A/N - Okay you guys..I hope yall aren't disappointed..this is the last chapter to Coming home. It's not what I thought was going to happen..but..it just kind of played out that way. So..please review and tell me whether you liked it or not? and what you thought of the whole story overall? And thank you all for the support throughout the whole thing..I can never thank you guys enough because it means so much to me. And once again, I apologize for the updates lately..gotta hate school --..but um, thanks and leave one last review :)
Disclaimer - I do not own Instant Star
Chapter 27 - Make your choice
Jude's Pov -
He's walking away from me..again. And the movie plays..all the times he hurt me. All the times he walked away from me..from us. Everything I'd ever felt for him started to creep it's way back slowly and I bang my fist against the wall.
"Damn it Tommy, what the hell do you want from me?" I scream, drawing his attention.
He stops and stays completely still, listening.
"You told me you loved me..and now you're just going to leave me?" I ask, letting my emotions take guide.
"Jude.."
"No. I'm tired of your useless explanations.. you listen to me for once." I scream, tears falling swiftly down my face.
"I'm tired of waiting for you to get a clue. I'm tired of being the girl who sits around waiting for the one she cares about most in the world to stop whoring around and finally realizing that he has someone and has had someone all along who loves him."
I say, starting to walk towards him. He doesn't turn around.
"Don't you get that?" I ask.
He shakes his head to himself.
"You don't love me Jude.."
"How can you tell me who I love, Tommy? you're not me. You don't know how I feel" I say, matter-of-factly.
"You don't love me." He repeats. Doesn't he get that every time he says that it just gets me more angry?
"I'm not a kid. Don't tell me what I do and don't feel." I say.
He finally turns towards me, eyes glistening.
"You can't love me, Jude." He says, voice soft.
"Why? why can't I?" I ask, still allowing tears to fall.
"We've been over this. I'm no good for you, for anyone." He says.
I shake my head slowly.
"Let me be the judge of that." I say.
"It's too big of a risk..I don't want to break your heart."
"Too late, Quincy." I say, hitting him as hard as I can on the shoulder.
He falls back and hits the wall behind him.
"So you're just going to leave with that? Never give us a chance just because you don't trust yourself?" I ask.
He doesn't move. He's leaning against the wall with his head lowered. I didn't mean to actually hurt him..okay, so maybe I did. But can you blame me? So sick of these stupid mind games. I'm done with it all.
"Just answer already Tommy..I can't take this." I say, starting to seriously break down.
He looks up at me with actual tears in his eyes. His eyes are so sad..the saddest I've ever seen them.
He starts walking over to me, each step with more sadness than the last.
It feels like I barely know you..so why does it hurt so much?
Finally reaching me, a tear rolls down his face, helplessly..and he quickly wipes it away.
Your cries are raining down on me..and I won't move, I can't seem to budge
He leans down and his quivering lips softly brush my ear as he whispers "I'll always love you, girl."
And then he smiled and walked away..again.
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It's been a month since the incident. I can't help but still feel empty..
He's gone.
A/N - Please don't hate me? I know, it's not all Jommy cuteness..and believe me I LOVE JOMMY but..all my other stories had the Jommy ending and I thought it was getting kind of repetetive..so I left it like this. And whos to say they don't end up together? I left it with him LEAVING..thats it. I didn't necessarily split them up..we all know they'll find their way back to eachother. I think I'm trying to convince myself more than I am yall lol. But uh..I hope you liked it anyway? And sorry to say..there won't be a sequel. I probably wont have any new stories out for a LONG time cause of stupid school. Alright alright..thanks again yall and please review?
