Ok, sorry it took so long to update….but I'm sure you know the drill by now. Fanfiction wouldn't let me sign on until yesterday….I was beyond mad….to say the least. I would have updated yesterday but I had the most stressful day at work, and it was a 12 hour day…so to say the least…..i came home and crashed.
So hopefully you won't be mad at me for long. I will be updating daily…because I want to do a day a chapter….so they will probably be a little shorter than normal…but you get updates everyday sooooo….that is worth it right????
Bella's POV
After Edward put Resenmee to bed we sat around for hours talking. It was really good to see everyone again. Rosalie and Alice had taken things really well, they were almost pro's from the minute they woke up from the change. They said the thing that helped was seeing Emmett and Jasper there waiting for them. They have become such a close family, I really wish they will let me back in.
When I finally grew so tired I couldn't keep my eyes opened, they forced me to go to bed. I really didn't want to but they told me they would be there in the morning. They were going to just hang out while Resenmee and I slept. It was weird to think that I was going to have vampires roaming around my house while I slept but I wouldn't have it any other way. They had offered to get a hotel but I wanted to spend as much time with them as I could and since they don't sleep they wouldn't have the need for sleeping accommodations.
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The next morning I woke up to the sounds of people laughing in the living room. It would have annoyed me because they woke me up but I was happy that my family was still here. I got out of bed and made my way into the living room. Everyone was in there including Resenmee. I looked around and everyone and smiled. This was heaven. I had missed them all so much, and it wasn't like I could open up to anyone I knew in Phoenix, because they would have me committed.
"Good Morning everyone….good morning sweetie…did you sleep well?" I asked everyone while I picked up Resenmee.
"Good morning Bell's" Emmett chuckled.
"Mmm… Morning" I said again.
I sat Resenmee back down and she ran over to Edward. It was amazing to me that she bonded with him so quickly. He was wonderful with her too, like I always knew he would be. Why did I have to take her away from him? I could mentally kick myself for the rest of my life for that one.
I walked into the kitchen to make breakfast for Resenmee and myself; eggs and bacon. Simple enough.
As soon as we were done with breakfast, we started talking about what the plans were for the day. Edward wanted to take Resenmee to the zoo, and since it was going to be cloudy all day it would be the perfect time to go. Emmett, Jasper and Alex were going to join them for the day and Rosalie and Alice were going to take me to the mall for some bonding time.
I was really looking forward to a relaxing day with my two best friends.
The shower situation was difficult though. We had 7 people needing to shower and I only had one bathroom. Luckily they all went at vampire speed so we got through it without any real problems.
Edward, Emmett, Jasper, Alex and Resenmee left the apartment to head to the zoo, and this left us girls to finish primping before a fun filled day at the mall. Finally around noon we made it to the mall and started shopping. This was definitely like old times, before all of the drama. The guys would head off to do their own thing for the day, and we would go to the mall and shop until we dropped. I missed those days.
After several hours of shopping we headed to the food court so I could get something to eat. I was STARVING….they had so much more energy now and could go for hours. We had a dozen bags already which they happily carried. I went and grabbed a piece of pizza and pepperoni breadsticks and met them at the table.
"Hey Bella, we were thinking about going out to a club tonight, what do you think?" Rosalie asked.
"I would love to go guys, but I would have to get a babysitter and I don't think I could get one last minute?" I sighed.
"We already have that all worked out. Resenmee goes to bed about 8:30 right? So Alex has agreed to stay behind and watch her and let all of us go out for the night" Alice chirped while she was bouncing up and down.
"Are you sure Alex doesn't mind?" I questioned.
"Nope, he doesn't mind at all" Rosalie countered.
"Alright, sounds good to me. I haven't been out on the town since Resenmee was born"
"GREAT" they both squealed together. They still had the cheerleader spirit.
"I'm excited. Have I told you guys how much I missed you" I questioned.
"Awe…Bella we missed you too" Alice said while faking a pout.
"Bella, I promised Alice I wouldn't ask but I have to know. Why did you really decide against changing? And why did you take Resenmee and run? You know we would never hurt her right?" Rosalie questioned. Alice looked furious with Rosalie for bringing it up.
"I told you guys why. I had to protect Resenmee" I sighed. I really didn't want to get into all of this.
"Bella, seriously, you know we would never hurt her" Rosalie huffed.
"Deep down I know that now, but at the time I was so afraid. My motherly instincts were telling me to run for the hills" I whispered.
"Bella, Bella, Bella, we are your family and family sticks together" Alice spoke up for the first time since this line of questioning. I half smiled at her.
"Thanks Alice, I just wish I wouldn't have screwed everything up" I was holding back the tears. I didn't want to cry.
"Bella, I know this had to be hard for you. Do you still love Edward" Rosalie questioned.
"I will always love Edward, but from the looks of it all he wants now is to be a father to Resenmee. He doesn't want me back, and I have to respect that. But I will love him forever" I sighed. The tears started falling down my checks. I quickly buried my face into my hands. I didn't want everyone to see me crying.
Rosalie started soothing me by rubbing circles on my back while she was trying to calm me down. Alice was hugging me and whispering that everything will work out. Will it work out? Not the way I want it to, that is one thing I am certain of.
After I stopped crying Alice and Rosalie didn't push the subject anymore, which was almost odd for them. But it proved my point more. I am sure if Edward still wanted me he would have said something to the group, and since they weren't trying to reassure me that Edward did still want me, it must mean that he doesn't.
Alice's POV
I knew it, I knew it, I knew it. Bella loves Edward still, she was just scared before. Edward loves Bella, but thinks she doesn't want him. They are two stubborn people, and I will have to do something about this. I will get my brother and my best friend back together, if it is the last thing I do.
Rosalie's POV
We were so right. Alice and I are going to have to do something about this little situation. Those two are miserable without each other. We will get them back together, if it is the last thing we do.
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Edwards POV
When we got back to Bella's apartment after a fun filled day at the zoo, Resenmee was exhausted. She missed her afternoon nap and could barely keep her eyes open. I went ahead and laid her down on her bed so she could get a quick nap, but not too long that would have her up all night. Alex wouldn't appreciate that I'm sure. If Bella agrees, we are all going out tonight. I was actually looking forward to it. It would be the first time that we all have got to act like us again, although Bella and I weren't together anymore.
Soon after we arrived home, the girls got back. From the looks of it, it would not surprise me if they bought out the whole mall. Bella looks absolutely exhausted, so she said she was going to take a nap while Resenmee was still sleeping. After Bella left the room, Alice and Rosalie started jumping up and down. They told us that Bella agreed to go out tonight. So they got busy looking up clubs on the internet. Once they found one, they called to make reservations for a private booth.
Then they said they wanted to go for a walk, and left us guys to wait for Bella and Resenmee to wake up. They were definitely acting weird, but I just shook it off. They were always weird.
When Bella woke up from her nap, she made herself something to eat. I went into the kitchen to keep her company. Jasper, Emmett and Alex were playing Xbox so I took advantage of this time to talk with Bella.
"Hey, want some company" I asked.
"Sure" she said while she was mixing some ingredients together.
"So, how's like treating you Bella" it seemed like an appropriate questioned, but she just shrugged her shoulders.
"Good I guess. I stay pretty busy with work and Resenmee. I don't get out much" she sighed.
I knew I was treading on thin water so I didn't want to say anything like I would have been there to help if you would have let me. I knew that wouldn't go over well. So I stuck to "You seem to be doing really well for yourself. I'm proud of you". That works much better.
"Thanks. It's definitely hard sometimes" she said.
"Your welcome" was all I could say. I really didn't know what else to say because I didn't want to get into a fight, and I didn't want to say anything that would make her feel pressured.
"So….things good with you" she questioned.
"There different. But we have all gotten really close, and its nice to have a.." I stopped myself from saying family because I didn't want to hurt her.
"Family" she finished my though.
"Yeah" I whispered.
"You can call them your family Edward. That's what they are. You all are my family too, even if we are apart"
"I know, I just didn't want to hurt you. I can't imagine what it would be like to be away from your family and friends"
"I know" she said while she placed a dish in the oven. It looked delicious but smelled horrible. Thanks to my new vampire senses, human food smelled disgusting.
I was about to ask her another question, but Resenmee bounced in the room and jumped up in my lap.
"Daddy…" she squealed.
"Hey baby, how did you sleep" I questioned.
"It was good" she got out of my lap and ran over to her mom and Bella picked her up. Resenmee kissed her on the check and gave her butterfly kisses. Bella is so good with her.
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Several hours later and we were all dressed and ready to go. I was the one to take Resenmee to bed and she shocked me with what she told me.
"Daddy, mommy still loves you" she sighed and she got more comfortable in the bed. I didn't know what to say to that. I didn't want to question my daughter about mine and Bella's relationship and I didn't want to give her false hope either if she was wrong. So I kissed her on the forehead and told her to sleep well.
When I walked back in the living room, Bella was finishing up telling Alex all of the emergency numbers and what do if this…or that… She actually looked nervous. Alice and Rosalie calmed her down and said everything would be alright, and if it wasn't then one of us good be here in a flash.
Once we made it to the club, we were escorted to our private booth. It was a nice club and was packed already. Bella looked stunning and I couldn't fight the urge to ask her to dance. We headed to the dance floor when Rhianna's Disturbia came on.
Bella immediately start smiling, and reminded me of the old Bella. She started dancing around me very seductively. It was almost too much to handle, but I kept myself in control…not from wanting to hurt her, but from wanting her.
What's
wrong with me?
Why do I feel like this?
I'm goin crazy now.
No
more gas in the red, can't even get it started
Nothin heard,
nothin said can't even speak about it
No more lies in my head,
don't wanna think about it
Feels like im goin insane,
yeah...
There's a theith in the night to come and grab you
It
can creep up inside you and consume you
A disease of the mind that
can control you
It's too close for comfort
Why don't you
bring life, here in the city of wonder
Ain't gonna play nice,
watch out you might just go under
Better think twice, you're train
of thought'll be altered
So if you must falter be wise
She turned around and pushed herself up against my chest and started lowering herself to the floor. I didn't even notice when the rest of gang came out on the dance floor. I was to busy trying to keep myself from ripping Bella's clothes off of her body. She looked absolutely breathtaking.
You're
life is in disturbia, it's like the darkness is light
Disurbia, am
I scarin you tonite?
Disturbia, it used to hunt your
lies
Disturbia, disturbia.
Bom bom bee dam bom bom bee dam
dam
Bom bom bee dam bom bom bee dam dam
Faded pictures on
the wall, its like their talkin to me
Disconnected on call, the
phone won't even ring
I gotta get out, or figure this ****
out
It's too close for comfort, ohh...
Why don't you bring
life, here in the city of wonder
Ain't gonna play nice, watch out
you might just go under
Better think twiice, you're train of
thought will be altered
So if you must falter be wise
You're
life is in disturbia, its like the darkness is light
Disturbia, am
i scarin you tonite?
Disturbia, it used to hunt your
life
Disturbia, disturbia.
Release me from this curse im
in
im tryin' to pretend but im strugglin
if you cant go, oh oh
oh oh oh
Think im gonna, oh oh oh oh oh yeah.
She turned around and wrapped her arms around my neck and started grinding on the front of me. This was so confusing. Bella didn't want me, this much I knew but she wasn't acting like it. She was acting like we did at school dances. She was smiling seductively at me, and it was almost too much to handle, but I wasn't about to stop it. I had Bella were I wanted her, even though I couldn't tell her that.
Why
don't you bring life, here in the city of wonder
aint goona play
nice, watch out you might just go under
better think twice, you're
train of thought will be altered
so if you must falter be
wise
You're life is in disturbia, its like the darkness is
light
Disturbia, am I scarin you tonite?
Disturbia, it used to
hunt your life
Disturbia, disturbia.
Bom bom bee dam bom
bom be dam dam
Bom bom bee dam bom bom be dam dam x2
When the song was over, we headed back to the booth. I had to have a few minutes to recover from that. Maybe I should ask her what that was about…I was definitely having mixed signals from her.
"Bella, not that I minded, but what was that" I asked.
"Sorry, I just got into the song. You have always been an amazing dancer, and I was so happy to be out dancing" she said
"Oh" was all I could muster. I knew I shouldn't get my hopes up.
"Edward, are you ok" she looked at me curiously.
"Yeah, I'm good"
"Ok, how do you feel about another dance later, if you want I mean. You don't have too"
"I would like that actually"
A couple songs later and a slow song started. This song hopefully would tell Bella everything I wanted to tell her. I looked over at her and gestured to the dance floor. She nodded and we headed over there. The song was "Far Away" by Nickleback.
This
time, This place
Misused, Mistakes
Too long, Too late
Who
was I to make you wait
Just one chance
Just one breath
Just
in case there's just one left
'Cause you know,
you know, you
know
I held Bella close. I wanted to breath in her scent. Even if we did not speak any words, I could almost feel the love being bounced between the two of us. Hopefully she understands that this song explains everything. I really hope she does, because right now I can't speak how I feel. I'm so afraid she will run away from me again, but I have to try. Bella is my everything, and so is Resenmee. She looked up at me with curiosity in her eyes, and I just pulled her back close to me.
[CHORUS]
That
I love you
I have loved you all along
And I miss you
Been
far away for far too long
I keep dreaming you'll be with me
and
you'll never go
Stop breathing if
I don't see you anymore
On
my knees, I'll ask
Last chance for one last dance
'Cause with
you, I'd withstand
All of hell to hold your hand
I'd give it
all
I'd give for us
Give anything but I won't give up
'Cause
you know,
you know, you know
She looked back up at
me and I could see the tears falling down her checks. I quickly
brushed them away and she laid her head back on my chest. This was
heaven, having Bella in my arms. I think she knows this song is for
her…and it's telling her I love her.
[CHORUS]
So
far away
Been far away for far too long
So far away
Been far
away for far too long
But you know, you know, you know
I
wanted
I wanted you to stay
'Cause I needed
I need to hear
you say
That I love you
I have loved you all along
And I
forgive you
For being away for far too long
So keep
breathing
'Cause I'm not leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold
on to me and, never let me go
Keep breathing
'Cause I'm not
leaving you anymore
Believe it
Hold on to me and, never let me
go
Keep breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
Keep
breathing
Hold on to me and, never let me go
When the song was over, I held my breath. Now would be the time for her to dart out the door and out of my life again. This could have either been a really good idea or the worst idea. She lifted her head up and stared in my eyes, almost as if she was looking in my soul. I stared back at her with the same intensity she was giving me.
I wanted so much to lean forward and kiss her but I wouldn't take the chance in her running away. Just as the thought came across my mind, Bella stood up on her tippy toes and leaned in and placed her lips to mine.
I was shocked, I didn't respond because truthfully I didn't know what to do. She pulled away and I could tell I hurt her for not responding. She starting to pull out of my arms but I tightened my grip on her hips and pulled her back to me. I leaned down and placed my lips back to hers. I could feel her smile against my lips as we started moving together. The kiss grew more passionate, and this was my true heaven.
Bella was back in my arms, and the love was radiating all around us.
Ok, so I said that chapter would be short but it turned into the longest chapter to date. There was so much to get in there, and I wanted to make the night at the club special.
Do you think they will be happy in the morning??? Or will their stubbornness or miscommunication get in the way again??
Did you like the last song choice?? I did.
Please review and let me know what you think……
You know you want too…..
Until next time
Sherrie
