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A/N: Thank you for reading and for reviewing! It does make me smile knowing people are still reading this. I hope you all are enjoying the festive times. I know I am. :- )
This is another short chapter, but I think some of you all that have been missing the citrus will be happy. I figured we needed a nice happy chapter before they headed back to New York.
The song is by another Hawaiian band and you can find them and this song on iTunes. And I had to laugh hysterically earlier…yesterday I was walking around the hotel I have Bella, Edward, & friends staying at. Heh…good inspiration for this story.
Let the world know I'm yours, I'm yours
Could you hear it in my voice
See it in my eyes
That I'm yours
Forever will I hold you in my arms
God knows we will never ever part
Oh no matter what the season brings
Every season I am yours
I'm yours, I'm yours
No matter what the season brings
No matter what this season brings
I'm yours
-Opihi Pickers, "I'm Yours"
Chapter 28: I'm Yours
BPOV
"So you and Edward seem to have made up."
Alice's statement had caught me relatively off guard. Our whole conversation in the car and our mutual seeming breakdowns was two days ago, but no one had approached either one of us about it until now. Edward was currently with the men, two children, Esme, and Sue at the Honolulu Zoo while I was with Alice and Angela shopping at Ala Moana Shopping Center.
"Um…" I bit my lip, "Yeah, we're fine."
"Good!" She chirped as she seemingly glided to another rack of clothing in Nordstrom, "I knew you guys would work everything out as soon as you got some time alone."
I nodded as I continued to browse through the racks of men's clothing we were currently looking at. I had a black pinstripe shirt on my arm for Edward and was looking at a plaid, sort of cowboy-ish looking red, white, and blue shirt. I couldn't believe that we were only going to have one more day tomorrow and then we were heading back to New York. Though we agreed not to talk or think about things relating to my lack of pregnancy, I couldn't help but be worried. What if there was something wrong with Edward? What if something happened during the surgery? What if something happened to me since I was checked out? What if-
"Where did Angela go?"
I was snapped out of my thoughts and shook my head, scolding myself internally. Edward and I had promised each other that we wouldn't think negatively and wouldn't dwell anymore while we were here in Hawaii. I glanced around. Sure enough, Angela wasn't with us anymore.
"I don't know," my brows furrowed. Alice and I started walking towards the men's shoes when we saw Angela coming from the opposite direction, a cup of something in her hand. She blushed and bit her lip.
"I'm sorry you guys. I really, really wanted something cold and the gelato bar sounded too good to pass up."
"And you went without us," Alice pouted.
"Like you need any more sugar in you," I teased, "Though gelato does sound amazingly good."
We headed back towards the gelato bar, pausing briefly at the children's section. Angela was practically swooning over all of the baby stuff, though she was trying her best to hide it. I knew she was doing it for my benefit, and well I did feel a mild pang of jealousy in my heart, I was really happy for she and Ben. They had looked after E.J. numerous times for me before Edward and I had found each other again, and they were going to be great parents to some very lucky boy or girl. After promising we could come back to this section afterwards, Alice led the way to the gelato bar.
Angela settled into a seat with her one scoop each of chocolate and raspberry gelato. I soon joined her with my strawberry and chocolate, and Alice plopped down next to us with just a chocolate cup. It was so creamy and sweet and delicious, I almost moaned out loud in delight.
"So Bella," Alice started, "big plans for you and Edward tonight?"
I almost choked on the gelato I had in my mouth. After Edward and I had made up a couple of days ago, Sue insisted that she watch E.J. tonight and let Edward and I celebrate our last few nights here. My period had ended yesterday, and I was more than looking forward to spending some time with Edward with no worries. I still couldn't help but let my mind drift towards the possibilities of what could wait for us when we got back to New York.
"Bella, where'd you go just now?" Angela said, placing her cup on the table.
"Oh!" I jumped, "Um…it was noth-"
"DO NOT say 'nothing' Isabella Marie Swan!" Angela practically growled, "I know you better than that, now spill!"
I stared blankly for a few seconds. I think Angela was spending just a little too much time with Alice lately. I could tell Alice must've been thinking the same thing as she tried to hide a smirk behind her hand. I couldn't help but sigh, deciding I needed to tell someone other than Edward what I was scared of.
"It's just…we've been trying to get pregnant for weeks now. I went to the doctor before we started trying and he said that I was perfectly healthy and in prime condition to have a baby. I just…when we talked a few days ago, Edward raised the point that it might be him. That something might be wrong with him. That maybe something happened to him in the surgery and now he can't have children. I'm just so scared. I don't want it to turn out to be something serious!"
"Bella! Bella, breathe…it's going to be okay," Alice said, quickly reaching across the table and grasping my hand, "Also remember that you've been putting so much stress on yourself to get pregnant. All of the stress and pressure can't be good for your body."
"Bella, everything will be okay. Even if Edward is sterile, there's still other options," Angela said gently.
"I know," I sniffled, feeling those damn traitor tears of mine starting to collect, "I just…I want him to be 100% healthy you know? I just want Edward to have the perfect life he deserves."
"And you don't think he has that already?" Alice scoffed, "Bella, to Edward, this is the perfect life. Having you and E.J. in his life has made it perfect these past few months. If you guys continue to add to your family, it'll just add to the perfection in his eyes. Edward loves you more than anything in this whole world, aside from E.J. You make his life perfect Bella."
"I-"
"Bella, you didn't see him before you came back. I know that you've heard this all before, but trust me when I say that you are his life now…you and E.J. both, and any other little bundle of joy that may come along."
Alice was grinning widely at me and I couldn't help but smile back in return at both she and Angela. I felt better telling them about what I was scared about. Edward and I had made the agreement not to talk about it again until we got back to New York, but I felt so much better now that I had gotten things off of my chest. Soon we were walking out of the gelato bar and Alice stopped us, looking to her left.
"Ladies, I say we pick out some little surprises for our men."
Of course, the lingerie section. I hadn't packed any since E.J. was staying in the room right next to us and Edward and I probably would've taken no time for romance or foreplay and just gotten busy as quickly as possible. I had to admit, for once, I was willingly agreeing with Alice. I picked out a lacy blue set since I knew Edward seemed to love me in blue. The bra and panty set was a pale blue with navy and cream lacing around it. I hoped that Edward would love it.
We continued to browse around the mall. It was huge and open aired, and I loved the feeling of the sun on my skin. We went to a couple of the surf stores and bought more things for our boys. I got Emmett a shirt that said "Eh, I not late. I stay on Hawaiian time." The boy in the store explained to me that it was a sort of known that local people were very relaxed and laid back, and as a result were often late to things. I wasn't so sure I understood his explanation fully, but it sounded like something Emmett would find funny. I found a onesie for Rosalie that said "Lil' Surfer" on it and figured she would love it. She and Emmett were waiting to find out what they were having. She was due at the end of May.
Thankfully, we had driven a car over to the mall because between the three of us, there was no way we would've been able to carry all of our bags if we caught a taxi or took the trolley that ran through Waikiki. When I got back up to the room I called Edward. He said they were all eating some "shave ice" (as we were told they were NOT called "snow cones" here by Ryan, the young man who worked at the front desk of our hotel) and they would be back shortly. I decided a nap would be good since I planned on not sleeping very much tonight. I couldn't help but let a wide smile spread across my face as I fell into a deep sleep.
It seemed like it had only been mere seconds before I felt soft kisses being peppered across my face and I heard E.J.'s little giggle.
"Daddy! Not in front of me!"
I couldn't help but smile and I heard Edward chuckle as his lips pressed firmly against my own. I returned it fully despite our son's squeals of protest. Soon enough I felt a small body join Edward and I on our bed and E.J.'s extra weight on top of me. Edward laughed and rolled over as E.J. laughed loudly.
"You're squishing me Daddy!"
I opened my eyes and sat up, laughing as Edward lay on his back on top of E.J. I saw E.J.'s crazy hair sticking up behind Edward's shoulders and I saw little hands moving frantically trying to push Edward away.
"Daddy! No fair!"
"Do you hear something Bella?" Edward laughed. I smiled. E.J. loved to jump on Edward and wrestle with him. I couldn't help but love watching them when they did. It was just something that was so…so father & son about it that I loved.
I laughed, "Come on you two. We should get ready for dinner."
Edward pouted and I heard E.J. shout "Mommy!" I stood and went over to my bag but not before I heard Edward get up off the bed. When I turned around I saw E.J. leap from the bed onto Edward's back.
"GOTCHA!"
I shook my head and laughed so hard my stomach hurt as I watched Edward "give up" and E.J. tackled him to the bed again. My heart swelled with the love I had for my boys. I shook off the nagging feeling I had about the possibility that there was something wrong with Edward. I snapped out of it when E.J. proudly proclaimed his victory over Edward to me.
"I got him Mommy!"
I watched as E.J. went tumbling off the bed, and I couldn't stop myself from lurching forward as he did so. I still panicked every time I saw him stumble. He had unfortunately inherited that trait from me. Laughing and quickly standing, E.J. ran to me and threw his arms around my waist.
"I tackled him Mommy! Did you see?"
I smiled down at him and nodded. "I saw buddy. Why don't you go get ready for your shower and I'll be in to help you in a bit okay?"
"Okay!"
I couldn't wipe the smile off my face as I turned around to look at Edward. I really shouldn't have. He was lying there on his side, propped up on his elbow, smirking at me with that crooked grin of his. I had to do everything in my power to keep from going any closer. I would surely jump him and I'm pretty sure he knew it.
"I…I need to go help E.J…" I trailed off.
Before I knew what happened Edward was on his feet and had me wrapped up in his arms and his lips were everywhere. I gasped and I could barely catch my breath.
"Ed…Edward…"
He growled as his lips sucked at my neck, "I haven't seen you all day."
"Later Edward…later…I promise…" I panted as he pressed his hips into mine and I felt his obvious excitement.
"I'm going to hold you to that," Edward panted as he rested his forehead against my own.
"I promise," I whispered. With another growl Edward placed another kiss on my neck and let me go, swatting my butt as I went. I sighed. Tonight couldn't seem to get here fast enough.
We all went out to eat at this restaurant called Tanaka of Tokyo. Their chefs cooked in style that we were told was called "teppan-yaki" and they used table top grills and did all the cooking right in front of us. E.J. and Nessie got a huge kick out of it, and I'm not going to lie, I was incredibly entertained as well. The chef made a volcano for E.J. and Nessie out of onion slices and lit it on fire. The fountain of flames was at least two feet high and ALL of us ooh-ed and ah-ed at that. The food was also delicious and it really was a good way to wrap up our vacation. Tomorrow night we were heading to a luau at the Polynesian Cultural Center.
E.J. was incredibly excited to be spending the night with Nessie, Alice, and Jasper. Alice had all kinds of crafts planned for them. She spent a good part of the afternoon picking up materials for them to use tonight. I really hoped Jasper was okay with this. I asked him multiple times during dinner and he insisted he was fine. He didn't mind being "Mr. Whitlock" even though we were on vacation.
After sending E.J. off with Alice and Jasper, everyone else seemed to head their separate ways. I was admittedly a little nervous about tonight. Edward and I hadn't been intimate since we were in New York, and no matter how much my body wanted him, I was still nervous.
"Would you like to go for a walk with me?"
Edward looked so handsome in his khaki shorts and white button down there was no way I would have ever said no. Alice demanded I wear the teal dress that I had brought with us that she designed, and Edward had looked at me with that hunger in his eyes all night after he saw me step out of the bathroom wearing it. I nodded and Edward laced his fingers through mine as he led us through the lobby and started heading down towards the beach. There was a nice breeze blowing through the air that was delightfully warm and wrapped around us in the most comforting way.
I relished in the smell of the clean air and the salty smell that combined with it. It was nice to smell air that wasn't heavy with exhaust or garbage as I found was all too common sometimes in New York City. Edward hadn't said anything as we walked, but he had a small smile on his lips. There was nothing I wanted to say in this moment either. Edward and I had always been comfortable in our silences and now was no exception. I had to wonder if he was thinking about the same things I was. E.J. was staying with Alice and Jasper for the night and we had the room to ourselves.
When we got to the beach Edward took off his slippers and I slipped off the ballet flats I had on and let my feet sink into the sand. I had to admit that the sand felt amazing slipping between my toes as Edward and I walked along. Before long Edward sat down in the sand and pulled me into his lap quickly. I squealed as I landed in his lap and Edward quickly placed a big kiss on my cheek. As I settled myself between his legs, I leaned back into his chest and let myself enjoy the scenery before me.
The moon was nearly full and the sky was clear, letting the moon shine brightly and leave a silvery-blue reflection on the water. The waves rippled and I could hear the faint crash against the shore. Edward's arms wrapped around my waist and I sighed contentedly as I heard him inhale deeply.
"It's so beautiful," I whispered.
"Not as beautiful as you my love," Edward whispered into my ear. I couldn't help but shiver as I turned my head to look at him. His eyes were dark and I could hear his breathing pick up. Before I could even blink his lips were on mine and my hand was buried in the hair and the nape of his neck. I couldn't stop the moan that bubbled up from my lips and Edward broke away, resting his forehead against mine.
"Let's go back to the room…"
"I thought you'd never ask," I panted.
I squealed as I was suddenly pulled up to my feet and Edward was nearly dragging me back towards the hotel. We were laughing loudly at each other's excitement and I tripped several times in our haste to get back to our room. I knew there was a bunch of different people that we had passed on our way to the elevators, who were staring at us like we were crazy, but I really couldn't have cared. The glint in Edward's eyes made me feel like a giddy teenager again as the elevator doors opened. I was beyond grateful that we were alone in the elevator because as soon as the doors closed, I found myself pressed up against the wall and Edward's hands and lips everywhere.
"Edward…" I moaned as his lips fastened themselves to my neck. I knew there was a security camera in here, but I was too worked up to even care. Edward moaned in response as he ground his rock hard arousal against my hips.
"You have no idea how badly I want you…" Edward all but growled against my skin. The tone of his voice made me shiver and I could feel myself getting wetter by the second.
When the elevator dinged and announced our arrival to our floor, Edward picked me up and I instinctively wrapped my legs around his waist, pressing myself closer to him. He groaned as I pressed myself against him tighter and let my lips attack his neck. I couldn't get enough of him and I felt like I was in some sort of Edward induced frenzy. Everything about him made me want to take him and never let him go. It had been far too long since I felt his bare skin pressed up against mine in the most delicious of ways.
"Fuck Bella..." Edward moaned as I nipped and sucked along the sharp angle of his jaw.
"That's what we'll do as soon as you get the door open…" I whispered, earning another groan from Edward before I found myself pressed up against our door and felt him fumbling to get the key out of his pocket. When the door finally clicked open, I felt like I was flying as Edward practically ran through the hall and into our bedroom.
"Wait…wait…" I panted, as I felt Edward's hands tugging at the straps of my dress. He was breathing hard when he finally pulled back to look at me. His eyes were wild and lustful, and his hands gripped my hips tightly. I carefully walked us over to the bed and pushed Edward down to sit. He looked at me confused, as I stepped back.
"Just wait…" I whispered.
His eyes stayed fixed on me as I slowly began to unzip the back of my dress and slip the straps slowly from my arms. I turned when they were near my elbows and let my back face Edward. My face felt like it was on fire. The only other time I had done something like this for Edward was thwarted on Valentine's Day, when he took over and insisted on having his way that night. I heard Edward gasp as I let the dress fall to the floor and exposed the pale blue, navy, and cream lingerie set I had bought this afternoon. I turned to look over my shoulder at him, and I saw his chest heaving while his hands were fisted tightly into the sheets, like he was doing everything in his power to stay there.
I couldn't help but smirk as I turned around and reached back to unclasp the bra. I popped the snap and it was my turn to gasp when I suddenly felt Edward's large hands on my stomach and his hot breath in my ear.
"Please…" His voice was practically begging, "Let me…"
I nodded and barely contained my gasp as Edward's hands began to slide up my stomach and underneath my now loosened bra. My nipples were instantly hard as his hands grazed over them and his voice was in my ear again, heavy with want.
"You're so beautiful my Bella…so, so beautiful."
I gasped loudly as Edward's hands moved up to my shoulders, sliding my bra down my arms and pressing my back against his body. I could feel his arousal pressing long and hard into my back, and I practically whimpered. It had been far too long.
I watched as Edward kept one hand massaging one of my breasts and the other removed my bra from me. I could feel Edward smirk against my skin as he held the bra up in front of us.
"Definitely keep this one. The colors look phenomenal against your skin."
"Edward…" I moaned as he began to suck on my neck.
"Mmmm…as much I liked seeing it on you, you look even better with it off."
Edward slowly began turning my body around to face him, his hands gliding over the now overheating flesh of my stomach and back. When I was facing him again, he cupped one of my cheeks and pulled it up to look at him. His gorgeous green eyes were filled with nothing but love and I couldn't help but be slightly overwhelmed by the look in his eyes. After everything we had went through in the past and even on this vacation alone, Edward was still here and he was still loving me.
"You look so beautiful Bella," he whispered before pressing his lips gently to mine. Him telling me I looked beautiful got me every time. My hands slowly snaked up between us and came to rest on his chest, and he moaned as he deepened our kiss, letting his tongue dance with mine.
I slowly began to fumble with the buttons on his shirt and Edward broke our kiss, only to move to my neck. He let out a loud moan against my skin as my hands finally came into contact with his bare torso. I let my hands glide across the smooth skin as I pushed the flimsy material off his shoulders and let it fall to the floor. I moved my arms to wrap around Edward's back and he push us closer, our bare skin pressing against each other.
Edward groaned, his arousal trapped between us, pressing against my stomach, "Bella...Bella, I love you so much."
I shivered as he continued to suck on the base of my neck, knowing full well I would be sporting a mark tomorrow, but not finding it in me to care in the slightest. Edward's large hands splayed across my back as he smoothed them over my skin. I let out some unidentifiable sounds as Edward's hands moved under the waistband of my panties and cupped my ass fully. He almost lifted me off the ground as he pressed his hips into me. Slowly his hands began to tug the lacy material down my legs, and his lips descended as he went, nipping and sucking along my breasts and stomach, until he was lifting my feet to step out of the panties and I was nearly reduced to a liquid mass on the floor.
Edward scooped me up in his arms and soon I was met with the plush sheets of our bed, and his solid form hovering over me. His kiss was gentle and soft at first before he moved on to my jaw and throat. My hands found themselves going from being buried in his hair to gripping the muscles of his shoulders and back. My body burned everywhere that his lips touched and when I felt them where I was burning the most, I screamed in pure need.
Edward chuckled, "I love your sounds love…let me hear you…"
He certainly heard me. If I hadn't been told when we checked in that these suites had soundproof walls, I would've been embarrassed. If they weren't, I'm sure you could've heard me on the outer islands. I was panting heavily and completely unable to move a single limb as Edward crawled back up my body, his lips grazing ever so lightly across my skin. When he hovered centimeters away from my mouth, I summoned all the strength I could, and closed the distance between us. Edward moaned as our tongues danced and I tasted the true essence of myself mixed with him. He broke our kiss panting heavily, his arousal pressing into my thigh.
"God Bella…" he groaned, "I don't think there's a more beautiful site in this world than you when you lose yourself."
I chuckled softly, "I beg to differ."
Pushing him lightly on his shoulders, Edward got the idea and rolled over on to his back. There was truly no more beautiful sight in this world to my eyes, than Edward Cullen. He inhaled sharply as I settled my legs on either side of his waist. I knew he could feel the still damp apex of my thighs on him. I slowly leaned forward and pressed my lips to his, releasing them quickly and moving to press kisses along his jaw until I reached his ear.
"Edward my love," I whispered, "There is nothing more beautiful in this world than making love to you and watching you lose yourself, and knowing that when you look at me, you can see all the love I have for you."
I pulled back and Edward's hands were immediately cupping my cheeks as we stared at each other, green locking with brown. It didn't matter that I had made the biggest mistake of my life and ran from him. It didn't matter that I had hurt him almost beyond repair. It didn't matter that there were countless times where I thought he didn't want me anymore. We were still here and we were still together. There was nothing in this world that could keep Edward and I apart. Our love wouldn't let it.
"I love you Isabella Swan," Edward whispered, stroking my cheeks softly.
"I love you Edward Cullen."
With that, he crushed our lips together and rolled us so I was now pinned beneath his body. I whimpered When Edward sat up and hastily pulled off his remaining clothing. I gasped when his ever impressive erection sprang free. I swear, I will never get used to this sight of him naked before me. He smirked at me like he knew what I was thinking, and crawled back up my body, slowly laying his weight down upon me.
"I love you Bella…I love you…"
Edward repeated the three words that meant more to me than any other in the English language as he slowly began to push forward. I gasped every time he pushed into me the first time. I felt complete and I felt an overwhelming sense of home. Edward continued his whispers of love as we slowly began to rock with each other. It was almost more overwhelming than the first time we had sex after our years apart. I seemed to feel everything, hear everything, see everything…I whimpered as Edward began to pick up his pace, his breath becoming harsher and more ragged.
"Edward…I love you…I love you…" I moaned as I began to feel that all too familiar tightening in my stomach.
"My Bella…Oh my Bella…"
"I'm yours…Oh…I…I…I'm yours!" I cried, feeling my orgasm beginning to take over.
"Mine…mine!" Edward growled as my world exploded. I cried out as my fingers dug into his muscles, and Edward moaned loudly, thrusting twice more and stilling, burying his face in my neck.
Nothing but the sounds of our ragged breathing could be heard in the room as I let my hands run across Edward's back and comb through his hair. The only light in the room came from the balcony window and the moon was at its fullest, casting the room in a silvery blue glow. As our breathing went back to normal, Edward slowly rolled off of me. I whimpered every time he slipped out of me…part of me feeling like I wasn't complete.
We rested on our sides as we gazed at each other in the moonlight. Neither of us said anything as our hands slowly smoothed over each other. I couldn't help but smile as I stared at him, taken in every feature that made up the man that I wanted to spend eternity with. Edward slowly reached up and brushed his finger tips across my cheek.
"I could never tell you enough," He whispered, "I love you Bella."
He scooted forward so our bodies were flush against each other and I felt him hard and ready against my stomach. I tilted my head up and found his lips easily as he hitched my leg over his hip and moaned as he entered me smoothly.
"I love you Edward…always…"
"Always my beautiful Bella…always…"
I swear there was a pinkish orange hue in the sky, when I finally lay my head on Edward's chest, round four or five (I lost count) finished. Edward pulled the blanket up to our waists as we lay in each other's arms. One of his hands traced the line of my spine, as I let one of mine run through the smattering of hair on his chest.
"I wish I could paint you like this…" Edward murmured.
"Hm?" I asked, barely able to keep my eyes open.
"You look so beautiful right now. The pinks and oranges on your skin, the red in your hair…your creamy skin…so beautiful…"
I sighed and snuggled myself deeper into Edward's chest. Tomorrow was the last day of our vacation and then we would return to New York and the real world. I knew with Edward at my side, I'd be prepared to face anything that came our way, good or bad.
"I love you Edward Cullen," I whispered, before I felt sleep overtake me.
The last thing I heard before I was bathed in peaceful darkness sounded like "I love you Bella Cullen…"
Well? Yes? No? I hope that was some nice lemony goodness for you all. Back to NYC next chapter. I wonder what is waiting for them there…You'll have to wait until 2010 to find out. :-P Have a happy new year! I'll be the last in the world celebrating it in Hawaii. :- )
Let me know what you think (good or bad) pretty please? And hey, if for nothing else, wish me a happy birthday! Today, I am now officially the same age as Jackson Rathbone again. :-P Damn…quarter of a century…
