Hey guys, just a short one today sorry because I'm really not feeling well. Hopefully the next one will be up tomorrow night. Hope you all enjoy and, I also hoped you all enjoyed glee last night :D (Im about to watch it now, hopefully it will make me feel better.) Thanks for reading.
MsNymph- Your very welcome, sorry this chapter couldn't be as long, just really not to well. Glad your looking forward to the story plot I'm hoping for a lot more surprises for ya :p I don't like his parents either, there idiots :/ And I'm sure cooper will sort them out, not sure about the murder tho ;) I thanks so much for the reviews I love them :D Enjoy xx
Chapter 29
3:00 o clock in the morning. Saturday. And why was I up? Simple. Because I haven't yet been to sleep. How can I? How can I possibly let my mind rest for even the slightest second when this big ugly situation was evolving around me.
I must admit I was quite impressed. I'd been able to conclude quite a few of the questions that had been scanning around me head. Like why didn't Blaine tell me what was going on? Easy. Because I'm a rubbish boyfriend who only ever makes time for himself. Why was it his parents were doing this to him? Obvious. Because of me. Because I'm not right for him, and his parents can see this.
So with all these formalities all pointing in one direction (me), how was I possibly going to let my mind wonder off into a blissful image of serenity, while my body revitalises in preparation for the next day.
And so here I am. 3:00 o clock in the morning. Saturday. Lying in my bed. Wide awake.
"Kurt? Kurt are you awake?" My door was slowly creeping open, letting a dim light shine through to show a silhouette of a body. Blaine's body.
" Yer, I'm awake." I whispered, not wanting to wake anyone else up.
I felt the side of my bed dip, as a warm body shuffled in beside me and buried there self into me. Wanting nothing more than to be as close to Blaine as possible, I wrapped one of my arms around his back and pulled him in, resting my head into his shoulder as his lay on mine.
"Umm, what's up bee?" I mumbled into his shoulder, while taking a deep whiff of his Cologne.
"Couldn't sleep, bad dream kept waking me up. Sorry If I woke you, I just had to be with you."
"Noo don't worry about it, I couldn't sleep either, but I'm sure ill be just fine now that you're here."
The difference Blaine gave my body was unreal. My muscle's had already started to relax, and my eyes where slowly drooping shut.
"So what's your excuse then?"
"Huh?" I answered, still not moving a muscle, my voice without emotion.
" Why can't you get to sleep?"
"Just the usual to much on my mind." I rushed, hoping to finally get the chance to fall asleep.
"Right. You wanna talk about it?" I grunted at the statement, pushing my body further into Blaine's warmth.
"Urgh, to warm." I grumbled into his shoulder.
"I'm sure it would help." He insisted, not letting it go.
"Blaineeee I'm tiredd, can't we do it in the morning?"
"I think it would be better if we do it now. Maybe then you'll be able to get to sleep?" He tried to pull his body up from under me, which only prompted me to push down harder.
"Noo, I can get to sleep now, your comfy. Blaine! Quit moving." I demanded. Course it didn't work. He just pulled himself up, dragging me with and pushing my head off his chest.
"Blaine what the hell I was comfy." I put my best bitch face on and crossed my arms over my chest. I probably was being a bit over the top, but its was 3 in the morning! I think I was allowed to be a little grumpy.
"Look we just need a small talk, and then you can curl up to me as much as you want. ok?" He bargained.
"Fine. But I get to be small spoon." I said, which earning a low chuckle from Blaine.
"So what was so important to think about that you couldn't get to sleep?" I let out a sarcastic laugh and turned to give Blaine a questioning look.
"Really Blaine? There so much going on at the moment it's surprising I haven't had a mental breakdown!"
"Well talk to me about. It's not good to bottle things up. Take it from somebody who knows."
"Fine you really want to know what's worrying me? Ok I'll tell you. I found out yesterday that not only is my boyfriend getting hit by his parents but there also starving him, because of me. The reason I only found out yesterday was because said boyfriend decided to hide it from me, which I'm sure he has his reasons for, I just don't know what they may be."
Blaine tried to interrupt me mid sentence but I put my hand up to stop him.
"On top of all this I'm I have to go through everyday wondering if this could be the day that my dad's heart is just going to corrupt, as well as trying to force him into eating fruit. My stepbrother's still upset with me for moving school's about a month ago, despite the fact I am now back at his school and while I'm at this school I have fear everyday that karofosky will find me and torture me for getting his ass kicked out of school. Is that enough for you? Because I assure you there is a lot more where that came from." I took a deep breath, admittedly feeling a tiny better having got all that out. Blaine was just staring at me eyes wide and mouth straight.
Silence filled the room as I tried to keep my eyes anywhere but Blaine's, not wanting any sympathy. So I'm having a hard life. The fact is, there are people that are currently dying the world, be it to save our country or after a long, successful life. They are the ones that deserve the sympathy. Not me.
"Kurt it's...you shouldn't..." I smirked and shook my head.
"Blaine It's fine. I no. Now let's just go to sleep." I tried to back round, ready to go to sleep without the warmth of Blaine tonight, but he grasped my shoulder, stopping me from moving.
"No Kurt don't. You shouldn't have all of this on your shoulders. Your goanna get sick. We have to talk."
"Well what do we talk about Blaine? How to fix my problems? Don't you think I've thought about that? If they could be fixed they would be Blaine." I jumped in, the stress getting to much.
" Kurt just calm down. Now, let's just go back to the start. Me? You shouldn't be worrying about me. We're getting it all sorted now, me, cooper, you. Were all fixing it. So what's the problem."
"What's the problem? Blaine your parents are beating and starving you! And I only find out yesterday! If that doesn't prove that I'm an unreliable boyfriend, what does?" Blaine looked at me, eyebrows raised and pulled my shoulder's into him while laughing.
"Kurt. You're not unreliable! Those problem's you've just told me, only two of them where about my situation. The reason I didn't tell you was because you have your own problem's. What would adding more to list have done?" He rubbed his hands up and down my shoulder, resting his head onto mine.
" But that's what couple's do Blaine. They share problem's. You know how bad it made me feel, that you didn't tell me that? You made me feel like a terrible person. A terrible boyfriend."
I let out a sigh, letting my head rest into Blaine's. As much as I really didn't want this conversation, I was happy that we could talk about without it exploding into an argument. That was something. Right?
"Ok, I get what you're saying. And I'm sorry that I made you feel that way Kurt. I really thought that by keeping this away from you, that I would be protecting you, but I understand now that I was hurting you more then I realised, and I am truly sorry for that. And I promise you that I won't keep anything from you again. Even if I do think it will be better for you."
He turned his head and looked at me in the eyes.
" Thank you." I whispered, joining our lips into a soft kiss.
Before anything could progress, Blaine pulled back, earning a low grown from me.
"Right now, I believe we have some more things to talk about."
He smiled, ignoring my plea to pull him back in.
"Now your dad. I understand what your going through Kurt. I never told you this, but when I was younger, my granddad suffered a heart failure and he was in hospital just like your dad."
The fact that Blaine had also gone through something like this made it feel slightly more bearable.
" My granddad never made it through Kurt. He was in hospital for 3 days before it all got too much for him. Your dad made it Kurt. He's strong. Does that not tell you something?"
" I know but. What if it happens again?" My voice cracked. I felt like a small child again. Back to the destructive year that my mother died. Back to being that small sole who couldn't do anything but cry.
" Kurt I'm not goanna lie. Yes there is a small chance that your dad could relapse again. But that's life Kurt. There's a chance that I could walk outside and get run over by a bus. But your dad, he's strong. He keep's to his diet plan, he doesn't overwork. Even the doctor said his heart is looking a lot better. So I know he is going to be fine. I can feel it. I know Kurt. And if you don't believe? Well then you're just going to have to trust me."
I smiled up at him, pushing my body further into his.
"I trust you." I smiled, a few tears falling down my cheek.
"Thank you. Now what's going on with karofosky? I thought he was dealt with?"
"Yer, but I just can't shake the fact that he's going to find me. I grassed him up Blaine. He's not goanna be happy."
Blaine looked down at me, startled.
"Kurt if karofosky even tried to lay a finger on you, I will kill him. I don't care who is around. There is no way I'm letting anything happen to you, ok?"
I shook my head up and down , wanting to let Blaine know I was still listening to him, but to relaxed to speak.
He started to stroke a hand through my hair, sending shocks through my body.
"And ya think he would really come to you with me around? I'm hardcore. I'm like superman; you just wouldn't mess with me."
"Umm, your my superman." I whispered into his shoulder before my eyes shut closed, and I feel into a blissful sleep, with Blaine hands still rummaging through my hair.
Hey guys, thought i'd give you a bit of fluff, before some of the more hearted stuff come's. Next chapter should be up tomorrow. Thanks so much for reading, drop me in a review and tell me what you think :D Enjoy your day
