But You Love Me Anyways

you know everything about me

my darkest secrets

you're the only one who knows

you know me inside out

and you can tell when i'm upset

by the way i'm texting you,

or by the slightest glance

you were there to hold me when i broke down

and there when everything was falling apart

you see through my fake smile

even when nobody else can

you know that i'm not okay

even though i say i am

but you can calm me down

and make me alright when nobody else can

you know why i wear so many bracelets

it's not to be cute

i couldn't pull that off

even though you say i do

its to cover my scars

you're the first i ever told,

the only i've ever told

you know about my problems

with trusting people

and with dealing with stress

you know i'm not who i wish i was

you know how imperfect i am

and you love me anyways.

you deserve so much better

you deserve me at my best

and so much better

but whenever i'm near you

i can't help but break down

you always get me at my worst

and i wish i was better

but you love me anyways

i told you about my problems

and you told me you loved me

and i don't know how to be what you deserve

and i don't know how to be anybody but myself

and i wish i did

but you love me anyways

despite all odds

through my flaws

you love me anyways

you're my best friend

and the one that i love

you're the one i know i can always rely on

even in the middle of the night

when it's hardest to go on

and i don't care if i ever wake up again

you make it worthwhile to see the morning light

you're there when i'm a friend

that nobody would want to have

and you love me anyways

and i know you should have better

you should have someone perfect

that's what you deserve

but i hold you tight and never let you go

and you love me anyways

and i don't know why you would do that

i'm so . . . not.

i'm just me

so flawed, so imperfect

but you love me anyways

you love me for the scars on my wrist

and the tally marks on my hip

and the tears on my cheeks

and when i don't know how to trust

and when i can't be the friend i need to be

and when i don't think there's any point in living anymore

you still love me

and that's the reason i can go on

because

despite everything

you still love me

(and i love you)


Ohmigosh this is so bad! But I really have to post this, it is terrible writing, but this is me. That's why the chapter is titled that.
I don't know what else I can say. This is me. And you. Me & you. I love you, Taylor

Please let me know what you think I can do with this. Maybe break it down so it's not so long and terrible? I don't know . . .

Loads of love,

Mandy Kay