peaches" as her head tossed from side to side and her hips thrust up toward me.

I flicked the buttons on her jeans open and tugged them off her long legs, taking her panties with them.

The sight of her spread open for me was beyond fucking hot and her lips were shining with moisture and her breathing was coming in short pants.

I reached out and traced my fingers across her mound, making her whole body jerk off the floor, I slipped my middle finger inside her, swearing under my breath as her internal muscles clenched around my finger.

"Fuck, Peaches, so fucking wet. I wanna bury my face in this gorgeous pussy and fuck you with my tongue."

Bella's breathing picked up further and she panted "Jesus fucking Christ Edward, just fuck me please. Now I need you inside of me."

That was all the invitation I needed, I shucked my pants and sheathed myself inside her body.

The second I was deep inside her I felt whole, my world complete, I moved and she groaned in longing.

I gripped her hips and said "Sorry Peaches but this is gonna be fast and rough" she growled and said "Fuck me now Edward!" so I did.

I hadn't been lying to her when I said it was going to be fast and rough, I couldn't control my need for her and it seemed that she felt the same way about me.

Her hands grappled along my back, her nails digging trails in my skin, her hips bucked against me and her heels dug violently into my ass.

I wanted her to come, I needed her to come, I dripped my hand between our bodies and pinched her clit and she shuddered beneath me.

Her back arched, her tits jutting up in to my face and her fingers dug sporadically into my back as her climax swept through her and the second I felt the first stirrings on her climax I let go of the control I had on my lust.

I thrust into her pulsing body twice more before coming hotly within her.

The seconds passed as we lay there catching our breath and with every tick of the clock that went by a feeling of dread settled deep inside my body.

I didn't understand it because what had happened had been awesome and I had decided (somewhere between playing the piano and screwing Bella) that I wanted her and our kid; so I should have been feeling better not worse.

I nuzzled my nose against her neck and was rewarded with a shove against my shoulder and a quiet "Please get off me" I scrambled back from her and watched as she randomly put herself back together, my fingers itching to undo the buttons she was redoing and to bury my hands into the tangle of curls that hung crazily around her face.

I stopped myself, taking a deep breath, and said "Bella?" Her name came out sounding more like a question that anything.

She just shook her head and said "No, no Edward I can't talk about what has just happened. Not at the moment and the only reason I came in here was to ask you to come out into the living room. I've got something to say."

I nodded and said sarcastically "Sure, yeah, why wouldn't I wanna talk about this. I mean it's not like any of this has anything to do with me."

I walked passed her and went to get a drink.

I know all this wasn't her fault but it wasn't all mine either and everybody was acting like I had planned this.

I got into the living room barely a minute before Bella and she wouldn't look directly at me.

She sat on the ottoman facing the lounges and waited for everyone, and I do mean everyone even James was there, to sit down.

We did and we waited. Bella was quiet for a full two minutes, silently deliberating over how to begin, before she said "I've know what people have expected of me my entire life.

I was to be polite, friendly, smart and generous. I was to go to school, get good grades, graduate and go to college. I was supposed to meet the man I'd spend the rest of my life with, have a job I loved, get married and then have kids and be a great Mum; that all seems up in the air at the moment and I don't know what people are going to expect of me.

Edward I literally met you two months ago and I am two months pregnant, not really a great start to a relationship. I know that everyone in this room has been concerned about me, the trillion messages and voice mails prove that, and I know that you are all eager to know what I've decided.

But the thing is I don't know what I've decided and having you all ask me repeatedly what I'm going to do is starting to piss me off. I love you guys I really do, and that goes for my new friends, but stop pushing.

The baby is healthy, I'm healthy; actually my blood pressure is high but that's to be expected from an unplanned pregnancy; and the doctor sees no complications at the moment."

I don't know why I'd been holding my breath but the minute she said that both of them were healthy I felt a sigh leave my chest.

I interrupted her as gently as I could "Peaches, what do you mean when you say you 'haven't decided' what you're going to do? I mean if you're both healthy than we're going ahead with this, yeah?"

I couldn't get my brain to process the fact that she might want to get rid of our baby, even though it was the worst possible timing and we barely knew one another.


Bella's POV

I couldn't believe Edward as he sat there and pretty much ignored my 'I haven't decided anything' speech.

I could feel my anger swelling up inside me; it seemed to be a constant companion these days.

"Just what I fucking said Edward. I don't know what I want to do. I do know that I am not ready to have a baby right now. I don't think I am emotionally mature enough and I'm damn well not financially secure enough to care for a child.

Kids a really expensive and I would want my kids to be able to do things, like dancing or karate or music, instead of being told 'we don't have the money'.

I like you Edward and let's face it the sex is fabulous but do you seriously see yourself tied to me for the rest of your life because that's what having a kid together means.

No more getting blow jobs behind Jake's shop from some random skank, no more bringing home random one night whores because every other week the kid is with you."

I took a breath and glared at him, daring him to say something, and the stupid man didn't disappoint.

He frowned, the skin between his eyebrows puckering so sexily I wanted to jump him again, as he said quietly "I wouldn't need those random girls Peaches, cos you'd be with me.

Both of you would be with me, all the time, we'd be together, a family."

His soft words left me stunned, I felt my mouth drop open in surprise and I guess I wasn't the only one surprised by his words.

Emmett, choked on the mouthful of coke he's just taken; Jasper, Jake and James just stared open mouthed while Rose, Alice and Ness all sighed and put their hands on their chests like it was the most romantic thing they'd ever heard.

I looked into his eyes and realised that he was serious and I felt hard core panic set in.

I couldn't tie this beautiful man to me because we'd been reckless, he deserved to find a woman who could give him exactly what he needed, yes the thought of him with another faceless woman was painful but he deserved more than this.

Especially after how screwed up his life had been so far.

I shook my head and said "No, Edward. It would start out like that but you'd grow to resent us and that's not fair. I want what my parents had, what your parents have.

I want our child to be loved, forever, and I think the best way to achieve that is to adopt him/her out. I'm… I'm sorry… I can't" I leapt to my feet and ran out of the room, only my path was blocked.


Uh Oh! Any guesses about who it is that's standing in the door?

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