I'm glad the camping chapter is finally over honestly lol. Glad you guys seemed to like it though. There's a little drama ahead for Mola, but you know, it wouldn't be degrassi without it... xx

Don't Wanna Know

That Monday, Miles and Lola walked into school together holding hands, tired and a little cranky. They were still exhausted from this weekend's camping trip.

"God, my feet are swollen," Lola said. She stopped in the hallway for a minute to catch her breath.

Miles sighed. "Are you sure you should be on your feet so much?" he asked worriedly.

Lola shook her head. "I'll be fine," she assured him. "My doctor says it's perfectly alright for me to be at school still."

Miles frowned. "I just don't like seeing you in pain."

"Well, in that case," Lola said, laughing, "you might want to tell our baby to stop kicking the crap out of me." She paused and held her stomach for a minute, wincing.

Miles put his arm around her. "Does it hurt really bad?" he asked, a little panicked.

Lola took a breath. "It's just... kicking a lot," she sighed, clutching her stomach. "I think I'd better sit for a second."

Miles seated her on one of the hallway benches and rubbed her back. He knew this was all normal, but he felt awful seeing her like this.

Lola leaned into his chest. "I hate feeling like this," she admitted. "All helpless and needy. It's so not me."

Miles kissed her forehead. "I'm sorry, baby," he said quietly.

Lola tried sitting up a little. "I mean, it's weird at school, having people staring at me all the time," she sighed. "And it's weird at home too. My dad still doesn't want to accept that his sixteen-year old is pregnant." She smoothed her hands over her stomach. "Sometimes, I still can't believe it either. Like, I'll catch a glimpse of myself in the mirror and not even recognize myself anymore." She sighed. "I don't know where that bubbly, bright-haired girl went."

Miles pulled her closer. "She's right here," he said. He took a deep breath. "And honestly Lola, I hope our kid turns out to be more like you than me."

Lola smiled at him and sighed. She loved him so much. She slowly pulled him into a kiss, savoring the feeling like it was their first. Her mind wandered back to that night at the party when they first kissed, the night their baby was conceived. They had been so caught up in the moment, so immersed in each other, that they didn't have time to stop and think.

He was so gentle with her that first time, not even aware that he was her first. He'd kissed her slowly and leaned into her neck, his warm body against hers, whispering, Does this feel good? and moaning softly into her ear.

Looking back on it, it had all happened so fast. One minute they were just kissing and the next they were taking each other's clothes off. Lola still didn't know what exactly made her decide to sleep with him that night. Maybe it was the way he made her feel wanted and special-- needed, even-- like no one else had. Maybe it was the way he looked into her eyes like he was studying her soul. Even now, she didn't quite know for sure.

Now, in the hallway, the two of them were still sitting there just holding each other and talking quietly when someone interrupted.

Lola turned away from Miles. "Saad," she said, surprised. "What's up?" They hadn't spoken much outside of class since their breakup.

Saad smiled at Lola and nodded awkwardly at Miles. "Hey," he said, "I was just wondering if we could maybe work on our chemistry project together? We got an A on our last one and I sure could use the grade points."

Without even looking at Miles, Lola agreed. "Sure, sounds good," she said right away. She hated to admit it, but his smile still made her blush a little.

Saad smiled. "Awesome," he said quietly. "So... want to work at my house Friday night? Say, around 5:30-ish?"

Miles glanced back and forth between the two of them. He didn't like the way Saad was looking at her-- and he didn't like the way she was looking back at him.

Lola just nodded. "Yeah, sure," she said, smiling. "See you then."

When Saad finally left, Miles turned to Lola. "Seriously?"

Lola shrugged at him. "What's the big deal?"

Miles just stared at her. "You just agreed to go to your ex's house -- alone-- and you really don't see the problem with that?"

Lola let go of his hand. "No, I don't," she said defensively. "It's for school. He and I are friendly, okay? Nothing more." She bit her lip. "And if you trusted me, you wouldn't have a problem with it either."

Miles sighed. "I do trust you," he said. "I just... I don't like the idea of you going there alone with him. Especially when you're seven months pregnant."

Lola stared at him. "What, so since I'm having your baby, I'm like, your property now?"

"What? No," Miles said quickly. "I didn't say that, I would never say that..." He sighed, tired and fed up. "Why are you being like this?" he snapped.

Lola just shook her head at him. "Whatever, Miles," she said, grabbing her bag. "I'll see you later."

Miles stood up with her. "God, what is your problem?"

Lola stared at him for a second, then laughed under her breath. "My problem?" she said, flabbergasted. "My problem is that I look like I'm carrying a bowling ball in my stomach, pretty much everyone is talking about me behind my back, and my boyfriend doesn't seem to trust me!"

Miles sighed. "Okay," he said, staring down at the floor. "You're right, I'm sorry." He bit his lip. "I do trust you..."

"Thank you," Lola muttered. She took a deep breath. "And I'm sorry too," she said quietly, "you know, for lashing out at you like that."

The bell rang for first period. "Okay well, I gotta get going," she said quickly, giving him a peck on the cheek. "I'll see you at lunch. I love you."

"Love you too," Miles whispered. He watched as Lola ran to her classroom for chemistry and Saad opened the door for her. He sighed. Just trust her, he reminded himself.