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Chapter 29- Nothing Left to Lose

"So who was your first- uh you know-"

I cut Sirius off with a grin. "Shag?"

He nods. "How do I not know this?" He says suddenly. "I know the most important things about you, like how you know and practice the dark arts. I know that you were a death eater in disguise for months. I know that you loved you Dad more than your Mum but you never thought of them as your parents, in fact you didn't even consider you had parents until you met Emily and Harry. I know that you produced you first stunning spell at the age of 8 which is incredible because most people are just starting to or have just started showing signs of magic at that age. I know your birthday, even though you hate that day more than anything in the world. How do I not know things like this?"

"You never asked." I said simply.

He looked at me intently, his eye brows furrowing. "I'm asking now."

I sighed and picked at my uniform skirt. I hadn't bothered to change after lesson. "Sirius."

"What?" He demands. His voice sounded worried.

"I don't know that it's such a good idea."

"Katarina-"
I interrupt him catching his gaze "Why do you want to know so badly?"

He shrugs. "I want to know everything about you."

I take a deep breath. "Remus."

He turned around quickly, expecting to see him behind us.

"No, Sirius I don't think you understand." I say quickly.

His head snaps back towards me. "You mean to tell me-"

I nod my head.

"Remus?" He asked again his face a mask.

I bite my lip. "Sirius if you-"

He stands up quickly, his back against the fire place. "I'm going to take-" He stops and shakes his head. He leans down and places his hand on my cheek, "Goodnight love." He kisses my forehead and then he walks upstairs.

I count to 10 in my head before getting up and following him to the boys dormitory with a sigh.

SIRIUS' POV

"Hey Remus." I state as I walk in the door.

He looked up from where he laid on his bed, reading. His eyes searched my face carefully for a moment before he sighed, Sat up and shut his book with an audible snap.

"She told you." He didn't ask.

I nodded my head.

He inches towards the end of his bed and places his feet on the ground. "It was in fourth year, I had just turned 15, Kat was still 14. We had snuck out to Hogsmeade. We had just found the one-eyed witch passage way remember?"

I nodded my head, of course I remembered. We had never been so excited to find an entrance to honey dukes cellar. It was placed on the map only 3 days later.

"We started drinking, heavily." I whipped my head around and saw that Katarina was leaning casually against the door frame. Her arms were crossed over her chest and her green eyes stared past me and looked to Remus.

"You guys snuck out to get drunk?" I asked looking between them.

They both snorted.

"You sneak out with James don't you?" Katarina says then.

I nod my head.

"Well it's no different, we're best mates. Of course we would sneak out together. Well we got really drunk and I don't even really remember how it came about but we started talking about it." Remus continues. "You and James had both just shagged a girl for the first time,we were wondering what it was like and I mean of course we were curious."

"I don't know who kissed who but suddenly we were snogging and we were stumbling out of the hogshead and we made to the shack and we just did it." Katarina stopped and looked at Remus a smile tugging at her lips.

I suddenly found that the tips of my ears were getting warm and I couldn't stand the way my chest clenched.

"And it was bloody terrible." Remus exclaimed, shocking me out of thought. "I mean really bad, the kissing wasn't terrible but we had no clue what we were doing and it just-we didn't fit right it was weird. We weren't even attracted to each other."

She smiled too, "No not really. And merlin did we laugh afterward. I knew right then and there that I absolutely did not like Remus more than a friend."

I swallowed. "You thought you did?"

She nodded and stepped closer to me. "Of course. I mean it's only natural I would think that. We hung out every day we were close as any two people could be. I wasn't sure if I liked him."

"And you?" I asked turning away from Kat and glancing at Remus.

"The same, obviously. We hung out all the time, but I knew then too. We were not destined to be anything more than bestfriends."

"But you didn't feel the way about anyone of your other friends-"
"James is my brother." She interrupts. "Of course I didn;t-"

I stop dead. "Regulus."

She gets quiet, almost a moment too long and she walks forward until she stood right in front of me, looking up into my eyes.

"Merlin Sirius, no." She said, placing her hand on my arm. "Never."

"So just Remus then."

"And you." Remus says quietly from behind me.

Katarina glares at him over my shoulder.

I smile then and before she can even protest I kiss her quickly on the mouth.

Her eyes widen in surprise as I step away from her and face Remus who grins widely.

"I knew you guys shagged!" He exclaims suddenly. "Excellent mate."

I swear a growl comes from Kat's throat.

"Let's not push it Remus, it was just a one off thing."

"What was?"

I whipped my head around to see James and Peter. It was James who spoke.

"Sirius and Kat shagged." Remus announces.

Kat groans loudly. Peter yells "I knew it!" And James just stared. He looked between the two of us at least 10 different times and then finally shrugs his shoulders.

"That's it?" I couldn't help but ask.

"I mean sure, it was bound to happen." He took a seat on his bed and Katarina hurriedly joined him leaning close against his side.

He pulled her back then and started running his fingers in her hair as he beings to braid it.

"So you know about Remus now too?" James says conversationally.

"You knew?" I demanded.

"Mate, everyone knew." Peter said.

"Even Pete knew!" I yelled.

"You never asked." Kat repeated her earlier statement.

"More like you never actually wanted to know. James corrects her. "You didn't want to know, not really. So we never told you."

"Still didn't really want to know." I mumble under my breath.

Remus heard me though a chuckled.

"Well after that horrible experience. Remus and I went out and found someone else to shag. I found-"

"Michael Lewis." Remus cuts her off.

"And Remus found, Greta. And then we put our heads together and compared and turns out shagging with so much better when it wasn't with each other!"

I groan loudly and James snorts.

"Then you went on to find Diggory-"

I cut off Remus. "You didn't!" I say rounding on Kat. "You weren't another one of his girls, please tell me that's a lie, I thought you would be better than that!"

"Are you blind Sirius he's so bloody fit. I am definitely not above that! Well technically speaking I was above that if you know what I mean-"

"Peter and Remus burst out laughing, James chuckles and shakes his head as he continues to tie a hair tie around the end of her braid.

"Kat-"

"And then of course Tom came next and I've been with him ever since, probably over a year worth of shagging until-" She stops suddenly unable to say it out loud.

"Me." I fill in for her.

"What are all these scratches from?" James demands, his view of her back now clear that her hair was pulled back.

Her green eyes shoot up and meet mine.

"She definitely wasn't on top that time, if you know what I mean!"

All the boys stop dead and then crack up loudly, James wiped a tear from his eye and pushed Katarina forward.

She glared and stood up. "This is no longer funny." And then she starts walking to the door.

"Aw don't be mad love!" I call after her. "Next time maybe I'll let you be on top!"

She turns around grins wickedly. "You promise?"

The boys stop laughing and suddenly look a little grossed out.

"I'm right behind you." I said waving my hand in her direction. She turns and walks out.

"See you gents later!" I say ignoring the raised eye brow from James, his face slightly more disgusted than it was a minute ago.

I see her leaning against the wall when I stepped out.

"So much for the mates not knowing." She says stepping closer to me.

"So much for it being a one time thing." I say back and gripped her arms in my hand.

"Oh sod it." She whips her hand forward,grabbing me by the tie and crashing my lips to hers.

XX

Katarina's POV

"Aren't you a little to old to be sleeping in your brother's bed?" Sirius' teases a little later that night after we got back from our trip to the one eyed witch.

"No she's not." James said suddenly, grabbing on my hand and tugging me closer to his bed. "Sod off Sirius."

"Aw Jamsie getting all protective of his sister." Remus said with a grin.

James picked up a pillow and threw it at Remus. it hit him square in the face.

"Hey!" I yell in protest. "I was going to use that pillow!"

James rolls his eyes with a wave of his wand and exact duplicate of his pillow pops up next to his.

I grin and lay down.

Then a loud snore fills the room.

"Peter!" Sirius shots from his bed.

"Silencio!" Remus yells.

Peter gets cut of mid snore.

I find my eye drooping and then-

I was sleeping, I don't know how long but I knew I was sleeping. And yet I could hear screaming. All different voices, different tones. I couldn't open my eyes. I heard a deep voice scream my name.

Hands were on my shoulders, they were shaking me.

Was it me screaming?

"Katarina! Katarina!" The pain in the voice had me shooting up and my eyes snapped open. And I woke up to a night mare.

Sirius was on the floor by my bedside covered head to toe in blood, it was seeping out of his body where tiny lacerations formed on his skin. There was already so much blood pooled around him. He was screaming my name again and again.

I throw the hands off my shoulders, Remus' I noted and dropped to the floor next to him.

"Fix him!" James screams behind me.

My hands shook as I reached out to him.

"I don't know how." I admitted. I grabbed for Sirius pulling him into my lap, my robes becoming soaked with his blood.

"You did this!" James yells. "How can you not know how to fix it?"

My eyes shot up to his face.

"I would never I-"

"You were having a night mare and Sirius tried to wake you and it must have- it must have scared you and you pointed your wand at him and-" James couldn't go on.

Remus dropped down beside me. "Kat focus."

I looked down into Sirius' eyes. They stared back up at me, beautifully gray. He was in so much pain.

"Severus." I said suddenly. "I- I can't fix this but Severus can."

I placed Sirius' head slowly back on the ground. I learned forward and kissed him on the mouth.

"I'll fix you love, I won't let you die." I stand up suddenly.

"Accio James' mirror." The two way mirror flies into my hands and start sprinting out the door.

"Wait Katarina- the cloak!" I ignore Peter's screaming and sprint down the stairs and out of the common room.

I am running so fast, I don't think I have ever ran that fast in my life. I could hear the blood falling off my robes and splattering on the floor.

Sirius' blood.

My mind was blank. I just had to get to him. I needed him and if he didn't help me, I would kill him.

"Mudblood." I spat the wall, the opening to the Slytherin common room.

When it swung up, I was grateful in that moment that no one seemed to be in there. I wasn't in the right mind for a duel. I started walking up the staircase looking for the seventh years dorm.

When I found it I slipped in quietly. I pointed my wand at each of the hangings, muttering the silencing charm. I walked to the one in the corner, I could see his school bag just to the side of it and flung open the curtains.

He was up in a flash, his wand pointed at my neck.

"Katarina?" He was shocked enough to say my first name.

"I need your-" I couldn't say it, my voice cracked.

His wand lit up the room and I watched as his eyes narrowed on my robes.

"It's Sirius'- I cursed him in my sleep. You have to help me. He's dying!"

"Shh!" He says pointing his wand away from us a mumbling a spell. "Why should I help you?"

"It's your spell-sectumsempra. I'm sure of it! I don't know the counter curse and there is so much blood-"

"How do you know its mine?" He raises and eye brow.

Before I can think about the consequences I rip the sleeve up of my left arm and the dark mark shines in the light from his wand.

He grippes my arm tightly and brings it closer to him. His eyes snap up to my face.

"What have you done." He says this calmly but I could see the rage in his eyes.

"I was a spy, I stole someone's identity. Does it matter?" I point my wand at his neck. "I know its your spell and I also know that I have nothing to lose if I lose him, if you don;t help me I'll kill you here and now." I growl out. "Choosse wisely."

He signs deeply and drop my arm from his hands. He looks up at me and then finally nods his head. "Let's go."