But You Love Me Anyways
you know everything about me
my darkest secrets
you're the only one who knows
you know me inside out
and you can tell when i'm upset
by the way i'm texting you,
or by the slightest glance
you were there to hold me when i broke down
and there when everything was falling apart
you see through my fake smile
even when nobody else can
you know that i'm not okay
even though i say i am
but you can calm me down
and make me alright when nobody else can
you know why i wear so many bracelets
it's not to be cute
i couldn't pull that off
even though you say i do
its to cover my scars
you're the first i ever told,
the only i've ever told
you know about my problems
with trusting people
and with dealing with stress
you know i'm not who i wish i was
you know how imperfect i am
and you love me anyways.
you deserve so much better
you deserve me at my best
and so much better
but whenever i'm near you
i can't help but break down
you always get me at my worst
and i wish i was better
but you love me anyways
i told you about my problems
and you told me you loved me
and i don't know how to be what you deserve
and i don't know how to be anybody but myself
and i wish i did
but you love me anyways
despite all odds
through my flaws
you love me anyways
you're my best friend
and the one that i love
you're the one i know i can always rely on
even in the middle of the night
when it's hardest to go on
and i don't care if i ever wake up again
you make it worthwhile to see the morning light
you're there when i'm a friend
that nobody would want to have
and you love me anyways
and i know you should have better
you should have someone perfect
that's what you deserve
but i hold you tight and never let you go
and you love me anyways
and i don't know why you would do that
i'm so . . . not.
i'm just me
so flawed, so imperfect
but you love me anyways
you love me for the scars on my wrist
and the tally marks on my hip
and the tears on my cheeks
and when i don't know how to trust
and when i can't be the friend i need to be
and when i don't think there's any point in living anymore
you still love me
and that's the reason i can go on
because
despite everything
you still love me
(and i love you)
Ohmigosh this is so bad! But I really have to post this, it is terrible writing, but this is me. That's why the chapter is titled that.
I don't know what else I can say. This is me. And you. Me & you. I love you, Taylor
Please let me know what you think I can do with this. Maybe break it down so it's not so long and terrible? I don't know . . .
Loads of love,
Mandy Kay
