Well this month has been crazy. On Thursday the 12th of March it was my birthday! I am finally seventeen years old and for my birthday I got a new HP Laptop. So it will be much easier to post and write chapters because I won't be using my old monster anymore (which is sad because I'll miss the old guy, LOL).

So I was going to write a part two for the previous chapter but then I thought about it and figured it would be much more suspenseful if I save what I was going to write and put it in a different chapter later. I promise it wasn't that big of a deal.

Also remember back in the summary when I wrote "when history repeats itself." Just keep that in mind. *wink wink*

This is the part that some of you have all been waiting for.

And for others, you will probably hate me after. Sorry.

Please review and thank you for your patience.


Chapter 27

Requiem for a Dream

Sophia

The month of March past by quick and it was a very busy month. My schedule had been filled with work, pack runs and meetings, hanging out with the Blake and the Cullens (mostly shopping with Alice and an annoyed Bella), fooling around with the pack at Em's, dinners with Charlie and trying to make time for Amber and Steven (who were pretty angry with me for not spending any or little time with them).

It had been three weeks since Blake and I first had sex, and after that we did it often , mostly at his house. Every time I felt refreshed, every time he became a part of me, like he was in my body, not just physically but spiritually.

One of the nights we had sex he asked me a question that took me by surprise and had me worry so much I could have been hyperventilating.

"Sophie?" Blake asked holding me in his arms as my head rested on his shoulder. I look up at him and his eyes were a dark color. His head was tilted to the side, not directly looking me in the eyes.

"Yea?"

"If… metaphorically speaking. My family and I had to leave would you leave with me?"

I jumped away and stared straight at him. Was he kidding? Why was he asking this question? Is he leaving? No. He can't leave me.

"What!? Why would you ask that? Are you leaving!? Where are you going?" He grabbed me by my arms and stared into my eyes.

"Of course not Sophia, I'm not leaving. It's okay nothing to going to happen," he laid me back down on the bed with him, wrapping his arms around my shoulder; "I won't let it." He said barely audio able. I got my heart rate back to a constant speed before I asked the meaning to his insane question.

"Okay, then why would you ask that?"

"I guess I was just curious as to what would happen."

"Oh, don't you dare scare me like that."

"But would you?"

"Would I what?"

"Leave with me?"

I thought long and hard before I gave him my final answer. Even if he was metaphorically speaking, I thought about giving up everything for him. Charlie? The Pack? Billy? Amber? Steven? Alexis? And…Jacob? But what would I be losing if I didn't?

The Cullens.

Blake.

And I couldn't live without him, now that there were no ties to hold us back and what was of my heart, was left in his hands.

But could I really leave?

I looked up to him staring intensely at me, waiting for my answer to his question that really didn't exist. He looked hopeful, like a little kid waiting to know if he could get a candy at a store, but quite disappointed at the same time.

"Blake you know I couldn't." Instantly I regretted those words that came out of my mouth because his facial expression pained me inside, it was too unbearable to look at. Knowing I hurt him by my answer made me want to hold him in his arms until whatever pain he was going through was released from his being.

"Why not?"

"Well, because of everything, the pack, I have a loyalty to them. And Charlie has been through so much and I couldn't leave him. My friends, school and my job, I couldn't give them up."

"But you would give up me? Give up us?" he asked sadden he even had to ask that question.

That was the only reason stopping me from saying "yes." A life without Blake couldn't be a life at all. He was the only person I didn't have to save. He never needed saving, because he was never broken.

I didn't look at him, I stared down at the sheets between us, as I thought of the right to say for everything to go back five minutes ago from the question. I guess he took my silence for an answer because the next thing I knew he was out the window, too far ahead for me to go after him.

For the remainder of the night I sat in silence watching the moon from the window he exited from. I had hurt him; there would be no way for him to forgive me. I made him feel more insecure about our relationship, a relationship that has been fought after over and over again, and finally in the right setting.

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The day after he was completely distant, I was hanging out with him and his family, he hardly acknowledged my presence. The Cullens knew and Carlisle and Edward had to have a talk with him before he got back to normal. He semi lowered his distance but I could still feel it in his body language. And whenever I asked him if he wanted to stay the night he would make up a half ass excuse and leave.

And now we only hung out once this whole week. We went to our spot and just sat there holding each other for a long period of time, not talking just thinking and watching.

I tried to hang out with him today but he said he had very important matters to tend to before anything else.

I pardoned his fake explanation and decided I wouldn't let him get to me. I wasn't going to call him. He had to call me; I was not backing down first. If he wanted to play distance then he might as well have been in Japan because that is how much distance I felt between us.

So I hung out with the Jake, Quil and Embry down at first beach, just to relax and take a breather from the drama my life was surrounded by.

" Do you ever wonder what life would have been like if we weren't wolves?" Embry asked out of nowhere while throwing a rock in the beach. We were all sitting down on huge dry wood, watching the water take over the shore.

"Everything would probably be the same except for the speed. Man that would suck." Quil complained.

"Totally." Jake agreed smiling at me and I half smiled back. The ocean was so strong, the wind so heavy and the rain poured down so fast it would have been hard to see anything. But we didn't care at all, it didn't faze us one bit.

"But I'm glad we are." I said. Jacob looked at me curiously and stared back at the beach thinking to himself.

"Yeah me too, we wouldn't be as tight if we weren't." Embry stated.

"Guys, I don't say this often but I'm glad you're my brothers….and sister." Quil mentioned as he looked from Embry to Jacob to me.

"Aw, you gunna tell us you love us now Quil?"Jacob teased.

"You know what? Screw you Jacob. I was having a moment that never happens." Quil said.

"Well I love you Quil." I said boosting Quil's confidence.

"Thanks Sophie. See Jake at least Sophie loves me."

"Yea probably the only person." Jacob muttered

"Nah uh, Claire loves me and so do my parents." Quil protested.

"Yea you keep believing that." Jake replied. They were so funny. I love these guys.

"Man I'm hungry I could chow down on a whole elephant."Embry cried out in hunger.

"Dude me too." Said Quil.

"Let's go to Emily's. I bet she is making something really good." Jake advised as the two other boys agreed. I sat up ready to follow behind them, when I felt that my ass vibrated. I took out my phone from my back pocket and stared at the caller I.D.

Blake

I smiled inwardly, while I answered the phone nonchalantly.

"Hello?"

"Sophia, it's Blake. I need to see you. Can you meet me at the borderline?" He asked in a rush.

I turned to face the guys. I placed my hand to the bottom of the phone and faced Jacob.

"Hey Jake, could you guys drop me off at the borderline?"

"You meeting your vampy?" Quil teased.

"Yeah so what's it to you? Jake could you?"

"Yea sure Soph." I thanked Jake and placed the phone to my ear.

"Yea I'll meet you in ten minutes."

"Okay." And he hung out.

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It took us exactly ten minutes to reach the borderline between La Push and Forks. In Jake's rabbit we stopped the car on the side of the road and waited for Blake to arrive. He was late, which was weird because he is never late, never. In the pit of my stomach I felt that something wasn't quite right. The sitting wasn't right, something was very misty and foggy, typical for Fork's weather but it felt…different. The sky changed to a horrid color, almost black, it looked like it was night already.

Blake's car came in the distance at an incredible speed. The guys must of felt that something wasn't right either because when I told them they could leave they refused.

"Okay thanks guys, I got it from here."

"No, you know what? I'll think we'll stay a little longer." Jake stubbornly replied.

"Fine. Whatever."

Quil and Embry whispered to each other about the sky and how something was about to happen, but I pushed that thought from my mind and concentrated on Blake who was emerged out of his car… with Edward and Bella.

I ran up to Blake and kissed him full on the lips, so happy that I had him near me, finally in a good mood. He kissed back but hesitantly. I let his lips go and look in his eyes which were yet again dark. What was going on?

I turned to Bella and Edward as I hugged them both.

"Bella! Edward!"

Bella tightened her grip on me, smiled and then let me go, taking Edward's side once again. I stared toward Edward's face which was entirely blank on the outside with a faint smile. Inside his head he wasn't thinking much of anything except for another vampire family where it's cold.

"What are you guys doing here?" I asked to specifically no one.

"Well we came with Blake and wanted to see how you." Bella answered smiling.

"Yes, Sophia it's been too long." Edward said to me. Um, not really it's been a few weeks but it wasn't that long ago since I had seen them.

"Oh, well I'm fine I was just with Jacob and the guys down at first beach. What are you guys up to?" I turned to face Blake but his head was down towards the floor looking at nothing specific.

I looked at Jacob who exposed his masked face, showing no emotions, he stepped closer to the line and held his gaze upon Edward then Blake. His dark eyes fixated on their actions, not taking his eyes off of them. Okay something is definitely going on.

I could feel the shivers in my body rush all over. Did it suddenly get so cold?

"Blake what is going on?" I asked as I stood in front of him while Bella and Edward stood behind him, and the guys stood behind me but a few feet away from us. Blake didn't advert his eyes towards me; he looked up at the sky and then finally looked at me.

"I'm leaving." The word came out of his mouth in a slow pace, as if I was not smart enough for it to register in my head clearly.

But that one word, that one word sent tears that streamed down my face; I quickly wiped them away with my right hand, and crossed my arms over my chest defensively.

"Wh-what do you mean?" I couldn't get the words out right. That is why he asked me that question awhile ago.

"My family and I, we have to go." He said with a vacant expression written on his perfect and porcelain face.

"But…you can't." I reached for his hand but he didn't grip mine in return. Bella looked at us and gasped, trying to clutch her heart, if she had a real one. Edward's face looked slightly pained. I could feel and see Jacob slightly nod his head from side to side with an fumed appearance, from the side of my eye.

"I have to; it's what I have to do." He wasn't even touching me. Why won't he touch me?

"Okay…How long are you going to be gone?" he looked back down at the ground and then to me.

"I don't know."

"Days? Weeks?...M-months?"

He sighed then looked at Edward who was shaking his head in some sort of disapproval manner.

"More like years, just until things cool down. "

"W-what!?"

"Sophia, it isn't all about you. There is a family in Alaska that needs our help, I have to go. Plus things aren't going along well for me here. So there is really nothing stopping me from going with my family. Just like you, I have an obligation as well."

I couldn't look at him. I felt a millions daggers penetrate my heart at his words.

So there is really nothing stopping me from going…

His words didn't feel accurate to me. I had to search deeper. I stepped inside his mind. It seemed as if he was erasing everything of us, all I saw in his mind were the most dreadful words I've ever heard.

"I never loved you."

Are the words his used by his power to put inside my head.

I let him go and stared in his eyes, searching for anything else to make me think otherwise, but it all seemed true.

This time I didn't stop the tears from creating a massive puddle. I felt cold and alone, like no one was near me at all. I couldn't see anyone's face. All I could hear were voices. I was sure I was still standing because I didn't feel anything beneath me.

"Don't follow me. Don't search for me. I know you never loved me either, so it won't be hard for you to forget. I'm sorry for the pain I've caused. Goodbye Sophia Swan."

He turned to walk away, heading for his car. Bella sent a saddened smile my way then turned with Edward for Blake's car.

I let it all go. Let all the emotions pass through my body as it all came at an immense rate not stopping for any recognition of my body from faltering. I felt myself dropped to the ground, knees upon the concrete. I could hear footsteps coming in close to me.

I had to let it out.

I had to.

"BLAKE!" I screamed in the most horrific shriek in my life. "I hate you." I whispered loud enough for him to turn his head my way, sighed and then turned back around.

I need you. I love you. You can't leave. I need you. Blake.

Strong arms lifted me up from my position on the ground, it wasn't Jake's, it had to be Embry's, because Jake went over to confront Blake in the face. I wanted to plead with him to let it go and forget it but my strength was concentrating on battling with my mixed emotions running amuck. I needed some air supply; suddenly my breath caught my throat making it extremely hard to breathe or think.

I felt my lungs weaken with ever attempt of gaining my strength enough to continue. I felt heavy and dizzy, my mind in an in vertigo state. The blackouts began fading in and out; I could almost see nothing at all.

I lifted my hand to my face, feeling the severe amount of tears all over my face. I clinched my stomach as I felt it hurt again whenever I was in a profound sum of pain. It hurt so much I felt like I wanted to throw up. It hurt so much I felt I needed to scream but with no air in my lungs, that seemed utterly impossible. I tried wiggling around but Embry just held on to me tighter than before. I felt so cold and distant.

I could hear Quil's attempts of holding back Jacob who was threatening Blake.

"Don't' you ever come back bloodsucker; if you do you'll be coming in contact with more than my words." He stared down Blake so much, fire could be released from his eyes, " I knew you would hurt her. You all do."

"Don't worry; I don't plan on coming back."

"Good, you filthy leech. How could you do this? Can't you learn from your senseless parasite of a brother?"

Blake turned to Edward and then back to Jacob.

"She's all yours now, just the way you always wanted it." That pushed Jacob toward the edge and he advanced forward toward Blake.

"Jake come on. Sophie needs you." Quil beseeched Jacob to come to his senses. With that he turned away from Blake taking a look at both Edward and Bella staring malevolently at them.

"How could you let him do this to her?" He asked directly at Bella, who lowered her head in shame. Then he turned back to Blake.

"This is not over. You will pay for what you did." He told him, who didn't show any emotion at all. Next, I heard the sound of screeching tired down the road.

He really left.

He left me.

Blake is gone.

He came by Embry's side, and then cradled me in his arms. I let out a yelp of paining being released from my insides.

"J…J-Jake. I-I need he-lp." I couldn't feel anything else. The pain increased tenfold, I was on the brake of unraveling.

Suddenly the pain came to an end.

And everything thing seemed to fade away in a black oasis of nothing but the sinister things that were taking over my mind.


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