Do I Want Friendship or Do I Want Your Love?
Chapter 29: Love (rated M)
~Author's Note~
Please do not mock me for this. I know the adult content sucks, but you'll have to give me a break. Thanks and continue reading!
What seemed like hours was only two hours. I came out of the surgery then, quite tired from the stuff they used to put me to sleep. That's when I noticed my back seemed bare and quickly sat up, feeling dizzy. "Calm down, Night," Dr. Harris said soothingly, making sure I did. "What's wrong?"
"My hair is missing on my back! Where did it go?" I was frantic, since I had always had long hair covering some part of my back.
A relieved look fell over his face. "We had to cut it to have some other hair grow on your scalp. It's not that short. Check." My hand went somewhere on my back, but I never found anything. My hand traveled up above my shoulders and I found my hair cut about an inch off my shoulder.
"My hair… is short," I said lamely.
"It's not short."
"It is too short!"
"Calm down, Night, and take a deep breath." I did as he said and forced myself to calm down.
"How did the procedure go?"
"It was a complete success! You're hair should grow in normally now."
"That's good," I breathed, planning on growing my hair out again. I was pretty sure L liked it long, but he might not. I didn't know.
"I think you worry too much, Night," Dr. Harris laughed, ruffling my hair which made me wince. "Oh, sorry about that."
"It's fine."
"I'm going to take you back to your room now so come along." He meant the wheelchair. I sighed and got off the bed, stumbling slightly when I realized I was dizzy and also because of the pain that came to my head. "The pain should go away soon. Don't worry. Your father and mother are waiting for you."
"What about Ryuga?"
"Ah, your fiancée. He's here also. Along with your brother and sister."
"How sweet of them."
"And a few others who say they work with you."
"Great!" I smiled at all of the people in the room when I saw Rem and Vincent in the room, Rem glaring at him for saving my ass once more.
"Night! You're looking better," Sachiko said as she came over and helped me onto the bed. The pain in my head was slowly disappearing away. For a while, Sachiko and Sayu stayed and talked with me until both had to leave and then only our detectives were left.
"What's been happening on the case?" I asked hesitantly, not sure if I should.
"Touch this, Nightana," L said, holding out a piece of paper. I was going to shake my head and say I could already see them, but then that would lead to questions I couldn't answer. So, I did what he said and put on a surprised act, which I pulled off nicely. Misa was rubbing off on me. Sadly, though, Light's lifespan was gone again. He was Kira once more.
"Shinigami? So they do exist?" I asked again.
"Vincent says he protects you and keeps you alive," Light said after a moment. "And he wouldn't give the other Death Note to anyone else. He said he'd only give it to you." I glanced at Vincent, which he took as a quick glare and smiled stupidly.
"I know you don't know me, Night, but I want you to have this Death Note."
"I won't touch the instrument of killing Kira uses."
"I told him that's what you would say," Light added and I smiled at him.
"You know me well brother." Light was different though and I didn't like it.
"I'll explain the rest of the case to you, Nightana," L said after a moment, interrupting the silence, "but we have to go because it's getting too late. We'll see you later." Everyone got up and, even though everyone was around, I wished L had given me a good-bye kiss, but he couldn't. I sighed when they were gone and fell asleep after a while. Over the rest of the week, quite a bit happened. Ms. Twilight came back and promised to stay with me from now on. L visited quite a bit, mostly without the other detectives' knowledge, and I was released Wednesday. I caught up quite a bit on the Kira case over the next day and over the other days until Friday, L made sure to stay by my side. It was almost obvious now that we loved each other. Friday night, L took me out to dinner at a wonderful restaurant. "Ryu-kun, thanks for dinner tonight," I said as we walked back into Kira Taskforce. He nodded, his eyes searching over me.
"It's my pleasure, Nightana." I smiled as he said my name and took his hand as we began walking again. "Do you want to stay in one of the rooms I have here that aren't monitored cameras?"
"I wouldn't mind," I admitted as he began leading me up the stairs.
"Alright then." We didn't say anything else to each other while going up the stairs and through the halls, afraid to wake anyone. L was at the way top story, beside the plane platform, and he lead me all the way to the last bedroom on the right. I smiled at him as we walked in.
"Do you mind if I get into the shower right now?"
"Not at all." I smiled my thanks and went over to where L's bathroom would be. I stripped off my clothes slowly, thinking about the night and smiled. L had taken me on a wonder date across a river near the Kira Task Force. With the cherry blossoms out, it made one of the most romantic thing anyone could ever imagine, especially with how the sun set.
But it was hard to believe that it was all real. To feel this and not have Kira take away one of the most precious things in my life. My knees grew weak as I thought that and quickly shook it away, getting in the shower. The warm water ran over my body and it was quite warmer than how it had been outside so it made my cheeks flush from the warm water running over my body. I got the shampoo and began lathering my short blue hair with soap. I began remembering what had happened so long ago, but it had only been a week. And it scared me.
Once I was done washing myself down, I let the water run down my body a little longer still in thought. Being taken hostage and then having to have the Task Force rescue me… it made me feel utterly useless and I hated it. I hated how I had to be rescued and everything! I shut the water off as soon as I felt the cold water start to spark in and got out, wrapping a short towel around me. I scowled as I realized I had left my pajamas out in the hotel room and left the bathroom. As I did, I heard someone walk out behind me and I stopped in my tracks. It was L. I gasped out as I felt his hands touch my neck lightly; it always had that effect on me.
His hands gave one soft squeeze, then began rubbing up and down my neck gently before he dipped his head down as if he was going to drink my blood. I wished he could some days it felt so wonderful. As he began lining kisses up and down my neck, I could barely imagine anything else except telling myself to breath in and out, but even if I did that, my breath came out in gasps. "Lawliet," I whispered softly, my eyes beginning to close. L stopped at that moment and suddenly picked me up in his arms. I wrapped my arms around his neck and brought my face to his, beginning to kiss him. My lips trailed from his to his jaw line, but I was taken away from him when he laid me on a bed. He got over top of me and I realized my towel was beginning to slip off, but I didn't care. I just wanted him. At first, L began kissing my lips before he began kissing my jaw line, then down my neck gently, but with a slight nip. As he began kissing my neck, one of his hands had gone to undo the tucked in part of my towel. I allowed him to, my arms hung loosely around his neck with my eyes closed, enjoying every moment when suddenly… it stopped. I opened my eyes and saw L with his face shadowed over.
"I'm sorry I'm trying to do that, Nightana," he said, a pink tinge to his cheeks. For a moment, I didn't understand, but then I did. As I did finally realize it, L was already beginning to get up.
"Lawliet, wait." He stopped since I had a hold of him around his neck. "Don't stop, please. I love this and… I love you and I want to do it. I really do so please…" He looked at me with a certain light in his eyes that made me smile.
"Well… then let's forget anything ever got interrupted."
"Did we get interrupted?" I murmured as he began kissing my neck again.
"Mmmm…" He nuzzled his head into the crook of my neck, almost completely forgetting anything else around us. I moved my head and began kissing him along his jaw line again, while my hands began tugging at the bottom of his shirt. He understood instantly and broke away momentarily to remove his shirt. I pulled him closer, kissing now down his neck, a tinge to my cheeks as well. I didn't know what I was doing either; I would just improvise.
L seemed to like what I was doing. I was glad because I didn't want him to think I couldn't do it. I wanted him to know I could.
As L dipped his head once more to my neck, he traveled down farther than what he normally would and I gasped out once. He looked up at me for permission to go on past my collar bone. I nodded, trying to control my breathing in the least, but with no avail. A small smile appeared on his face and he nodded back before he began lightly kissing down my chest, but he paused as he reached my right breast. I moved under him a little, getting impatient. "Are you impatient, Nightana?" he asked lightly placing one kiss on my breast.
"What if I say yes?" I breathed back with another question.
"Then I'll be slower to make you more impatient."
"You're trying to tease me then?"
"Maybe." A smile appeared on my face.
"Yes, I am impatient."
"Well, then if that's the case…" A different person seemed to have taken L's place, but it was him. L still went very slowly, placing one gentle kiss at a time as he made his way to the top of my breast. He slowly began licking my nipple and then his mouth slowly covered it, and he began sucking and nipping at it. I moaned loudly, not able to hold it in. L stopped for a moment, examining my face for reactions. I laid there, my hands pulled up to my chest in light fists with my face bright red breathing heavily. My body was on fire from the inside and my body felt light. I felt weird, but at the same time I felt wonderful.
L came back up to my face and lightly pressed a kiss on my lips. "I'll be done in a second, Nightana." I sighed happily as he said my name and watched as he removed his pants, though he kept his boxers on (hehehe L's wearing boxers). When he placed himself again over top of me, I made sure he was between my legs. I wanted him there and he realized it for he didn't move. Nor did he want to anyway.
I leaned up and began kissing L again, my towel falling down even further than it was already. I was not at all embarrassed about my body like I normally would be and I probably would have been with anyone else, but L was different. I loved him and I knew he'd never judge me in any way. "Nightana…" he groaned. I was startled when I heard him. His eyes were closed and he was clearly enjoying what I was doing. A mischievous grin appeared on my face and I slowly began kissing and lightly nipping on his neck, pressing myself closer to him. L shivered once, which surprised me even more than I already was.
"Shall I tease you also?" I whispered into his ear before lightly nibbling on his earlobe.
"No, that's my job," he answered back, putting me back on the bed. He had enjoyed it though, that much was obvious. L moved down my body slowly, leaving kisses everywhere. I gasped out as he between my legs and began moving around in there and then moaned again, my back arching. Suddenly, I realized he was beginning to remove the last of his clothing and helped him out with my feet. I felt him beginning to go into my entrance and closed my eyes, waiting. I winced at the slight pain as he went in, but it only lasted for a second before it was gone and was replaced with pleasure. I wrapped my legs around his waist so he could go in farther and he pulled off the last of the towel that had fallen down to my waist before beginning to thrust gently. I moaned and he leaned over by my ear, saying some things to me I couldn't make out as he began going harder and deeper. My fingers dug into his back as he continued.
Everything went too fast after that. The next thing I knew, the clock read five-thirty as I woke up in a mess of covers, feeling fingers glide over my back and run through my hair. I lazily looked up and saw L, still awake.
"Good morning Lawliet," I said softly, not moving my body away from his. I liked it like this.
"Good morning Nightana." I moved off of him right next to him and nuzzled close to him. I noticed then that he had something on his mind.
"What's on your mind?" I asked, sitting up slightly.
"Nothing." I pouted.
"You're lying."
"I'm not lying."
"You shouldn't say that. It's not nice to lie." He sighed, which was so nice to hear, and hugged me closer, putting his face in the crook of my neck again.
"I'm sorry, Nightana," he whispered, still hugging me. "I shouldn't have done that, but I couldn't help myself."
"Don't feel sorry, Ryu-kun, I loved it," I whispered back, lightly kissing him. He returned it back with hesitation, but then in passion. We were interrupted though before anything could happen. I sighed and picked up my phone. "Hello?"
"Night, where are you?"
"Oh, father?" I asked nervously, glancing at L. He simply stared back at me, waiting for me to continue talking. "What do you need?"
"Don't you remember today is your birthday? Your mother and Sayu wanted to take you out today." I groaned as I remembered.
"But we're so close on the Kira case! Can't I just-"
"You promised them you'd go. Now hurry up."
"I am. I just need to get a shower. Bye." I hung up before he could ask where I was and looked at L. "I need to go get a shower, Lawliet. I'll be back soon today."
"One other thing, Nightana," he said before I left, a blanket wrapped around my body.
"Yeah, Lawliet?"
"Happy birthday." I smiled at him.
"Thank you," I said, leaning up once to kiss him before I was out of the room.
