Alice's POV
I was only halfway down the hall when I heard footsteps.
"Alice." I turned to see Eren, blush across his face as he caught up to me. "Wh-What was that about in the mess hall?" He asked. I sighed as I leaned against the wall.
"I was hoping we could have waited until tomorrow, but of course not." I turned to Eren with a small smile. "I... want to have sex... with you." Eren's blush deepened. "I know, it's weird, but... I just keep having these dreams about you, and the more I think about you... inside me... the less scary it all seems." I turned away, looking at my boots. "And that's why I talked to Jean. I wanted to know how to properly instigate it." I looked back to Eren. "But I need to know what you want. This can't be one way, or else I'm no better than the men that hurt me."
"I.. uh..." Eren didn't really speak for a few minutes. He'd try to start, but would stop speaking to fumble. He looked so confused and lost, and to be honest, I was losing my fucking patience and Mikasa hadn't help.
"Eren." That seemed to snap him out of his stupor. "Do you want to have sex with me? Yes or no?" When he didn't answer, I sighed and pushed off the wall. "You don't have to answer me now. But this is an important point in our relationship, because we need to set up new boundaries either way." And I left Eren there, blushing and stuttering and I couldn't help but find it kind of cute.
Eren didn't talk to me for a month. That's a lie. He talked to me, but if I brought up sex, he would bail immediately. And he would not be alone around me. And he wouldn't kiss me on the lips. It was all cheek and forehead. I didn't hate it, but I felt bad. Obviously bringing the topic up how it happened was to much shock, and he obviously wasn't handling it well.
But I was tired of waiting. When I talked to Hange about it, they said they were surprised I hadn't come to talk to them about it sooner. And finally, I just let my patience go and talked to Hange, Erwin, Levi, and Jean. After I had finished speaking with them, I put my little plan into action.
I was walking down a hall when I saw Eren, who was talking with Mikasa. This was going to be fun.
"Hey Eren." I said. He turned to me with a nervous smile, looking like he was about to respond, when he stopped. And I knew why. I usually smiled when I saw him, or showed emotion. But I decided to take a page out of Levi's book and went blank. I walked right up to Eren and placed a button in his hand.
"If you want to have sex with me, ask Erwin if Hange can lock you up three nights from now, give them this button, and listen to their instructions. If not, give this button to Levi immediately." And I continued down the hall. This would force Eren to answer. I wasn't really happy about that, but my dreams weren't doing it for me anymore, and I won't dare touch myself. If Eren denies me, then fine, I will find a way through this which keeps me faithful and keeps us together, if he accepts it, then we'll figure things out from there. But I couldn't wait anymore.
Later that day, Erwin came and talked to me.
"Eren requested Hange to lock him up three days from now." He said, but he looked concerned. "Are you sure about this Alice? That you want to become that intimate with anyone?" I smiled.
"I've been thinking this over for about three months, Erwin. If things go south, we'll figure things out together. Now if you don't mind, I have some things to get ready." And I went on my way.
Eren's POV
I was in the shower before going down to my cell for the night. Tonight was the night Alice had told me to give Hange the button. I wasn't completely sure why, but I could only imagine that special steps needed to be taken since I was a Titan shifter.
I was completely blind sided when Alice asked if I wanted to have sex with her. The answer... was yes. I have been dreaming about being that intimate with Alice since the week before that bastard had touched her. But I had resigned myself to the fact she would never want that, obviously I was wrong. And the reason I was avoiding those situations with her was because I was scared I wouldn't be able to control myself and would force myself onto her. I couldn't do that to Alice. I love her too much, and she has been hurt too much. And tonight, I was going to try and show her how loved she was.
I had turned to Armin for advice. He blushed the entire time, and I blushed as well, but he gave me tips and pointers and what to watch for in case Alice became triggered during anything. I was ready for this, I was ready for Alice. I can only hope this goes well.
As soon as Hange had me in my cell, I handed them the button. They looked at it for a minute and sighed.
"If you hurt her, I'll kill you." They said, completely serious, before giving a small smile. "Head to Levi's room in an hour, he'll tell you where she is." And they left without locking the cell. I swallowed deeply. Time to get this started.
I headed to Corporal Levi's room an hour later. It was past lights out and the moon was already in the sky. As soon as my fist made contact with the wood of the door to knock, Corporal Levi had it open. He glared at me for a minute before speaking.
"I hope you know that you'll be cleaning your jizz out of her yourself. Go to the west corridor on this floor, closest to the southwestern staircase." And Corporal Levi shut the door in my face. I gave a shaky sigh as I headed to the room. My heart was racing. When I knocked on the door to the room Corporal had directed me too, I was less than happy to see Jean of all people.
"What the he-"
"She wanted to know you were serious." Jean said with a shrug. "And she's Hange's sibling, can you blame her for sending you on a wild goose chase around the castle? She's upstairs in the eastern corridor, room closest to the northeast stairs. It an empty store room and the bedroom below is empty too, be as loud as you want but try not to wake us all up." And Jean shut the door. I took a deep breath before going up the stairs.
Alice's POV
I was nervous. So nervous. But can anyone blame me? I've never actually planned on having a man inside me. I was nervous, but I wasn't scared, and I was ready. I had showered thoroughly, and I had everything Eren and I may need. Water to drink, a water basin and towels to bathe, blankets and pillows as well. The only thing missing was a bed. It had been moved so that Eren actually had a bed in the basement.
But I wasn't just nervous about what was about to happen, but to Eren's reaction to me. I was already bare and under a sheet, sitting up and holding it over my chest. I was feeling insecure. I was so damaged down there, with scar tissue. My mind kept wondering what he'd think when he saw how damaged I really was. Most people want a virgin to sleep with their first time, or someone with actual experience. I was neither. And I was terrified of how Eren might react.
There was a soft knock on the door.
"Alice?" It was Eren's voice. I took a deep breath.
"Come in." I said. The door opened and Eren looked around the room a bit before his eyes settled on me.
"A-Alice?" I nodded with a shy smile.
"Hey Eren." I said. He walked in enough to close the door behind him. "I hope I got everything we'd need." Eren approached me slowly, sitting on the blankets I had laid out on the floor. Not too close to me, though.
"So... what now?" Eren asked, face red. I shrugged.
"Well... I'm already naked, I think it's only fair if you are too." Eren gave a single nod and began to slowly take his clothes off, like he was worried any quick movements would scare me. Once he was done, he returned to the blankets.
"May I?" He asked, looking to the sheet I was still holding over myself. It was a silly thing, considering he has already seen me naked, but this was different, for obvious reasons. I nodded and Eren slowly removed the sheet. "You're beautiful Alice."
"You're pretty handsome yourself." I said, feeling myself flush as I examined Eren's body. I didn't stop staring until Eren shifted.
"May I kiss you?" He asked. I blinked owlishly for a moment before nodding. The kiss was gentle, and sweet. But I wanted more. And I voiced this need.
"More." Another kiss, lasting slightly longer than the first, but not as gentle. "More." And another, not as gentle and beginning to show the desire deep within. "More." And this continued until Eren slid his tongue into my mouth, gently pushing me onto my back. I gasped as I felt his body press against mine, Eren also gasping at the feeling. We laid there for a moment until Eren spoke again.
"I... I really do want to have sex with you Alice. I just never thought you would." He admitted, moving slowly as he kissed my neck.
"Not the only one." I said with a gasp. Eren hovered over me, making sure I was looking at him.
"If you ever feel uncomfortable, tell me." I nodded, and never spoke as Eren took me on those blankets.
I had been debating actually writing out the smut between Alice and Eren, but had decided against it. Next chapter is last chapter. I don't really have anything else in mind for this story, so... it's done. Sorry if it wasn't what any of you wanted, but it's exactly how I wanted it.
