Disclaimer: I… uhm… Okay. One moment please. –hides Draco in closet- They're not mine :D

A/N: I didn't forget to update, or anything of that sort. I just got caught up with schoolwork and my time became limited –dies- Finally a new chapter! lol It's been almost two weeks huh… pushing to three! I suck. o-o

I wish my school would blow up so that I don't have to go anymore xP

I need more sleep :(

P.S. I added a lemon in this chapter just to make up for the lateness. I wasn't even planning to write one, but oh well. :P

Thanks for all the wonderful reviews!

Chapter 29: Afterwards and Then…

Harry ran all the way back to the room he shared with Severus. He slammed the door shut none too gently, ran to the bed, and crawled on top of it where he curled into a fetal position. Harry drew his knees up to his chest and wrapped his sinewy arms around them. He let out a shuddering breath and calmed himself down.

The entries from the journal were all heartfelt words of Draco Malfoy.

And Harry read them.

It was as if he had opened a tightly locked door and released a torrent of unmentionables. They were things that weren't meant for him to read. Without doubt, Harry now knew for sure that Draco liked him. The blond had even wanted to tell him how he felt. It was just that chance wasn't on Draco's side. Harry sighed and clamped his eyes shut, willing all his emotional turmoil to go away.

"I'll… just pretend nothing happened," Harry told himself, "I never read his journal. I'll just tell him I left the cake in there and left right away. Yeah, that would work."

As Harry continued to tell himself he never even peeked at the black book, his breathing slowly evened out, until at last, he fell asleep.

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Severus came back to a very quiet house; it didn't look like it was somebody's birthday at all. He took off his black coat and hung it on the rack by the front door. He toed off his shoes and walked down the hallway. Severus stopped by the kitchen and found it dark; the lights were all turned off. His nose picked up the lingering scent of chocolate and deduced that Harry had already made the cake. Snape waved his hand in the air and the lights came on. His eyes fell upon the half eaten chocolate cake on the kitchen counter. Severus smiled; he knew Harry probably ate most of it himself. Snape picked up the platter of cake and placed it inside the fridge. He turned away and walked out. With another wave of his hand, he turned off the lights; Severus didn't want cake at the moment, he'll eat it tomorrow.

As the Potions Master continued his way to the stairs, he noticed that his godson was also missing.

"Strange… What happened here…? Did they both get sick from Harry's cooking?" Severus murmured; he placed his left hand on the railing and began ascending the stairs.

At the top, he glanced at the doorway to Draco's room; the mahogany door was shut. From all the times Draco stayed at his house, Severus assumed that Draco was either sleeping or doing something private in his room. With a shrug, Severus turned right and went to his room, all the while thinking it was way too early to sleep.

It was only nine for crying out loud!

The door to his own bedroom was also closed; Severus pressed his palm on the wooden panel and twisted the doorknob to open the door. The spacious bedroom was wrapped with inky darkness; there was a square of light that came from the window where the moonbeam shone through. Severus closed the door softly behind him and tiptoed his way over to the bed. As he neared it, he saw a shadowy lump in the middle of the bed, with soft snores coming from it.

"Harry?" Severus asked; he reached forward and touched Harry's curled up body.

Harry snorted and scrunched up his face, "Go 'way…"

He yawned and used the back of his hand to rub his eyes; in two seconds, Harry was snoring again.

Rolling his eyes, Severus bent over the sleeping figure on the bed and reached for a pillow. Albeit being in the dark, Severus aimed the pillow and smacked Harry right across the head. With a yelp, Harry flailed his arms and tried to fend himself from the attacking pillow.

"Okay! I'm up!" Harry yelled, his voice husky from sleep, "Stop slapping me silly with the pillow!"

Snape smirked and dumped the now somewhat flat pillow back on the bed. Harry rolled over and made space for Severus to sit.

"Why are you up here, sleeping, out of all things?" Severus asked; he smoothed his palm over the top of Harry's unruly hair, "I thought you wanted a small celebration."

Harry sucked in breath and held it for about five seconds before he let it out through his nostrils. He looked up wearily at Severus, who in turn, was peering down at Harry, waiting for an answer.

Harry blinked a few times, trying to focus on Severus' face, "Well, uh, after I made the chocolate cake, Draco said he didn't feel so well so he came up and went to bed. I ate three slices of cake myself."

Severus snapped his fingers; candles around the room lit up and flickered, forming shadows across the walls. Snape arched one delicate eyebrow at Harry.

"You ate three slices of cake?" Severus asked, frowning, "Did Draco eat any?"

"I… uh… brought a slice to him, but he was already asleep." Harry swallowed a lump in his throat.

He hated lying to Severus.

"Oh and I didn't open your present yet Sev!" Harry faked a smile; he was trying to change the subject.

Severus knew Harry was hiding something, judging from Harry's expression and reluctance to answer questions. He had been with Harry long enough to know that when the teen stuttered, he was hiding something. Right now, Harry had stumbled over words so much; Severus just knew there was something Harry wasn't telling him. But, he played along with Harry. For now.

"Really?" Severus smiled wryly; Harry pushed himself up and sat cross-legged on the bed.

"Yeah, I wanted to wait until you came back," Harry said; he reached into his pocket and pulled out the flat box, "Hope I didn't squash it when I slept…" Harry furrowed his eyebrows and chewed on his bottom lip, "I was wondering why my upper thigh was hurting."

Severus chuckled and tugged at Harry's arm. The teen clambered into Snape's parted legs and sat between the limbs. Harry leaned back against Severus' solid chest and cradled the small box in his hands. Instinctively, Severus wrapped both of his arms around the slim waist. The Potions Master dropped his chin on Harry's shoulder and kissed the brunet's earlobe.

"Well, what are you waiting for?" Severus whispered against the shell of Harry's ear, "Open it."

Harry shuddered lightly from the puffs of Severus' warm breath. With nimble fingers, Harry ripped the wrapping, revealing a black leather box. Harry let out a soft gasp and twisted his head so that he could see Severus face. Snape smiled and kissed Harry on the lips.

"Go on Brat, open the box," Severus urged, "Hope you like what I got you… It took me awhile to know what to get."

Harry sighed happily before he turned away from Severus' lips and pried open the black box. Nestled within a dark, violet satin cloth was a jet black Raven feather quill. Harry's mouth formed an 'o' as he gingerly plucked the quill out from its satin bed. The black leather box dropped from his hands as Harry ran his fingertips across the expanse of the black feather. The texture was soft and light, great for a quill. The tip was made of gold and as Harry peered closer at it, he found his initials carved in cursive.

"I-This is beautiful Sev," Harry whispered in awe; he waved the feather around in the air. Severus chuckled behind him and held Harry tighter.

"You don't need to worry about ink bottles anymore Brat and I won't have to worry either," Severus said, "Last time you were writing letters on the ground, I almost had a heart attack when you knocked a bottle over."

Harry puffed out his cheeks, "I cleaned it up didn't I?"

"After I told you ink was spilling," Severus cut in, "If I didn't tell you, I'm sure you would've been rolling around in black ink."

"You're just telling me I'm careless."

"Yes I am," Severus answered; the response earned him a smack on his calf from Harry.

The brunet twisted his body until he could press his face into Severus' shirt. Harry then held Severus and hung on as if his life depended on it. He took in a deep breath and snuggled deeper into Snape's chest.

"Thank you Severus…" Harry murmured; he rubbed the tip of his nose on the black dress shirt Severus was wearing, "I-I… Thanks."

Severus could feel Harry's lips curved downward through his shirt. He shifted his hand until he laid his palm on the back of Harry's head; he started stroking the teen's hair with his fingers. Harry sighed and started playing with the buttons on Severus' shirt.

"What happened Harry?" Severus deadpanned; he tone left no room for arguments.

Harry stopped fumbling with the tiny buttons and looked up into the dark, inky depths of Severus' eyes.

"It's… nothing."

"Don't tell me it's nothing. I've been with you long enough to know your expressions." Severus scowled at Harry, "And don't even think of telling me otherwise."

"You're too damn observant," Harry mumbled glumly, "You notice everything."

"Of course," Severus sneered, "Now, what happened in this house during the past nine hours?"

"I… Look Sev," Harry said pleadingly, his green eyes looked sadly at Severus, "It's my birthday today, and I don't want… to ruin the night by talking about what happened. Can't I tell you tomorrow or something?" Harry chewed his bottom lip, "Please?"

Severus took in the wide, pleading green eyes and the pouting lips before he sighed and nodded at his lover. Harry sent Snape an appreciative smile before shifting around between Severus' legs. He sat back, on his knees, and pressed both of his warm palms on the front of the Potions Master's shirt.

"Now that I'm done with opening presents…" Harry started; his fingers found their way to Severus' buttons again and began to unbutton them, "We should have a little celebration of our own. Just the two of us." Harry looked up at Severus, his smile filled with lust, "What do you say?"

Severus chuckled deep in throat. He knew exactly what Harry was talking about and wasn't about to disagree with him. With a small growl, Severus swooped down and claimed Harry's red, plump lips. The teen's eyes fluttered close and parted his lips for Severus. The older man took this chance to slip his tongue into the sweet cavern that was Harry's mouth. The Gryffindor groaned as both of their tongues danced together in a sweet tango.

"Severus… I love you so, so much…" Harry murmured as he pulled away from the deep, luscious kiss, "Never doubt I love you. Nothing will change the way I feel."

Severus closed his eyes, his breathing came in harsh pants. He pressed his slightly sweaty forehead against Harry's.

"I love you, too Brat," Severus whispered through each intake of breath, "I will never doubt. Ever."

"Good, I just want you to know." Harry smiled wanly and gave a peck on the tip of Severus' nose, "I cherished every day that I'm with you. I don't regret any of it." Tears were making their way out of Harry's eyes; he held it back the best he could.

"Harry… Why are you saying all this?" Severus asked; he was starting to worry. Then, Severus blinked as a drop of moisture landed on his cheekbone. "Harry, what's wrong?"

"Shh…" Harry shushed Severus with a press of fingertip on the older man's thin lips, "Nothing's wrong… I'm just getting emotional." Harry pulled back and gave Severus a watery smile. He did nothing to get rid of his tears; Harry just let them trail down his face.

Severus frowned and cradled the teen's head in his hands. He used the pad of his thumbs to brush the teardrops away.

"Harry…"

Harry shook his head and took Snape's hand in his own. "Remember, I said I'll tell you everything later." He brought the long fingers to his lips and kissed each one, lovingly. "I love you." Harry said again. "We have the whole night ahead of us, let's use it properly shall we?"

Severus couldn't help but smiled as Harry said those words. Yes, they had a whole night ahead of them and Severus planned on using every minute to show just how much he loved Harry.

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Clothes were thrown in every corner of their bedroom. Shoes were tossed aside, along with their socks. Even Harry's glasses were carelessly set aside in their haste to see each other without the cloth barriers. Two sweaty, panting, naked bodies laid on top of the bed, with Harry writhing with pleasure underneath the weight of Severus' body pressed on top. Severus was straddling Harry's muscled thighs, his hands pinned the brunet's hips down, preventing the younger man from thrusting upward.

Oh how Severus Snape loved to torture his young lover. Watching Harry beg, begging for his heated touches. Seeing Harry's face contort with pleasure and pain from arousal; he enjoyed every expression Harry made. Severus slowly pushed himself up from Harry's thighs and kneeled between the wantonly parted legs. He moved his warm hands from Harry's hips and slid them down the thigh, and inward to the inner thighs where he knew it was one of Harry's sensitive spots. Snape put fluttering touches to the heated skin; Harry moaned as Severus' fingers went higher and higher, closer to the one place he wanted the Potions Master to touch most.

"Sev… Severus, please…" Harry begged; his face tinged red, lips parted, "I want… I need…"

Severus smirked and let his hands travel higher, deliberately avoiding the aroused member.

"What do you want Harry?" Severus purred; he moved his body up, his hands moving up as well until he reached Harry's perked nipples. He gave the darkened buds a pinch. "Tell me."

Harry gasped in slight pain, but mostly pleasure, when Severus gave his sensitive buds a pinch. Harry looked down, through half-lidded eyes, at Severus.

"Love me Severus."

Snape stopped rolling Harry's nipples between his forefinger and thumb and moved up higher until he was face to face with Harry. Severus leaned down and sucked on the salty flesh of Harry's neck, right on the pulse. He nibbled on the skin, sucked until he was sure Harry was going to have a mark. Harry groaned loudly above him and Severus smiled against the tortured flesh. He released the patch of skin from his teeth and once again looked down at Harry. By now, the green eyed teen was thoroughly ravished.

"As you wish Harry, your wish is my command."

Severus lowered his head, and started to trail small, butterfly kisses down Harry's torso. He left wet kisses on Harry's chest, soft chaste kisses on Harry's abdomen, and nipped at Harry's hips. Harry mewled and thrashed his head side to side. The pleasure Severus was giving him proved to be too great. He just wanted Severus to be joined with him and he wanted it now.

"Sev…" Harry moaned; he snaked his hands and grasped Severus' black, silky hair. He gave it a tug and Snape looked up at him, his face flushed.

"Be patient love," Severus whispered, "All in good time…"

Snape resumed what he was doing. He went lower until his eyes were leveled with Harry's extremely hard cock. Severus smirked and watched a drop of pearly white pre-cum formed at the tip. Severus sat back on his calves and wrapped his long fingers around the aroused flesh. Harry howled as he felt the coldness from Severus' hand came in contact with his heated, aroused member. It was to the point where it hurt.

Severus tugged and jerked on the rock hard cock. He smeared the pre-cum with his thumb, smoothed it across the head and lowered his lips and blew on the wet dome.

"Oh god, oh god…" Harry babbled, "I'm going to…"

Severus chuckled and squeezed the base of Harry's shaft, "Not yet Harry."

Harry whimpered above and bit down on his lip; his eyes clamped shut and nodded for Severus to go on. The next thing Harry felt on his cock was the warmness of breath, then the wetness of Severus' tongue.

"HOLY SHIT!" Harry screamed as Severus wrapped his lips around the sensitized flesh, "Shit! Shit! Shit!" Harry's hands tightened around the bed sheet.

A ripped bed sheet was the least of his worries.

Since Severus had his mouth around Harry's hard cock, all he did was hum around the thickness of the flesh. Severus went deeper, his eyes watered as his gag reflex kicked in. He breathed through his nose and relaxed. Severus sucked, his tongue molded perfectly underneath the cock. Severus felt every ridge, every bump of the warm member. This was their first time, and he made sure Harry enjoyed it. From the sounds the younger man made, Severus was quite sure Harry was enjoying it.

"Ohh… I can't hold…" Harry moaned; his fists were still clenched around the bed sheet.

Snape's tongue swirled around the head, pressed it down on the slit and tasted a bitter saltiness. He sucked harder on the cock, his cheeks hollowed. With his left hand, Severus went on to massage Harry's tight balls, rolled them around in his fingers. When he felt them tightened and heard Harry's pants becoming more rapid, Severus let go and just kept on sucking and swirling his tongue around the shaft. With a shout, Harry let go and shot his seeds down Severus throat. The thick, bitter liquid trailed down and Severus sucked out every last drop. Hearing and then seeing Harry's body twitch became Severus' undoing. His own neglected arousal came to a peak and Severus came just from seeing his lover climaxed. His semen dripped down to the extremely disheveled bedspread.

Harry's cock pulsed as the last of the orgasm subsided. Severus pulled away and the softening cock came out with a small 'pop'.

Harry's fingers slowly unclenched and then his whole body went limp, except for his heaving chest. It was the most amazing blowjob… Well, it was his first but it was still amazing.

"That was… That was…" Harry gasped; Severus moved off from Harry's body and crawled next to him and lay down. Snape smiled and turned to his side.

"How was it?"

Harry grinned and turned to his side as well. He moved his head and kissed Severus; he could taste himself on those thin lips.

"That was the best birthday present ever!" Harry laughed tiredly; he yawned and snuggled into Severus' chest. "Now, it's time for sleep."

"Mmm…" Severus hummed; he threw an arm across Harry and pulled the teen closer to him.

Minutes passed by and Severus had thought Harry was asleep already, judging from the light, even breathing coming from the teen. He was about to drift off himself when Harry shifted against him. A cool fingertip started making patterns on his lower abdomen.

"I… found out something I shouldn't have today," Harry murmured against Severus' chest.

Severus said nothing; he knew Harry was referring to what had happened during his absence. Snape rubbed Harry's back, a gesture telling the younger man to continue. Harry did.

"I wasn't lying when I said Draco left to his room, but it wasn't because he wasn't felling well… Something else happened," Harry said, "He asked why I never had a party before and I told him how my relatives hated me and all." Harry took in a breath and rubbed his nose on Severus' chest, "I told him how they thought I was a freak and I got all emotional and started crying. Draco comforted me… I was glad he was there to hold me and stuff…"

Severus pulled his hand from Harry's back and made the teen look up at him.

"He was comforting you, that's understandable." Severus said, "Your relatives were horrible people and I know talking about your pasts are painful for you. Actually I'm quite glad Draco was there while I was not."

"I… That wasn't all that has happened," Harry sniffed; his eyes were watery again, "Draco he… He--"

Severus sighed and ruffled Harry's already messy hair affectionately; Harry sobbed at the loving gesture.

"Did he say something offensive to you?" Severus asked; his eyes hardened. If his godson did anything…

Harry shook his head, "It… No."

"Then tell me, what did Draco do?"

Harry took a deep breath. It was now, or never. Harry chose not to lie to his lover. He'll tell Severus the truth. He deserved to know, even if it meant Severus hating him afterwards. Harry closed his eyes and let the tears fall.

"He kissed me Sev… Draco told me he loves me. He loves me."

At that moment their perfect world…

Shattered.

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A/N: -bows apologetically- omgosh! I'm very sorry! D: Three weeks! I haven't updated this story for three weeks! T-T Well, erm… here's the newest chapter o-o; Hope you guys enjoyed :D

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