Finally, there's an update. Hope you're happy.

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Happiness

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Happiness is long from here.

It's like a distant dream and as Cody tries not to think so, he wants it to be okay but it's not. It's just not.

Happiness fades.

And nothing's left is throbbing pain.

Cody holds onto his motorbike and his head's spinning and breaking and his head's burning with thoughts of horror and nothingness as he holds onto the handlebars and looks back at Randy, John, Ted and Mike who are staring at him with sympathy.

Their motorbikes start.

After about fifteen minutes in the race, Cody slams into a rock and falls down, letting his bone break hard at the crash and he bites his lower lip as the pain rips through his body and he lets out a horrid scream, feeling the pain throb and thud and pulse.

Randy stops his bike and John crashes into him, making Randy fall beside Cody and John falls down onto Randy and pain overtakes them because this brings back old memories and their bodies just fit and it's just like two pieces of puzzles that fit together.

Ted and Mike completely stop in their tracks. Ted runs over to Cody and Mike follows, letting his helmet crash to the ground as they all lean towards Cody. Ted brushes his hand against Cody's cheek, "I'm sorry for letting you do this…"

Cody whimpers under Ted's touch and Ted takes Cody's body as he carries him. John tries to stand up and helps Randy up who falls down and his breath turns short and sharp and John presses him closer, feeling Randy's extremely hot skin against his, and he suddenly remembers that Randy's a cancer patient before his heart skips a beat to realize how Randy's in this condition, spending his last few days like this, in pain, crippled pain and nothing can stop him from doing this.

"I…" Randy presses his head to John's chest, letting John feel the heat of Randy's body, feeling the fire that's burning inside of him.

"Let's go back to the cabins." Mike says.

John doesn't really concentrate on it at all because his skin's so hot and he's so out of breath and—Ted presses Cody to his chest, feeling the warmth of his body and hearing him whimper under the touch, feeling the burning pain.

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"You're bleeding…"

John lets his hand glide to Randy's face and he lifts his chin up so that they're looking directly at each other as Randy's heart burn and pump reduced blood through his arteries and veins.

"You're bruising…"

Randy looks away with tears running down his eyes. "I know, okay! I read a book about this. Apparently, my lack of platelets makes me bleed and bruise easily."

"Oh, oh, baby," John brings Randy to his chest, making Randy shake John off as the blood boils but his body's thin and cracked and broken and he doesn't think he can handle this much rage and fury inside of him.

"Get off!"

"I'm sorry for making you feel like a toy. Just give me another chance!" John says, feeling tears in his heart as the blood seeps from it and pain blocks John's head from other thoughts as he takes Randy's body and brings him close to his chest. "I'd never hurt you…"

"You did! You broke me into pieces and it's all for your freaking selfish need!" Randy exclaims as he stands up and pushes John towards the bed and walks outside, looking out into the forest "Get out of here."

John walks towards him, holding Randy towards his waist and Randy takes his hand and pushes him towards the door. "GET OUT!"

John opens his mouth but Randy opens the door and shoves him out and as Randy feels the touch of his own skin, his body burns into fire as he falls down onto the floor and looks at the rawness of his skin and his heart pounds ten times harder. "I-it's getting worse!"

The cancer's getting worse.

His hands are going towards his treatment and looks at the bottle before shoving half of the bottle's contents in his mouth and he lets the dizziness overwhelm his body as he feels himself daze off and black out.

Right now, being happy is an overrated dream.

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Ted presses Cody to his body and he kisses his forehead. "Oh, Cody, I'm sorry."

Cody looks down at the floor as he kisses Ted's mouth, bringing him close to him and lets Ted lay down onto his body, making Cody scream out in pain and Ted stands up. "Oh, Cody, I'm really sorry…"

Cody shakes his head. "It-it's okay."

Ted kisses Cody's forehead one more time before he places the sheet on him. "You rest. I won't let them do anything to you."

"I'm scared."

Ted's eyes threaten to spill tears. "Don't be."

"What if they hurt you…?"

Ted's heart erupts with pain and horrid horror and twisted agony. "No, 'Ted said. "They won't hurt me. I'm afraid that they'll hurt you. If you hear anyone in the room, scream…"

Ted was ready to leave then he saw a hint of something on Cody's neck and he had taken off Cody's shirt, screaming, seeing the deepened scars and blood plastered on his cracked and brittle body.

"Who did that?"

"D-D-Drake…" Cody stutters, whimpering as he feels Ted trace along the pained cuts before Ted turns around and walks out quickly. "Ted, please, don't…"

"I won't let anyone hurt you, Cody and I'd do anything to set this right." Ted walks out and doesn't say anything else.

There's pain sloshing through Cody's body and he wants so bad to stop Ted…and it's like he can't trust him anymore. Cody's eyes widen. Did he just say that he doesn't trust Teddy? The boy he'd fallen in love just with a bat of an eyelash?

Where did the happiness of life go?

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;) Sam